I guess at some point, we all look at our lives and say they suck. Mine sucked from the moment I was turned, until the moment I met Spencer. Things were fine for the time that we were together. It's strange how things unfold.

I look down to the street. There's a man rushing away to work. He probably left a wife and children in bed, sleeping. He knows that they will be there for him when he gets home. He has a purpose. He has to provide for his family. The people he loves. The people who love him back. Underneath it all, he may be stressed, but he is happy.

The sun starts to peak over the high rise and I feel the warmth immediately hit my skin. It will all be over soon and I welcome the end. I welcome the light that will take me or the darkness that will consume me.

I see another guy walking down the street. His head is hung low and he is walking like he has somewhere to be. He doesn't. The look on his face says that something terrible just happened to him.

I wonder if his wife was murdered, moments after they said 'I do'.

It hurts like a bitch when that happens. I mean, I should know. My wife was murdered. The happiest day of my life, was turned into the worst. I lost everything.

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I guess at some point, we all look at our lives and say they suck. My life did suck all the way up until I met Spencer. She loves me for who I am and suck by me after I killed her.

Today I make her mine, completely. She has been mine for a while now, but today it becomes legal.

She is only a few rooms away from me right now, getting ready. She wanted me to wear a suit, so I rented a black pant suit and left the collars on my white blouse open a little. I smirk as I straighten my tie.

I look around the darkened hall once more, making sure everything was ok before my bride appears.

The theme was red, Spencer's request. The material draped over the dark hardwood floor was red. The flowers were a mixture of red and black roses with a few white ones almost randomly placed. The aisle was red and would make her dress look even more beautiful.

I ached to see her again. Her parents have some tradition that the bride has to spend a week away from the groom before the wedding. It's a stupid tradition if you ask me but Spencer wanted it. So I camped out in the underworld and Spencer stayed at the house.

Since the war, I decided to take the position as queen of the underworld. I took Spencer's advice and put someone in charge while I spent time on the top. Spencer has gotten a handle on the two sides of her vampire self. We haven't really figured out why she has two sides, only that one comes out when she is really angry.

Paula came rushing down the aisle and took her seat. She smiled softly at me before the music started and my eyes were snatched towards the back of the hall.

Her hair was curled and framed her face. She had a smile that could light up the world. I felt myself smile back at her as she took the first steps towards me. Her dress was white so she stood out in the dark room. It had a simple design of black flowers that were all connected.

Arthur wore the same smile an elegant black tux.

Eventually they reached me. I had no family, except Kyla, and Spencer didn't have many of her family that support our relationship.

Her hand slid perfectly in to mine as her father gave her away. The vicar smiled as we approached her.

"Dearly beloved we are gathered her today…"

I never got why there had to be huge services. I mean, why can't she just skip to the bit where I kiss her? Everyone already knows that we love each other.

"Do you, Ashley Davies, take Spencer Carlin to be your lawfully wedded wife? To have and to hold in sickness and in health, 'til death do you part? Do you promise to love her and to cherish her, even when times are rough?"

"I do." I said eagerly and felt Spencer's hand slip into mine.

"Do you, Spencer Carlin, take Ashley Davies to be your lawfully wedded wife? To have and to hold in sickness and in health, 'til death do you part? Do you promise to love her and cherish her, even when times are rough?"

"I do." She said sweetly with a simple nod of her head and a gentle squeeze of my hand.

"Then I now pronounce you, lawfully bound. Mrs Davies, you may now kiss your bride."

I took her face in my hands and brought her lips to mine without so much as a second thought. Our lips moved slowly together as we got lost in our moment. Her tongue duelled with min for dominance before she finally let me win. We pulled apart, both of us panting slightly. She smiled and I rested my forehead on hers.

"We finally did it." She whispered.

"I love you." I husked.

"I love you too."

I held my hand out for her to take it. I led her down the aisle, showing her off as mine to the people watching.

I let go of her hand for a moment as Arthur engulfed me in a hug.

I heard a gun go off and quickly looked for Spencer.

She was led on the floor in her mother's arms, blood pouring out of the back of her head. Millions of thoughts crossed my mind as I sat beside Paula and slid my injured blonde into my lap.

"Spence, talk to me." To my surprise, my voice was still strong. "Spence, no don't close your eyes, talk to me baby." I pleaded as she slipped in and out of consciousness.

"it hurts ash, I cant feel my body." She said shakily as tears ran down her cheeks. "I love you so much Ash. Remember that."

"No! Spencer!" I held her tighter as I felt her body start to go limp.

"It's not your fault Ashley. I'll see you again some day." She sighed and let go.

I don't think I could describe how I felt as her body crumbled to ash in my hands. All that was left was a silver bullet.

I ran. I ran as far and as fast as I could until I reached New York. I knew what I wanted to do.

I took my place at the very top some sky scraper and waited for the end.

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I wanted to say thank you to everyone that is still following this story. I am sorry I haven't really updated and that this came to an abrupt end.

As for my other stories… I will get back to working on them. I had a rough week and i have tons of work to do… so maybe at the weekend.

I honestly haven't forgotten about any of them but I have no time at the moment.

Thanks for reviewing…