CJ's point of view

They had finished telling me about Imprinting. It was a crazy thing. All I could do and think about was Dee, and how comfortable she looked with this new life I'm sure she chose before she even met Embry. I looked over at her now; she probably was getting ready to say something reassuring to me in some way or another. But when I looked over at her, I saw that she was fast asleep… on that… man's lap, her head resting on his chest. She looked like she was in a peaceful dream. I would know. I've watched her sleep before. I could describe just about every single one of her facial expressions if I really wanted to. And it wasn't fair that I didn't have a safe place in my head anymore. Edward, stupid vampire, could read everything going through my mind right now.

I bet if it wasn't for the fact that he could read my mind, I probably would have liked the guy. But I bet if I slipped up, he would tell Embry everything he heard the minuet he got the chance. I couldn't understand why Dee wanted me here. She has to know how I feel about her… but then again, maybe I could have done everything in a different way. But hell, she was practically an empath when it came to me and Heather! She should know. I felt like punching something. I wanted to be violent. I wanted that man to be afraid of me. But he wasn't just any ordinary guy, if he was, I would have hit him the moment I saw him just for having his hands on her. But Alice warned me that that would have been a very bad idea, and I would have hurt Dee's feelings. She seemed like she knew Dee well, I could understand where she was coming from, about it hurting Dee's feelings if I hit someone.

For the first time in my life, I felt that all the things I've done, where not enough.

"Oh man, come on! Give it a rest!" Edward suddenly said. I took my eyes away from Dee's sleeping body, and looked at him. "You could give it a rest you know, you could block me out." I snapped. "If I could I would. I'm getting tired of listening to you complain in your head." He told me more harshly. "Don't worry Edward, I'm getting it pretty bad over here too." Jasper, I think was who it was, said. Oh yeah, that's right, he could feel what I'm feeling. Fuck. I have no safe place here. I wanted to growl nearly half as impressively as these guys could. I heard Edward chuckle.

"Alice, were is Dee going to be sleeping?" I heard Embry ask. "Come on Embry, I will show you to your guy's room. Be careful not to wake her. Id bet she hasn't actually slept in days." She said standing up. Why wouldn't Dee be sleeping? I wondered. I heard Edward sigh. "She has been pretty stressed out, even at home. She was with Brian, and then with you constantly trying to guilt trip her… she didn't take it too well." Edward told me. This flared my anger. "I wasn't trying to guilt trip her!" I said standing up. Good thing Embry had taken her out of the room, or else I would have woken her up to prove my point. Edward stood up, said something so low in Bella's ear that I couldn't hear it, and then she picked Nessie up and flew out the back door. Then, suddenly, he was in my face. The room was cleared, no one else was there but him and Jake.

"I am standing up to you young man, because I do happen to care for Dee, and I swear if you make this any harder on her, I will gladly take you out of the picture." Edward snarled in my face. I was taller than him, but not by much, so I glared down at him as best I could. "You wouldn't dare kill me. She still loves me. It would break her to pieces if you killed me." I said, trying to sound dangerous.

"No one said they were going to kill you. He simply said he was going to take you out of the picture. Now back off." Jacob said, placing a hand on my chest and pushed a bit, so that way I had no choice but to stagger back. I had never, not once in my life, come across anyone that I couldn't beat up. I was so mad about that one simple fact that I shook. "CJ you have to understand that we care for Dee too. She is practically a younger sister to me already, and I want to make sure that when I send her back to Vegas, that you aren't going to give her a break down." Edward said, trying to sound calm. "Why are you blaming me?" I asked. "What did I do to her, to make you guys react this way to me?" I asked. I felt like they were judging me before they even got the chance to know me.

"You have to remember that I can see into your mind, and I can see into hers. She played back all of her memories for me earlier, well to the best that she could, and I saw how you treated her from her eyes. She is afraid that you are going to make her life hell, because she does know that you love her, but you make her feel unwanted. That was your mistake." Edward told me. I let out a long breath."Ugh! I'm so STUPID!" I roared. "Edward, how can I fix this?" I asked, almost pleaded with the guy.

"Just simply be her friend. That's all she wants." He told me. I sighed. I wanted to be more than that. Now more than I ever have. It's true when they say that you never know what you really have until you loose it. I guess you could say I was jealous, and I would tell you that you were right. I should be the one carrying her to bed, not him. "Actually," Edward interrupted my thoughts, "He is supposed to be the one carrying her to bed. Soul mates, remember?" he said raising an eyebrow. "You know, if Alice never had a vision of Dee, Embry and her wouldn't be together." I said, beginning to pace. "Yes they would. Not now, but they would have been in the future. You know she was planning on moving here when she got older. He would have imprinted on her then, if it were not for us interfering." He told me. Ugh! I just couldn't win! I continued to pace. I was thinking about everything I had done with Dee and said to her, and I could now see why she felt that I didn't want her. Because when I got back from Alabama, I didn't ask for her back. I didn't wait for her like I'm sure she wanted. Instead, I started going out with her best friend. I'm such an idiot! I wish I had never broken up with her when I did.

But you cant change the past. I would have to give in with good grace. I could see now that I couldn't win. I would just have to do what she did when I left: try to be happy with someone else. I wouldn't let her see how painful it is to see her with him. I would have to make her happy, in the only way that I can.

"Thank you…" Edward whispered. What could I say to that? 'Oh yeah sure sure your welcome.' Oh hell no. I was only doing this to make her happy. Not him. He chuckled, then showed me to my room. "Oh and please," Edward said in the doorway, "Don't break the furniture, unless you want to upset Esme." He said with a smile, and closed the door behind him. Tonight, was going to be a very, very, hard night.

(A/N I hope yall enjoyed reading CJ's point of view. I might even do it in Embry's point of view soon. It all depends on you guys! XDDD Justtttt Kiddinggggg. It actually just depends on my mood, but if anyone has a suggestion, please, lets hear it!)