"Ky, tell me she's going to be ok!"

"Ash, we need to get her to the hospital. She needs blood!"

"I have tons in the cupboards."

I walked out of the room.

My head is spinning.

I know what I should do.

I need to get her to a hospital where she can get the medical attention she needs.

Kyla's a doctor.

But she needs to be somewhere that people can actually do things for her.

"Ash. You need to take her to A&E or she will definitely die!"

"I fucking did this to her Ky."

"I know Ash, and I know how bad you feel about doing it. But you need to do something NOW!"

I stumbled slowly back to the bedroom

I looked down at Spencer lead lifeless on our bed.

I placed a kiss on her forehead as I scooped her up.

"I will be there as soon as I can ok. Just go and get her seen to."

All I could do was nod as Kyla opened the door of the loft for me.

I ran.

**

I have been sat in this room for the last two days.

Kyla has come with food and blood.

I drank the blood when no one was looking.

Spencer has been in critical condition for all this time.

The doctors say that she has almost all her blood back but is still at risk of strokes and stuff like that.

I have contemplated going and standing in the sun for hours.

But when she does wake up she will want me here.

I think

I hope

What if she doesn't

What of she'd rather I just left her.

"Ashley?" a faint voice filled the silent room.

I clutched onto her hand

"I'm here Spencer. Do you want me to go?"

"No. Stay. Please."

"Spence, I am so sorry!"

She shook her head as I tightened my grip on her hand.

"I love you Spencer."

"I love y…you too Ash…ley."

"You need to rest Spencer, I will go and find a doctor."

I walked out of the door and towards the nurse's station.

"Hey umm… my umm… friend has just woken up."

I say calmly

"Who is your friend Miss?"

"Uh, Spencer Carlin."

"Ok Miss we will page Doctor Harris for you."

"Thank you."

My head was in the clouds.

I can't focus on anything.

All I want to do right now is run

I know what I have done to her.

I know that I can't ever let myself drink her blood again.

No matter how much she begs

Or how much I may need to.

Never.

If I walk out that door and leave, she will be alright

She will be safe

From me

From them

From everything that is hunting me.

I stand and look at the door for a while.

I think about what I would do if I did go through those doors

How I would live with myself after I leave her.

The one person that loves me and is depending on me.

I shake my head and turn around

How the hell could I ever think of leaving her?

I need her just as much as she needs me

If not more.

I sit back in the chair beside her bed.

"Miss Davies, my name is Doctor Harris I am Miss Carlin's doctor."

"Hello. Is she alright?"

"There is still high risk of her having a stroke or rejecting the blood that is being pumped into her. Her heart could give out at any moment, so we are going to move her to a different part of the ICU so she gets better care."

"But is she going to be alright?"

"Well you got her here just in time. If none of those things happen then she should be just fine. She might have slight memory loss but that is all."

"And if those things do happen? Do you think she will be able to pull through it?"

"Honestly? No. I think that her body is still too weak to be able to fight much of a battle."

"Thank you for your honesty Doctor."

I grabbed onto her hand and heard her sigh as she slept.

Once the doctor left the room I brought her hand to my mouth and place a soft kiss on it.

"Spencer, I know you are probably asleep right now, but I needed to tell you something. You know I love you. You know I am in love with you. And I would never do anything to hurt you. Well, intentionally."

I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair.

"I know we haven't been together long but I have no idea why I have fallen so ridiculously in love with you. When you get better babe, I need to ask you something."

"Why can't you ask me now?" she whispered and it made me jump.

"Spence,"

"Ask me now Ash."

"Spence I don't think it's the right time."

"Ash, you heard the doctor. Ask me now."

I got up and sat beside her on her bed.

Her hand was still in mine.

I moved her thumb over her knuckles.

"Umm… I was umm… I… umm..."

"Come here."

I leaned into her and she kissed me.

It was full of passion and love.

It was the perfect kiss.

I pulled away so I could see her whole face but still feel her breath on my cheeks.

"Marry me Spence?"

I said so quietly, I wasn't sure she heard me.

Her eyes searched mine for a while.

She pulled me back into a kiss.

"I would love to marry you Ash."

We smiled.

"I know we haven't been together long but I just feel like this is it. You know?"

"Yeah I do. Kyla gave me two silver bands and said you wanted her to give them to me."

"Yeah I was planning on asking you once your parents went home. Shit what are we going to tell your parents!"

"Crap! I don't know. Umm… we will just tell them that I umm…"

"Got attacked by a vampire."

"Actually that might work. We will get dad onto the vampires who nearly killed you."

"But it would lead him back to me eventually Spence."

"So we tell them."

"Only if you are sure he won't kill me. I don't want to die just yet."

"I don't think it will be dad that has the problem. We did have a few vampire friends in Ohio, but that was because they were like you."

"Ok. Well I need to call Kyla and tell her you woke up."

"How long was I out for?"

"Three days. You know I am never going to forgive myself for what I did to you."

"Ash-,"

"It shouldn't have happened. I'm sorry."

"Stop it! If its anyone's fault its mine! I knew how you would react to the smell of my blood and I knew there was a massive chance that you wouldn't be able to stop. So stop blaming yourself!"

"I'm not doing it again. Ever."

"That's what you think."

She smiled.

I kissed her and walked out of her door.

I need air.

So I walked to the elevator and went down to the front entrance.

I walked into Kyla.

"Hey Ash, how's Spencer?"

"She awake. She woke up about an hour and a half ago."

"Oh right. Umm, Ash?"

"Yeah?"

"That guy the other night, you said I was his grand daughter."

"Yeah I did."

"So like, he is?"

"Yeah. That was your dad many generations ago."

"What a butt head!"

"Yeah I know."

I laughed.

"I asked her to marry me Ky."

I sighed and watched an ambulance pull into A&E.

"But you haven't been together very long. How long has it been? Three months?"

"I know Ky. But I think I have been around long enough to know that what we have is special. It's different."

"Well as long as you two are happy."

"We will be. But Ky, she might not pull through this. The doctor said her heart could just crash without warning."

"Well at least she is awake now right?"

"Yeah I guess. I'm going back up, are you coming?"

"Yeah I was on my way anyway."

We made our way back to the 5th floor in silence.

As we got out of the elevator people rushed past us with crash carts.

"Ky! They are going into Spencer's room!"

I shouted and ran after them.