Chapter 8

What Stops The Breaking

Why am I crying? This is not right. Kagome turned, to see Inuyasha had fled. "Kagome. You missed Sesshomaru's heart. He's still alive." Kagome turned to Kagura. "Oh. I'm sorry… I guess I aimed bad."

"That is fine. Let him bleed, Naraku will be proud you made him suffer." Kagura stated.

"Of course." Kagome said, smiling. It hurts more than ever. I feel so much pain for no reason. I wasn't injured in battle."Come, Kagome." Kagura said, taking off with her on her feather. "Naraku will be proud of you." she said, with sadness in her voice."Why do you sound so sad?" Kagome asked, curious of what made her friend sad. She soon felt a hand on her cheek, and Kagura was hugging her.

"You will soon become sad. Be strong, Kagome." she pulled from the hug, and sighed. "Things are going to get rough."

Kagome nodded still confused. "I will be strong, for you."

Kagura pulled a smile, stopping at Naraku's castle. "Here we are." she sighed. I hate this place. She thought. I'll soon be free.

Kagura led Kagome to her room, and motioned for her to wait for Naraku. "I will see you soon, Kagome." with that she left the room. She thought about going to get Naraku for Kagome. But he probably already knew they were back. I hope she will be okay…

"Kagome." Naraku walked in, grinning. "You did well."

She got on her knees in front of him and put her hand to her heart. "Good evening master, I am sorry I did not kill the other." she kept her head low, waiting for a response.

"It is fine, my dear miko." he lifted her chin and whispered in her ear. "You did very well indeed. You made Sesshomaru suffer."

"Thank you master." she smiled. It aches. I feel he is not dead. Please master, do not be mad… "Master, may I rest before going after the other?"

"Of course you may, you did excellent today." he grinned, standing up and motioning for her to go to bed immediately to regain her strength. He left the room soon after that, his plan was going perfectly well, all as he had planned it to be.

Why does my heart ache? What have I done to deserve this pain I feel? She looked and realized her hands were full of Sesshomaru's blood. That man. Who is he to me? She laid wrapped in her sheets, thinking. She bit her lip and clenched her chest. It hurts. every time I think about that man. Sesshomaru. Who was he. Why did he make her heart burn so often as it did? What had she done, to deserve this? Why? A voice in her head told her she was killing her loved ones. I don't know those people. She sighed and pulled her silky sheets over her head. I don't even remember anything about my past. It was strange. She didn't seem to remember anything beyond living here with Kagura and Naraku. What happened that she had forgotten? Who was forgotten? Was there something she had forgotten that she wasn't supposed to? That was so important that her heart ached every time she thought about it? Without knowing it, Kagome put her hand to her heart once again. The blood. Sesshomaru's blood. That dream. She had the flashbacks of the dream so similar to what had just occurred. When did I dream this? Why about this Sesshomaru person? You fell in love with him. How, she had never met him. You forgot everything. This can't be true. Inuyasha. Sango. Miroku. Shippo. "I remember." she whispered to herself. She lifted her hands. His blood.. "Had I killed him even though missing his heart?" she began to cry. Oh Sesshomaru, forgive me! She laid in her bed crying; she couldn't sleep. Not after what she did. Naraku had gave her orders to kill her loved ones that she forgot about! But how? Was she so sad, that everything basically wiped away like a tear falling from a cheek? Was everything that bad? Yes it was. She was now broken again. She was all alone.

Kagome stood up, and walked to find Kagura, trying to remember where her room was. Finally she found it, after a few minutes of wandering. "Kagura!" she yelled, running into her arms. "I-I didn't mean t-to k-kill him!" she stuttered, overflowing with tears. Kagura knew she remembered everything finally. She held her tightly.

"Kagome. It will be alright, he isn't dead. You didn't hit his heart." Kagura tried to comfort her, but she knew she couldn't make it better.

"T-that doesn't change anything! I-I tried to kill him!" she sobbed, not letting go of Kagura. "What do I do?" she said, rubbing her eyes.

"When we head to kill Inuyasha. We will have a change of plans, alright?" Kagura said, trying to show a sign of hope. "You have become very strong in this past while. I promise you that you will be able to destroy Naraku. Now listen, the only shards left are Kohaku's and Kouga's." she waited for Kagome to nod, and continued. "So, we will find them. Everyone will pitch in to defeat Naraku. But only you can truly defeat him."

"H-how? I'm weaker than everyone else." she sighed looking up at Kagura.

