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Previously: "Embry, I'm thinking we are going to have a problem. And soon. According to Edward and Alice." Jacob said, putting on a serious face.
I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion of what Jacob had said. "What kind of problem?" I asked before Embry could. I turned the stove off absentmindedly, I didn't want the food to burn. "Well according to Edward, Alice saw that CJ would be a problem." Jacob said slowly. I still didn't get it. "What kind of problem?" I asked again. "Well I'm guessing the boy still has feelings for you, so Alice saw CJ trying to fight Embry." He explained. I groaned. That was so like him. "Crap." I muttered to myself and turned to the chicken. It wasn't done yet so I turned the stove back on and flipped the chicken.
"Dee?" Jacob asked. "Yeah?" I replied back and looked at him. "Do you still have feelings for him?" he asked. He put his hands up, "It might not be any of my business, but I think of you as a sister already and I don't want anything bad going down." He said. I sighed. "I am not in love with him anymore. I love him, but not like that. To be honest, I just think of him as one of my best friends. And if things had been different between me and CJ in the past, I would consider him my brother." I said. I noticed that when Jacob said he thought of me as a sister already, made my heart swell up, like I knew all along that I would belong, and that I thought of him as a brother already as well.
"Okay, just making sure kiddo." He said with a grin. I narrowed my eyes at him. I considered throwing my spatula at him. "Don't call me a kid. I'm not a kid." I muttered and turned my attention to the food again. Jacob began to laugh, and I flushed a deep red. No doubt, he will probably call me a kid for the rest of my life. "Well I'm heading out to hunt with Renesme. She seems to need a bit of competition." Jacob said with a chuckle. I laughed with him, "Alright, see ya soon then." I said and he disappeared through the door. I sighed again. I couldn't let CJ try to fight Embry. Embry would do far more than hurt him.
"What's wrong honey?" Embry asked, I felt the heat of his hand close to my back. It was an unconscious gesture that I saw my dad do with my step mom all the time. He was standing level with me, and he was leaned down slightly to peer at my face. I bit my bottom lip. "CJ is… different I suppose you could say. Edward is going to get sick of him in less than ten minuets of him being here. He has a very… very… dirty mind. And I know, for sure, that if I was to give CJ the thought that he could get me back, he would drop his girlfriend that second without even caring." I told him. "I don't know why I fell in love with him. I guess it's because I saw a side of him that no one else ever got to see. But… that doesn't make what he does right." I said, staring down at the chicken I was cooking and not looking at him while he processed this information. "So… your saying… that if you were to dress in more revealing clothes than what you are in now… and made him think that he was getting you back… he would ditch his girlfriend without a second thought? And that, basically any beautiful girl gives him a boner?" he asked.
(A/N sorry bout the whole boner thing. I couldn't resist. That and I couldn't really think of a better way to put it.)
I chewed on my bottom lip and nodded. "Id bet you everything that when he walks through that front door, he is going to see Rosalie, and Bella, and Esme… and Edward is probably going to have to use every shred of self control he can manage. I can only wonder why Alice agreed to go get that boy without Jasper being there." I said shaking my head. "CJ is basically, a horn dog, and really doesn't have much respect for girls. He just wants sex." I told him. I heard a slight growl, so I turned to look at Embry. He was shaking. "You mean to tell me, that he didn't care what your feelings were while you guys were together?" he asked with his eyes closed and fists clenched.
"Hey… Embry calm down. I wont tell you anything else unless you can stay calm." I told him, reaching up and touching his cheek. He instantly calmed at my touch. "I'm sorry. Please, explain this to me." He pleaded. I sighed. "CJ was the first man I have ever been with like that, and we weren't going out when we did it. I had managed to talk him into going out with me, but he broke up with me four days later, claiming that he felt like he was dating his sister. Then he had the nerve to come to me a few weeks later, asking if we could be friends with benefits." I said and scrunched my nose up in distaste. "At the time I was completely in love with him, and thought that I would take that rather than nothing, so I agreed. My parents never found out, for that four months, that we had broken up. I was so heartbroken when he broke up with me that I didn't really talk to anyone." I told him. He remained calm, surprisingly.
