I love that you all love my fluff…onwards to dinner…and other things! Lemon meringue pie for dessert maybe? Haha.
Love my Beta because she tries to inspire me {and actually did even though she didn't really say much lol, yes I'm that easily inspired} but once again needed to just get this chapter the hell out of my face.
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EPOV
After I finally picked my jaw up off the floor and made sure my tongue was securely back in my mouth I made my way over to Bella, holding my arm out to her. She linked her arm in mine, blushing furiously as Emmett smiled widely at the two of us.
"Bella have you met my brother, Emmett?" I asked her, hoping he wouldn't say anything to make an ass out of himself.
"Nice to meet you," Emmett boomed, and I celebrated that smooth introduction too quickly before he added, "what closet has Edward been hiding your hot ass in?"
Rosalie smacked his shoulder hard as she stuck out her own hand as she rolled her eyes, "He's a bafoon, don't listen to him. I'm Rosalie, his better half." Bella shook her hand, but we could both sense the tension rolling off of Rose. She must know about the baby. Hell with Alice's big mouth I was surprised the entire state hadn't called to congratulate us yet.
After a few minutes of mindless chatter I finally got a moment alone with Bella.
"You look amazing," I breathed quietly into her ear only an inch or two away, and I felt the shiver run through her body. Before she could respond Esme was ushering us into the dining room.
We all sat quickly, Carlisle and Esme at each end of the table, while we all scattered aimlessly around them. I ended up next to Esme, Bella next to me and Alice on the other side of her. Emmett and Rose were on the other side, I noticed for the first time Jaspers presence, but figured something must have come up at work and shrugged it off. We all watched in awe as Emmett heaped food onto his plate.
"Mom you should've made enough for everyone," Alice teased as he started piling food onto his food. We all laughed, and settled comfortably in. Bella and I were quiet and not willing to start the conversation we knew would come.
"So," Carlisle began as he cleared his throat, setting down his fork, "I hear you two are expecting." Rosalies eyes narrowed as she turned to us, waiting for us to confirm the news as Bella looked down into her lap. I wish she wouldn't feel so uncomfortable.
"Yes," I answered, grabbing a hold of Bella's hand as I smiled down the table at Carlisle. Esme placed her hand on my free hand as she smiled at me brightly. I had never seen her happier.
"Well…I can't say I'm not thrilled," Carlisle began, "but I thought you would be the last one we'd be hearing that news from!" Everyone laughed and it was my turn to blush. It was true though, and to be honest, if I had never met Bella I never would've desired to have children. Sure this one was being somewhat thrust upon me, but everything about having a child with qualities from Bella was exhilarating to me.
"Bella," Esme beamed at her, "what is it that you do honey?" I was glad she asked that of all things, I knew it was something Bella loved and could talk about openly at all times.
"I'm a photographer," she responded, and I noticed the gleam of happiness that accompanied this topic. I was right.
"OH!" Alice exclaimed suddenly, "Bella I didn't know that about you! Carlisle and Esme are renewing their vows in a couple of months would you PLEASE take the pictures?" Bella blushed furiously.
"Alice, maybe we should get someone else. Bella is part of this family now, she should be in the pictures not behind the camera," Carlisle commented as Bella once again looked into her lap, unused to this kind of attention.
"No," Bella said timidly, "it could be my present to you two. I don't always…er…make much, but this is something I love and tend to be good at. It would be my pleasure to take the pictures!"
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BPOV
After I agreed with Alice about taking pictures for the vow renewal she wouldn't stop talking about it. I tried to pay attention, but found my attention kept being pulled back to Edward. I watched as his jaw tensed and loosened as he munched on his food and felt fascinated by the muscles flexing before my eyes.
He caught me staring at him once, and instantly seemed concerned, and I suddenly realized he might think I felt uncomfortable. But the reality was I had never felt more comfortable in my entire life. Everyone seemed so at ease, nobody was upset that I was carrying Edward's child despite how it was conceived, and with the exception of Rosalie everyone seemed purely happy to meet me.
I had placed my hand on Edwards knee under the table to reassure him as I turned towards Alice once again attempting to listen to her mindless ramble.
