Yay for snow delays! I live in the Maryland/Washington D.C metro area and we had an ice storm and my school has been delayed till noon. So that's good for you guys because I have the next chapter! Like I said, this chapter IS in Edward's POV. It's chapter 8, plus some extra stuff. I think that this chapter is sort of necessary. You'll see why! Stephanie Meyers owns everything Twilight.

EDWARD'S POV

In all my 107 years of my existence I never imagined someone like Bella coming into my life. Laying in her bed in her room every night and watching her sleep on my chest has probably been the best few nights of my life. She is so beautiful. I knew from the moment she got out of that car the first day she came here, she was something special. And she is. She is the most special and important thing in my life now. She has given me purpose and meaning in this life that I never thought was possible. I love her. I love her with all that I am…I just don't know how she feels.

Bella and I spend most of our nights, before she sleeps, together. We just talk about anything and everything. I could listen to Bella talk for hours. We also had this bond in listening to music together. Listening to music with Bella is now second favorite thing to do. Watching Bella sleep, of course, was number one. There was so much more to this beautiful creature that I needed to get to know.

The thing with Sarah has gotten to be way out of hand. I knew right from the very beginning Sarah wasn't interested in me at all. She was only interested in getting me in bed with her as some sort of…prize to add to her collection. I could read her mind after all, and nothing in her mind said she was interested in my feelings. Her mind was filled with pathetic and disgusting thoughts like 'wow look at how he lick those lips, I wonder how he would taste' or 'wow he plays the piano, I wonder how good he is at playing with other things'. She is repulsive. I only responded to a couple of her letters because it was the polite thing to do. Then her letters started to become more…graphic. So, I stopped writing back. We did move away from the Denali's in Alaska a few years ago and Sarah did keep sending letters to that address. But everytime she did send a letter, one of the Denali's would mail it here, to Forks. It has gotten to a point where when I do get one of her letters, I throw it in the garbage. Because that is what she is after all, garbage. Bella was no where near garbage. Garbage and Bella shouldn't even be allowed to be in the same sentence as each other.

Looking at her right now, laying on my chest sleeping, is something that is never going to get old to me. Not now, not ever. She is so pure. So…innocent. I stroked her hair lightly, smiling to myself like a fool in love. She sighed and rolled over off to her other side. It made me sad when she would do that. It made me feel so alone…like apart of me was missing. She was asleep after all, she couldn't control her actions. I laid there for a moment, staring at the back of her head. Even the back of her head was beautiful.

"Edward", Carlisle said to me through his thoughts, "Edward, please come see me in my office for a moment." I sighed, not happy to leave my angel alone. I got up from the bed quietly and made my why out the door towards Carlisle's office. He knew I was spending time with Bella every night, but he didn't know my feelings towards her. I knocked on his door lightly. "Come in Edward", he called from the inside. I opened the door and stepped in and closed it softly behind me. I walked forward and sat in the armchair in front of his desk.

"Hello Carlisle, what is it that you wanted?" I asked.

"Nothing Edward, I just wanted to talk to you for a moment", he said getting up from his office chair. He made his way to the armchair next to me and sat down. He looked at me and began. "Edward, I've noticed a significant change in you in these last couple weeks. You're a lot more easygoing and a lot more…free. Edward, I don't think I've seen you as happy as you are right now. Not in all our decades of being with each other have I seen you so happy. I just wanted to tell you how delighted I am to see you like this and that I hope it continues." Not only was Bella making a difference on the inside of me, but apparently, the outside of me was different as well. I smiled back at Carlisle, nodding my head. I sat there for a moment, deliberating on whether or not I should tell him why I'm so happy. I took a deep unneeded breath and decided that I needed to. It was his daughter after all.

"Well Carlisle", I began, "your daughter as a lot to do with it." He smiled and nodded for me to continue. "Bella…well she has made me a lot happier. She has made me a lot happier then I've ever been in my entire life. She makes me feel like I have a purpose in this sort of life. She makes me feel…alive. Carlisle I….I think I have developed feelings towards your daughter. And by feelings, I mean, I think I am falling for her." I stopped and looked down to my lap, terrified to see the what his face would look like. I heard Carlisle chuckle. I picked up my head to see him smiling at me.

