All right so I didn't get as many reviews on the last chapter as I hoped I would cause I worked my butt off on it, but oh well. After tonight, I probably wont be able to update until the weekend or maybe Friday cause of school starting up. Anyway, I had some free time, so I wrote chapter 8. Stephanie Meyers owns everything Twilight of course. Enjoy :D

Previously in Chapter 7

"Sure Bella, I would love to." He made his way over to my bed. He sat down took his shoes off. Then he crawled onto the bed and lay on his back above the covers while I lay on my side under them. He looked down at me and smiled brightly. He extended his arm and curled me in to lie on his chest like we did earlier.

"Goodnight, Bella", he whispered. I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep.

FLASHFORWARD

Right now I'm sitting on the couch in the living room with Edward, Alice and Jasper watching Deal or No Deal. I was sitting next to Edward, laying my head on his shoulder.

"TAKE THE DEAL GOD DAMNIT! Alice, Alice please tell me she takes the deal. I swear, if she doesn't take this deal-"

"JASPER!" Edward yelled and cut Jasper off. "Please stop it! Your sending everyone very stressful emotions and its very uncomfortable. So for the love of god PLEASE just calm down!" Jasper took a deep unneeded breath and relaxed and waited to see what the verdict was.

"NO DEAL!" The lady on the TV screamed and shut the box.

"SON OF A BITCH! IDIOT! You greedy bastard! I hope you lose the highest amount now! I hope you lose, you dont deserve to win it! You know how many people would kill to have that much money that you just gave up...." Jasper went on and on and yelled and yelled at the women on the TV screen. I looked over to Alice who started yelling with Jasper. I looked up at Edward who looked like he was about to join in. Jasper's emotions were really getting to the two of them. I didn't really feel any of it, so I just sat there laughing at all three of them. God this family is great, I thought.

I've been living at the Cullen's residents for two weeks now. It's been nothing but a great time so far. After about a week of living there, Benjamin left but said he would come back and visit within the next couple months. I haven't spoke to or heard from Sarah ever since that fight we had a few nights ago and I was glad. I don't want to think about what she has to say and, quiet frankly, I don't really care.. I just want to concentrate on my new life and my new family.

I've really connected with everyone in the house. Esme loves to decorate, so I put her in charge decorating my room. The two of us spent the first weekend together painting my room. Alice was right, the purple looked good on the walls. And the chandelier she told me about in her vision was amazing. Esme and I really bonded during that experience. It's so nice to have an actual mother figure, other then whatever Sarah was to me, around.

I also got to know Jasper a little bit better. The two of us never really had talked much since my arrival. One day we just sat around talking for hours about history. Jasper was a huge history buff, as was I. I thought I had seen a lot of crazy things in my time, but nothing compares to some of the things Jasper had seen. He told me about fighting in the war and growing up in the south. It was all very interesting to me.

Alice, Rosalie, and I have become a really close bunch. The three of us usually spent our nights sitting on the couch together watching TMZ and gossiping about, pretty much, everything. I've never really had a chance to be a girl until I came here. Sarah was just as much of a tomboy as I was. Both Alice and Rosalie brought out the girl within me. I loved it.

And then theirs Emmett. Every chance he had alone with me he would challenge me to a new video game. During the second week of living with them, I finally went out and bought guitar hero and gave it to him and he flipped out of course. For being a vampire and having some of the best hand and eye coordination in the world, he was awful at it. We spent one entire day just playing. Everyone else in the house took turns playing as well. Even Carlisle and Esme gave it a shot. Out of everyone, besides myself, Jasper had the guitar hero gene in him. He was ridiculous.

My father and I have become very close. We spent every night, before I went to bed, in his office just talking. Talking about the world, how our day was, the past, my mother…everything. I don't know how I lived my entire life without ever knowing this man. He was the most interesting person I had ever met in my lifetime and he was my father. My ACTUAL father. I'm still trying to get over the shock of it all.

And then of course there was Edward. In the two weeks that I have been living here, I am now completely head over heals for this man. It wasn't just that he was good looking because, yeah, he was very good looking. I don't even think there is a word in the dictionary that will describe just how good-looking Edward really is. But there was more to him that really made me fall for him, and that was, well, him. He is just a sweet a kind person. He loves talking about music every chance he gets. We sat for hours one night, going through both our CD collections and listening to music. He has also played me some of his compositions on his piano. He also has this obsession with cars. I could care less about cars really, but just sitting there and watching him just talk and talk about cars was a site to see. He would get really animated and really excited and that was the side of Edward that I loved to see. I don't want him to think of himself as a monster anymore and, so far, I think I am doing a pretty good job. We had gotten into a routine every night when it was time for me to head to bed. I would crawl under the sheets while Edward would crawl and lay on top of them. He would curl his arm around me and I would lay my head on his chest and drift to sleep. I wanted to be with Edward more then anything. Rosalie was right. Screw what Sarah says, Edward doesn't want her. And he hasn't pushed me away yet, so I'm going for it.

