Enemy Within: First Time
The walls come crashing down

Note: I do not own Power Rangers Jungle Fury or its characters. I'm just playing with them. Also I do not support underage sex either.
Prompt: First Time Sex (bigthingsinlife prompts)
Genre: Romance/Drama/Angst
Rating: M (Minor language, nudity, sexual situations and probably descriptions)

Take note: This is an "adult" themed chapter that is only avaible here. If you are reading from PRU please review here too.
You have been warned.

A few days have past since I told Kiran the truth about my feelings. I just didn't foresee this happening so fast. We're lying naked, entwined in my bed as a storm rages outside. She's dozing at my side, clinging to me and I will not let go. Until she guided me through it, the only thinks I knew about sex was what it was for-procreation and in the Pai Zhuq's case, bonding. I don't want to know how she knew so much about it but I am thankful at least one of us knew. I was scared, so was she, not because sex was involved. It was my first time for everything. She was scared because of the memories that consumed her. I felt that I was just another person added to the long list of abusers. When she would wake I would find out.

A loud crash of thunder breaks through the sound of the pouring rain, waking Kiran instantly. Her body jerks and I rub her back as she calms down. Her fear was from the storm, not me, I could feel that much. She sighs and lays back on my chest, one hand sliding down my body to capture me in her hand. As she gently begins to stroke me, I moan softly. God, she's good with her hands, and I thrust into her small hand as she speeds up her movements. I lean down to kiss her, needing to feel her lips on mine as she strokes my now awakened manhood. The Lion awakens now, he's satisfied from earlier. Mainly because he took control and began to dominate, he controlled my movements. He will not win this time. He took away my first time, he won't interfere again. He took his mate, he marked her and now I would be able to be with her.

I was scared for Kiran I that moment. I didn't know what he would do, but since I met Kiran he's wanted to be her dominant. After she initiated things, just like she is now, we let our walls down. Between us the power in the room was nearly suffocating. The animals drove us to try to overpower one another, the Lion of course won. He was able to pin her down and enter her with one, hard thrust. I wanted to stop and slow down but my body betrayed me. As I trust hard within her, I wiped the tears from her eyes. Her eyes are momentarily filled with fear, but her body wasn't. Oh God, I'm a monster… I saw her lips move but my heartbeat and the blood rushing through my veins was too loud to hear over. She threw her head back and screamed as I fucked her harder than I wanted to. I hate this, he's the monster, I struggle to gain control, but I can't. I hurt her and there's nothing I can do to stop it. The Lion roaring in victory within me, and I was terrified now. I didn't want my first time to be like this. I wanted something to treasure, to remember as gentle and passionate. I leaned down and kisses her, realizing the tears on her face were not just hers, but my own. My hands held her shoulders in place, and she in turned clutched at my hips leaving bloody gouges. As my climax approached, I sped up, Kiran meeting me trust for trust. The next thing I knew I was coming, a roar ripped from my throat before I could stop it. I felt her body jerk and I heard her pant my name. My arms give out and I stop to rest, gently lowering my body to her chest. That's when I heard her, and she nearly killed me with those words.

"Don't stop. Please don't stop." And I didn't, she asked and I obeyed, the Lion happy to have her below us, begging. Relief rushes through me, the burden of thinking that I was hurting her, becoming one of the many abusers lifted.

Now she was starting again and straddled me, she was in control now. I was too tired to roll her under me. I was happier with her on top, I wanted her to have some control over this situation. To give her something she's never experienced before, domination by her own hand. She entrusted me earlier and now I am showing her my trust. Whatever notion she has had of those terms, I wanted erase, for me I don't want it to be pure control but about trust. I wanted her to trust I wouldn't hurt her. I would never hurt her.

"I love you Kiran," I tell her as she begins to slide me into her, lowering herself inch by inch. She doesn't respond but leans down and kisses me instead. I don't mind, I would prefer to hear her say she loves me, to know its something more than physical but if this is all the love I can have, I'll take it. She seems so unsure as she mounts me and sits there, staring down. I take her hands in mine and hold them tight. I roll my hips up, snapping her back to attention. "Go on love…" I encourage her, but I did not expect her to fuck me as hard. Her eyes are vacant as she did, the only thing that let me know that she's not all within her head. I'm torn, I'm enjoying it but she's dominating me but I can't help but feel so conflicted. Her hands break my grip, seize my wrists, hard. She's holding hard, and fucking even harder. Her eyes are no longer vacant but slowly filling with anger. I break her grip but she seems more upset and seeks to grab me again. When she can't, she scratches me, it hurts but its not deep. I don't want her like this, the force she's using grows harder with each thrust, I'm more worried about her being hurt then the discomfort its bringing me. The lion creeps up and tells me just to lay back and enjoy it, to stop questioning the act and to just enjoy the pleasure. Figuring he's right for once, I obey, silently wondering if this all she thinks sex means. I capture her hands again and hold them tight.

"Jarrod," she says, her voice is so small and breaking as she continues to ride me. I open my eyes, to find her staring down at me. She's back, she breaks out of her trance and looks at me. My hands leave her and snake up her body to touch her face.

"What?" I ask, I'm afraid now. Afraid she'll tell me this is wrong, I'm afraid she's hurting herself, I'm afraid she'll leave me. I sit up and lean in close to her, she holds me to her body and I feel her trembling.

"I love you too," she says, her voice barely a whisper, there are tears streaking her face and she's so scared. I can feel it radiating off of her. Hearing her utter those words pushes me over the edge and I come. She comes shortly after me and does something she's not done this night since we began. She smiles, her fear dies as I hold her tight and softly kiss her skin. I lay us down, feeling complete with her on top of me. My chest feels tight and I'm no longer in a war inside, everything has calmed. I finally feel loved for the first time in my life and I break down and cry. She dabs away my tears, and I know she understands why I'm so moved. She cries too, not because she's loved but what she's done. She basically just attacked me, she knows what its like to be an attacker. But instead of fighting her like I could have done, I let her. I let her release what's been building within her through all theses years. Wordlessly, we both realize that this is something good, this is what has been lacking in our lives. For me, she filled the void left from never experiencing love. I hope, for her, I gave her someone she could count on. Someone who would never take advantage of her kindness or her body. Most of all I wanted her happy. "I love you Muffin," she whispers, her body isn't trembling and her voice is strong.

"I love you too," I tell her. She continues to smile and her eyes flutter close. She's sleeping and I'm about to crash. For the first time, I'm truly happy; I never wanted this feeling to go away. Later we made love, there was not savageness, and there was no violence, just us. She smiled then and told me she loved me again. I'd never get sick of hearing those words or telling her the same.