Rose and Alice sat on either side of me. Each held a hand…I guess they were trying to comfort me. I didn't want to hold their hands. I wanted to hold Edward's. Just thinking about him made fresh tears fall down my face. If someone asked me what I was really feeling…I don't think I would've been able to answer them…I was mad at Edward for not remembering to use a condom…but on the other hand I was mad at myself for being stupid and not making sure we were safe…but really he should of known better….yet, so should've I…but then again…he shouldn't have accused me of cheating on him…but…I shouldn't have just left him and run to Jake…but then….he should have known that I would never ever cheat on him….But then…
I just kept going and going. I honestly wished that none of this ever happened. I loved Edward too much…I still do…When Edward first told that he loved me it was the most wonderful feeling ever! I was elated. He was so sweet about everything…the whole Meadow and how he decorated it…the candles…the rose petals…the music! I loved everything about it. Sometimes…actually a lot of times when I couldn't sleep I would always put the CD in, the one that Edward burned for me when he told me he loved me, and listen to the songs. I loved how every song on the CD had so much meaning…it was as if every word was true…If only….
I whimpered sadly. Both Alice and Rose turned their heads to look at me. Alice wrapped her tinny arms around my shoulder and pulled me in for a hug. This had been going on for a while now. Every time I made a noise they would embrace me. They meant well but I wish that they would've yelled at me. I wished that someone had yelled at me…What I did was totally stupid….this was as much of my fault as it was Edward's…if not more…Yeah actually this was all of my fault. Everything.
Granted he said things that hurt me but I what I did…I shouldn't have bailed on him… I pulled away from her. The motion made my stomach quiver. Suddenly realizing that eating two whole pints of 'Double Chocolate ripple fudge Chunky chocolaty chip' ice cream wasn't the best idea. I made a face.
"What's wrong Bella?" Rose asked looking at me with concern.
I wanted to say 'everything' but instead opted for, "Nothing…I just think that I ate too much ice cream."
Rose giggled. "Sorry babe but," She said seriously "Ice cream helps."
I nodded not looking at her. I don't think anything could help…
EPOV
After all of that moping around the house I decided to take matters in my own hands. I got off my lazy ass and drove to Bella's. I am so fucked right now it's not even funny. A girl has never made me feel this way before. Never. I sped down the streets to her house. I fucking loved that girl. I honestly loved her. And I mean who cares if she's pregnant? Does it really matter? I mean that one chick on that one TV show was pregnant. She made it through. She's in school, she has a job…she's even excelling in all her fucking classes! I don't get why Bella has to make a huge deal about this shit. I had the most amazing sex in my life….granted it was the only sex I had had in my life but still. And it wasn't like she didn't enjoy it. Damn, I knew she enjoyed it. I just need to go to Bella and apologize to her. That's all. I'd apologize for being a dick and accusing her of all that crap. I was way out of line when I said that she cheated on me. It was just so frikin' random.
I pulled into Bella's driveway. I stalled before cutting off the engine. I missed her. I wanted her back. I wanted to kiss her and hold her again. Even though it's only been a few hours since we blew up at each other it feels like a lifetime. I hate it. I love being with her. Seeing her smile, hearing her laugh, just plain holding her in my arms makes me happy. I slowly got out of my car and hesitantly rang the doorbell.
"Well that was fast," I heard her sweet voice from the other side of the door.
Was she expecting me? As soon as she opened the door she slammed it at my face. Bitch! Being the pissed fuck that I am, I barged inside her house.
"Bella we need to talk." I said softly, trying to soften her up.
She ignored me. Damn.
I walked and stood in front of her, making sure to stay a good distance away from her. "We need to talk." I repeated with authority.
Still, the love of my life ignored me and stared at the wood floor. I sighed softly. This isn't going well.
I hesitantly took a step closer. "Bella…look at me?" I said in a low voice.
I heard my Bella take a deep breath. Even though I couldn't see her face properly I knew she was trying hard not to cry, that made my heart sink. I hated knowing that I was the one making her cry. Me. Her fucking boyfriend.
She finally looked at me. Her eyes were swollen and red, her cheeks splotchy. She looked so vulnerable and hurt. I did this to her. I cause her pain. Without thinking I tried to touch her arm. She stepped away. Hurt crossed my features. She hated me.
