I'm trying to keep the events in this and the events in the manga in line. Sorry if they're not or I miss out on something (it'll obviously be different in between, but I want it to be somewhat the same at the events).

Chapter 3:

Sex Life

The next day Kira and Hisagi parted ways after a brief kiss. Kira was dressed back in the olive green kimono Ukitake had let him barrow. He thought that he should return it, but brushed it off to the side in order to think of the night before and all of the passionate kisses and groping. Blush formed again on Kira's face as he walked to his personal barracks and slid the shoji door to his room open. He walked in and closed it behind himself. When he walked in further he began to untie the sash and open the kimono when he say a small white piece of paper with some writing on it on his futon to his right. He stepped over and picked up the small parchment. He began to read it.

:"Kira, we need to talk about what happened. And not just about Hisagi-san. You know who else I mean. Please come to my office in the 10th Barracks around the afternoon. - Matsumoto Rangiku":

Kira stared at the letter a moment and than his eyes went vague as he drifted into thought. He didn't want to talk to her. Not about Hisagi. And definitely not about Ichimaru. He hadn't even really regretted raising his blade to her in an attempt to fight her. Though he would admit he was rather disappointed that her shikai form rendered his zanpakuto's ability useless against hers. He was always envious that Ichimaru was so kind and gentle when around her. She was outgoing and most everyone liked her. He was told to remain silent and not be assertive. Ichimaru had told him that doing so would jeopardize their relationship in the beginning, but soon Kira had unknowingly molded into it as part of his everyday personality and attitude. Slowly Kira crumpled the parchment and than tossed it aside as he returned to removing the kimono off and neatly folding it. He set it on a small wooden nightstand next to his futon and than walked over to his drawers opposite his futon and took out the black and white kimono tops and than a black hakama pants. He slipped the tops over his shoulders, one at a time, and messed around with them until they were neat and comfortable. After that he slid on the hakama and tucked the tops in. Finally he took the white sash and wrapped it around himself and tied it off in a neat bow at the front, letting it fall from his fingers to lay against his waist. After awhile of tidying his room and fussing over his haikus and which to take to the Academy the next day there was a soft rapping at the shoji door and than an even softer, rich voice.

"Kira-fukutaicho..? It's Ukitake, I've brought your uniform from yesterday." Kira rushed over and slid open the shoji door. Ukitake was startled by the sudden movement of Kira ushering him in but smiled when he looked at the blush on Kira's face while he closed the door again. Soft chuckles came from behind Kira as he turned to see a warm smile and an even more warm set of chocolate brown eyes. Ukitake was in his Taicho uniform with his hair down as usual. However, Kira noted something that was not of the norm with the mostly innocent seeming Taicho. A little reddish mark was barely showing from underneath the collar of his Taicho haori; a hicky. Ukitake realized where Kira was staring and blushed as he lifted the uniform for Kira to take it. "Shunsui-kun is stubborn when it comes to healing his 'marks'." Kira started and than quickly took the uniform from Ukitake's hands and hugged it close to his body and face to hide his embarrassment. He wanted to ask if they were a couple but didn't feel he had a right to pry into his personal life. Ukitake lowered his hands to his sides and smiled more openly at the site of a very embarrassed Kira. "He would 'mark' me all over if I didn't slap him away... Kira-fukutaicho..?"

"Ye...Yes, Ukitake-tai...taicho?" Kira attempted to look the older man in the eyes but failed, settling his eyes on Ukitake's smile instead.

"You're alright now, right..? You Hisagi-fukutaicho worked everything out last night, right..?"

"Ye-yes, Sir..!" Kira screwed his eyes shut as his cheeks redden to a cherry color recalling his activities. They never went as far as sex last night, but close enough to be embarrassed over it. Ukitake laughed at that.

"That's very good than. And Abarai-fukutaicho..? He was alright with everything, right..?"

"Ren-ah-" Kira opened his eyes and looked at Ukitake. "Abarai-san was fine, yes. He might tease but he's fine." Kira looked down at the crumpled ball and briefly thought of Matsumoto. He probably should talk to her to clear the record of everything. Hisagi was right though. She wouldn't believe that Ichimaru had done anything to him unless he provoked him to. She would probably blame him.

"Kira-san..?"

"Uh! Y-yes, Taicho?" Kira jerked his head back up to meet Ukitake's eyes.

"What's wrong than..? You still seem upset..." Kira lips tugged into a slight smile at that. Ukitake was renown for figuring people out by looking at them. Kira let out a soft sigh before he talked.

"Matsumoto-san was there when I... I... Well, you know..." Ukitake nodded. "...And she wants me to go over to the 10th Division today and talk. I... I don't think I can... At least not tell her the whole truth... Not about what Ichimaru did..." Kira softly shook his head as he closed his eyes. "She'd never believe me..."

"Than don't tell her that. Just tell her you had some relationship problems with Hisagi-fukutaicho and they just built up. Hisagi was fine, wasn't he..?"

"Yeah..."

