Ugh, I have got the weirdest head spin, it just ain't funny, so if all of a sudden it has a tonn of spelling errors, I fell on the keyboard HAHA O.o
Baitdcat-- LoL it's Inuyasha, how do ya think he will react HAHA....badly i think, dunno lets find out :S
TaiYoukai-Lover-- LOL that sucks, luckily....well i do that sometimes too, i get all excited because i think i have completed another chapter of this story, then i realize i had already posted -.- all that weird happy dancing for NOTIN', Haha, ANYWAY, i think i shall look at some of your stories, it's the least i can do since you put up with mine HAHAHA anyway, HOPE YA ENJOY THIS CHAPPY
Pumpkinpi-- OF COURSE he had to insult first, it is Sesshy, he can't be nice to Inuyasha, it is just unnatural lol
Anyway ON WITH THE CHAPTER, don't ya just love me, I AM UPDATING LIKE A MAD WOMAN, keep on reviewing, I am updating because of it, i always feel bad when you guys review and I don't update for ages, i am also awesome BECAUSE I DREW SOME OF THE SCENES FROM THIS STORY ALTHOUGH some of them haven't happened yet O.o so maybe a little insight on whats to come MUAHAHAHAHA, but if i do post this today (Thursday 12th March) then they wont be up yet, so when they are CHECK THEM OUT ON MY DA PAGE i have posted the link on my profile, ENJOY THE CHAPTER
Scar tissue is stronger then regular tissue, realize the strength, move on
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The full moon was tonight, it was the blue moon, oh how he loved the blue moon, it was always his favourite, he loved it even more then his birthday moon, because it was the one night his parents would stop fighting, the one night they were just in love, no complications, no yelling, just them and the wonders that came along with the luminous blue moon, he sat on the edge of the cliff looking down on the meadows, the pale green grass swaying the the wind and basking the the misty rain, his silvery hair hung wet down his small face, but he didn't care, he wouldn't miss this for anything, it was the only time he ever felt like he had a family, the only time he felt...whole
His heart swelled when he saw her, her own molten silver locks flowing freely behind her, the misty rain casting a celestial look about her, a smile, she was smiling, kami it had been a while since he last saw her do that, he only wished she did it more often, the 12 year old Sesshomaru starting smiling with her, how could you not, like a laugh it was infectious, it seemed just rude not to smile when she was, her pearly white canines peeking out of her bottom lip, in his eyes, his mother was perfect
Cold, the misty rain started turning cold, snowing, like it always did, the snow always fell, it was her presence that did it, everything turned colder when she arrived, humans call her the ice queen, Sesshomaru didn't know why, she was the kindest person there was, she never hurt a human, she never hunted, she never raised her voice at him and the only time he had ever seen her transform into her true self was on this night, this night he would remember always
The trees rustled and the silhouette of him, his father appeared through the foliage, a warrior, a proud warrior, the man that the young youkai looked up to, his idol, he gracefully walked through the meadows to her, the pup awed at his father, how could he walk so gracefully, Sesshomaru always tripped over his toes, wobbled or just ran, he was the clumsiest inu there was, even his father had said so, his mother had scolded father for saying such a thing and said it wasn't true, but it had always stuck with him, imprinted in his mind, he had to get better, he had to make father proud, he had to make father see he was worthy of being part of the silver inu clan, that he would rein as a fearless and great leader of the western land, be the best there ever was
Mother was smiling even more now, she reached out to her mate and touched his cheek, but he did nothing to return her touch, he just stared coldly into her light eyes, something was wrong, he could felt the cold stab through his heart and the voice calling out in his head, father was acting strangely, he spoke, his smooth words echoing through the hills, his voice made the hair on Sesshomaru's arms prickle, his words were stone, the pup sat up straight, his heart beating in his ears, the sharp sting of tears welled within his eyes
Stumbling back, his mother latched onto the area above her heart, clenching at the fabric in hopes that somehow the pain might stop, Sesshomaru scrambled to his feet and darted toward her, she was in pain, he skidded down the hills, what was going on, what was he doing? the pup cried out as he tripped over his feet and landed face first in the mud, he sat up and wiped what he could from his eyes, Sesshomaru gulped, suddenly wishing he hadn't, his father was glaring down at him, a mixture of scolding and anger swirling within their depths, he roughly grabbed his son by the arm and yanked him up to his feet, "I told you to stay home" he growled, his mouth turned into sandpaper, he had embarrassed himself again in front of the one man he admired, he had made a fool and a mockery of his heritage again, he turned away from his fathers disapproving stare, not able to bear taking the weight that came with his disappointment any longer
Then he heard it, the one thing that made him snap, his mother heart wrenching sobs in the background, she was crying, and his father was doing absolutely nothing about it, he was just standing there making him feel even more pathetic then he already did, Sesshomaru looked past his father towards his mother, tears streamed down her cheeks, her cries layered with angst and sorrow, "W-what are you doing?" he rasped out, "Why aren't you helping her!" Sesshomaru screamed, he needed to be brave, he needed to know what was going on
He said nothing, only staring, burning the message loud and clear into his brain, he was leaving, and he wasn't coming back this time, tears spilled over his eyes, he couldn't hold it any longer, the inu taiyoukai dropped his son to the ground and turned his back to them, walking away from them as if they something of no value, something he had no use for, the young inu prince watched him leave, with each step he took away from them, a little bit of him died, untill he could no longer feel his father near he didn't move and inch, he stayed like stone untill his scent was clear of the area, he had gone, he had left them