"Alice," Emmett finally interrupted her, and I was surprised we could understand him as I watched as bits of mood flew from his mouth as he spoke, "give it a rest will ya? We don't have to figure it all out tonight! Plus, you're taking our attention away from the guest of honor," he nodded towards me than winking. I wished he had just kept stuffing his face as suddenly everyone seemed interested in me as if I had just told them I had something to say.
"Do you have any names picked out for the baby?" Rosalie finally spoke, and I was somewhat thankful for the break in silence. I couldn't help but notice the envy in Rose's voice.
"No, not yet," I admitted, "I haven't really thought about it much."
"Figures," Rosalie sneered, and Emmett turned to her as he put down his fork.
"Please don't start Rose, not tonight," he said quietly under his breath for only her to hear, but due to the immense silent surrounding us we all heard.
"Do what Emmett? I'm just asking her a question."
"Rose…"
"Emmett, it's just a simple fucking question!"
"Rosie, baby please."
"Don't Rosie baby me, I want a fucking child Emmett Aaron! Maybe if you hadn't stuck your dick in so many girls in high school I wouldn't be sitting here jealous of the open legged drunk queen over here! One night Emmett, ONE NIGHT is all it took her!!! I've waited three years…" suddenly she broke into a sob as she pushed back from the table running from the room.
Emmett placed his head in his hands for a second before looking at me, "The doctors are trying something new with me. I'm fucking trying for her," he whispered, and I realized he wasn't looking at me but through me talking to no one in particular as a wave of sadness washed over his entire posture. Carlisle cleared his throat and suddenly Emmett snapped back into reality as he looked straight into my eyes, "She didn't mean it. She just…" he trailed off and I only nodded at him.
"It's okay, I understand…" I was surprised my voice didn't fail me as I realized tears had begun to pool in my eyes. I cleared my own throat before standing up as Edward placed his arm on my elbow. I looked down at him, trying to smile to reassure him, but his frown only deepened, "I just need to use the restroom," I said before pulling my arm from Edward's touch and walking slowly from the room.
Once in the bathroom I quickly splashed water on my face as I willed myself not to cry. Why was I being so emotional, it's not like anything Rosalie had said hadn't been true. Plus she was right, it wasn't fair. Someone like her had been trying to so long to have a baby, and after one drunken mistake on mine and Edwards part we were now delving into the world she longed to be in.
Maybe, I thought to myself, if I do stay away from Edward after I have the baby I can give it to Rose. Than Edward can still have the child around but not feel forced to commit, and Rose will have everything she ever wanted.
I smiled at my good idea, at least than I would know my child was always safe even if I somehow ended up back in Chris's hands. I looked around at the exuberant bathroom, and my child would never have to want for anything. He or she could have everything. Everything I couldn't. A normal, functional, loving family. If I could give my child nothing else, I wanted it to at least have that.
Edward gently knocked on the door, and I sighed. Now to figure out how to get myself away from Edward. I was already far too attached to him.
"Bella, are you feeling alright? Look I'm sorry about Rose, let's just go home okay? You need to get some rest."
Home.
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EPOV
Bella was quiet the entire ride home, and inward I was seething at Rosalie. I could tell that what she had said had truly upset Bella. She had tried to act as if it was nothing, but everyone at the table could tell that Bella had been cut deep by her words. Though none of them knew her past, I couldn't knock them, but it didn't stop the overwhelming feeling of anger towards Rose.
We walked quietly up the stairs, and I wished that Bella would just talk to me. Even if to yell at me and tell me she hated my family. I didn't like this silence, I didn't like the look on her face. Seeing it, I knew already that I would obliterate anyone who could create such a look again. I unlocked the door, and moved aside to let her in as she brushed past me.
I grabbed a glass from the shelf, and filled it with water. I took a large swig as I heard noise in my room. I walked in halfway, leaning against the door as I watched Bella in a flurry throughout the room. She grabbing the things we had just brought over that morning and shoving them into a bag, tears streaming down her face.
"What are you doing?" I asked more nonchalantly than I felt as my heart race quickened at the thought of her by herself.
"I have to get out of here Edward, this isn't right. We can't be right. We're too different!" She screamed, her eyes bulging out as tears gushed from her eyes.
