Disclaimer: I do not own Criminal Minds

A/N: Right so I thought it's about time we pulled the pieces together...

Penelope was heading back after her long walk to the beach to clear her mind when she saw Derek's SUV turn up, with a slight growl from her chest she turned just as he catapulted himself from the driver's side and headed back to the beach. Seeing him right at this moment still stung and she knew it wouldn't get better unless he saw the truth but before any of that she needed to stop being a victim and out it all to him and he could do with it however he wanted.

The moment she heard the door slam shut she knew with his swift and quick run he'd catch up with her in almost instantly but nothing stopped her from heading back to the beach.

'Penelope! Wait please!' He knew she'd blank him, so he'd continue to run and get her to respond until she at least gave even an insult. 'Please!' Still nothing, he was going to be persistent. 'You got to hear me out, I'm sorry.' That stopped her. 'I'm sorry that I chose her over you, I... I...' He stumbled for words and Penelope used the opportunity.

'So now you've called the odds again, I'm allowed near you yeah?' He couldn't help but flinch at her tone. 'You know what hurt me the most Morgan?' She applied thick emphasis on his surname. 'At the beginning I thought I was being a good friend, protecting you, then I heard what she was up to and after she beat the shit out of me I mulled over it, I had to tell you, you weren't seeing it so I had to make you see, I couldn't let you get too deep and then my mind was made up that night Sam was waiting for me but then when you came to mine I was the bad guy... oh! No wait; I was the monster so forgive me if I can't get past that fact.'

'I was angry and grieving and... I was grieving over something I never had.' Derek said and his tone deflated and Penelope's heart clenched at his pain at the realisation but she couldn't let that throw her.

'Well just get rid of her before she puts you threw anymore pain Derek, it's not fair on anyone.' She then started to walk back to the beach, knowing if he followed her back to her apartment entirely she'd invite him in and they'd finish their chat once for all, whether it be in whispers or in screams, she was going to have it all out before the hour was out but she didn't want to go back to where he had started this argument hours earlier, she needed the air.

Sure enough Derek followed her. 'Pen, we need to sort this out, I don't care if you shout at me, if you hit me, if you don't talk but you got to hear me out, I'm fed up of all these lies, all this disappointment, everything I said, I was acting out and I was believing a woman I shouldn't have, please... just hear me out and if you still don't want to know, I'll keep out of your life forever.'

'As much as I hate you right now Derek, I could never keep you out of my life forever.' Penelope said sadly. 'I wished I'd never walked into your office that day, I wished for the life of me I didn't have to hear her say those words and ever since life's just not been the same.' He could swear he saw her eyes watering as they walked; her voice was beginning to sound thick with tears.

'Why didn't you tell me Sam was the one that attacked you?'

'Because directly after she did that, I felt like a victim, I hate feeling like that but Derek you need to finish it, she's dangerous.'

'We'll get to her to her in a moment, but I don't feel like you're being harsh enough with me, not giving me the bare truth.'

'What you want me to shout at you? You want me to out everything I've been keeping in.'

'In one word, yes.'

'Fine.' She halted, praising that this beach was always mostly empty. 'The day Sam confessed she was 'pregnant' was the same day Lynch broke up with me and I found out I was pregnant... see I so wanted you, so needed you to straighten what wreck my life was but I couldn't, not with her confessing the same thing for you.'

'You're pregnant?' Penelope shook her head. 'You're not?'

'I lost the baby.' She laughed and the tears fell. 'Ironic isn't it? That's how it was put to me earlier today after I was arrested, ironic how I was claiming Sam had beat me up when she was doing me for beating her up.' She was lost in Derek's almost pained expression, the one she had forced him to feel. 'Sam kicked me so hard that I really did miscarry and for her to claim such a thing and to make you think it hurt even more. She doesn't even know the half of it!'

'Baby...'

'No, don't, don't baby me, it's not right. I was going to end things with Kevin because my hearts never been in it, it's been elsewhere but then I missed my period, and I had all these symptoms, the moment I found out, I told Kevin, he bolted, told me he didn't want to know, so when Sam said she was pregnant I knew that for that baby I wanted it to have a happy family, not the mom in one place and the dad in the other, that's not a happy family.' She wiped her cheek. 'I printed off everything I could find on Sam and I bugged her mobile, I'll give it to you and you can do what you like with it but I can't stand knowing you still want to try and make things work.'

The most unexpected thing happened then, Derek kissed her, full heartedly kissed her, all the anger he was feeling, all her anger, all her lust, all his, all of their emotions at that one moment poured into that kiss and nothing felt better.

'Gimme that stuff and help me out her, make her think I'm still gullible, make her think that I still hate you but after its all over, I'm coming home to you and making you feel the love you deserve.'

A/N: So I had to do it, well my plot emu (yeah me and emzypemzy have joint custody) went wild and she (or it is a he?) is FIESTY and well you'll see....