Bella clenched and unclenched her teeth. Taking a deep breath she spoke, "Edward, I'm sorry…but this isn't working out…we're not working out—"
What the FUCK? "Bella are you breaking up with me?" I asked shocked. Clearly I misunderstood her. She can't possibly break up with me. Can she?
"—and I don't think it ever will." Bella continued, ignoring me. "Edward, I think we should break up." She finished. Then she did something that was totally unexpected. Bella looked down at her hand and pulled off the promise ring. No! No she didn't!
"You've got to be joking!" I exclaimed with a humorless laugh. She didn't reply. She didn't even look at me. "But Bella….I love you!" I exclaimed.
"Edward, I have company coming soon…please go." I said softly.
"But Bella…" I whispered. She looked up at me then looked away. I felt moisture in my eyes. The fuck? "Here," she mumbled, holding the ring out in my palm. Tears were falling down her face beautiful face.
"Bella…no" I said softly. "You can't…look I'm really so—" She cut me off
"Edward, please!" Bella begged, a small sob rippling through her.
I looked at her outstretched hand, and then looked back up at Bella. She's not serious! But no. One look at her torn face and she was serious. Dead serious. Slowly, I placed my hand in her palm and slowly took the ring from her hand and examined it. A tear slipped down my cheek. Without a word I walked out of her house. Maybe forever…
"She made me cry! I haven't cried since I was in 5th grade! She made me CRY!" I exclaimed, throwing my hands up in the air. I began pacing.
"Edward, you're gonna put a whole through the floor. Sit your ass down!" Emmett grumbled.
Dick! I glared at him.
"Emmett shut up," I smiled at Jasper. "Edward, just give her some time. She was obviously scared and plus it didn't really help when you went all accusatory on her."
"Fuck you Jasper." I said to Jasper angrily, who just huffed in annoyance.
"Edward look, from my point of view, you two are both being idiotical." Emmett quipped.
I rolled my eyes. "Yeah, you would know if we were being idiotical or not." I shot back angrily.
"Man! I know you girlfriend dumped you sorry little ass but don't fucking take out your shit on us!" Emmett said angrily.
"Emmett calm down. Edward he's right." Jasper said.
Why was it him that was always the most mature?
I sighed. "Ugh! I'm…I…sorry." I apologized sadly slumping onto my bed.
"It's alright. Just try not to be too PMS-y from now on." Jasper slapped Emmett's head.
"Way to be sensitive you prick!" Jasper exclaimed shooting me an apologetic look.
I half smiled and rolled my eyes at my two best friends. A while later they left. I fell to my bed face first. The sheets still smelled like my Bella. I noticed her clothes scattered around my room. I can't believe that we broke up. I pulled out her—the ring from my pocket, without looking at it I tossed it on my nightstand.
I let out a frustrated scream. This sucks balls.
"Goooooood morning Washington! It's 6:15 on this B-E-A-utiful Monday morning. It's Bernie D here with the hottest musi—" I groaned slamming my hand down on my snooze button.
I rolled over to my side groaning. Rubbing my eyes I got my lazy ass off the warm bed and slugged towards my bathroom. I was so tired. I hadn't slept at all last night, tossing and turning, just thinking about Bella and how much I was pissed at her. Why did she have to break up with me? The only reason she's being so irrational is because she's fucking scared. I told her to not worry about being pregnant. And really…what are the chances of her really being pregnant? I highly doubt every single couple that has ever had unprotected sex has babies. Really? Let's be reasonable. Bella is just being immature about the whole situation.
I sighed angrily I stepped out of the shower and began to dry off. When I was dressed I stomped down the stairs. My mother was in the kitchen making breakfast. "Good morning sweetie."
I attempted to smile. "When did you guys come home?" I asked dully.
"Late last night. Can you believe it? Our flight was late 4 whole hours!" Esme exclaimed.
I attempted to show sympathy but failed miserably. I sighed. "Edward?" Esme came rushing to my side. "Are you all right?" She asked feeling my forehead. "Are you sick? You don't seem sick…" she trailed off.
"I'm fine! God! I'm gonna go now. Don't want to be late." I yelled in annoyance.
Esme looked at me with a hurt expression. I suddenly felt bad for blowing up at my mother.
I apologized and kissed her on the cheek. "I'll be home in time for dinner." I called out heading out the door and to my car.