I sat there for a moment trying to process what I had been through in the past couple of weeks, until I started to feel it. That ache, that….burn in my throat. I held my hand to my throat and winced a little.

"Crap", I mumbled under my breath. Edward looked down at me.

"Bella? What is it? What's wrong?" Edward asked concerned.

"Remember when I told you how I knew when I needed to hunt?" He nodded. "Well that time is right now. My throat is killing me." The burning was getting worse. I really needed to get out of there. I got up from the couch and started heading for the door.

"Wait", Edward yelled from behind me, "let me come with you. You might get….lost or something." I rolled my eyes. Of course I knew I wasn't going to get lost. But he wanted to come with me, so I couldn't deny him.

"Sure Edward, lets go", I said back to him. He got up and walked over to me.

"Why don't you follow me. I'll show you where all the good spots are", he said winking at me. I smiled and followed him out the door and into the forest. Edward was a very fast runner, I could barely keep up with him. It was also harder because I wasn't as fast as the average vampire. Edward would stop here and there and wait for me to catch up and then he would start running again. After a few minutes, we finally reached our destination where a herd of dear were gathered, drinking from the lake. I crouched down and then took off running toward one of them. It wasn't hard at all to take him down. I snapped his neck and started drinking. After I was done, I threw his carcass to the side and took off after another one. After about four deer, I felt the burn in my throat subside and I stopped. I looked back at Edward who was standing there smiling at me. I couldn't help but smile back at him.

"You finished Bella?" He asked, walking towards me. I nodded back at him. "Good, because I really want to show you something. Something sort of…personal to me." He stopped walking and stood about a foot in front of me.

"Sure Edward, what did you want to show me?"

"It's a surprise. Why don't you hop on my back, we'll get there faster."

"Oh so your saying I'm slow?" He chuckled and shook his head.

"No love your not slow. I'm just faster." Love. He called me love. I felt like doing a back flip, but I kept my cool.

"Alright Edward. But please, don't run into anything."

"I've never run into anything while running before", he said laughing.

"Ok, good." I hopped on his back and he started running. It took us about 5 minutes to reach our destination. It was meadow. It wasn't very big, but it wasn't very small. It was just perfect. I got off of Edward's back and walked forward a little, gawking at the view. I turned around to look at Edward who was watching me. I looked back to the meadow and looked around a bit more.

"Beautiful isn't it?" Edward asked. I looked back to him and nodded. "I found this place while I was hunting a while ago. It's a place I come to, to clear my head and think."

"Its nice Edward. I love it." He smiled at me and started walking towards me to the center of the meadow. He sat down, Indian style, and motioned for me to come sit next to him. I walked over towards him and sat down. I looked at him for a moment and then I looked up to the night sky where the full moon was shining as brightly as ever.

"Wow", I said, still looking up, "look at the moon. I've never seen it so bright before. Its beautiful." I thought that maybe Edward would stop looking at me and look up to the moon and stare at it with me. But he didn't. His eyes were on me. I tore my gaze away from the moon and looked back at him. His eyes were melting into mine. The moon glowed on his skin, which made him look more like the angel I thought he was. I stared back at him.

"What are you thinking?" He asked.

"I'm thinking…I'm thinking about how I have lived 200 years without ever having you in my life", I answered back, truthfully. This was it. Both of our feeling were going to be exposed tonight I just knew it. I was trying very hard to hold back my nervousness and was doing a good job so far. He was still looking at me and I saw a small smile creep up on his face. He took his hand and started to stroke my cheek. I closed my eyes and relaxed my cheek onto his hand.

"I was thinking the exact same thing", he said back to me. I opened my eyes to find his mouth inches away from mine. I wanted to reach out and attack it with my own, but I had to know something else first.

"Edward", I breathed out.

"Yes, love?" Love. There it was again.

"I need to ask you something. I talked to my father about you…about your past life. He told me about…what you think about yourself. About the things that you did. How…why would you ever think those things Edward? How could you?" He dropped his hand from my cheek and looked down closing his eyes.

"Bella", he began, "I am a monster Bella. You've spent your entire life, since the moment you were born, never really having to worry about killing another human. To just…take away their life from them-"

"Edward those people got what they deserved", I interrupted him. He shook his head.

"Still Bella, I just took their life away…forever. I am a monster. All I wanted was human blood. That's all I-"

"Edward you were a newborn its only natural-"

"No Bella", he interrupted me back, "newborn or not I still always crave the blood of a human. I will always have that craving. For the rest of time that's all I'm ever going to want, even if I'm living off the blood of animals. Till this very day I regret the decisions I made back then. Only a monster could come to their senses to just kill another person. That is a monster Bella. You don't realize how lucky you are. You truly don't. I would give anything to have your life, to be half-human. To be.... half-alive. I would give anything to just curl up in a ball and sleep away all this pain, all this…misery. I have no soul. I have no purpose Bella. I'm just a killer." I just sat there staring at him. He still had his eyes closed, looking down. Then he started dry sobbing. "Wow", he laughed without a trace of humor, "I haven't cried like this in nearly 30 years." My Edward was crying. I hated seeing him like this.