It took him a minuet to say something, but when he did, what he said really didn't surprise me. "Well… if he makes a move on you, or if I hear from Edward that he is thinking of you in that manner, I will end up hurting him. Please, don't hold it against me if it comes to that." He said with a sure voice. I knew this was going to happen. I warned Alice that this would complicate things for me. I ground my teeth together, "Embry, if all you did was punch him you would hurt him so bad you just might put him in the hospital." I warned him. He leaned down, becoming eye level with me. "You are my life now, and I will do whatever I can to protect you. Jacob already gave me permission to go back to Vegas with you. For the next 6 months, I will never leave your side." He vowed to me. I had tears in my eyes. No one was ever nearly a fraction that committed to being with me. I swallowed the lump in my throat down, and just nodded. I feared that if I said anything, I would ruin the moment by crying.
"Chicken is done, honey." Embry said with a smile. I smiled back, and turned the chicken off. "Alrighty then…. Hmmm what else could I make with the chicken… hmmm…" I pondered to myself out loud, grateful that I could break his gaze and not let myself cry. I decided to make Chicken Enchiladas. It took me a while, but I made a very big batch. Hopefully that would fill up Jacob and Embry.
Embry and I talked about random little things while I cooked, and I told him how small town and old fashioned I really am. "I don't mind cooking for tons of people, I enjoy cooking. And I like doing my arts and crafts… they give me something to do, and I am good at it." I told him. He just laughed, "Wow. I am very lucky." He said. I chuckled. I realized while I told him this, that here lately, I have been neglecting doing all the things that I enjoy doing, like cooking and making things. In a way, I had lost myself. I looked up at the clock, it was already three in the afternoon.
Jake, Esme, Rose, Emmett, Jasper, Bella, Edward, and Renesme had returned by now. Renesme had run to me the moment she saw me, and I picked her up spinning her around. She giggled and placed her hand on my cheek. She had asked me if Embry and I were like her and Jacob. I smiled. "Yes dear Renesme, he is my Embry, just like Jacob is your Jacob." I told her with a smile. She smiled back at me, and asked me through her power if I would be leaving soon. I frowned, "Yes, I will be leaving, but don't worry, I will be coming back. How could I resist?" I said smiling reassuringly at her. She seemed to like that, and when she saw Jacob coming through the dining room and into the kitchen toward us, she reached toward him. I smiled and put her down so that way she could go to him.
As the Enchiladas baked, I leaned into Embry with a contented sigh. I was happy here. But then I remembered something. "Oh Edward!" I called. He was there with Bella at his side in an instant. "Do I get to know what you said to Brian?" I asked with a smile and a raised eyebrow. He chuckled. "I basically told him that I am your brother, and that you were going to be unavailable every day for pretty much the rest of your life, and that if he even thought about coming near you again, that he would have to answer to me." He said with a crooked grin and handed me my phone. "I put it on the charger for you before we left." He told me. "Ah Edward you… yet again… are AWESOME!" I told him and began to laugh.
Bella looked up at Edward, "He is very good at getting guys to back off." She told me with a smile. I laughed with her. "Thanks Edward, I owe ya one." I told him and grabbed a hold of Embry's hand. Edward shook his head, "You don't owe us anything." He said. Then I heard his phone vibrate in his pocket. It must be Alice. "Yes Alice?" he spoke into the phone. I was right!
"Oh I see. Yes, we will see you tonight then." He said. This confused me. "She took her Porche. She already picked CJ up." He told me. My face fell. Great. Just great. They were going to be here soon. And I, had no idea what to do. What if it turned into a fight? What if Edward got so mad at CJ's thoughts that HE hurt CJ? I didn't know what to do.
"Whoa Dee back up. What do you mean you think I might hurt him?" he asked. I bit my lip, not wanting to say this out loud. "I know from experience that he has… a very… dirty mind." I told him. Edward stiffened besides Bella. 'And I know, that he is going to take one look at Bella and the things that will run through his head, you won't like.' I thought directly toward him. He nodded, but we didn't discuss it further.
I fed Jake and Embry, and they ate everything up. I got a little bit to eat before they got to it, and there was barely anything left over. I smiled though, I'm glad that they liked my cooking. "Dee, that was great!" Jacob told me. "Thanks, glad you liked it." I told him honestly. I was sitting on the counter, watching the guys finish up eating and I was texting CJ and Taylor. CJ had told me, and I quote, "Your friend Alice is so hot. I'm having a hard time not letting myself get a boner." And for proof of what I told Embry and Edward, I showed them the text the second I got it. I texted him back, "CJ don't even think about it. Alice is taken. You really don't want to mess with these guy's girls down here." I said. And this, yet again, got me a call from him. "I'm at the gas station, Alice wanted to get me something to eat so I'm in the bathroom. Now what are you talking about?" he said the moment I answered the phone. "What I meant is, all the girls down here are pretty. And you really don't want to say anything out of line. Trust me. If you think you can get over protective, its nothing compared to this." I said with smugness in my tone. Embry held out the phone for him to talk to CJ. I shook my head and mouthed not now to him.
