A/N: I just got so inspired all of a sudden. It's spring break for me and that means time off with my bf who totally buys the idea of Light and L together. It's great to be around Death Note fans.
Disclaimer: I don't own L…or Light.
L understood why Light was angry with him for the next several days after the little incident. By responding to L's touch, Light had ceded control of the relationship to L. Light was a proud person and not being in control was probably devastating to him. So L gave Light his space and let the teen pout for a few days. Light had shrunk L and kept him in his desk drawer while he went to school. Unfortunately for L, Light would not let him revert to being a doll, so L was excruciatingly bored for six hours while he waited for Light's return.
However, after about a week of venom from Light, it seemed that L was finally forgiven. Light had freed him from the desk drawer and allowed him to revert back to human size. Light gave L a dirty look and then climbed into bed for the night.
L waited quietly until Light had fallen asleep and then crawled into bed with the cranky teen. L liked watching Light sleep. All the angst, anger, and uncertainty were gone from Light's face. He looked calm and serene.
L gently touched Light's cheek with a fingertip. "Raito-kun, please do not remain angry with me," he whispered.
Light's eyes napped open and he stared at L with shock. "L? What are you doing?"
"Nothing," L said quickly. "I am only admiring Raito-kun's attractive features."
"You're not going to do anything to me?" Light asked suspiciously.
"Of course not. I regret my actions. I felt that you would be hindered by indecision and fear of the unknown and we would never make progress in our relationship. I felt that unless I showed you that it could be accomplished with no pain, you would never be willing to take the next step."
Light nodded. "Oh." His eyes slid shut and soon he was sleeping again.
L sighed. He lifted his finger again to lightly trace Light's cheekbones. He envied Light for being so pretty and angelic.
Light shifted closer to L and made a contented noise in the back of his throat. "R'zaki," he murmured.
L smiled faintly and kissed Light's cheek. "Yes, Raito-kun. I am here for you. I will always be here for you."
When Light woke up the next morning, he was surprised to see L curled up beside him. Light had really never seen L sleep. But L was fast asleep, dreaming about something wonderful judging by the huge smile on his face.
Light cautiously rolled away from L and began getting dressed for the day. L immediately rolled onto his back and flopped his arms to the sides, taking up most of the bed.
Light made an irritated noise in the back of his throat. Light really wanted to sit on the edge of the bed to put on his socks, but decided that since he was already up, L could hog the bed if he wanted to sleep in.
Light sat on the floor to pull on his socks, but was distracted by a low piteous whine from L. "No," L whimpered. "Please don't do this. I don't belong to you anymore."
Light got to his feet and stared down at L as L flailed around on the bed. "No, please!" L yelped. "It hurts…it hurts."
Light placed his hands on L's shoulders. "Wake up, L. It's just a bad dream."
L swung a fist at him and Light backed away a bit. "L, wake up," Light said loudly.
L rolled over onto his side. "No," L said quietly. "Raito-kun is my master now. I will do whatever it takes to protect him. You may take me instead."
The pained noises L made next tore at Light's heart. He jumped on the bed and started shaking L again, ignoring L's wild kicks and punches. "L, you have to wake up. This is just a nightmare. Wake up, damn it."
L stilled and his eyes slowly opened. "Raito-kun?" L asked softly. "Are you okay?"
"Of course I'm okay. That was just a silly dream, idiot."
L's eyes welled with tears. "I was so afraid for you, Raito-kun. I thought you would have to suffer as I did. I wanted to do everything I could to prevent that."
Light gathered L into his arms. "It's okay. It was just a dream. I'm fine and you're fine. No one will ever hurt you again. I promise."
"Is Raito-kun still mad at me?" L asked in a small voice.
"Mad at you? Why the hell would I be mad at you?"
L flushed. "I acted without your permission."
"Oh. Well, yeah. I was a little annoyed. But I suppose it's for the best. No amount of anger will ever get me my virginity back. I should just move on and accept it. I mean, it's not like I never want to have sex with you. I was just so overly worried about the whole concept of losing my virginity that I probably never would have acted on my own. I think you did the right thing."
L let out a sigh of relief. "Good. I would hate to have Raito-kun mad at me. I felt so lonely when you weren't speaking to me."
"God, I feel so stupid. I don't know why I had to be so cruel to you. I guess I felt like I needed to punish you for wounding my pride. But it was hard for me to be away from you too. I just ended up making us both miserable."
"Don't feel bad, Raito-kun." L took Light's hand and pressed it to his cheek. "We have resolved our issues. Love does not always go smoothly."
Light sighed. "I've been meaning to ask you about that. If I love you and you love me…what happens now? Are you supposed to vanish in a puff of smoke or something?"
L groaned. "Don't remind me, Raito-kun. I don't want to leave you."
"But if we're in love, the spell is supposed to be broken, right? I don't want to see you go either, but at the rate we're going, it's going to happen pretty quickly. We're falling hard for each other."
