Losing Pain
Chapter Sixteen
Harry wasn't answering Draco. He was just staring at him with his tear-filled eyes. Draco tried to get him to speak by kissing the teen's fingers again, but this time Harry pulled his hand away. Draco looked at him with sadness on his face.
"Draco, please don't ask me that." Harry told him. "I really don't want to tell you the answer. You'll hate it."
"I'm here with an open mind, Harry." Draco replied. "Anything you say won't make me leave."
A smile formed on Harry's lips. "I know, but it doesn't mean you'll forget my answer."
"Harry, I'm not sure I understand you."
"It was for you, Draco." Harry said. "I stopped for you." Draco didn't know how to answer so Harry continued. "At first I just didn't go eat when I was with you. That's why I always wanted to skip eating. I wanted more time with you. Afterwards though, things started to change. I just couldn't force myself to eat."
"Harry, you looked fine." Draco told him and caressed his sunken in cheek.
"No, I didn't eat because I thought I didn't look good enough for you. Yes, you look perfect while I have this ugly scar on my forehead, but that wasn't it. Food just looked revolting. I felt like I'd get sick if any of it touched my tongue. I really didn't know what was wrong with me."
"As time went on, it just got worse, didn't it?" Draco asked.
Harry nodded. "It's just something I couldn't stop or control. I know that I look horrible. It looks like I'm on my deathbed. This is why I've hated myself so much lately." Harry told him. "I bet if I was eating regularly, I would have quit cutting myself before we graduated."
Draco couldn't help himself, he hugged Harry tightly. Harry tried to push him away, but he was too weak. Draco didn't even notice the attempt.
"Draco...Draco...I...can't...breathe..." Harry was able to choke out. This Draco did hear and immediately let go.
"I'm sorry, Harry. I'm really sorry." He said as he checked over the fragile boy. "I'm going to help you get better, no matter what it takes."
Harry smiled, but it wasn't very happy. "I'm thankful, Draco. I really am, but what if nothing works? What if I'll never get better?"
Draco looked at his Gryffindor sternly. "Something will work, and you will get better. If I can't promise you anything else, I will always promise you that."
Harry was too happy to respond. All he could do was smile the best he could.
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"Are you sure you want to do this?" Draco asked Harry for what seemed to be the millionth time.
Harry held Draco's hand tightly and nodded as they walked down the hallway of a muggle hospital. Draco wasn't sure if he trusted the place, but there wasn't any ward at St. Mungo's for any of Harry's problems. "We've already tried to help me by ourselves, and you can't tell me that it's working because I'm practically getting worse. I need to get better, Draco, and this is the only way."
Draco stopped them from walking and turned Harry to face him. Harry seemed confused, but Draco didn't explain. Instead he just pressed his lips against Harry's. Harry's gasped, giving Draco's tongue perfect entrance. Quickly, the blonde pulled his Gryffindor into a small corner. He kissed every inch of Harry's body that he could reach while standing in the tight space. Harry had to bite down on Draco's shoulder to muffle his moans. Draco didn't notice the pain.
"D-Draco." Harry was finally able to stutter out. "I-I'm going to b-be late."
Draco brushed his lips against Harry's own for a final time before he took the raven haired boy's hand again and walked down the hall like nothing had even happened. Harry just laughed when they walked through the door to his new home. Draco held a smile that became overly forced the moment the ceramic tiles of the hallway turned to the carpet of the room he already hated.
A/N: I'm sorry that it's been so long since I've updated. I feel really bad, especially since I've only come up with this short chapter. I promise to you that I will try my hardest to make the next chapter ten times better! I thank everyone who has kept reading this, even when I'm a little late.