"Yeah sure sure whatever. I will see you in a few hours." He said and hung up. I growled. What was I going to do with that guy? When I growled, everyone looked up with wide eyes. "….What?" I asked with wide eyes as well. "Did you just… Growl?" Edward asked. "Uhm… kinda…" I admitted. Then, for some reason, Edward leaned in very close to me. I froze. Not out of fear, but because I really had no idea what he was doing. I felt Embry stiffen, and I was still looking down at Edward. He sniffed me. What the hell?
Then, before I could even see it, he stood up strait and was halfway across the kitchen, whispering in Jacob's ear. I felt my eyebrows pull together. "What was that for? Do I smell bad?" I asked him. He shook his head, "We will be right back." He said, then him and Jacob left. I crossed my arms over my chest. What on earth was going on? I jumped off the counter and went to the table, picking up the plates and the glass baking pan and began to do the dishes, just for something to do. Embry was standing behind me, with his arms wrapped around my waist, and he was humming something.
Then Embry's head and my head snapped up from the dish I was cleaning the moment Edward walked into the kitchen. "Dee, can I talk to you alone please?" he asked me. I nodded and dried my hands, following him out into the rain. The rain felt nice. "Dee, I have to ask you something, and it might sound weird for you." He warned me when we stopped walking. "Okay, go ahead." I told him. "How do I smell to you?" he asked me. I raised an eyebrow.
"Are you serious?" I thought.
(A/N I made a decision, every time Dee says something in her mind to Edward from this point on, is going to be in italics. Just warning everyone so that way no one gets confused. Thanks!)
"I am dead serious." He said to me. I leaned in closer to him.
"You smell… really sweet." I said wrinkling my nose slightly. The scent kind of made my stomach queasy. He sighed. "Okay, now I got another question for you. Would you mind it if… we had a little wrestling match?" he asked with humor in his eyes.
I snorted. "Yeah right! Like I would be able to keep up with you!" I said. He smiled, "Please?" he said drawing it out. I sighed. "Okay, but this is going to make me feel really slow and stupid…" I said. He crouched then and bared his teeth. I can not believe I was going to go along with this. "I will keep my actions human speed alright?" he said with a mischievous smile. I nodded. "Let's just get this over with." I thought. Then his arm reached out to curl around my throat. Anyone that knows me would have been able to do this.
I have this fear of being choked. Every time someone grabs me by the throat, I freeze up, then I get really mad. He had me, I knew he did. Vampire or not, he would have been able to have me just like that. My nostrils flared as I thawed out, I grabbed onto his arm, knowing it was a futile attempt, curled my hands around his wrist, then tried digging into the tendon there, and pulled. He didn't move an inch. I began to see red, I felt the monster inside of me begin to flare.
"Edward. Let. Go." I growled through clenched teeth. "No." he answered in a dangerous voice. That's when I snapped. I forgot who I was dealing with, all rational thought left my mind. "If you value your life at all, I would let go." I said in a dead voice, a voice that wasn't mine. Edward just chuckled. I did something I don't think he even thought I would do. I leaned forward, and felt half of his weight on my body, then taking him down to the ground with me, I flipped us, and we hit the ground. He let go of me in shock, and I sprang to my feet, lowering myself into a crouch. He was up in one lithe movement, and did the same thing. I sprang for him, still not knowing who it was or what it was that I was fighting. I collided into him, and felt pain in my right shoulder. I don't think I broke it, but it was enough to snap me out of it. I took three steps back.
"Oh my god Edward I am so sorry!" I said earnestly. I hated it when I lost control like that. He seemed amused and very curious. "Why are you sorry?" he asked. "Well I know you were basically inside my head with me… and I'm sorry you had to see that I mean, I don't know why that happens but it does… I've hurt a lot of people because of that." I explained, and to show him, I thought of all the people I've hurt. "Wow… absolutely amazing.." he said, more like he was talking to himself. "I've never seen anything like it…" he continued. I was trying to catch my breath, and I had no idea what he was talking about. I stared at him bewildered, when I heard someone coming up behind me. Spinning around, I noticed that Embry was standing about ten feet from me, and he was shaking in anger.
