Chapter 11

It had started pouring rain as Lulu slowly but surely made her way back to town. The tears still streaming down her cheeks, she kept thinking back to the look on Logan's face when she called him a psycho. She knew he was more hurt than angry…because for as long as she's known him, he's always covered up his sadness with anger. He always seemed to be so arrogant and egotistical, but in reality it was just a cover. He acted as if nothing could touch him, nothing could hurt him…but the truth is he wore his heart on his sleeve and very few people took the time to realize that.

Lulu hoped that Logan would forgive her, she cared about him so much and hated to see him so hurt especially knowing that she caused it. One way or another she hoped she would find a way to help him realize that he could trust her again not to hurt him.

By the time she got back to town, she was soaked both with the rain and the tears. She made her way to the bar, just wanting to drown her sorrows in alcohol, although she knew that wasn't the answer, it didn't stop her…she just wanted to feel numb, even if it was just for a little while.

She just went straight to the bar, not even looking to see who was there.

"Two shots of tequila and keep them coming" she told the bar tender

Once she downed the first shot, the other one immediately followed. She lost count after the fifth one, or was it the sixth.

When the shots stopped coming, she looked up and shouted "Hey, I said keep 'em coming"

The bar tender ignored her and she groaned

"Lulu?" someone said from behind her

When she heard the voice, she knew immediately why she'd been cut off. She turned around on her stool to face Rebecca with Tyler standing right beside her.

"Lu, what happened?" Rebecca asked concerned

The tears started pouring down Lulu cheeks once again as she thought back to what happened just about an hour before.

"I wrecked everything" she cried "I…I hurt him…again"

"Hurt who?" Rebecca asked, finding it difficult to understand her through her sobs

"Lo…Logan…he was just trying to keep me safe…and…I…I hurt him" Lulu cried

Once Tyler heard her mention Logan, he immediately whispered to Rebecca that he had to leave. She knew why. When Tyler was outside he called Logan.

"What?!" was what he heard when Logan answered the phone

"Logan, what…" Tyler broke off, he knew he shouldn't ask him what happened over the phone "What's up?"

He heard Logan scoff "That's why you called me? To ask me what's up?"

Tyler knew Logan was about ready to hang up the phone

"Whoa hold it, don't hang up" Tyler said "Just, uh will you meet me at my place?"

"Why?" Logan asked

"Just meet me at my place alright?" Tyler almost demanded

Logan scoffed again before he hung up. Tyler then went straight to his place, hoping he could somehow get an explanation as to why Lulu was so upset.

Meanwhile, back in the bar, Lulu and Rebecca sat in silence except for Lulu's sobs for a few minutes until Lulu spoke up again.

"Becca, it's just so hard" she sobbed "I don't want to hurt him, but…but somehow that's what I keep doing…It's all just so…so hard because…I…I think I love him"

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The hours went by and Logan still never showed, it was getting close to 9pm and Tyler was just about ready to give up when there was a knock on his door. When he answered it, he saw what seemed to be a very pissed off Logan. He walked in and sat on the couch.

"What do you want?" Logan asked "Why did I just have to come over here?"

Tyler sat in the chair across from the couch and asked "Because I want to know if the reason you're so pissed is the same reason why Lulu's so upset?"

Logan looked away "You saw her" he said more as a statement than a question

"Yeah I did man, what did you do?" Tyler asked

Logan immediately looked up with fire in his eyes "What did I do? What DID I do?" he said his voice raising "I tried to protect HER, then SHE keeps throwing the past in my face!"

"Dude…it can't be that bad" Tyler said and right away he knew it was the wrong choice of words

Logan stood up abruptly "What the fuck do you know?" he shouted "You weren't there, you don't know how hard it is to mess up so badly then finally getting your life back on track…only to have the past come back to bite you in the ass. You don't know what it's like to fall so hard for someone, thinking you finally got it right, like you have a second chance only to have them crush you like you're the scum of the earth."

"Logan…" Tyler started

"No" Logan interrupted "I'm done, I'm outta here" and with that Logan left slamming the door behind him.

Logan left even more pissed off than he was before. He knew he shouldn't have shouted at Tyler like that. It wasn't Tyler's fault that his life was now like a living hell. He drove back to his apartment, wondering how things had gone so bad so quickly. He thought that eventually, he and Lulu would have another chance to just be happy together…but now there seemed to be no chance of that happening…not now not ever.

He ran his hand down his face before he got out of his car and walked into his apartment complex. He planned to just sit back and drink until he had no feeling left in him, he knew that no amount of alcohol could erase that pain he felt in his heart…but he still would try. Once Logan got up to his apartment however, his plans changed and his heart softened. He saw Lulu slumped against the wall beside his door and she looked to be sleeping. He could see the remnants of tears on her cheeks.

He quietly unlocked and opened his door. Then he picked her up, right away he could smell the tequila…he knew she had the same idea he had before he saw her there. He carried her inside, careful not to wake her, he brought her to his room and gently put her down on the bed then he covered her up.

"I try not to…but I still love you" he whispered

Logan placed a soft kiss on her forehead then caressed her cheek before he left the room, quietly shutting the door behind him.