"Than I am sure she will be, too. Just, try and think of how she feels. No harm meant, but you did sort of beat her friend and fellow fukutaicho up right in front of her. And as far as she knew, it was for nothing." Ukitake gave a quizzical face and shrugged slightly. Kira lowered his face and nodded.

"No harm... It's the truth... I just... since Ichimaru left and stopped giving me those pills I can't control it..."

" 'Pills'? 'Control' what..? Kira-san, what ever do you mean..?" Ukitake's face turned to one of worry as he moved closer to Kira and placed his hands on Kira's shoulders tenderly. Kira panicked at first but Ukitake's warmth and rubbing hands calmed him. He took a breath and let it out before continuing.

"I sometimes... get like that... Like everythings wrong and my heart and head hurts... and I just want react bad... and the pills Ichimaru gave me helped - a lot. I was able to focus in the Academy and I even was able to make it to Fukutaicho because I could focus and what not. I-I didn't feel like everything was my fault. It helped to make me feel better..." Kira looked down and whispered. " ...and Ichimaru. He helped also..."

"He had been drugging you since the Academy..? Kira-san, why didn't you tell anyone..? Those could have been hurting you all this time." Ukitake leaned back when Kira's head jerked up.

"No! Really! They helped! Even now I-I get all nervous and my heart gets tight when something goes wrong! Even if I know it's not my fault I get so... So upset..!" His head lowered as he tried to keep from letting himself sob in front of Ukitake again. He inwardly cursed himself for being so weak, needing pills to keep himself sane. But Ukitake softly hushed him and rubbed the length of his arms.

"It's alright, Kira-san... I was just worried that he may have tried to poison you or something... Do you know what they were..?" Kira shook his head.

"Ichimaru just gave me two in the morning everyday and told me to take them..."

"Do you recall what they look like..?" Kira nodded.

"They where small and mostly white with a blue stripe. They were capsules... Ichimaru once said something about anti depressing... or something... I don't know... I was too tired than to pay attention... We had just ha-" Kira looked at Ukitake wide-eyed before quickly looking away and blushing. "N-Nevermind..!"

"It's alright. I'm not judging you... I have my own sex life too so don't think you need to be embarrassed around me."

"With... Kyoraku-taicho..?"

"Him, yes... More or less we are, what is the term now..?" Ukitake let Kira go and crossed his arm loosely in front of his chest. "Fuck buddies..? Nothing more though. I need reiatsu in order to keep my body fit and one way to get spiritual force is through sex. Sort of like the incubus. Plus Shunsui-kun likes it cause he gets a way to let off his own frustrations."

"So... you two aren't lovers..?" Kira winced slightly at Ukitakes laughter.

"Oh, no no no! Old childhood friends whom share sex together, yes, but 'lovers', no!" Ukitake mockingly shook his head as he laughed again. Kira swallowed and blushed again. "He and I are open to others as well. We do not confine ourselves to each other. He already tries to get with his Fukutaicho, if it isn't obvious..!"

"I suppose now that you mention it..."

"You actually interrupted us last night..." Kira looked Ukitake in the eyes as his went wide and his brows creased as his cheeks reddened. Ukitake just stared back with a more dark and rich look than the earlier warm one. His smile was more sly than caring. "We were just starting to make out and grope when you shouted outside. Kyoraku was fully dressed still and ran out before I did... I was not so dressed..."

"Uh..! I..! I-I'm so-sorry!" Kira couldn't think of anything else to do so he opted to bow deeply as he apologized.

"Oh! No, it's fine, Kira-san..!" Ukitake fanned his hand lightly towards Kira. The warm smile grew onto Ukitake's lips again as Kira stood upright again. "Anyway, don't be so hard on yourself, ok? You've been through a lot and I'm sure Hisagi-san will help you through it all and make you happy again. Really happy. He does love you."

"I know that now." Kira smiled back at Ukitake as his head kept trying to show him imaginary images of Ukitake nude. He blushed more and swallowed hard before looking away. He heard Ukitake sigh heavily and looked at him to see what was wrong.

"Well, I have to go now... There's a Meeting I should probably go to since I'm able to stand today." He rolled his eyes playfully. "How very fun to spend one of my few healthy days, hmm?"

"Of course, Ukitake-taicho." Kira playfully smiled and resisted laughing. Ukitake went around Kira and opened the door, stopping and half turning to look at Kira.

"Talk to Matsumoto-fukutaicho. I'm sure she needs it just as much as you do. Don't tell her about Ichimaru if you don't think you can tell her without hurting yourself. It isn't the main detail, alright, Fukutaicho?"

"Yes, Taicho. Thank you. For everything." They bowed to one another and Ukitake left, closing the door behind himself quietly. Kira stood in front of the closed door playing with the folded black fabric in his arms. He sighed and mentally agreed he should at least talk with her. Walking over to his drawer he opened it and than realized too late he had forgotten to give Ukitake back his kimono. Kira placed his uniform down as he sighed heavily. He could tell that this was going to be a long day. First he'd have to go and give the hour lecture on haikus and than go and talk to one of the few people he really did not want to talk to.