"He thinks you have forgotten, and that you are his slave. You can surely get to him somehow. You are much stronger than you think." Kagura pulled herself from Kagome, forcing a reassuring smile.

"I will do my best, I promise." Kagome whispered, trying her best to stop crying.

"Now, Kagome." Kagura said, wiping the last of Kagome's tears away. "Clean that blood off your hands in the hot springs, and then we will go tell Naraku that you are ready to kill Inuyasha, alright?"

She nodded. "Come to the hot springs with me?"

"I'd love to, but I must stay here." Kagura sighed, and motioned for Kagome to leave.

"Okay… I will be back soon." she said, leaving out the door and into the forest.

Kagome soaked in the hot springs, relaxing as much as she could, which was very little. She just had the blood of her loved one on her hands, how could she be relaxed? She let out a sigh, and popped her head under the water. Soon I'll have to defeat Naraku. She thought, coming up from the water. To her surprise, there was Sesshomaru, in front of her. His clothes were stained with blood, and somehow he had stopped the bleeding a little. He wasn't hurt that bad anymore, and she was glad. But why was he here, she tried to kill him!

"Kagome." his eyes were locked on hers. Her eyes, he saw the sadness, the fear. "Why did you…"

"I'm sorry, Sesshomaru." she cried, hugging her knees, sinking into the water. "I never meant to! I had forgotten… I don't know why but I did… I'm so sorry!" she sobbed. She didn't know what to do, she didn't know if he would want to comfort her, so she just hugged her knees tightly. "How.. Are you alive?" she couldn't help but ask, he should have bled to death. But Kagura was right, he was alive.

"Inuyasha… came back after you left. He helped me." he said, smirking.

"You're kidding…" she said, giggling. But soon frowned. "I'm… sorry…" she flushed red realizing she was in a hot spring with no clothes on, and kept hugging her knees. "I-I have to go.."

He pulled her out of the water not caring whether she had clothes on or not, and kissed her until they both needed air, and just held onto her for a moment he hoped would last forever. "It will be alright in the end… I promise you, Kagome." he said softly, looking at her. Not only did she break at the feeling of leaving him, he also felt the same way. "You're still bleeding.." she said, reaching out to touch his wound."It's worse than it looks." he said, keeping his eyes locked on her. "But I'll be…" he couldn't finish his sentence, for he had fallen pushing Kagome and him into the water. Kagome screamed as they fell, and soon realized he lied about his wound. He didn't want her to worry, but now what was she going to do? She had to soon go 'kill' Inuyasha and now Sesshomaru was unconscious! He had lost too much blood, and she didn't know what to do. All she could do was panic.

She threw a towel on, reached into her bag, searching for her first-aid kit. "Where is the damn thing…" she mumbled trying her best to find it. She felt someone grab her hand and she almost screamed but melted at the touch. "Sesshomaru…?"

"K…Kagome… Don't be a fool. Leave me here. Do what you must." he said, a little annoyed that she was worried for his safety.

"I wont!" she yelled, avoiding her tears as much as possible. "I wont leave you… not again…"

He pressed a finger to her lips, and smirked. "Don't be foolish, Leave at once."

"Sesshomaru.. Please don't make me leave you here!" she yelled, but saw the warming look in his eyes. She couldn't deny that. She couldn't. She rarely saw that warm look, so she had no choice but to leave. "Sesshomaru… please, stay safe." she said, walking into the forest after dressing. By the time she got out of his sight, she fell to her knees. They were scratched, she didn't care. She was too busy crying. Crying about everything. The things she had done. The things she hadn't done to stop herself from almost killing Sesshomaru. Why couldn't she remember any sooner? Why did she always have to have the bad stuff happen to her.

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Kagura realized that Kagome had been gone for quite some time. She thought about going to get her, and was about to, when Kagome walked in through the door. "Oh- Kagome. You're back, I was getting worried."

Kagome looked up, smiling brightly. "Oh, you don't need to worry about me." she jumped right onto the bed, and laid down. "I have a feeling today is going to be full of bloodshed. But I'm prepared!" she lied right through her teeth. She wasn't prepared. She knew there was going to be lots of bloodshed.

Kagura saw she was lying, she could tell so easily after spending so much time with her. She felt like a sister to Kagome. "Kagome, you don't need to lie to me." she said, forcefully smiling.

"Oh Kagura…" Kagome sighed, hugging the blankets. "I know… but I have to pretend I'm happy."Kagura was now confused. Why on earth would she have to? "Why… would you have to pretend to be happy."

"It's… the only thing that stops me from breaking."

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