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Sorry guys life's been pretty hectic the last month, I have now left school and finished all my exams. Just college and my job left to do now. I will be updating every week if I can so enjoy the chapter.

Chapter 28 : Running away has never been so hard

Nessie POV

My surroundings were nothing but a blur, my feet were pounding the forest floor. My new acquired eyes could pick everything up in the forest, I thought my vampire eyes were good but these were even better. Every leaf, stone or insect I could see so clearly as I darted through the trees. The sky was still midnight black and the full moon shone in all its glory, it was behind me I could feel it on my back shinning down like a light from heaven.

I don't know how long I had been running but it had been a while. I estimated the time at around 2:30am but I wasn't sure. I had never wanted to get away so fast in my life. The looks on my families and the packs faces, pure shock and pain. Pain for not only what I had done to Leah but what I had become. My mothers and fathers face looked so torn and pained. I could feel water building up in the corners of my eyes. Warm, salty tears streamed down my new face. The one I hadn't seen yet.

I couldn't take it anymore the pain in my heart was to much, my feet came to slow stop. I was now in a large clearing. I let it all out the pain and sorrow and fell to my knees. My head fell instantly into my hands and I sobbed harder, not caring who hears. I broke down, I missed my family and Jacob so much I needed them. My pain was not only for missing my family but for Leah to, I didn't even know if she was alive. If Leah dies I could never face the pack again, let alone my family. I was a danger to everyone, Josh was right I am a threat.

"that's not true Renesmee" a voice said from behind me. I instantly turned around and began to attack but when I did what I saw startled me.

There stood in front of me was Alex, she looked a mess her eyes were red and puffy, her clothes were ripped. We both just looked at each other, her standing her ground and me crouched ready to attack. All my instincts were telling me to rip her to shreds but I couldn't do that she was my friend. Come on Nessie you can do this. I slowly stood up out of my crouch and put my hands up to show her I wasn't going to attack. She instantly relaxed but didn't move her feet. She stood staring at me for a while I think trying to decide if I was dangerous or not.

"I am not going to hurt you Alex. I promise" I said in the most kindest tone I could find. This made her relax more and she finally started to walk towards me, slowly but still her face looked scared.

"No one blames you for what happened back there" she said in a calm tone. I understood what she was saying but I just couldn't believe it. "she attacked you they all saw that and said it wasn't your fault" she continued. Hurting Leah wasn't my fault like hell it wasn't. If I weren't some unknown creature she wouldn't have attacked me and I wouldn't have hurt her. No I am a monster and I shouldn't b aloud to live.

"how can you stand there and say this isn't my fault. I was the one who threw Leah across the clearing not you. So don't you dare say this isn't my fault" I replied a little more acidy than needed but I couldn't help it she was making me angry. I started pacing trying to work off my anger. Ripping her throat out wouldn't be good.

"Leah is absolutely fine. She's at home resting, the doc really fixed her up good. She doesn't blame you Nessie, she knows she was in the wrong she should have listened to Jacobs order but ……." her voice trailed off until I could hear nothing.

"no continue with what you were saying, but I grabbed her by the neck and threw her across the clearing. Yeah her getting hurt wasn't my fault at all" I added in the same acid tone but with a slight twist of sarcasm. The pacing wasn't helping I needed to get my anger out but how. A large oak stood not to far from me. Perfect. I walked over and punched the tree as hard as I could, again and again. The giant oak trembled with the newly acquired strength I had. Once I had thrown my first punch I couldn't stop, punch after punch. I could feel my anger slowly melting away.

"do you feel better now?" an impatient voice said behind me. I turned around to see Alex stood staring me down and tapping her foot. She looked like she was about to discipline a child. I couldn't help but laugh. Her face was not amused but turned mellow once I started laughing.

"yeah thanks Alex I do" I answered her question. The pain was still there but I could control it now better than I could have imagined.

"we should get back to your house, Josh and the others are there. Talking to your family I think" she said with ease. The word family made my heart miss a beat. It had been so long since I saw them, excluding the clearing incident. What would they think of me, would they still love me even if I was a monster. Hell I didn't even know what my face looked like. "you haven't seen your face yet have you?" she continued with a curious look on her face. Ok either she can read minds or she has been talking to my dad. The second option sounded best. I simply shook my head. Excitement filtered across her face.

"come with me" she continued. Without another word she walked off, intrigued I followed. She stopped when we came to a car, I know this car. This was daddies Volvo. Yep defiantly been talking to my dad. She went round to the boot and started rummaging through it. After finding what she was looking for she closed the boot and walked over to me. "here look for yourself" she continued while handing me a mirror. The moment of truth Ness u finally get to see the monster you are. I looked in the mirror but what I saw didn't scare me.

My skin was darker, lighter than Jacobs but darker than my own. My lips were ruby red and looked lovely with my new complexion. My eyes were darker, still brown but more along the lines of black. The chocolate brown was still there but the black over powered it. My hair was dark brown and once again suited my new complexion. I looked amazing. I was still admiring at myself that I didn't hear Alex call my name.

"come on Ness we got to get back" she called from the drivers seat. When did she get into the car, now seeing I wasn't a monster seeing my family sounded good. I opened the passengers side an sat in the car. "don't worry Ness your family is so happy your coming home it wont matter what look like to them" she continued. I couldn't hep but smile, she was right my family would still love me no matter what I looked like. There was only one doubt would Jacob love still love me.

The car drive was long, and tiring.

"Alex when you found me where was I" I asked in a curious tone. Her face smiled a little before replying.

"put it this way Ness you are fast but have no sense of direction" she replied holding back a laugh. Now I was totally confused. She saw the confusion on my face and decided to help. "ok Ness you started in California and well stayed in California. You an around the entire forest a few times, Josh thinks it was because you didn't know where to go" she continued smiling. Oh brilliant, there was me thinking I was in like Canada. But no I was still in California.

"ok then how did you find me then" I asked trying hard not to sound like I was defeated. Her face became a little pained.

"I wasn't alone when I found you Josh was with me to. But because he had changed and you were feeling pain, it hurt him to. He found you but couldn't take the pain you were dealing with so he sent me" she replied with a sigh. I forgot that we were all linked together while in this form.

"Alex stop the car" I said quickly. "Alex stop the car now" I practically screamed. She did as I asked and pulled over. I rushed out of the car and into the forest next to the road. The burning pain was back and so was the ripping. Only this time I didn't hurt so much, I still killed but it was manageable. The sun was rising and I could feel the rays on my snow white skin. Wait when the hell did that come back. I figured since the new moon was gone I was changing back to what I was before. A half breed. The pain instantly stopped and I felt better, more like me. I turned round to see Alex stood smiling at me.

"looks like Josh told everyone to change back" she said with a sigh. Wait a minute I thought you could only change at full moon. I turned around and gave her a strange look.

"you see Ness, we can only change at full moon on our own. If Josh wants to he can give the order for us to change, but its strange I can still feel him in his werewolf form. So I don't know why you have changed back" she continued looking slightly confused, I couldn't say I blamed her I was totally lost.

"I am sure Carlisle will have some theories when we get back home" I said quickly. All I wanted to do was see my family again to be able to hold them and just be with them. Ale x just smiled and made her way back to the car, I followed excitedly. In about 2 hours I was going to see my family.