"Edward, I am thrilled that you have finally found someone you think you can have a relationship with. It really has been far to long. I'm happy you have finally found love, and I couldn't be happier that you have found it with my daughter. However, she is my daughter Edward. I have to look out for her. Just please don't hurt her. I understand if something doesn't work out between the two of you. That is on you guys. I won't think any less of you if it doesn't work. Just take care of her." I was jumping with joy on the inside that Carlisle accepted this. I smiled back at Carlisle and shook his hand.

"Thank you for being so supportive Carlisle. She really does mean the world to me. I will take care of her, I promise."

"Your welcome Edward. I'm happy she makes you feel that way. You may leave now if you wish."

"Ok, thank you again Carlisle." With that, I got up from my chair and rushed back to be beside my love once again.

Last nights conversation with Carlisle couldn't have gone any better. Tonight was the night I needed to tell Bella how I felt. I needed to tell her everything. Alice, Jasper, Bella, and I were sitting in the living room watching Deal or No Deal. Jasper wasn't making this situation any easier on me by yelling at the screen every time someone made a wrong deal. The emotions that were coming off him were out of whack and he was stressing me out. Bella was leaning her head on my shoulder. I looked down at her to see her rubbing her throat and squinting her eyes. She looked to be in pain.

"Bella? What is it? What's wrong?" I asked. She looked up at me.

"Remember when I told you how I knew when I needed to hunt?" Yes I remembered that night well. It was the first time I watched her sleep. I nodded my head. "Well that time is right now. My throat is killing me." She got up off the couch and started heading for the door. This is my chance, it thought.

"Wait", I yelled to her, "let me come with you. You might get…lost or something." Smooth Edward, very smooth. She turned around to look at me.

"Sure Edward, lets go", she said back to me. I got up from the couch and made my way over to her.

"Why don't you follow me. I'll show you where all the good spots are", I said winking at her. She smiled her beautiful smile at me. I walked out the door and started running for the forest. I looked back at one moment to find she was no where in site. So I stopped and waited for her. After a few seconds, I saw her running towards me. I forgot that she wasn't full vampire, so she couldn't go as fast. I began running again and stopped every couple minutes to let her catch up with me. I finally stopped when we reached our destination. I led her to a herd of dear, drinking our of a lake. I looked over to her and she crouched down and took off after one. I didn't feel the need to hunt with her, seeing as I hunted a couple days before. I gladly stood off to the side and watched her. Even hunting she still beautiful. So elegant and graceful.

After feeding off her last deer she turned to look at me. I smiled back at her. "You finished Bella?" I asked, walking towards her. She nodded back at me. "Good, because I really want to show you something. Something sort of…personal to me." I stopped walking until I was a few inches in front of her.

"Sure Edward, what did you want to show me?"

"It's a surprise. Why don't you hop on my back, we'll get there faster."

"Oh so your saying I'm slow?" I laughed. She was adorable.

"No love your not slow. I'm just faster."

"Alright Edward. But please, don't run into anything."

"I've never run into anything while running before." I laughed again.

"Ok good", she said hopping on my back. I then took off running towards my favorite meadow. I knew she would love it, it was a perfect place for someone like her. After a few minutes, we finally made it. She hopped off my back and made her way forward to take in the view. She turned back to look at me with the look of disbelief on her face and then turned back to the meadow.

"Beautiful isn't it?" I asked. She looked back at me again and nodded. "I found this place while I was hunting a while ago. It's a place I come to, to clear my head and think."

"Its nice Edward. I love it." I smiled and made my way over towards her. I sat down a few feet away from her and waved my hand for her to come and sit next to me. She sat down and looked at me with those beautiful brown eyes and looked up to the sky.