"What's wrong Embry?" I asked, in what I hoped was a soothing voice. "Edward," he said, ignoring me. "If you ever attack her again, you and I are going to go at it." He warned in a growl. I shook my head, "Embry he didn't hurt me. On the contrary, I hurt myself." I said. His head flashed from Edward's direction to mine. "Are you okay?" he said rushing towards me. "Yeah I am now. At first it hurt like hell though…." I said and shook my arm out. My shoulder was going to be sore for days, but it didn't hurt like it did when I first hurt it. "How did you hurt yourself honey?" he asked me. "Well… haha that's a funny story." I said. He shook his head. "Just tell me." I sighed.
"Okay well, I have this fear of being chocked, and even though I know Edward wasn't going to hurt me, he wrapped his arm around my neck and well… I got pissed off and I lost control of myself, and I forgot that Edward was basically like a rock." I said. He pulled his eyebrows together. "You forgot that Edward was a vampire?" he asked. "Well… when I loose control like that… all rational thought goes out the door. I don't know who is standing in front of me, my mind basically shuts down to survival mode and it tells my body to eliminate the threat." I said. I really hoped I was explaining this right. "My father calls it going 'ice', if you see me do this you will notice that I have no emotion on my face, or in my voice if I say anything." I finished. Edward was chuckling. "It's really interesting. Its like nothing I have ever seen before." He told Embry. "Well no more little experiments with Vampires. If you want to experiment use a Werewolf." He told Edward.
"No!!!" I screamed. They both looked at me shocked. "What?" Embry asked. "I might hurt one of you guys! No! I won't do it. No more experimenting. I have dishes to do…" I said and rushed back into the house. I finished up the dishes with Renesme talking with me. I picked her up and placed her on the counter so that way she could touch my face without me having to bend down for her. She truly was a delight to be around, and I found that she basically had the same kind of thoughts that I did.
"When CJ gets here, I'm sure he will love you. Don't worry." I said trying to cheer her up. She shook her head. She had over heard what I told Edward, and she didn't want her daddy getting into a fight with anyone. "I really hope it doesn't come to that." I admitted, "CJ has been like family to me, and even though he is pretty sick in the head, he is still my friend, I would feel guilty if he got hurt." I told her. She nodded in agreement. Then she touched my face again. She worried that Jake and Embry would get into it with CJ, she noticed how over protective they are of their Imprints. "I hope so too. Like I said, I don't want him getting hurt." I said. She was a true joy to be around. It was like it was with me and Heather, only slightly different. She never said what she had to say out loud. I didn't blame her, if I had a cool power like that I would be the same way. "Do you think that when my body becomes of age… that Jake will want me like Embry wants you?" she asked me out loud in an unsure voice. This question took me off guard, but I knew the answer. "Of course he will! Whenever you are ready for that, he will be too." I reassured her. She nodded. "Its weird… my mind being so much older than my body is." She said to me.
I nodded with her in agreement. "I know how you feel. I'm the same way. My mom tells me that mentally I'm like 35 and I get more middle aged every year." I told her chuckling at the end. She laughed with me.
"When do you think my body will be ready for that kind of thing?" she asked me in a hushed voice, trying to be secretive. She was also blushing. "I don't really know. I think you should go ask mom that kind of thing." I told her. She nodded. "She probably knows." She said. "I'm going to go ask Daddy when Aunty Alice is going to get back." She said, hopping off the counter with more grace than I'm sure I used earlier. It was kind of odd, talking to Renesme like she was one of my girlfriends. Not that I had anything against it, its just when I looked at her, I saw a nine year old little girl, not a 17 year old teenager.
I finished drying the last dish when Embry came back in, looking troubled. "Hey." I greeted with a smile. He looked up at me and a wide smile crossed his face. He closed the distance between us in just a few strides, picked me up, spun me around, and then crushed my body to his while I giggled a carefree laugh.
"CJ will be here in about an hour!" Edward called from the living room. "Come here!" he called again. Embry carried me into the living room, sitting down next to Edward, pulling me into his lap. "Yes brother?" I asked, trying to make my expression look annoyed, and he laughed handing me the phone. "Hello?" I asked. "Dee, its Alice. CJ needed a bathroom break, I just wanted to tell you, that because I'm highly curious, I want you to ask Rosalie to help you get dressed. Tell her I said to make you… prettier." She said. My eyes narrowed. "Why?" I asked. "Just do it, now let me talk to Edward again, I have something I need to tell him." I sighed and handed Edward the phone. I placed my head against Embry's shoulder. Why, oh why, is she doing this to me? Well I wasn't going to ask for Rosalie's help. Not that I had anything against her or anything. I just really didn't want a fight breaking out tonight.
