A/N: Ok, I'm writing this now when I should be getting some sleep but I heard 'You Belong With Me' on the radio and I instantly thought of my story and all you gorgeous people and thought what the hell. I'll write.

BTW just a heads up. This is all happening over a span of a few months. So each chapter there may be weeks that have passed. Not just days.

Btw for those who ask I'm Team Edward.

Thanks again to my awesome beta in the hallway with jeans. Because without her you guys wouldn't have this story up! *snaps* for in the hallway with jeans!

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ENJOY!

Previously:

"I really did have a good time Jacob." I said smiling at him.

"Me too." He replied grinning.

I turned to open my door when he lightly grabbed my arm and turned me towards him. I looked up as he took a step towards me and lowered his face towards mine.

Time slowed down as I inwardly fought with myself. Should I kiss him? Or should I pull away.

As his face came closer to mine I had come to a decision.

I knew what I was going to do.

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EPOV:

After Bella left on her date, I tried to concentrate on watching the game but I couldn't. I walked up into my room and closed the door, sitting down on the edge of the bed and staring outside into the dark, lifeless room across from mine.

Bella had looked breathtakingly beautiful. With her glasses gone, her warm chocolate brown eyes stood out and her hair had been styled so it framed her heart shaped face. When I saw her come down the stairs I was in a state of shock. I had never realised how beautiful she really was. I felt a pang of guilt deep inside my chest. How could I be friends with her for so long but never notice how beautiful she was?

She was Bella. My rock, my confidante but I never really thought of her as anything more than a friend. Was I thinking of her as more than a friend?

Stop it Edward I scolded myself shaking my head to clear my thoughts

I had Tanya. I wouldn't dare hurt the friendship that Bella and I had.

I paced back and forth around my room. Something still didn't sit well with me. I shouldn't have let her go on that date with Black. But I couldn't exactly tell her not go out with him because I didn't like him.

I sighed and sat down at my desk and picking up a book. I needed to pass the time until I saw that Bella got home safely. I did NOT trust Black.

I had been reading my book for what seemed like hours when I heard a noise coming from next door. Bella was home.

I watched as Black walked her up the front porch and to the door. I watched with horror as he leaned down and pressed his lips to hers. They kissed for what seemed like hours before Bella pulled away. I inwardly cursed, I could not read her expression, she was too far away.

I fumed silently as I watched Black get into his heap of a car and drive away. The nerve he had to kiss Bella. And on the first date!

I was angry. I was beyond angry, I was furious.

I didn't understand. Why was I angry? Shouldn't I be happy that Bella's finally found herself a guy?

Why was I feeling this way?

I couldn't be-?

Could I?

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BPOV:

Jacob leaned forward and lightly pressed his lips to mine. His lips were soft and moist however I was a little disappointed. I always imagined by first kiss would be passionate and make me feel warm and tingly. This kiss just made me feel uncomfortable.

I slowly pulled away and tried my best to give a smile.

"Goodnight." I said as I turned and opened my door, giving Jacob one last wave before closing the door.

"How was your date Bells?" Charlie asked from his position on the couch.

"It was fine." I muttered, making my way towards the stairs.

"Night Dad." I called behind me.

"Night Bells." Yawned Charlie.

"Bella, Bella, Bella" I whispered to myself, shaking my head.

What had I gotten myself into?

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"Bella! Details! I need details woman." Alice squealed in my ear as I plopped myself into the front seat of her car the next day. Pretty Bella was gone and normal plain Bella was back, glasses and all, to my relief.

"It was fun, I guess." I shrugged my shoulders not wanting to elaborate.

"Bella." Alice warned.

"I had a good time. But he just felt like a friend. And then he kissed me and-"

"He kissed you?" squealed Alice, almost swerving the whole car in her excitement.

"Yes Ali he kissed me. And if you don't mind I would like to get to school in one piece." I snapped, I was unusually impatient today.

"Sorry." Alice replied, "You were saying?"

