Author's Note: Hi-hi-hi! The last fic in my collection is completed now. It's dedicated to Alex and SH:Homecoming which I still love in spite of again, it's pretty angst. (Yeah, it wasn't very easy to describe the thoughts of dumb Alex... :) But I think that his story is really good for writing angsty things. It's quite inspiring for writing angst. )

I hope you'll enjoy it.

The song in the fic that Alex is listening to is "Soldiers Orders" by Mary Elizabeth McGlynn from SH:Homecoming OST. (genius...the actual song is playing in the actual moment in the actual game...:) )

The last point - where are reviews?! (He-he, I can be annoying and obstinate too! :p Don't offend. :) )

Unexpected

Game: Silent Hill:Homecoming

Character: Alex Shepherd

Feel like I'm stoned,
Wanna be alone, just for a while, unknown.
Weeks on the road a long way from home,
Just shut off the phone.

And you say I'll heal you,
I'll always be yours.
And you say I'll kill you, if I do something wrong.


(The Rasmus - "First Day of My Life")

I have to forget. These nightmares have to stop mocking at me every night.
I'm going home, I'm almost there, and I'll soon see familiar, loving faces...

Oh shit, not again. I'm waking up with a frightened scream on my lips. The driver looks at me almost interested and almost sympathetic. Almost. I have a foolish feeling as if he knows more about my nightmares than I know myself.

"Nightmares?" His voice is almost calm. What a strange guy. (However, perhaps, he is thinking the same thing about me right now.)

"Yeah..." I'm pressing my face against the cold window flowed. The driver is turning on the music.

"It started long before me…

I never saw it coming…

The distance, the promise…

A state of isolation…"

Bloody hell,why on earth I have such feeling that this song is all about me. At least, it seems to be. I'm closing my eyes and listening to the music. I still want to sleep. Maybe, I have already felt asleep.

Something forces me to open my eyes. Something strange is outside the window, and I can't realize what. Oh yeah, I've understood. For some reason it's very foggy. Shepherd's Glen has never been famous for a good and sunny weather, but it has never been such foggy as well. A fog is Silent Hill's typical feature...

Hm, I wonder why I think about Silent Hill, not about Glen. Glen is my hometown. There is my home...my family...Elle...

Oh no. When I think about Elle, a really stupid smile appears on my face even without my will. I guess I've really missed her. I've missed Josh and Mom, and...well, I've missed everyone. The only problem is that I don't exactly feel absolutely happy from the fact I'm returning.

"The answer is drowning, this pain will last forever."

"You've been gone too long."

Mom's words wound me like a knife. Neither the strict terms of the army nor the worst happenings of the war could prepare me for that I've just found out in my own house.
Josh is gone. Father is gone. Mom is ill. Even now I'm looking at her and still can't recognize her.

I feel something really bad is going on. Something very, very, VERY bad.
You haven't imagined your homecoming like THAT, have you, Alex? Huh?

All I want now is to force my way through Mom's conscious. She hasn't told me everything, I know. It's obviously not enough.
But Mom doesn't look like a woman who was waiting her son from the war, has missed him very much and now completely happy that he had returned healthy and unharmed. I'm not sure that she is my mother and I am her son.

Maybe, only Josh would be truly happy to see me. And Elle. But Josh has disappeared and I don't know where I can find Elle. I'm so fucking lucky, yeah...

Back to yourself, Alex. It's time to start searching for Josh. It's high time to find at least somebody. Glen is turning into something...well, something I wouldn't like to imagine better.