"Rosalie?" Edward called. I snapped my head up to glare at him. "Traitor." I said in a, what I considered, deadly voice. He chuckled, "Alice said so. You wont catch me betting against Alice." He told me. I crossed my arms and leaned into Embry, hoping he would save me from this disaster.
But Rosalie just picked me up, and brought me into Alice's bathroom. "Dee I suggest you cooperate with me. I can always MAKE you put these clothes on." She told me. I sighed. "Fine Rosalie. Just give me what I'm wearing." I said. She handed me the most low cut shirt that Alice had secretly gotten for me, I was sure my bra would show. It was red, and yes, very low cut. Surprisingly my bra didn't show. And she handed me a skirt, a very… very… short… black… skirt. "Rose!" I complained, looking myself in the mirror. She sighed and handed me a pair of high heels. "Just do it. We all trust Alice." She said. "Yeah… but… ugh!" I groaned putting the shoes on.
(A/N links for outfit on profile)
I have never been a small girl, and this outfit made me feel big. Well, made my boobs and thighs feel big. "Rose. Be honest. How silly do I look?" I asked. She laughed, "Dee, you don't look silly. Embry's going to have trouble controlling his hands I think." She said, taking my hand and pulling me down the stairs. I got into the living room and was blushing before anyone saw me. I kept my head low so I wouldn't see everyone's reaction. "Dee… You look great. A bit revealing, but great." Embry said, suddenly right beside me. I blushed more. "Thanks…" I said.
And then Edward was standing there with a full throttle and my cigarettes. "No smoking in the living room, but I knew you would need these." He said and smiled. I thanked him. I walked out front with Embry right behind me. I could feel it, CJ was getting closer, and I was getting more anxious by the second. "I really don't look silly?" I asked Embry after I lit up. "Nope." He said with a smile, "May I?" he asked motioning to my cigarettes. "Go ahead, I don't mind." I told him, surprised that he smoked.
"So what do you think the reason is that Alice wanted you to change for?" he asked me. "Well I'm thinking she wants to see just how far we can push the luck that I don't have." I said. "CJ has never seen me dressed like this, and I can only guess what it will do to him." I said laughing at the thought. "Speaking of Alice." Edward said walking out the door. "She will be pulling up in just a minuet." I nodded. Great. Then a thought accrued to me. It was raining, and it should be cold. I pulled my eyebrows together. "Is there something in full throttle that makes you not cold?" I asked Edward. He chuckled. "Maybe. Embry you might want to keep her warm, even though she isn't cold." He told Embry. Without a second thought, Embry's arm was wrapped around my waist, and I was curling into him. "Okay now I realize that I might have been cold before." I said shivering into Embry, his warmth feeling good.
Edward chuckled, but then stopped when we saw the headlights. Alice parked, and I saw CJ jump out with a back pack over his shoulder. "Doreatha Nadondi Krentzel you are in trouble." He told me walking near me. Then he stopped, noticing Embry's arm around mine, or my clothing, one of the two. Edward tensed, and I knew the thoughts running through CJ's head weren't at all good ones. He must have noticed the clothes. "Why am I in trouble?" I asked, blinking at him. "Your not sharing your cigarettes with me." He came up with lamely.
Edward whispered something in Embry's ear, then disappeared inside. Embry growled. "Hey man, I'm CJ." CJ said holding his hand out for Embry to shake. "Embry." Embry said, and shook his hand, rather roughly I thought. CJ pulled away and shook his own hand slightly when he thought I wasn't looking. I chuckled. "How's mom?" I asked him. "She's good. She keeps wondering when you are going to go visit her and Billy." He told me. I nodded. "I will soon." I said. Then Edward appeared again, with a coat in his hands, and handed it to Embry. He pulled the long coat on me, and I shivered again. "Thank you Edward." I said. I didn't realize how cold I was. Alice came dancing up by CJ. "Dee that looks good! I will have to thank Rosalie. Well hurry up and finish up! CJ is probably freezing!" she said. "How much did you tell him?" I asked her, then took the last deep drag of my cigarette and then put it out in my ash tray. "Absolutely nothing!" she giggled. I sighed, and turned around. "C'mon CJ, time for you to learn the truth." I mumbled, wrapping my arm around Embry's waist as he had mine.