Can I just say how HARD it is to write fluff. Honestly. All I can think of is things to come….but things that happen in this and a couple upcoming chapters have information that needs to be known.
Love you all, your reviews are amazing and help me to sleep better at night. I can feel my ego spreading with ever review I get. I'll try to get it under control.
Oh and I noticed people seemed to think I was wrong with my statement "Reviews are better than snuggling with Edward naked," and I must change that because I was tired when I typed it out and that is not what I meant AT ALL, "Reviews are ALMOST better than snuggling with Edward naked…ALMOST"
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EPOV
I woke up to the feel of Bella kissing my face as she quietly pleaded with me.
"Edward, please, please wake up," she begged as my face continued to be assaulted. I opened one eye and looked at her. "Please Edward, let me go," she requested which only caused me to pull her closer to me.
"Edwaaaaaard, I have to pee, please let me up!" I chuckled at her, but set her free as she dashed across the floor to the door. My grin widened as I watched her naked figure disappear behind my door.
The grin was still on my face when she walked out, and she looked at me which made me smile wider as she gasped.
"Don't do that," she murmured, trying to hide her face in her hair as she blushed.
"What," I questioned.
"Smile at me like that…it makes my stomach feel all jittery. I get enough of that from the kid," she said jokingly pointing down at her stomach. I opened my arms to her, scooting over to make room, as she came to me eagerly, nestling into the crook of my arm.
"I need to install a space heater in you, you were out of this bed for less than ten minutes and you're already freezing again!" I exclaimed as she pressed her foot up against me to prove just how cold she was.
"And you need to wear socks all the time!"
She laughed at me than and I began to run my fingers through her tangled hair.
"So now that we slept an entire day away, what's on the agenda for today?"
She bit her lip, "I need to go home," she said. My heart stopped as I looked down at her, I thought we had gone over that yesterday.
"Bella…"
"Well I need to get my cameras, and equipment and stuff. You're coming with me to help me right?"
I exhaled, relief washing over me as I realized she wasn't trying to leave me.
"Like I would let you go alone."
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I was amazed to see all the equipment Bella had as I helped her carry each piece down to my car. I wondered briefly where we would put it all, but decided I would clean out my entire living room for her if she needed it.
The entire time we were at her apartment I was by her side, she seemed to be jumpy and nearly screamed when she heard the creak of her closet as it was blown open by the wind. I had nearly expected to see somebody lurking inside, or anything at the least. I couldn't blame her for being so frightened, so instead I stood closer to her letting her know that I was there for her.
After skillfully placing everything in my apartment I watched as Bella came to life right before my eyes. Bella was in her element and she seemed to shine as she whirled skillfully around. Before I knew it there were amazing breathtaking pictures throughout my apartment, as she continued to produce print after print.
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BPOV
The sound of the phone ringing caught my attention, and I turned to watch Edward answer it. My eyes seemed to be mesmerized by the clear outline of his jaw that was lightly scattered with stubble. I watched enchanted as his full lips moved, forming the words he was saying to the person on the other end. I wasn't listening to a word he said.
His sparkling emerald eyes dimmed only for a moment and I wondered what the person had told him on the other line to make that happen. He glanced up and noticed me staring as he smiled and winked at me causing me to blush and look away hastily.
What was I doing? Edward's gorgeous features definitely weren't helping my resolve to say away from him, but I reminded myself how much I needed to stay away.
It's all about keeping him safe, Bella.
I heard the click of the phone as Edward sighed, turning his body fully to face me.
"So…don't freak out," he began, effectively causing my heart to race by just saying that, "Alice told my parents about you…and the baby."
I felt my heart in my throat, and knew my eyes must be wide and crazed now. Edward tried to reassure me with his smile, but it wasn't working. His smile changed into a frown as he spoke to me.
"Breathe, Bella," I hadn't even realized I'd been holding my breath until he said that, "they're not mad, they just want to meet you."
"When?" my voiced sounded timid and scared as I waited for his response.
"Tonight…?" It sounded more like a question than a statement.
"So soon?! What do I wear? I have nothing to wear!" I exclaimed, suddenly feeling frenzied.
"Calm down, Alice is on her way now. She wants to take you shopping." Oh crap, great, just what I need.
"Oh, but I don't have that much…" I stopped, biting my lip, too embarrassed to admit I was nearly flat broke.
"Don't worry, it's taken care of," Edward said, smiling at me once again. Knots formed in my stomach.
"But how? I can't let…," Edward put a finger over my lips to silence me.
"You should go get ready, Alice'll be here any moment."
"Wait, what about you? Aren't you coming with us?" The last thing I needed was to be taken shopping to let someone else pay for me, and all without Edward.
"Oh, you two just go, I need to swing by the office to grab some paperwork anyway."
I wasn't ready to be alone with someone from Edward's family, especially someone so close. What if she didn't like me? What if this time proved to her how bad I was for Edward?
It doesn't matter, my mind hissed at me, you're not going to be around long enough for it to matter.
