*tries to find her way out of maze of 'pleases'*
OH! Hey everyone! Chapter three is ready and waiting for you!
I hope you enjoy it- It took a little while to write- but its still also kind of
small- because of the two songs mixed in it.
But, the songs I put in it mean something- so make sure to read them.
Also, please review!
-And sorry for any OOCness-
Disclaimer:
I dont own Fruits Basket or the songs-
'The Art of Letting Go' by Mikaila
'Nobody's Home' by Avril Lavinge
but I do own the following characters:
Ellisaia Nakasaki - Elli
Tokami Ukichi - Kami (her POV)
Kohaku
Koharu
It's been two days now since Elli and I first arrived here and began staying at Shigure's. Everyone was used to my quietness, and they let me as I pleased- which I appreciated. Elli was spending a lot of time with Yuki and Tohru, and sometimes with Kyo- but only when she got bored. As I sat in the tree in the back that I seemed to adopt as my get away- as Kyo used the roof- I let my thoughts have their way. Sohma…Sohma… could it really be? Will it actually happen? Will I see him again? Could we possibly… no- I couldn't let myself get my hopes up. Too many times I've done that, and each time only ends in my hope fading away. I leaned my head against the tree and turned the button of her ipod to mix up the songs. Then, closing my eyes, I pressed play, and fell into my thoughtful state.
Put away the pictures.
Put away the memories.
I put over and over
Through my tears
I've held them till I'm blind
They kept my hope alive
As if somehow that I'd keep you here
Once you believed in a love forever more?
How do you leave it in a drawer?
Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
how do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
learning the art of letting go.
Try to say it's over
Say the word goodbye.
But each time it catches in my throat
Your still here in me
And I can't set you free
So I hold on to what I wanted most
Maybe someday we'll be friend's forever more
Wish I could open up that door
Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
learning the art of letting go
watching us fade
what can I do?
But try to make it through
the pain of one more day
without you
where do I start, to live my life alone?
I guess I'm learning, only learning,
Learning the art of letting go
I felt a slight tug on my pant leg, and opened my eyes; I looked down and saw Elli there.
"You okay?" she asked, and I nodded, confused- then I felt the wetness on my cheeks and hastily wiped away the tears. She looked at me, obviously worried- but she new me well enough to know that I wouldn't say anything about it. I was about to push pause, but she saw Yuki and Tohru- and waved a goodbye. Watching her go- I didn't really feel sad- because I realized more then anything I wanted to be alone right now. I closed my eyes, and let the next random song play.
Well, I couldn't tell you
why she felt that way? She felt it everyday
and I couldn't help her
I just watched her make the same mistakes again
what's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems
don't know where she belongs
where she belongs?
She wants to go home but nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside with no place to go
No place to go to dry her eyes
Broken inside
Open your eyes
And look outside find the reasons why
You've been rejected
And now you can't find what you've left behind
Be strong, be strong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs?
She wants to go home but nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside with no place to go
No place to go to dry her eyes
Broken inside
Her feelings she hides, her dreams she can't find
She's losing her mind, she's fallen behind
And she can't find her place, she's losing her faith
She's fallen from grace, she's all over the place, yeah
She wants to go home but nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside with no place to go
No place to go to dry her eyes
Broken inside
She's lost inside, lost inside
She's lost inside, lost inside
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I don't remember falling asleep until I felt a slight tug on my pant leg again, and I opened my eyes to see the night sky above my head.
"Come on inside," Elli suggested," You're freezing cold." Nodding, I jumped out of the tree and walked inside, following her.
"Hey stranger," Shigure smiled, and I slightly smiled back," Your dinner is on the counter- everyone else ate a little bit ago, and is getting ready for bed." Nodding, I went into the kitchen and slightly heated my dinner. Then, taking it into the other room, I sat down at the table with Shigure and ate- it was silent, and I could tell Shigure was trying to think of something to say. When he finally decided he couldn't come up with anything, he dismissed himself, and bidding me a goodnight, he left me alone. Finishing the dinner, I washed my dishes, so Tohru wouldn't have to, and walked out the front door. I barely noticed the cold air, making me colder- my spirit was soaring across the sky- searching for that familiarity. Sighing, I went inside, closing the door behind me, and went upstairs to get ready for bed. Elli had fallen asleep with her math book open beside her on the bed. Stifling a laugh, I went over and picked up the book, and placed it on the desk. Then I covered her up the best I could, and laid down next to her. Curling myself up into the usual ball, I fell asleep as well.