L chewed his thumbnail. "Perhaps we are not completely involved with each other and that is the reason I'm still here."
"Sex again? If it keeps you here longer, I'll put off having sex for as long as it takes."
L frowned. "I doubt that is the only thing keeping me here."
"Oh yeah? So what do you think is keeping you here?"
L blinked at Light. "Isn't it obvious? I don't want to leave you, Raito-kun. I don't want the curse to be broken if it means leaving you."
"Don't stay just because of me. Heaven is a much better place to be. I'll see you there eventually. Don't waste your time here on earth."
L shook his head. "I will not go to heaven when I die."
"Well, you damn well aren't going to hell. You're too good for that."
L smiled faintly. "I will neither go to heaven nor hell. No Death Doll ever will."
"So, what? You just vanish into nothingness?"
L shrugged. "I do not know what happens to us after the curse is lifted. Some of the other Death Dolls think that perhaps we will go to someplace in between. But I'm not keen to find out. I want to remain with Raito-kun as long as possible."
Light stroked L's hair. "But if you stay with me, the curse will never be broken, right?"
"I am willing to take that chance, Raito-kun. Perhaps after you die, instead of finding a new master, I will be released."
Light sighed and got up. "It's not fair to you. The only way to break your curse is to get you into a position where you don't want the curse to be broken. It's fucked up."
L slid out of bed and stood beside Light. "It will be fine, Raito-kun. As long as I get to spend time with you, whatever happens next will be bearable."
"Okay, I don't want to talk about this anymore. I'm getting dressed."
L blinked. "Today is Sunday, Raito-kun. You do not have school."
Light grinned. "I know. I'm taking you out."
L's eyes widened. "Where are we going?"
"On a date."
"Where?" L demanded.
Light smirked. "The Cheesecake factory."
L squealed with joy. "Strawberry cheesecake?"
"If that's all you want. They have lots to choose from though."
L threw himself at Light, knocking the teen to the floor. "Raito-kun is the best master ever," L squealed.
Light laughed. "Okay, okay. Get off me, you little sugarholic. You're not supposed to be this hyper until after you've eaten."
Light stilled suddenly as he heard a knock at the door. "Light?" Sachiko called out. "You have a friend from school here to see you."
"Aw crap," Light hissed. "We gotta hide you." Light wrestled off Relk's robe and pulled L's clothes back on. L morphed back into a lifeless doll. However, before Light actually had a chance to shrink L, Misa burst into the room.
"Liiiight!" Misa squealed. "Misa is so happy to hear that you feel better. Misa was so worried."
Light backed away from her carefully. "Yeah, Misa. I've recovered nicely. I'll be back to school Monday."
Misa giggled. "Misa is so glad. Misa missed you a lot. She would like to-oh! What's this?"
Light cringed as Misa bent down to study L.
Misa looked over her shoulder back at Light. "Misa didn't know Light was into dollies."
Light sighed. "It's not mine. It belongs to a friend. I'm just storing it for now."
Misa looked at L critically. "Your friend bought this?"
"No, it's…uh…handmade. One of a kind."
Misa made a disapproving noise. "Your friend has bad taste."
Light hid his flare of temper pretty well. He sat down on the floor next to L and kept his face neutral.
Misa wandered around Light's bedroom, gushing over everything. "Light's room is so cool. I love it!"
Light rolled his eyes and leaned against L, wishing he could actually talk to the doll.
Misa grabbed piece of paper and a marker and thrust them at Light. "Here. Write Misa a nice love note. Then you can mail it to me and Misa will be so happy to get something nice in the mail."
Light reluctantly accepted the paper and the marker. He rolled up L's shirt a little bit so he could use L's back as a firm writing surface. Misa sat on Light's desk chair and watched gleefully.
Light looked at her out of the corner of one eye. She couldn't actually see what he was writing so he decided to take the time to write how he actually felt about her and then just pretend the letter got lost in the mail.
'Misa is hideous. She talks waaaaay too much. She thinks she's pretty so everyone should like her, but she's got an awful personality. I hate spending time with her. Any one with half a clue could see that I hate her, but she doesn't have a clue. Not one bit. I hate hearing her talk. I hate seeing her. I wish she would go trip and fall down the stairs or something so I wouldn't have to see her again. Someone needs to kill her. Die, Misa, die!'
As soon as Light had finished his note, he felt much better. He folded it nicely and tucked it into his pocket. He smiled at Misa. "Okay, look for it in the mail next week."
Misa squealed delightedly. "Oh, thank you! Misa is so happy. Well, Misa will see you tomorrow at school. Bye!" She flounced off down the stairs
Light groaned as he looked at L's back. "Damn it. The marker bled through." He got a wet washcloth and tried to wipe the black smudges off.
"Light?" Sachiko called. "Aren't you going to walk your friend out to her car?"
Light groaned. "Yes, coming." He threw the washcloth to the side and stormed out of the room.
Light wasn't there to see it, but the black smudges slowly started to fade away, leaving only two words glowing gold, "kill her".