"Edward", I said, cupping my hand under his chin trying to get him to look at him, "Edward please look at me." He lifted his head and looked back at me. All I could see was sadness filling his eyes.

"Edward", I began, still holding his chin in my hand, "you are no monster. This is what you are Edward and you just have to come to terms and accept it. Those people you killed, had what they got coming to them. They didn't deserve to live. You've changed yourself for the better. And…look at you! Look at you sitting here with me. Edward, I've loved spending these past couple weeks with you. You are a very kind and caring person. Its as if everyone else in the world matters, except for yourself. You do matter and don't think otherwise. A monster wouldn't sit and listen to music with me. A monster wouldn't care a thing in the world about my own issues. A monster wouldn't tuck me in at night and lay with me and hold me all night while I sleep. That is no monster Edward. That is called having a soul. You may think you have no soul, but I know you do. Its in there somewhere. And I am going to do whatever it takes to make you realize that it is." I finished, still holding his chin, staring at him. He stared back. I saw a million different emotions run across his face. I removed my hand from his chin and took his hand in mine. "Edward, I care about you a lot. I really don't like you thinking these things about yourself. Please…please don't think them anymore." I started to feel tears coming. It made me so sad to see him like this.

"Bella", he finally spoke up, "I…I cant even begin to tell you how much what you said means to me. I cant tell you how…how happy it makes me feel to know how much you care about me. I cant tell you that after tonight I'm just going to forget it all and change how I feel about myself, but this is a start. I know that you can help me and I want you to. I…I know its only been a couple weeks but I just need to get this out. Bella.... I....I love you." I stared at him in shock. He loved me. Edward freaking loved me. He leaned forward and took both his hands to my face and brought it closer to his. "God Bella, I love you so much", he whispered. And with that he crushed his lips onto mine. I kissed him back with as much passion I could show him. Still kissing me, he pushed me on my back towards the ground and hovered on top of me. After a few minutes of our full-blown make-out session, he pecked my lips lightly a couple times and pulled away to look at me. He smiled that breathtaking crooked smile at me and stroked my cheek lightly. I closed my eyes for a moment and opened them to stare back at him.

"I love you to Edward. With everything I have, I love you." I had never knew this kind of happiness existed. I was in love. And not just in love with anyone, but in love with Edward. And he loved me back. He smiled even wider at me and kissed my forehead.

"You must be exhausted", he said. I nodded. I was exhausted. "Why don't we go back to the house and get you in bed. Would you like me to carry you?" I nodded again and he got up and helped me up from the ground. He pulled me on to his back. I wrapped my arms around him tightly and buried my face in his neck. Once I was settled, he started running. When we reached the house, Alice was out front jumping with joy.

"I saw it! I saw the whole thing happen! I'm so happy for you two!" She said, still jumping. Me and Edward both laughed and headed in the house. Still carrying me on his back piggyback style, we headed upstairs. We reached my Bedroom and he set me to my feet. He closed the door and turned back towards me and wrapped his arms around my waist. I looked up to him and smiled.

"Edward, I feel kind of gross from hunting. I'm going to take a quick shower if you don't mind."

"Of course not love, go right ahead." He kissed my forehead and let go of my waste. I gathered my pajamas and walked in my bathroom and shut the door behind me. I turned the shower on and hopped in. I couldn't help but stand there in my shower and do a victory dance. Sarah would be losing her mind right now if she knew what was happening with me and Edward. I laughed to myself and thought, who cares. I finished my shower up quickly and jumped out. I put on my pajamas and opened my bathroom door to find Edward laying on my bed with his hands behind his head. I smiled at him and made my way over towards the bed. I pulled back the covers and hopped in. I looked up at him and couldn't help but wonder…

"Edward?" I asked.

"Hmm?" He responded.

"I know you don't sleep at all but um…would you like to…lay with me under the covers?" His eyes immediately lit up.

"Sure," he said, smiling at me. He got up and tucked himself under the covers. "Come here you", he said, pulling my body towards him. He dug his face into my neck and kissed it lightly. I sighed. He then picked his head up so it was directly in front of me and moved forward and kissed me on the lips softly. It wasn't as hard and passionate as it was earlier, but it was enough to make me want to melt to the floor. He pulled away and put his hand on my cheek. We gazed into each other's eyes. Staring at him, I knew that his soul was in there. I just wish he knew it was to. He pulled his mouth up into a half smile and kissed my forehead once again. "Goodnight Bella. Dream happy dreams. I love you."

"I love you to. Goodnight Edward." I tucked my head under the base of his neck and fell asleep instantly.

A/N

And that's, that. I hope you guys liked this chapter. The next chapter will be in Edward's P.O.V. It will be this chapter with a few other things added onto it from his perspective. And I have a reason for it also…you'll see. Anyway, you guys know what to do. REVIEW!!!! The more reviews I get, the faster the next chapter will come up! So please review, they make my day!