(A/N: Second-to-last Ch. I think. Sorry if my writing is quote "too jumpy" ;) lol. I agree. 100%! This is my first story after all. A certain part in the chapter you'll be thinking you know where it's going but you can't judge to quickly, lets put it at that. Hope you enjoy! J)

Ch. 7 - Nightmare in Reality

I have no Idea why, but I love the hotel room. I feel like I'm in a cabin hid away in the woods, except that it's only one room, and there's a patio outside. I was reading since, playing truth or dare isn't my thing like it is for Kara and Liz. I love to watch Brandon play the perfect boyfriend. It was just adorable! Really, the only thing he controlled over Kara was her safety, other than that, he was basically like a stray dog. Angels and Demons is such a good book! I never get a chance to read it, and if I do its only a page or two. It's only rare that I'll get to a whole chapter or more, the history and suspense of it is what gets me. It was one of those rare occasions. I didn't notice anything around me at all unless it was Kara and Liz laughing at the dare they had to do.

Kara had to rip the book out of my hands to get my attention. It was because of the really good part that was happening. "Bella! Finally, there's someone at the door for you. He's kind of cute!" she said the last sentence in a whisper, either so the person there wouldn't hear or so Brandon wouldn't. I already had an idea of who he was. Maybe it was Carlisle, here to talk to me, and not taking no for an answer. Though I wasn't entirely convinced. "Describe him for me." I said casually while putting my bookmark where I was.

"Hmmm…where to begin!? Well, devastatingly beautiful, tall, slender, pale, chiseled cheeks" I looked when she said that but didn't say anything yet "Bronze hair, and a weird eye color I noticed cause his eyes were for some reason really wide, he looked nervous." she had to shake my shoulder to regain my attention since I was shocked and staring into space. "Bella? So you going to go to the door, or let the poor guy stand there all night?" I had to say something.

"Just tell him to come to come back tomorrow, okay? And that sometimes you cant show at random times." I lightly pushed her off the bed and pointed to the door. What am I doing?? Haven't I been waited for something like this? I leaned my back against the backboard of the bed, as I heard Kara say the words I asked her to say. I didn't even hear a reply from him. I just remember hearing her words, and then staring at the wall facing away from the door. I snapped back to reality, Kara was having a play fight with Brandon, and Liz was clicking through the same channels on the small TV on their dresser.

I went to the bathroom and changed into more comfortable clothes for bed. I tried getting back into my book, but I couldn't keep my concentration. I couldn't stop picturing Edward's face. I felt guilty, I didn't know why. He deserved it….didn't he??

I'd awoken by a small tap on the sliding window door, out to the patio. There were two more following it. I sat up, and looked around the room to see everyone still as fast asleep as when I'd watch them all fall asleep. They're heavy sleepers obviously. What the hell?? I pushed the covers off my legs and swung them over the side. My side of the bed I shared with Liz, was a few feet from the wall next to the patio.

I took a small precaution, by taking one quiet step at a time, in case they were to suddenly come out of they're deep sleep and be vulnerable to waking up. I pulled the curtain back that covered the window, to see Edward standing right in front of me on the other side of the glass. His features were completely visible even in the dark night, with a small porch light. I gasped involuntarily, and then finally composing myself. "What the-?" I turned from the window to grab my sweater.

I slid the door open slowly and closed it. Pulling the curtain as far as I could, then turning to him. He talked first. "Bella, please don't leave!? I really need to talk to you. Though I can tell you don't want me too."

"Well, your-" I stopped what I was saying. I was tired of being so rude to them, to anybody. I didn't want to dump my problems on anybody, but that's exactly what I was doing though. "I know what about. Alice and the others told you everything. I know, and I honestly don't need any of your help. It's not your problem, really." He lowered his eyes to the floor, and then looked back at me. "Yes, they told me. But it's not the only reason I'm here." he took a step toward me and looked straight into my eyes.

"Truth be told, I'm not here, as in, in Denali, because you're here. But at the same time I'm here because of you." huh? That doesn't make any sense, anyone would be confused. Apparently my face showed it. "I knew what I had to say but I never planned anything exactly, and I don't know how to start." He looked even confused himself, but in a less composed way. "Shoot. I don't care how you say it honestly." he looked surprised, and didn't say anything for a while, trying to figure out a good way to start out. Then I remembered what he was saying to his family, when he didn't know I was within earshot.

I gasped, I can't believe I didn't remember! He was waiting for me to, obviously now. "Oh, my, God!" I didn't know what to say. I just started breaking down crying. He reached out to touch my face or wipe away a tear, but I moved my head away. "Why do you think you can just come back? Like, I wasn't even the slightest bit upset?" I really was confused. First he said he loved me, then he left cause he didn't, now he's coming back cause he realized he did? I'm getting more confused by the second.

"That's when my explanation comes in. I lied. I've been living a lie. Lying to myself even! Telling myself I could live without you, to keep you safe. But I'm tired of living a lie." I froze in place to let all of this sink in. "So… what is the truth?"

"Truth is…I love you. I love you! I have always loved you, and will always love. Please, believe that this time I'm telling you the truth." He loved me? Tears spilled over my eyes and I was soon sobbing. I had to cover my mouth to keep from waking anyone up. I could see his face even through my blurry vision. He was torn seeing me this way. I said the best thing ever… but at the same time it was the worst thing I could think of.

"I love you too, always will." He looked back up at me, and started to smile. Which made it even worse to do what I said next. "But I don't think I can do it all over again. I'm sorry. What's going on with Phil-- I-I- I just can't! Please just leave! Please!!" I felt like I was going to explode with tears. I turned away from him, and wiped my face but it was no use cause it was replaced with more.

Edward didn't move. I couldn't even take a look at him to see how he was without bursting out again. He still didn't move. I turned around to see him, mortified! If he was human, he would have tears streaming down his face. "I guess I deserve it. It hurt you…Ummm… Well, you wont have to see me again, I'll be leaving to Oregon tomorrow." He looked away towards the green scenery and town from the patio. The wind picked up, drying every tear on my face as I watched him say goodbye and jump from the edge, and run away.

I slowly walked back to bed, cried silent tears and stayed awake till about an hour before we were supposed to wake up. I couldn't stop thinking about Edward's face when I said what he'd always wanted to hear, then something he would only hear in his worst nightmares, which he couldn't have, but I had made it happen.

(A/N: I would really like to know if your shocked or not. I started actually crying this time while typing [doesn't happen EVER]. But there's still another chapter two at the most but I don't think so. Hope you loved, enjoyed and cried over it [in a good way]! J)