Beware! This chapter is full of angst! And Riku's thoughts on how he met Xion. It hurt my brain, I'm never good at writing in guy's point of views.
Enjoy the angsty-ness!
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"Which one is the real Riku?"
"Which one is the real Riku?"
"Which one is the real Riku?!"
"WHICH ONE IS THE REAL RIKU?!?!"
"Yeah Riku, which one is the real you?"
Riku sat between his house and garden shed, one leg straight out and the other up against his chest. The shade from the house cast over him, encasing him in it's coolness. One of his hands held his head, and the other was balled up in a fist.
"Dammit!" he growled out. He punched the ground. "Why did you have to go and say that Xion?!" He slouched back against the wall of the house.
Riku remembered her first day of school, middle of the semester. She walked into the cafeteria looking around, as if waiting to see someone. Her blue eyes looked so inviting, so welcoming that he reallywanted to talk to her. Then he saw who she was following, and was immediately turned away - even though Olette was in theatre, nobody actually liked her.
He watched as she sat down at the other end of the table. He was talking to both Selphie and Zidane - waiting to see what the new girl would do. When he glanced at her out of the corner of his eye, she blushed and he started to laugh.
She had been staring at him!
Selphie had asked him what was up, he just shrugged it off. He didn't need to tell her, she'd find out soon enough.
He watched, along with everybody else in the cafeteria, as Xion snuck up to Roxas, of whom he did know to be her brother, and Axel and scare the blond Senior. Then Riku watched as she and Axel hugged, as if they had missed each other after being separated for a long period of time.
The next time he saw her, she was talking to Mr. Raulaim. He watched with the rest of the theatre troupe as Marluxia complimented her on her role as Mimi. Then her familiarity came rushing back. He then heard that she was going to audition for Johanna.
Riku already knew he was going for Anthony, what would happen if she got Johanna? He would have to kiss her, Sora's little sister. He didn't know what to think. And yet, he wanted - no, prayed- for her to get that role. She was so...intriguing. Quiet, yet her eyes and body language spoke volumes. Xion was different from any other girl.
Then he remembered the first time he drove her home. She was quiet and listened as he sang. That morning, he didn't even think anybody heard him as he changed the lyrics of Johanna - but apparently she had. The one person he didn't want to hear, had heard him.
Riku sighed and pulled a few blades of grass from the ground. He banged his head against the siding of the house and went back to being nostalgic.
When they were practicing for Kiss Me, he didn't know if he would kiss her or not. Once the part actually happened, he held her close and ghosted his lips over hers.
What he wouldn't have given for pulling her just a few millimeters closer! Riku knew that Xion liked him, he was just worried about Sora.
Once Xion left, Tifa had commented about them. He lied, saying he didn't feel for her that way. Apparently, she had been listening at the door on that too. Riku groaned as he could only imagine all the conflicting emotions she had.
He was feeling them right now.
Then they had there audition when he threw caution to the wind and kissed her. Xion had felt so right in his arms, as if she were made just for him. He didn't have to actsheepish once they went into their final part. Riku also noticed the blush she had been wearing.
Riku clenched his fists as he felt rage. He remembered when Tidus first talked to her. Riku had never liked him, especially since he had done what he did to Xion to Selphie (who was his best female friend). He watched as he draped over her, and Riku wondered what had happened to the possibility of him and Xion.
He had felt such joy over both of them getting their parts, he even brushed over the fact that Tidus had gotten Toby. Riku then remembered the rage of seeing Tidus hurt her.
Riku knew that he had fallen for Xion, and he went down hard.
That night when she walked in all battered and looking broken, he didn't know what to do. He comforted her as she cried. He listened to her explanation, thinking about ways to kill the idiot.
Then they had kissed.
Xion's lips had been chapped, but she was still an excellent kisser. He had laid them down as they started to make out, something that he had done with only a few girls before. Once she gasped, he snapped back into his old mind. The 'You-Idiot-You're-Kissing-Your-Best-Friend's-Sister-What-Are-You-Thinking' Riku. He pushed her off and ran from the room, knowing that she was crying on the couch.
Once she went into her room to sleep, he sat against her door and listened to the quiet. Riku didn't like to admit it, but he was sobbing silently. How could he have done that?!
The next morning, he had told the Strife's and Axel about what had happened and he didn't even have to tell them his plan before they were all in the van. Sora wrote a quick note to Xion and laid a plate of muffins out for her.
Then they left to go and beat up Tidus.
Which they did, something the jerk hadn't been expecting. He was just coming back from a party at Xaldin's and none of his blitzball buddies were there to save his skin. Even though Tidus got in a few good hits, they too took a few good swings and then he ran away, with a threat that if he told the cops something bad would happen.
The five of them got back to the Strife house and all walked quietly to the living room, flicking on the TV. They heard Xion pounding down the stairs, tripping on the last one. She then stuck her head around the corner and Riku slouched, keeping his face out of view.
Xion questioned them. Roxas and Sora and the others fired back, even making her go a little sappy. Then they left, which Riku hadn't noticed at all. He was surprised when he felt the couch sink down and someone sit beside him. He scooted away, not wanting to be near her. He could smell Xion.
Finally he straightened and he heard her gasp. He knew that there was a huge bruise around his eye. One of Tidus's good hits. Then Xion had to go and be the comforting type as she tried to reach up but he pulled away.
"Self-imposed boundary? What was I thinking?" Riku questioned. He closed his eyes, blocking out the following share of words. And then the stream restarted.
"Which one is the real Riku?"
"Which one is the real Riku?"
"Which one is the real Riku?!"
"WHICH ONE IS THE REAL RIKU?!?!"
"Yeah Riku, which one is the real you?"
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So? How was the angsty-ness? Review please! Two more chapters and this story is at it's end!!
-The Gray Rook