"Wow", she said, still looking up, "look at the moon. I've never seen it so bright before. Its beautiful." I kept my eyes fixed on her. Nothing could be as beautiful as her. She looked away from the moon and looked at me. I stared back into her eyes wondering what in the world was going on in that empty mind of hers.

"What are you thinking?" I asked.

"I'm thinking…I'm thinking about how I have lived 200 years without ever having you in my life", she said back to me. If my heart was still beating, I'm pretty sure it would be popping out of my chest. I smiled and started to stroke her cheek. She closed her eyes and relaxed into my hand.

"I was thinking the exact same thing", I said back to her. It was true. How did I ever manage to live my life with out this amazing women in front of me. I wanted to kiss her so badly. I wanted her. I moved my head further and she opened her eyes.

"Edward", she breathed out.

"Yes love?"

"I need to ask you something. I talked to my father about you…about your past life. He told me about…what you think about yourself. About the things that you did. How…why would you ever think those things Edward? How could you?" I looked at her for a second and released my hand from her check and looked down at the grown. I closed my eyes. Great, I thought. I hoped I wouldn't have had to talk about this, at least not tonight. It was too painful. But I figured since both of our hearts were being laid out tonight, I needed to get it out.

"Bella", I began, "I am a monster Bella. You've spent your entire life, since the moment you were born, never really having to worry about killing another human. To just…take away their life from them-"

"Edward those people got what they deserved", she interrupted me. I shook my head.

"Still Bella, I just took their life away…forever. I am a monster. All I wanted was human blood. That's all I-"

"Edward you were a newborn it's only natural-"

"No Bella", I interrupted her back, "newborn or not I still always crave the blood of a human. I will always have that craving. For the rest of time that's all I'm ever going to want, even if I'm living off the blood of animals. Till this very day I regret the decisions I made back then. Only a monster could come to their senses to just kill another person. That is a monster Bella. You don't realize how lucky you are. You truly don't. I would give anything to have your life, to be half-human. To be.... half-alive. I would give anything to just curl up in a ball and sleep away all this pain, all this…misery. I have no soul. I have no purpose Bella. I'm just a killer." Then I felt it. A huge ache in my chest that was just waiting to get released. I had felt the feeling before, but I wasn't sure what it was. Then I knew. I was crying. I couldn't produce the tears for it, but I was crying. I laughed, not because it was funny, but because it was pathetic. "Wow I haven't cried like this in nearly 30 years."

"Edward", she said, cupping my her tiny fingers under my chin trying to get me to look at her, "Edward please look at me." I lifted my head to look back at her.

"Edward you are no monster. This is what you are Edward and you just have to come to terms and accept it. Those people you killed, had what they got coming to them. They didn't deserve to live. You've changed yourself for the better. And…look at you! Look at you sitting here with me. Edward, I've loved spending these past couple weeks with you. You are a very kind and caring person. It's as if everyone else in the world matters, except for yourself. You do matter and don't think otherwise. A monster wouldn't sit and listen to music with me. A monster wouldn't care a thing in the world about my own issues. A monster wouldn't tuck me in at night and lay with me and hold me all night while I sleep. That is no monster Edward. That is called having a soul. You may think you have no soul, but I know you do. It's in there somewhere. And I am going to do whatever it takes to make you realize that it is." She took her hand from my chin and took my hand and held it. "Edward, I care about you a lot. I really don't like you thinking these things about yourself. Please…please don't think them anymore." Then she started to cry. Not because I did anything wrong, but because of the way I thought about myself. I couldn't believe it. She cared. She actually cared about me. She cared so much that it made her want to cry.