"Bella, calm down. Lets talk about this. Come on now, Rose didn't mean it. I'm sorry we never have to see them again," I blurted out all in one breath as I moved slowly towards her my hands outstretched. She stopped moving to look at me, tears still falling, so I continued, "I need you," I whispered, afraid of my own voice. I reached her and wrapped my arms around her as her tears spilled onto my shirt.
"You aren't any of those things. You're everything I need. Don't leave."
It was as if I broke something in her as sobs began to wrack her and her arms shot up and gripped my waist tightly.
"I…don't…wwwant…to leave…you…but it's…unsafe…," she looked up at me through wet lashes. I kissed her forehead as she leaned into me. .
My lips slowly met hers as we begin to kiss softly. Her hands traveled up as her fingers tangled in my hair. She pressed her body closely to mine, and my body responded accordingly.
"Edward, please….touch me….I need to feel…" her words broke off but I knew what she wanted She wanted me to make her feel what I said. She wanted physical proof from me, and I would happily oblige.
"Are you sure?" I asked pulling away as I panted slightly, not wanting to push her to far despite what she had said. Instead of answering she pulled my face towards her once again, this time her kisses more eager.
I backed us slowly towards the bed, as Bella's knees buckled after hitting the edge of the mattress, and I gently laid her on the soft sheets. I pulled away from her, and she groaned at the absence of my body on hers and I would lie if I said I didn't feel broken by the lack of her warm skin touching mine. I unbuttoned her jeans slowly as I slid them off her waist, revealing her gorgeous long legs to me. I pulled her shirt off, and she blushed at the exposure to me, but didn't try to cover herself. I marveled at her gorgeous skin tinted slightly with pink as she laid half naked before me in a lacy black bra and panties.
Gulping, I continued on. "You're gorgeous," I whispered seductively into her ear and I felt a shiver run through her body. I began our slow kiss again as my hands caressed her skin gently. I ran my fingers down her ribs and across her stomach. Her skin was smoother than satin and I wondered if my rough hands felt uncomfortable to her, but she moaned slightly.
My lips left hers as I began to kiss down her neck, stopping to suckle it gently right below her ear and she seemed to appreciate it as her fingers dug slightly into my shoulders. I kissed the exposed skin on her breasts as I felt her breathing increase rapidly.
My fingers worked on the clasp as I released her breasts from their captivity as they moved freely in front of my face. I tried to swallow, not wanting to lose control. I was trying to make Bella feel something, and it wasn't to make her feel rushed. My hand moved up as I palmed her breast, she gasped a moan fell from her lips.
My lips returned to hers, as my other hand roamed freely across her stomach, my hand coming to rest on her waist as I slightly applied pressure to her hip bone with my thumb causing another moan to escape her lips.
I felt her fingers trembling as she moved them around to the front of my chest her fingers fumbling with the buttons. Once all of the buttons were free she placed both of her palms on my chest as she pushed the shirt to the side and down my shoulders. I didn't want to break the contact with her, so I quickly threw off my shirt as my hands moved back to her body.
Her hand moved between us as she rubbed my erection through my jeans. It was so sexy my eyes momentarily rolled back in my head as I groaned into her mouth. She pushed against my chest, and I wondered if I had gone too far or somehow made her uncomfortable.
Surprising me she pushed me onto the bed as she straddled my hips and I felt my erection grow even harder, which I hadn't even thought could be possible. Her lips crashed into mine, much more forceful than my kisses had been, but I knew I would happily give her whatever she wanted. Soft, rough, anything.
Before I could gather my thoughts I felt my erection pop free in the cold air as her fingers traced tiny lines on the shaft. I felt a sharp intake of breath as my eyes threatened to close but I kept my eyes trained on Bella.
Such a sexy little vixen with her hair impossibly sloppier and hotter, her face flushed from arousal instead of embarrassment. Her eyes were dark and hooded, I could hear her breathing, and possibly her heart? Her breasts swayed attractively with every move she made as she licked her lips before biting her bottom lip, making my dick twitch.