To say I was dreading school was probably the understatement of the century. I was far more than just dreading it. As I walked down the halls to my locker I felt strange. In the two plus months that Bella and I had been dating, I barley ever walked the halls alone. I was always with Bella. Why did she have to be so immature?
When I reached my locker I began exchanging my books for the ones I needed. For some reason I was fuming. Why did she have to mess everything we had, up? We were so good together! Why is she fucking running away from me!? From her—our problems? I angrily slammed my locker shut, earning a few glares from the teachers.
"Edward Anthony Mason Cullen!You fucking son of a BITCH! What the hell is wrong with you?" Alice hissed from behind me.
I angrily turned around to a livid Alice. "What!?" I seethed.
"How dare you!?" She yelled at me.
"Alice, I don't fucking need this. Go piss someone else off."
"Fuck. You. CULLEN! She's my best friend! You broke her heart! How could you be so fucking heartless?"
"Me? I broke her heart? Ha! I'm not the one who dumped her!" I laughed humorously.
"Shut up! Stop being a jackass! Get off your high horse and Make. Things. BETTER!" Alice said through clenched teeth.
I rolled my eyes. "It's not my fucking fault that she's so damn immature!" I said fuming.
"Oh so I'm immature now? Really, Edward, really?" I froze. Damn! She wasn't supposed to hear that! Edward you are a DICK!
I slowly turned around to see Bella standing there looking absolutely enraged. Before I could fix up my word vomit Bella spoke. "You know Edward you suck! You really do. And I fucking hate you so stay the fuck away from me and don't you ever talk to me again. You son of a bitch!" With that she stormed away. The fuck!? Where did that come from? Since when did she talk like that?
Without thinking about what I was doing I chased after her. "Bella!" I called out irritated. She ignored me. No, Hell to the fuck no!
Catching up with her I dragged her to a nearby supply room. Despite her protests and her trying to break away from my grip—which was rather painful I might add—I ignored them and pulled her in with me, closing the door.
"What the hell is wrong with you!?" She yelled at me heatedly. I ignored her and pulled on the string to turn on the light. She tried to get out but I stood in front of the door blocking her access. She glared at me. "Let me out!" she screamed. I clasped a hand on her mouth. She let out a muffled scream.
"We're gonna get caught." I warned annoyed. Bella said something but I could understand her. Ignoring her protests all together, I pushed her up against a wall, making sure to not hurt her. Bella glared at me.
"Don't fucking talk to me like that." I said through clenched teeth. "I get you're all scared and shit but don't ever talk to me like that! Understand?" I asked her, enraged at what she said to me. I removed my hand from her mouth.
"I can talk to you how ever the hell I want. You can't tell me what to do." She spat.
Bella tried pushing me off but I just pressed body up against her. I heard her gasp and her breathing hitch. I couldn't help but feel satisfied with her reaction.
Her eyes turned to slits. She swung back her arm and was about to slap me but I caught it. "Don't," I whispered looking dead into her eyes. I could see her facial expression softening ever so slightly. I grabbed both of her hands and slowly brought them over her head. She didn't fight me.
I held her hands over her head and leaned in to her a bit more. "I'm an ass." I whispered into her neck. Bella let out a small whimper. "An ass that loves you." I added sliding my lips down her neck to her chest. "Too much." I mumbled against her soft skin and placing a kiss there.
Bella let out a soft moan. "Stop…" she whispered half heartedly.
I slid my lips up her neck and stopped at her jaw bone. "I hate seeing you sad." I whispered. "I hate being away from you." I kissed her jaw. Moving up to her cheek I whispered, "I hate getting you angry, no matter how hot you look." I felt her smile. Yes it's working! "I hate seeing you cry." I kissed her cheek. Sliding my lips to her full ones I whispered against them, "I love you, Bella." I placed a chaste kiss on her lips, pulling my face away from hers immediately. Knowing she would have my balls if I didn't.
Bella slowly opened her eyes. She looked absolutely beautiful, even in the dim light of the supply room. Her eyes looked up at me tenderly. I released her hands and slowly brought them down to my chest. Suddenly her expression changed.
"You bi-polar prick! Get away from me!" She was livid. Well damn! That didn't work. I didn't listen to her; instead I just pushed myself harder up against her.
"Edward—"
"MR. CULLEN! GET OFF OF MS. SAWN THIS INSTANT!" Well FUCK!
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