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APOV
I pulled up to my brothers apartment nearly bouncing in anticipation. I felt bad for upsetting Bella yesterday, although I'm not really sure what happened. Maybe she would talk to me about it today.
I was also thrilled to be able to help Bella with her wardrobe, cause after seeing her clothes yesterday I knew she needed it. Bad.
Reaching the door, I knocked quickly as I rocked back and forth on my heels waiting for someone to answer the door already. Edward pulled open the door, and let me in with no Bella in sight.
"She's still getting ready," he told me, as he gestured for me to sit down on the couch. I fidgeted on the couch for ten minutes before Bella finally emerged. I only knew she had entered the room by the sharp intake of breath from my brother.
Looking up I saw her dressed in jeans and a plain t-shirt. She didn't look half as good as she could, and still my brother was acting like she had just walked off a runway and into his apartment. Man he had it bad.
I rolled my eyes as my brother continued to stare at her, clearly undressing her with his eyes as she stood blushing before him. I grabbed her arm quickly dragging her out the door.
"See you at mom and dads!" I yelled closing the door before my brother could say anything in protest. That hadn't been part of our deal, but I wanted him to be truly surprised when he saw her.
Bella seemed nervous in the car and kept fidgeting with her seat belt as she stared out of the window. I hoped I wasn't making her too uncomfortable, I was very aware how I came off to people and knew often times I could be too much to handle.
"So Bella, tell me about yourself," I asked, her eyes narrowed and I knew she was trying to figure out what to say, "You don't have to if you don't want." I added in and she seemed to relax. There was something about this girl, and I couldn't quite put my finger on it. It wasn't a bad thing, it just made me feel like I wanted to wrap her into a hug and never let her go.
"Don't be too afraid of me, trust me my personalities big, but I'm harmless," I joked winking at her, "I can tell, we're going to be great friends."
She smiled, and this time it seemed genuine causing my smile to only widen on my face.
"Tell me about you," she said meekly, and I was only happy to spill everything about me to her, if she was willing to listen.
"Well I'm married to this guy named Jasper. He's so wonderful, we've been married about three years now, and every day gets better and better!" I exclaimed, feeling the tug at my heart at the mention of Jasper. Just thinking about him made me miss him. As if he could read my thoughts my phone suddenly vibrated.
Only 6 more hours until I can feel the warmth of your skin.
I sighed as I read it, any time away from Jasper always felt like an eternity. Bella seemed curious by my sudden change in expression.
"Even now it's hard to be away from him. We've liked each other since we were five and still almost 20 years later I still miss him tremendously after five minutes, and he's not any better." Bella's eyes furrowed as she looked down at her hands, and I realized how stupid I must sound, "I know, I know, it sounds silly."
She looked up at me, "No, it doesn't sound silly. I just…wonder what that feels like," she asked.
"It's wonderful, amazing….ha, and ridiculous all at the same time. Honestly it's the best feeling you can ever experience, and sometimes you just wonder, 'why am I acting so crazy, why can't I go ten minutes without freaking out with that person' and you just realize it just…is. It's what we were made for, to experience this. It's everything." I glanced over at Bella, and I saw her eyes glittering with tears, "Don't worry, you'll find him." I told her as we pulled into the parking lot, she smiled at me sadly, but didn't respond.
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BPOV
I thought about what Alice had said as she drug me through store after store and shoved me into every kind of fabric known to man. What could that possibly feel like?
My relationship with Chris creeped back into my mind. Although he had acquired by a strange manner, after so long I had started to develop feelings for him. Those last five years I truly thought I had been in love with him. Maybe it had been the drugs talking, or maybe I just wanted to feel like I mattered to someone.
But I could clearly distinguish now that I had not ever loved Chris. I desired nothing but to be away from him. I cherished every moment to myself, and when I finally left I had loved my freedom. I still love my freedom. When Chris had touched me it hadn't excited me, but made my insides cringe.
Edward flashed across my mind as I thought of him wrapping his warm body into mine. I felt the small knot in my stomach followed by a twinge of something I couldn't quite recognize. I wondered about my bodys reaction to the thought, and figured it must just be the hormones from the pregnancy.
We stopped in the food court as Alice talked about her work and the things she loved about it. I smiled and decided if I was ever in the hospital I would definitely want her as my nurse. She squealed when I told her so, and nearly caused me to vomit by hugging me so hard.
Mid sentence her phone rang and she answered it. I figured it must be Jasper because Alice seemed entirely lost to the world after that. Out of curiosity I glanced at my own phone, wishing I had someone who was missing me. I noticed a text message there, and I thought nothing of it, figuring it was some promotion. My eyes widened as I saw who it was from:
Ready to pull all of that beautiful hair out yet?
My heart hammered in my chest as I read it. Edward thought my hair was beautiful. I smelled it and thought of him as my stomach did that strange knot thing again. I quickly typed a response:
Not quite, you could help distract me though so I don't completely lose my mind.
I closed my phone quickly, closing my eyes wishing I could pull the words from the air and shove them back into my head. I had no clue where that confident Bella had come from. My phone buzzed quickly and I flipped it out without hesitation hoping Edward wouldn't think I was crazy.
