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Chapter 5

Bella POV

I did a once over in the mirror before grabbing my bag for school. Things seemed to at least be getting back to somewhat normal; the way things were before I met him. It had been a month since 'the incident' and I had moved into my apartment and started going to school again. Charlie had come to visit for a few days but it was hard seeing him. It was hard not to tell him I wanted to go home with him, things were better there but I knew that I couldn't go through all the reminders. Maybe when I graduated from high school I would go down before college.

A small sigh escaped my lips as I ran out the door to my door to my imposter of a truck. I appreciated the gesture of Phil and Renee when they bought the truck but it held memories that I didn't like facing. Granted there were a few differences but it didn't matter, I could still imagine him pushing the van out of the way of me, the dent, sometimes I even thought I saw him leaning up against it in the mornings but I knew it was just illusions in my head.

I jumped in the truck and sped off to school, the drive was boring, like always, as I pulled into the parking lot to park. Jumping out of my truck I saw a guy walking towards me and I rolled my eyes as I forced the fakest smile on my face.

"Bella!" he exclaimed as he went to hug me. I evaded under his arm and continued to walk towards the school. Somehow no matter where I went there would always be a Mike Newton except this time he came as a Steve Mclean. Since day one he had been trying to get me to go on a date and each time I told him no, he just didn't seem to know how to take a hint and take a hike.

"Hey! I've been looking for you," Erin yelled running up to me. She successfully grabbed my arm and started pulling me, "we need to talk."

"What's up?" I asked as she pulled me into the bathroom near our classroom so we wouldn't be late.

"Not a thing, just figured I would save you from the stalker and all, I was a little late this time it seems," she said looking at me, "sorry."

"Don't worry about, I'm pretty sure if you weren't with me he would have followed me in here," we shared as short laugh before walking to class to listen to another boring lecture about the importance of history. In the middle of the lesson someone knocked on the door and whispered something to the teacher before leaving.

"Miss Swan, someone is here to see you, they say it's important," the teacher stated seriously. I packed up my stuff and excused myself from the classroom before walking to the office to see this visitor. Who I saw wasn't exactly who I thought I would be looking at.

"Bella!" he exclaimed running over to me, he picked me up in his arms and spun me around a few times. It took me a second to recover as he set me down and I smile up at him.

"Jake what are you doing here?" I questioned as he walked me outside and we sat down on the steps. He looked thoughtful for a second trying to choose his words wisely it seemed.

"Listen, I know that a lot has happened and all but is there any way to convince you to come back to Forks? It hasn't been the same without you at all," he questioned, his voice low as I stared at the street in front of us.

"No," we the simple word that came out of my mouth, I didn't even have to think about it.

"Bella, it isn't the same without you there, you're my best friend and I just can't sit around knowing that you are upset about something. I told you going with that bloodsucker would only end badly for you," his words went from sweet to harsh in a matter of seconds. I felt my blood start to boil and I glared at him.

"Don't you dare, if you wouldn't have answered the phone when he called it would have never happened!" I shouted standing to my feet.

"So it's my fault now that he cheated on you and lied the whole time," he countered and I felt the tears threaten to fall from my eyes. I wouldn't cry, I couldn't let him see that I still wasn't over it, "look, even now he has so much control over you and he doesn't even want you."

"Shut up," I whispered balling my hands into fists.

"You're never going to be over this are you? You're stronger than this Bella, he's just a stupid bloodsucker," he yelled grabbing onto my shoulders.

"Just shut up!" I screamed bringing my hand up to slap him, once I didn't it I regretted it, "ow ow ow!"

"What did you do that for?" he questioned about to grab my hand but I pulled away.

"Leave me alone," I whispered, "you don't belong here."

"Neither do you," he said taking a step closer to me as I took a step back onto the ground.

"Go back to your pack, I hate you," I whispered closing my eyes.

"What?" he was taken aback, he wasn't expecting those words to escape my lips, honestly neither had I but it was the only way to get him to go away.

"I hate you," I said a little louder this time as he grabbed my arm and pushed my chin up with his other hand. Before I knew what was happening his lips crashed to mine and I went limp in his hold.

"Bella," he whispered pulling away, "I love you."

"Leave," I whispered harshly to him stomping back up the stairs.

"I won't," he stated determined.

"I don't want you here," I was to the door of the school.

"Don't do this," he whispered into the wind.

"Go home Jacob and forget about me," I stated walking back into the building slamming the door behind me for dramatic effect. I looked at him out of the corner of my eye and saw him running off quickly; I could tell he was trying to keep from transforming in public. I darted to the bathroom after that and didn't come out until lunch started; I only came out because I knew Erin would come looking for me if I didn't.

