(A/n: All songs and lyrics mentioned are owned by the writers and/or artist. No copyright infringement intended, they are mentioned to move the story plot along and give it interest)
2. Empty As I Am
I always felt like a whole new person when at Liz's' family's apartment, like being in a whole new world. Liz Evanston (vocalist & co-song writer), Kara Johnson (Lead Guitar), and Kara's boyfriend Brandon Campbell (back up guitar), and I (Bella, Co - songwriter) sit on Liz's couch reading over the new song I wrote for the special occasion that was coming up very soon.
The song was something that popped into my head while crying over the scene I was picturing (and something else). I was very nervous of what they would think of it. My handwriting was very sloppy anyways, but even more so now what with my hands shaking and all. I wish I would've thought to go to the library and type it up instead…
When I first moved away from Forks to Jacksonville, I was automatically enrolled in school, I first met Liz by bumping into the first day. Kara, I met at lunch, Liz introduced us. We all attached immediately. Liz and Kara both had dreams of making it big, Liz a singer, Kara as her loyal guitarist.
They then decided to start a band together once Kara met her boyfriend Brandon who shared their dream, him as a back up guitar. I cheered them on at every band practice, they had a few songs they wrote themselves. I came in the picture when a notebook of mine filled with heartwarming poetry, "accidentally" fell in the hands of Kara, it was her idea for me to write songs, and Liz's for me to help them capture the words and come with them to every gig.
Brandon went along with whatever Kara said, he was just happy to have her and be in a band.
The song I wrote for them was meant to be a mixed genre. As Liz unfolded the paper, there was a huge gut wrenching feeling I had. I could picture the view from their eyes scrolling across every word, line, verse, the chorus… silently singing it to themselves.
Empty As I Am
You left me standing there
You didn't even care
You just walked away
I felt so scared
You never ever even looked back at me
So unaware of how cool you could be
I was always there
Did you ever care?
Chorus
Did you ever care for me?
Did you ever believe in me?
Did you ever love me?
Did you?
Did you?
Did you?
You didn't have to fall
I didn't need your tears
I didn't want your pity
Just any feeling at all
Would have been sufficient
I never felt so small
So insignificant
You left me naked with
Nothing at all
How could I be so blind?
Chorus
Falling down
Darkness sorrounds me
I open my eyes
I bow my head and cry
Did you ever care for me?
Did you ever even
Chorus
Did you ever care for me?
Did you ever love me?
I felt the need to cry but I pulled myself together as soon as possible. Suddenly Liz looked up, and Kara soon after. They didn't say anything. Did they hate? Did they love it? Was it not poetic enough?? What?!? "So?… w-w-what to do you think?"
Liz was the first to speak "Oh my god. Uh… im speechless! Bell this is amazing! I would love to do this song! We should get started on it right away! What do you say Kare?"
Finally Kara spoke startled that liz used her old nickname. "Oh, sorry, Well I have to agree with Liz, You couldn't have wrote a better one in such short notice!" Kare was suddenly enthusiastic. " Don't you think B?"
"Heck, I don't need you tell me to say how great it is. It may not be my taste but It'll definitely be great."
I couldn't hold back the huge grin on my face, which gradually formed into a huge smile. We would all be going to Denali for Kara's birthday, a brand new song and a lot of high hopes. This wasn't just because of the new song, it was that people from the city she grew up with from 5 - 14, heard of her and were emailing Kara saying they heard of her concert and were going to come.
There were a lot of those emails so…
We had 6 plane tickets for the band, song writer/assistant/best friend, and Kara's parents.
Jacksonville to Denver. Denver to Seattle. Seattle to Denali.
There was a layover between flying from Seattle to Denali, The whole night. I think I might just pay a surprise visit to my dad in forks…
(A/n: Like?? Something very Juicy is going to happen in the next chapter. At least that's what my plan is, you never know what that voice inside your head is going to tell you… Song: Empty As I Am By: Kelly Clarkston. This song was confirmed to be in the real New Moon movie, so I thought, what the heck, why not?)