Sesshomaru broke out into sobs of his own, he crawled slowly to his mother, she lay on the grass unmoving, Sesshomaru knew what would happen now, he had always feared it, she would no longer stay, she would leave into the other world, she couldn't hold onto life without him, without father, he was shaking, the wind blew more ferociously, tentatively he stroked his mothers tear streaked face, she let out a choked sob and wrapped her ice cold hand around his warm one, blood spilled over her lips and onto the grass below her, she was fading fast, he let out another sob, "P-please don't leave me" he whimpered, "I-I can't lose you too", he bowed his head, tears falling off his face and onto her forehead
Slowly and shakily she ran her hand through his long silver locks and cupped his cheek, wearing a strained smile, "You don't need me Sesshomaru" she barely whispered, Sesshomaru shook his head violently and lifted his mother into a crushing embrace, feeding as much life as he could into her, hoping, praying that she would survive and stay by his side, his heart was breaking, into little pieced, she snarled ferociously, "Don't" she snapped, "Don't you dare" more power in her voice this time, Sesshomaru shook even more and held her tighter, he wasn't going to let her go, "Sesshomaru!" she screamed, the first time he had ever heard her raise her voice against him
"N-no, I WONT LET YOU" he cried, suddenly he felt weak, he wouldn't be able to keep it up any longer, he wouldn't be able to keep her, he pulled back, his bottom lip trembled, she wasn't going to make it and she knew it already, she was going to leave him, just like father, "WHY" he roared, "WHY WONT YOU FIGHT", all she did was smile and encircle her arms around his small waist, a small purring sound erupted in her chest, Sesshomaru leaned against her, it's what she used to do when he was a pup, whenever he would have a nightmare, she would just hold him a purr, it was always soothing, Sesshomaru lay on the ground staring at the forest of which his father vanished in
She lay down beside him, staring into his tired eyes, he had lost a lot of power trying to save her, "I have finished my fight", she tucked a loose strand of hair behind his ear, he was to sleep soon, "You look just like your father" she mumbled lovingly, a lone tear rolling down her scarred cheek, before finally no life were held within her crystalline eyes, only a cold stare, Sesshomaru reached out and closed her empty eyes, he ran a clawed finger over the scars that decorated her face, his father couldn't look past them anymore, humans had robbed her of her once glorious beauty, and in his fathers eyes she was no long worth staying with, he had saved her though, through their bond as mates, she was kept alive, though now he had left her, she was doomed to this fate
Her last words echoed through his ears, he let his hand drop by his side, "All father ever did was make you cry" he whispered, "Yet you still loved him, you stayed with him, you saw everything nobody else could, and even on your deathbed-" he swallowed the lump in his throat, "You loved him, you were a faithful mate and beautiful mother, and I will never forgive him for his betrayal" he intertwined his hand with hers and squeezed it tightly, "I'm sorry...I couldn't save you", he drifted off, into a darkness he welcomed, where no pain could follow him...for now, he would enjoy the comfort it provided him, at least for a little while
Tonight wasn't meant to be like this....
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He flew up, breathing heavily, Sango screamed and fell on her backside, the taiyoukai placed a clawed hand over his chest, his heart was beating rapidly, what the hell was that, he had never had a dream like that before, he had never dreamed of her before, not in a long time, Sesshomaru growled, he thought he had gotten rid of those for good, anger swelled through him through the memory, the memory of which his father left them both, left him alone, killed his mother and left him at the mere age of 12 to fend for himself, to make his own way in life without the comforts of being a prince, the only man he had ever wanted to make proud, left them behind in the dust, he clenched his fists, Sango yelped, the Taiyoukai snapped his head toward her, his eyes flickered down to their intertwined hands, the taijiya by now was very nervous, he would have pulled away if his grip on her had not been so tight, slowly and dangerously his stony amber eyes focused on her again, "What are you doing" he hissed
Sango felt as if she would burst into flames by the look he was giving her, but weirdly this was the most emotion she had ever seen in him, his voice was laced with something other than coldness, she could hear anger, fury and pain....pain? yes, it was in his eyes as well, his mask wasn't up, he was vulnerable at the moment and incredibly dangerous, but she couldn't look away, she was frozen in place, there was something else in his eyes, something she recognized all to well, it was in the eyes of her family when ever they looked at her, it was- "Love"
The thumping in his ears was starting to give him a headache, had she just said love, she was just sitting there, staring at him, no, staring right through him, though his barriers, she was staring into him, through everything he was hiding, with a snarl he de-tangled their hands and bolted up to his feet, desperate to get out of the area, with in a flash, all the was left was a white blur flying through the dense forest, he had to get away and fix the mask that had so easily been broken, he couldn't, he would never let that happen again, he couldn't, he had worked to hard to let it all fall to one little taijiya
So he did have feelings after all, he wasn't some machine, he could hurt, he could be angry, he could love... Sango looked over toward Inuyasha and Kagome, Sesshy, he still existed within him, he was still there, but he was drowning in the darkness and anger that Sesshomaru seemed to be holding onto, but one question lingered in Sango's mind, what was the cause of the bitterness, she stared down at her hand, maybe she cared a little more then she was letting on, maybe the taiyoukai had gotten past her own barriers without her knowing, either way this was effecting her in a way she never knew it could, she cared about him, but what worried her more, was how deep the feelings were, she prayed to kami she hadn't gotten herself into anything she couldn't handle, but then again, she always got herself into things that were over her head, that's how she always had been
Long chapter, kinda sad, but it is my take on what happened, THE LONGEST CHAPTER SO FAR, anyway, R&R