I'm going to put up a pole I need to know if you want this to be a Bella/Jacob or Bella/Edward. Also I started a new story so look at it too.

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I changed the age on this chapter so it should make sense now.

EDWARD'S POV

As I sat in my room listening to Bella unpack in her room, there was a gentel knock at my door and in walks Alice.

"What should I do?"I asked her, I was torn I wanted Bella to forgive me but on the other hand I didn't she deserved better.

"Write her a letter explaning everything"She said "It will work trust me"I tryed to read her mind to see her vision but she was singing the candinan national anthom in chineese. I went and sat at my desk, and began to write.

Bella

I'm sorry for every ounce of pain i've caused you. I only left because I thought you would be better off with out the constant risk of have me in your life. Every day I was gone I thought of nothing but you. The day I returned I saw you at the beach with Jacob and my heart was shredded it was then I realised how much I'd hurt you, I'd taken your family away and I truly hated my self. I suppose Alice told you I took your journal he just left it there I wanted to remember you always I was on my plane to meet the others when I read the entry you rote about what you would say to me. It made my heart sore with joy. I can't tell you how glad I am to simply have you here safe. We love you and you belong here with your family. I can understand if you don't want to speek to me again and I wont push your jugement. I want you to know that I love you, I have always loved you and will continue to love you for the rest of my forever.

Yours Always

Edward

I was happy and emotion I haven't felt in a long time I ment every word I wrote with all my heart. I don't have an existance I have a life she has brought me back my happyness. I heard the shower turn on next door this was my chance I folded the paper in half wrote Bella on the front and placed it on her pillow for her to find when she was ready I also beside it placed her journal, and returned to my room.

BELLA'S POV

I pulled on my pajamas and went to Alices room.

"Do you want to do my hair sis?"I asked.

She ran out the door and was back before I could blink with Rose infront of her they dragged me to the mirror and began their work. When my hair was bone dry, silky soft and poker stright they let me return to my room. The first thing i saw was my journal on my pillow with a note it was a dressed to me, one look at the handwriting told me it was him. I didn't know if I wanted to read this note or not but i did. When I had read it twice my head was in a spin i didn't understand he told me he didn't love me right before he left, it doesn't make any sence.

I picked up my journal and put it in my bedside table. I was going to go and speek to him, my heart was beeting faster then it had in months and I was swetting buckets before I chickend out I walked out of my room and to his door. I knocked twice, there was a faint "come in" from the other side. I opened the door.

I kept my eyes on the floor as I walked into the room and shut the door behind me, I slowly turned to face him. He was sitting at his desk.

"Do you mean it" I whispered holding up the letter in my hand.

"Yes every word" He said and dropped his head into his hands.

"It doesn't match up thats not what you said before" I said I wasn't crying which was new but I couldn't speak louder than a whisper.

"Don't you see" He looked up at me into my eyes I quickly looked to the ground. "I'm an excelent liar, I have to be"

"I'm sorry" I said I didn't get a chance to finish, he had his hand under my chin holding up my face I flinched at his touch and he instantly dropped his hand,

"What do you have to be sorry for I'm the cause of all this it's my fault." His head dropped to his hands again.

"I'm sorry because" I took a deep breath in, he looke up into my eyes, "Because...I can't love you the way you love me, at least not yet, I'm sorry" I finished. he was still looking stright into my eyes.

"I didn't expct anything more" He said softly smiling but it didn't touch his eyes until I said the words 'At least not yet' I turned and walked out of the room and back too my own to go to bed.

EDWARDS POV

'At least not yet' theres still hope. My non existant heart would be flying right now. I could hear her heart beat in the next room slow and her breathing regain a steady rythmn she was asleep. I walked out of my room and went down stairs to the living room. I sat down on one of the arm chairs and shut my eyes. I opened them to find Emmett's face right infront of mine I jumped back and his booming laughter shook the house. when Esme came running into the room

"Keep it down someone sleeps in this house now remember"

"Esme I think Bella left you somthing in your room" I said and she flew up the stairs and came back down calling everyone to the living room she held up the note and handed it to Carlisle. He read it aloud.

Dear Esme and Carlisle

I can not thank you enough for what you have done for me. I thought I would be alone but you rescued me. You are like my family now.

I love you both very very much.

Bella x

"What does she mean like?" Emmett asked.

"Yea we are her family" Rosalie added I was really taken back she hated Bella

"Do you think we shoud make it legal?" Esme whispered.

"Shes and adult it wont work," Jasper said

"Yea shes 18 but it wont matter under the circumstances that her fathers dead and she can't get in contact with her mother" I added

Carlisle turned to the door and began walking.

"Where are you going?" Esme asked puzzeled.

"To fill in adoption forms to the parental rights of my daughter" He stated and Esme took his hand

"I'm coming with you"