"He kissed me and.. well... I don't know. It just didn't feel special." I sighed and bowed my head in my hands.

Alice parked the car in our usual spot and gave me a sympathetic look.

"Sweetie," She said, grasping my hand, "It's not going to feel special unless it's with Edward."

"I resent that." I scowled.

"I know." Alice sighed, "But it's the truth."

I climbed out of the car and Alice and I joined the others over near Emmett's car. I tried to avoid as many questions as possible concerning my date and made Rose hit Emmett every time he suggested anything inappropriate.

The bell rang and I walked into my first class, English. People continuously turned in their seat giving me funny looks or whispering to their neighbours. I was clearly the subject of today's gossip. I ignored the stares and whispers as best as I could and tried my hardest to concentrate on writing my notes.

The day continued like this and by lunch time I was both physically and mentally exhausted. I didn't see what the big deal was. I went out on one date with Jacob Black! It wasn't as if I was going to marry the guy.

I hurriedly got my lunch and made my way to our usual table, feeling the gazes of many people on the back of my neck. I scowled and threw my tray on the table harshly, huffing and loudly sitting down on the table. I looked up and noticed everyone looking at me.

"What? Please tell me you guys aren't going to whisper and gawk at me too?"

Rosalie patted my back and continued eating. "Don't worry, by tomorrow you'll be yesterday's news."

"But I don't understand it," I wailed, "it was one date! What's the big deal?"

"Well, no offense Bella but you're not the most known person to date..." Emmett began.

"And when 'Bella Swan' dates it's a huge deal." Finished Alice.

Great.

Just what I needed, more attention.

I huffed and crossed my arms. I suddenly wasn't feeling very hungry.

Edward still hadn't said anything and was continually giving me funny looks. That stung. I could take everything the student body population said or thought about me but when my best friend turned his back on me, I don't think I could handle it.

"Why aren't you saying anything." I quietly asked Edward.

"I just feel sorry for you." He said shrugging his shoulders.

That got me mad.

"I do not need your sympathy Edward." I screamed and pushed back my chair, throwing my tray on the bin and storming out of the cafeteria fully aware that I had just made a scene.

Well at least the students had something else to talk about.

I made my way out of the doors and sat down on the front steps leading into the school. I put my arms around my knees and simply sat there, basking in the eerie quiet. My peacefulness was short lived however as I heard footsteps fast approaching where I sat.

"I just want to be left alone Edward." I mumbled into my knees, not bothering to look up.

"Good thing I'm not Cullen then." Said a husky voice from behind me.

I swivelled round and looked up, meeting eyes with Jacob Black.

"Hi." I said meekly, turning myself around again.

I heard movement behind me and felt Jacob sit down next to me.

"How are you doing?" He asked.

"Fine thanks." I replied, shakily.

"Do you think we could try for date two?" he asked.

I turned to look at him stunned. Here I was having a nervous breakdown and he was asking me on another date?

I just gaped at him, too speechless to reply.

He took that as a yes and wrapped his arms around me. I immediately shrugged them off and made a decision. I could not lead him on any longer.

"Jacob, I like you, I really do. But I only like you as a friend." I said sheepishly, "You're a great guy, and you're going to make the perfect boyfriend to some lucky girl one day. But that girl isn't me."

I prepared myself for the onslaught or wrath I was going to face but I was just met with silence. We sat there for a while, nobody wanting to speak.

"Trust me, I'm doing you a favour. I'm way too drama filled for any guy to handle." I joked trying to ease the knife sharp tension.

I tried my best to smile but all I could muster was a weak grimace.I couldn't face this, not today. I had gone through so much today. I adjusted my glasses and stood up. I had to get away.

I walked away, not looking behind me. I didn't want to see the hurt look on Jacob's face. I felt horrible, I was a horrible person.

Dying a spinster wasn't that bad.

Right?

*A/N: I know all you Jacob fans must hate me but trust me,

The best is yet to come.

And I mean it.

Xx Lana