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He debated with himself…still, after 10 minutes of staring at her sleeping.

He recognized her beauty and her childish features mixed in with a womanly look that made her have a sexy appearance. Robin couldn't make the decision because he was being pulled by each side. . . do the right thing or break his own rule. He craved to touch her lips with his, he wanted to be with her. He had to be honest with himself sooner or later and he didn't want to end up lying to himself causing himself to be confused. He felt as if the only thing keeping him from what he wanted was a rule that he made up… a stupid rule it was, he admitted. He got lost in thought not paying attention when Starfire woke up. She stared at his face for a minute, realizing he was staring into mid air…lost completely. She continued to lay there…motionless. Robin finally made his decision but when he turned his head, he saw her green eyes staring back at him. He was embarrassed, even though he knew she didn't know what he was thinking. But he suddenly turned once more and laid himself on top of her, kissing her. Starfire was beyond surprised but she had no problem with what was going on. Robin never though once about what he was doing. He kept the moment passionate and powerful until Starfire pushed on his chest trying to discontinue the kiss. He felt her hands pressing against him and he lifted his head up looking her in the eyes wondering what the hold up was.

"You are not your self Robin?" Starfire said, making a statement but meaning it to be question. He looked at her, just a blank stare. He didn't know the answer even though it was obvious that he wasn't and hasn't been himself.

There was a long pause before Robin answered.

"I don't know who I have been lately." He stood up and walked out the door leaving the conversation unfinished. Starfire laid there, tears in her eyes feeling as if she had done something wrong.

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He was stuck…literally stuck. He wanted to make love to her but then again he didn't want to hurt her at the same time.

"I don't know…I can't do this." He stood up, walking back and forth rubbing his neck with his hand. She sat up confused.

"I guess I wouldn't want to be with me either…look at me…gloomy, disgusting just a damn prude." Automatically she was blaming her self for something that wasn't her fault at all. He stopped pacing and he drew his attention to her.

"Hell no….that isn't even close to why….I want to…your gorgeous and sexy…I just can't hurt you."

"Hurt me….there isn't any way you can hurt me."

"I mean emotionally, what if we do this and we end up not wanting to be together and every time we see each other we cringe with awkwardness." She was surprised that he was able to explain to her without using childish terms….it was quite a change.

"For once I completely understand you." Raven wasn't trying to be insulting but I guess it came out wrong no matter how hard she tried to disguise it as a compliment.

"Well I guess that's a compliment, I think." He took it as a compliment any which way he looked at it. He looked at her, just staring at her. He didn't know why he was so mesmerized by her, but he didn't have time to think about it before he saw her start to move.

"Your right though, we need to wait and see if this is the real thing. . ."She sighed and went on. "If you can wait, I can wait."

"Ok, then its decided, we are gonna wait."

She walked up to him, slowly not taking her eyes off of his. She reached a hand out and softly rubbed her hand over his muscles. She lifted up his shirt gliding her hands over his bare skin, sending a shock throughout his body. His breathing became sharp and his mind became blurry. He grabbed her hands and started to speak, taking in a breath after every couple of words.

"I thought we made the…decision not to …not to…do this?" He couldn't help but to stutter, she had him in such a flutter….purposely.

"We did, but we can still play." She giggled silently has she proceeded to massage his muscles, making him quiver. Before she knew it he picked her up and laid her on the bed. He crawled on top of her and started to rub her from her neck down making sure he touched everything in his path. He was about to pass her waist line when she reminded him that it was all about "play" nothing serious. He decided to put his hands back up to her waist making sure he didn't get ahead of himself.

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Robin walked to his room and slammed the door on his way in. He was angry, more pissed then anything. He couldn't believe that he was such a dumb ass. He thought to himself silently. I knew this would come up! Damn it, stupid ass emotions. I can't love her, or I can't care about her. He talked to him self for hours but he never came to a conclusion. Within a few hours he was dead asleep dreaming of no other but the red head Tameranian.

In the other room Star was doing the same thing. She had dried tears on her cheeks and a pillow held within her arms. She was dreaming of Robin and what life could be if he admitted his feelings if he had any feelings for her.

They both slept peacefully dreaming of each other and the alternate reality of them being together flowed through their dreams. Not only did Raven and Beast Boy share a secret, but Robin and Star had a secret of their own that no one knew about.

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I know I haven't been able to update for awhile but I have to go to school and do homework so I have to put that before my stories….but I m updating no matter what because I love this story… I hope u enjoy