"Bella", I began, "I…I cant even begin to tell you how much what you said means to me. I cant tell you how…how happy it makes me feel to know how much you care about me. I cant tell you that after tonight I'm just going to forget it all and change how I feel about myself, but this is a start. I know that you can help me and I want you to. I…I know its only been a couple weeks but I just need to get this out. Bella.... I....I love you." She stared at me for a moment. I really wasn't quiet sure what was going through her head the moment. But I knew what I needed to do next. I couldn't take it anymore. I leaned forward and took both my hands to her face and brought it closer to mine. "God Bella, I love you so much", I whispered and crushed my lips to hers. She kissed me back immediately. There was so much passion, I couldn't handle myself. I pushed her lightly towards the ground and hovered on top of her. I kissed her liked this for a few minutes and finally pulled away. I had to look at her. I had to see her face to know that she felt the same way about me. I smiled at her and stoked her cheek. She closed her eyes for a moment and looked back at me.

"I love you to Edward. With everything I have, I love you." I smiled as big as I could. I probably looked like and idiot, but I didn't care. She loved me back. This was the single most happiest moment in my entire existence. I wanted to run to the mountaintops and scream 'BELLA LOVES ME!'. I kissed her forehead and looked back at her. She looked tired.

"You must be exhausted", I said. She nodded. "Why don't we go back to the house and get you in bed. Would you like me to carry you?" She nodded again. I got up and pulled her with me. She hopped on my back and I waited for her to get situated. She tucked her head in my neck and I smiled to myself. Then I took off running towards the house.

"Edward, Edward! It was beautiful Edward! The kiss was beautiful", Alice thoughts screamed at me once we got closer towards the house. When we finally got there, Alice was out front, jumping like a maniac.

"I saw it! I saw the whole thing happen! I'm so happy for you two!" She said. Me and Bella both laughed at her and headed in the house. I still had Bella on my back when I made my way upstairs. I finally got to her Bedroom and I set her down. I closed the door and turned back towards her. Not being able to stand not touching her, I wrapped my arms around her waste waist. She looked up to me and smiled brightly.

"Edward, I feel kind of gross from hunting. I'm going to take a quick shower if you don't mind."

"Of course not love, go right ahead." I kissed her forehead and let go of her. She gathered her things and walked in the bathroom and shut the door. I made my way towards Bella's bed and laid down to wait for her. I stared at the ceiling and thought about everything that happened today. I was in love, I couldn't believe it. Never in a million years did I think I would find someone I wanted to be with. But I did, finally. I smiled and shook my head still in disbelief. I heard the shower cut off in the bathroom and my dead heart leaped. What is wrong with me? After a couple minutes, she opened the bathroom door and stepped out. She smiled at me and made her way over towards the bed. She tucked herself in under the covers and looked up at me.

"Edward?" She asked.

"Hmm?"

"I know you don't sleep at all but um…would you like to…lay with me under the covers?" My eyes immediately shot open. I dreamed of laying under the covers, holding her as she slept at night.

"Sure," I said, smiling like an idiot. I got up from the bed and got under the covers. I wanted to hold her so badly. "Come here you", I said, pulling her body towards mine. I wrapped my arms around her waste tightly and dug my face into her neck and kissed it. Even her neck tastes amazing. She sighed quietly. I then picked my head up to look at her and moved forward and starting kissing her again. It wasn't as chaotic as it was in the meadow. These kisses were very long, sweet and sensual kisses. I pulled away after a few minutes and put my hand on her cheek. I stared into her eyes wishing for some sort of miracle to happen to know what she was thinking. I smiled at her and kissed her forehead. "Goodnight Bella. Dream happy dreams. I love you."

"I love you to. Goodnight Edward." She tucked her head under my neck and fell asleep. Nothing could ever get better then this.

A/N

Now you guys have a little look inside Edward's head. I hoped you liked it. Now you see why I needed to write it. We needed to see how Edward was going to deal with Carlisle about his feelings for Bella. And plus, who doesn't want to know what Edward is thinking?! I loved writing this chapter, it's my favorite so far. I'm not going to say when I think I'll update anymore because of the weird weather conditions and school delays. I had some free time this morning before class, so I thought I would knock this out and have it ready for you guys. Please REVIEW! Tell me what you thought of Edward's POV. Did you like it? If enough of you guys liked it, I may write a few chapters in his POV in the future.