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Chapter 13: Music, nerves and Jacob Black

Nessie POV

I reached music and went inside, class had already begun. Not again. Mr Taylor was nowhere to be seen. Everyone had gotten into there pairs, I saw Jessica sat on her own. I sighed and walked up to her.

"hey Jess what's up" I asked as I sat next to her on the cold plastic chair. She looked up at me and smiled.

"nothing much just waiting for you to arrive, so we can begin" she replied in a happy tone.

"so I hear Josh asked you to Heathers party" she continued.

"yes he did" I replied. Her smile grew bigger. It was contagious and I started smiling too. I mean I did like Josh but not as a boyfriend.

"that's great, Harrison asked me, there like best friends. So do you and Josh want to ride with us" she asked. That was a surprise, I had no idea who Harrison was maybe he was one of the boys Josh was talking too.

"sure I would love to, but I think we should ask Josh. I mean he did ask me" I replied pulling the song out of my bag.

"don't worry about it he will love the idea, trust me. You are sitting with us at lunch tomorrow right" she asked with hope written all over his face.

"yes I am" I replied with a laugh. I only tutored Jacob on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday and after school. Tomorrow was Wednesday so I was free. But one thing bothered me why did they want me to sit with them so much.

"good because everyone wants to meet you" she replied so easily. Wait why does everyone want to meet me.

"I hope you don't mind me asking but why is everyone so excited to see me" I asked holding the CD and lyrics in my hand.

"well Josh wouldn't stop talking about a girl he met and he said she was amazing and beautiful. Well after hearing this we had to meet the girl who got Josh all worked up" she replied with a laugh. I began to blush. He thought I was beautiful.

"cool you brought the song" she said taking bringing me back to reality. I looked at my hand that held the CD and lyrics. I stretched out my arm and gave them to her. She started looking through the lyrics.

"okay this is really good. We should get started now" she said in a rush. She grabbed my arm with her free hand and dragged me over to Mr Taylor, who was near a small room in the back. So this was where he was. I looked at the sign above the room it said recording studio. My stomach began to knot and turn, I am usually okay with singing but singing in front of hall which is packed full of students and families. Not so good at.

"come on Nessie were next. Mr Taylor said he would play the drums for us" she said with a slight twinkle in her voice. After that she pulled me into the room. It was small but cosy and was painted a deep blue. In front of me were two microphones standing in the centre. I walked over and stood in front of the one on the right, the music began playing. I took a deep breath and began.

We were both in there for most of the lesson, by the end I was feeling more confident that I could stand up and sing in front of people. I said almost because those people would be my family and Jacob. He was the only one who bothered me. The bell rang and we headed off to our lessons. I waved goodbye to Jessica and carried on down the hall. It was a shame Jess didn't have PE with me, instead I was stuck with Jacob. Well speak of the devil and he shall appear.

Stood near the entrance to the Gym was Jacob and Leah. They were whispering to each other, but with my vampire senses I could hear every word they said.

"I love you, with all my heart" Leah said with a gentle tone.

"as I love you with everything I am" Jacob simply stated back. With that his hands cupped her face and they began kissing. Passionately. I turned away I could feel the tears starting to appear in my eyes. Stop Nessie now, he is with Leah and he loves her with everything he has. Be happy for him. I said to myself over and over again, but I could feel my heart breaking. I knew he loved her but I never heard him say it. I couldn't face him now for an hour. Only one thing to do skip.

I began walking in the opposite direction to the gym. I had no idea where I was going but wherever it was it wasn't gym. On the way here I saw a forest not far from school, I could just go there until school was over. I quickened my pace and speed walked across the school. Once the coast was clear I made a run for it. Once I reached the overgrowth I began to slow down. I was deep inside the forest not enough that I didn't know my way back to school. I stopped dead in my tracks and fell to the floor. I didn't hold back the tears I let them stream down my face. I thought about my life. I loved Jacob for so long that I would probably always love him but he loved Leah. And then Josh, I think he likes me. But would it really be fair to fall for Josh when there isn't any room in my heart for him.

Listen to yourself Nessie, a nice boy may like you and your loving someone who is already in love. I was so stupid Josh liked me and I knew it, Jacob didn't and that would be something I would have to live with. I mean I could still be best friends with him right and try not to love him. I had to try and maybe give Josh a chance. I stopped my thinking to hear footsteps coming closer.

"hey sweetie, I saw you come out here and I decided to follow to make sure that you were okay" I turned around to see Alice stood on the path from which I came. Tears were still rolling down my face. She opened her arms motioning me to come over to her. And I did, I ran into Alice's hard, cold chest and cried for what felt like hours.

"school is nearly finished. We should get back" Alice chimed playing with the tip of my corn weave. I rose and she followed she held out her hand and I took it. We walked back the way we came through the thick undergrowth to the parking lot. Once there I could see my family stood close and Jacob was near by, talking to them. Daddy didn't look happy. He must have heard my thoughts because he looked straight at me. Everyone saw his head move and followed, my mothers and Jacobs eyes widened when they saw the state of me. I must have looked bad because everyone looked shocked. Please daddy I don't want to talk about it okay. I sent it mentally, with that I let go of Alice's and walked to the Volvo and got in. The drive home was completely silent. Only the sound of my heart could be heard throughout the car. Once home I rushed to my room and closed the door. I jumped on my bed and cried some more. After a while I started getting tired, my eyelids were involuntary closing My lasts thoughts were I can never stop loving you Jacob Black, but I have to try. For my sake and yours.

Okay guys please tell me what you think. I have this entire story worked out and for those who love drama then the next few chapters should be good.

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