Her fingers traced soft lines down my chest and it took all the control my body held not to fuck her senseless as she screamed my name repeatedly. My hands rested on her hips, but she rested her hands on top of mine, causing me to squeeze her hip bones lightly again. So she liked that, I smiled inwardly. She pulled my hands from her hips than as she helped me feel her up.
Our hands together glided over her sides and her stomach before coming to rest on both of her breasts. Her hands tightened as she made me fondle her breasts, not that I was complaining or anything, and I stared amazed at our hands working together. She let my hands go then, as if giving me permission to continue on my own as I gently pulled on her nipples.
I felt her bottom half grind into my own groin, feeling the heat coming from her. I wanted to be inside of her so badly, and she seemed to sense that as she lifted herself from me to remove the final piece of cloth that was keeping us from being fully skin to skin.
Her hand wrapped around my cock as she lowered herself down onto it. She placed the head inside of her slightly, and I nearly cheered at finally being where I wanted when she pulled away. She repeated the act, allowing it to press into her slightly deeper before pulling away again. What the hell?
I concentrated on her face and noticed the smug smile, and realized she was teasing me, on purpose. My hips tried to involuntarily buck, but I kept them from moving. I had to move at Bella's pace, which was maddeningly slow right now.
Suddenly she dropped onto me fully as stars shot across my eyes, my dick twitching again inside of her as she moaned. I nearly lost it right then, but thankfully she didn't move as she adjusted to me allowing me some time to regroup.
Her hands were on my own again as she pulled my hands back to her hips. She held them there as she slowly moved up and down on my shaft, causing my eyes to roll back into my head. Her hands left mine, but I repeated the action and watched as her hands moved up to her breasts as she began to knead them herself. She moaned as she pinched her own nipples, trying to thrust down harder on me and I lost it.
I began to drive myself into her my hands on her hips pushing her down on me, as she moaned and panted hungrily. I tried to focus on anything to keep me from losing it before she got her own orgasm, but she certainly wasn't helping me.
Before long she was moaning sentences and words that made my dick even harder inside of her.
"Ungh, Edward….fuck it feels so good….harder, fuck me harder…..oh god EDWARD."
One of my hands left her hips as I moved it towards her center, flicking her clit between my fingers and I felt her begin to tighten around me. Her words became more frantic as she began to repeat the same things over and over again.
"Edward…fuck me….Fuck…Edward"
She leaned forward as she thrust herself harder onto my cock and I captured a nipple between my tongue and teeth causing her to entirely lose control. I felt her tighten around me as I felt my own release shot into her. Her fingers dug into my chest, causing me to come again. Holy shit, she just made me have a double orgasm. I wanted so badly to keep my eyes on her, but they forced themselves closed as she continued to ride me as her own orgasms ripped through her body.
Finally she collapsed on top of me, exhausted and spent. She rest her cheek on my chest as I brushed the hair away from her face. My other hand rubbed circles on her back, and it wasn't long before I heard the sweet sounds of her snoring on top of me. I was still inside her, but I felt myself slowly slipping out of her as I softened. I wished I could somehow stay there in her warmth. I pulled the covers over us as I kissed the top of her head.
I lay there thinking for a while, as I listened to the sound of her breathing. Everything in my world felt perfect and right in those moments. I sighed heavily as I nuzzled my face in her hair.
"I'm falling in love with you," I whispered frowning, as I hugged her tighter to my chest willing the nightmares and memories to leave her alone for one night.
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Can I just say, the first part was written DAYS ago, but I had troubles writing the lemony part. Not because I wasn't inspired, but I had Domward on my mind. As hot as he is, I'm not sure our Bella can quite handle this, at least not yet. She's broken enough as it is, don't need Edward going all handcuffs and whips on her.
Also I've been wanting to tell you this was delayed, and that it's going to be hard to update as often because of school ending in a couple weeks and all, but I refuse to just shove an A/N in your face with no chapter. I hate those updates, and find them cruel. Instead I think I will refer you all to my Live Journal {I am Jezzeria88} so that when I need to tell you something I can just put it there and hope that some of you will read it.
Also, reviews make lemons. Truefax. Wasn't planning on any lemons until I got such a good response on that last chapter. Although I can't make it a regular common occurrence, I can sure try my damnedest to get you guys as many as I can!!!