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"She's so cute when she sleeps like that," Elli's voice said, cutting into my dreams. My eyes opened lazily, and I saw Yuki looking at me with a soft smile on his face. He wasn't laughing at me- but I could see some sort of amusement in his caring eyes.
"Hey sleepy head," Elli smiled and laughed, "I thought you were dead." Softly, I smiled, knowing she was joking. It must be almost noon or something- normally I was up before her- even on the weekends- and usually around six a.m. Elli was sitting on the bed, and Yuki was standing beside the corner of the bed.
"I'll go let Shigure know she's awake," Yuki said, and left; Elli turned to me, and I saw that look in her eyes. She was definitely in love with Yuki- but she wouldn't say anything- not until she new him better and if he felt the same way toward her. I was happy for her- but there was nothing to say, not really- especially with how I was. Maybe that's how it's meant to be? Elli stood up, stretching, and then turned back towards me.
"Umm- Tohru and I are going shopping later- you want to come?" Elli asked. I nodded, guessing that if it got me out of the house on this nice day- it was worth it.
An hour later, the three of us walked out of the house and into the bright sunshine. The trees were starting to loose their leaves, signaling winter to be approaching. Today's nice weather was probably one of the last ones before winter came. I should enjoy it while it lasts, but I found myself not really caring. We walked into town, and I followed along behind Elli, her and Tohru talking about where to go. Sighing softly, I looked around and saw a map. I tapped on Elli's shoulder and pointed to the map and walked towards it. Silently, she and Tohru followed me, and I looked the map over- and spotted familiar places- places that Elli and I had been when we had lived here when we were younger. Then I saw something that excited me even more- and I turned, bright, wide-eyed to Elli. Instantly, she knew what was going through my head, and smiled.
"Go ahead," she laughed, "Just be careful- and promise to be back before midnight." I nodded enthusiastically. Tohru was looking at us, confusion in her eyes.
"She found the old trail that we used to hike on the map," Elli explained," She wants to go and walk it again." We-Elli that is- had told everyone at Shigure's how we used to live here when we were younger- but had moved after my parents passed away. Tohru nodded, and so, while she and Elli went back to shopping, I turned back and found the beginning of the trail.
Looking up at the sky, the sun was on the west side- setting. I knew that I had to start heading back soon, to keep my promise to Elli- of being back before midnight. The trail was long, and it was easy for normal people to get lost in- but I new the trail by heart, and knew exactly where I was. But as I was walking down one of the paths, I saw another path, and my curiosity got the best of me. Following it, I came to a gate, and I read what it said. Sohma.
"No…" I said quietly, not believing my own eyes. It couldn't be- was it just fate that brought me here? Or was my mind playing mind games.
"Hello." I looked up and saw a blonde boy sitting on top of the gates," Are you lost?" I shook my head politely. He looked at me, with a smile always on his face, and then he disappeared on the other side. Soon one of the doors opened, and he walked out.
"Would you happen to be Tokami?" he asked me. I nodded, shocked at how he new my name.
"Awesome! I'm Momiji Sohma!" he smiled, introducing himself," I'm in Elli's class, along with Hatsuharu- Elli's told us so much about it- It's nice to meet you!" I nodded, smiling slight back, trying to be polite- seeing as to how he was one of Elli's friends.
"Would-"he began, but then stopped himself, and softly said," Never mind."
"You idiot!" someone called from behind me.
"Nope- you're the idiot!" another shot back, and I could help but turn around, and as I did, I saw a boy running backwards toward me. He spun around, but lost his footing, just as some one yelled at him.
"Kohaku Sohma- be careful young man!" But it was to late, he was already falling, and he landed right on top of me.
Opps. That cant be good....what will happen now?