I knew she would still know something was wrong, sometimes I thought of her as a human version of Alice, it was freaky how she knew exactly what was going to happen but she said it was just a feeling she would get sometimes. I rounded the corner and came face to face with Steve as Erin grinned from behind him.

"What's going on?" I questioned eyeing them suspiciously.

"I was told to come apologize, I didn't know you had a boyfriend and it I would have known I would have never hit on you," he stated looking to the ground as I gave him an extremely confused looked and Erin lipped that she would tell me later.

"Don't worry about it," I said walking off with Erin in tow, "what was that about?"

"He saw you and your friend on the steps and assumed, I didn't say anything because I figured if he thought he was your boyfriend then he would leave you alone," she explained and I smiled to her.

"Well, at least I don't have to worry about him for awhile," I forced a small laugh as she grabbed my hand, the hand I had used to slap Jacob and everything came at me full force. I had just told off my best friend, the guy who had been there for me when I needed someone. I was a horrible person.

"Don't worry, he'll forgive you," Erin whispered running ahead of me a bit, "oh, and when you go home don't be too mad at your visitors, they are just trying to help."

I didn't see her again after that; well at least I didn't see her again that day. I pretty much ran to my truck and sped out of the parking lot and headed for home. When I pulled in I didn't expect to see a bright yellow porsche sitting in the spot next to mine. I got out of the truck but kept my hand on the handle. Did I really want to deal with this now? Was I up to seeing Alice after everything that happened between us?

I let my hand fall to my side as I dejectedly walked towards my apartment. As I opened the door I didn't even have time to drop my stuff as a small girl with spiky hair tackled me into a bear hug. I held the tears in as my arms hug limply at my side.

"How did you get in here?" I whispered as Alice released her hold on me a frown graced her face.

"I'm sure you already know that answer," she stated as I finished walking in the door throwing my book bag on the couch.

"Why are you here?" I said not meaning for the words to come out as coolly as they did but I couldn't take it back now.

"A lot of reasons," she replied as I saw Jasper walk out from around the corner. His eyes locked with mine and I couldn't look away. His eyes looked so hurt and filled with pain.

"What happened?" I questioned as he just shook his head.

"It's nothing really, I just got to thinking the last few months and I've been feeling really guilty about how everything happened at your birthday. Bella, you have to know that I am sorry for what happened, I never intended to hurt you, I couldn't control myself," if he could cry I have a feeling tears would be descending from his eyes.

"I never blamed you," I whispered walking a little closer to him; I had my arms outstretched to him in a somewhat loving manner as he glanced at Alice.

"You won't hurt her," she smiled as he walked over to me wrapping his arms around my shoulders.

"Please know that you are like a sister to me and I would do anything for you," he said placing a small kiss on my forehead before pulling away to stand next to Alice. It was kind of weird seeing this side of Jasper since when I knew him he didn't talk much to me and tried to keep his distance.

"So, what's the other reason you came here?" I looked to Alice for this one.

"Jasper wanted to come and I had seen you disappear and I needed to make sure you didn't do anything drastic. Bella, I know what Rosalie told you…." She trailed off seeing a fire in my eyes.

"She told me everything I needed to know," I snapped and she shook her head.

"Please, you need to know the truth," she said stepping forward to place a hand on my shoulder, "Bella, I would never hurt you but you need to talk to him."

"I don't have to do shit," I almost yelled, I couldn't believe those words came out of my mouth but as quickly as they came they were gone.

"I know but he needs to explain something's to you that would be better coming from him. I can't fix this between you two as much as I want to. I know you are hurt but so is he, please try to understand," she explained as I just shook my head over and over.

"I can't," I stated walking over to the door. I opened it for them as Alice sobbed and looked to the ground.

"Bella, you're like my sister, please don't do this to me," her voice was barely audibly as another dry sob racked throughout her body.

"Please, I need time," I whispered and she nodded handing me a piece of paper before giving me a hug walking out of the room, "Alice, you know I love you, I just need some time to myself."

She nodded in understanding as Jasper gave me a hug and they were gone. I looked down to the note in my hand and realize it was their cell phone numbers but one was scribbled at the bottom with Edward written elegantly and I crumbled the paper with every intention of tossing it out. I couldn't, I brought the paper up to my face as I walked into my bedroom. I threw myself onto my bed and without even thinking let out the most pathetic scream into my pillow. It was someone of a relief so get at least something out of my system, granted screaming into a pillow wasn't exactly the smartest idea, it was just the only thing that came to mind.

"When did everything become so screwed up?" I mumbled turning to look out my window, it was sunny and I glared. Why couldn't it be rainy, just like my mood.

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