Anything to help with your sanity. Plus it makes me miss you less.
My heart stuttered at that last part. Edward missed me, the knot grew tighter. Was that what that was, I missed him? I felt confused by the foreign emotion, as a vision of Edward talking to my stomach emerged. My stomach knotted even tighter, and I suddenly hoped I would get to see him do it again. I felt panicked at the thought. I was getting more and more attached the more time I spent with Edward, and I knew that was dangerous.
Alice interrupted my thoughts suddenly, "Missing Edward," she asked, all too knowingly and I blushed. There was never hiding anything with me.
Edward and I continued to text throughout the shopping trip and it really made everything more bearable. I could only tolerate so many stores before all of my patience and kindness was up.
I felt good about the items we purchased and couldn't wait to see what Edwards opinion of me in them would be. I blushed at the thought, and wondered if he would try to kiss me. My rational side tried to speak up, but I silenced it quickly promising I just wanted one night to enjoy before making a clean break from this man. I needed at least one good memory.
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EPOV
I quickly hurried to the office after Alice and Bella left, trying to do as much paperwork as I could before dinner. Sitting there staring at the papers, however, I find myself consumed with thoughts of Bella.
What was she doing? Where had Alice dragged her? Was she having fun? What if something happened to her?
My mind went crazy with thoughts and scenarios, and I kicked myself for being so clingy. Bella was safely at the mall with my sister, and I needed to get some work done not sit here and think about her.
I worked fast after that, still telling myself the quicker I got done the sooner I could see Bella. Apparently I motivated myself too much because I was finished within the hour, and frowned upon realizing I still had a few hours to spare before I would see that beautiful smile again.
After arguing with myself for a few minutes, I finally sent Bella a text message, telling myself I just wanted to make sure she wasn't feeling overwhelmed. She joked with me and I was surprised by her response. She wanted to talk to me…was she flirting with me?
I responded, telling her how much I missed her. I kicked myself after sending the message thinking I would probably overwhelm Bella with that. But she responded and we continued to talk for the rest of her shopping trip. We only stopped when Alice took her phone, texting me, telling me to leave her date alone and that I could see her shortly. I sighed throwing my phone on my bed deciding to take a shower and get ready.
I stepped into the bathroom, and smiled thinking of our powder fight the morning before. I wished I could relive that moment right now, wished Bella could be here, touching my hair even if her hand was covered in powder.
I stood in the water letting it wash over me like my thoughts of Bella. By the time I hopped out of the shower I realized my day dreaming had now caused me to be nearly late. I quickly threw on my clothes as I hopped into my car.
I tapped anxiously on the steering wheel on my drive to my parents. I felt jittery and nervous, like every one of my first dates rolled into one. I wondered vaguely if I might need ridelin soon, but pushed the thought from my mind too consumed with Bella.
I rushed inside my parents greeting me at the door.
"She's not down yet," my dad answered, noticing my glace around the room.
"She's a lovely girl, Edward," my mother winked at me as she kissed my cheek. Alice must've told her more than just about the baby and Bella. She had obviously told Esme about her theory that I was in love with her. I rolled my eyes again and Alice's idea, how could I love someone I barely knew anyway?
I stepped into the living room where Emmett was already and I watched as he stuffed our mothers appetizers into his mouth.
"You know chewing never hurts," I told him, as he turned around hugging me close to him and clapping my back.
"Edmph its gmph to see ymph."
"Try swallowing before you talk," I laughed at him and he only grinned at me before swallowing the contents of his mouth. I was amazed he didn't choke on all of the food that had been in there.
"Heard you found a lady friend," he said raising his eyebrows at me as if it was the most surprising thing he had ever experienced.
"Hey, I've had tons of girl friends," I said defensively as I crossed my arms.
"Your hand doesn't count as a girlfriend," I heard Rosalie scoff as she walked in, linking her arm in Emmetts. I grinned at her.
"I see we remembered to flip our bitch switch this morning," I retorted as she huffed, looking up at Emmett as if he was expected to defend her.
"You two never stop," he said instead, as his eyes moved to the doorway. I spun around quickly and my eyes nearly bugged out of my head.
Bella stood before me, in the most simple yet beautiful thing I have ever seen her in. Her legs were bound tightly in dark blue pants, and her shirt was a light lavender color that accented her skin perfectly and caused her eyes to seem even more golden then usual. Her hair was in a sloppy updo, that looked like it actually probably took a lot of time to perfect with a few curly wisps surrounding her face. She had a small amount of make up on, just enough to accent every perfect feature in her face.
"Wow," I managed to stutter, as she blushed adding the final touch to her look.
"Damn bro," my brother whispered into my ear, as I hear Rose slap his shoulder. I couldn't have agreed more.
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Can I just say again….fluff sucks. Decided not to send this chapter to BETA, because honestly….I just want to be done with this fluff, so I can start on the next fluff, so I can get to the good stuff already! Lol. Please forgive me InkStainedFire.
