A/N: Hi all. I know the last few chapters have been hard, bear with me; things will get better for our two favorites.
Thank you for all the wonderful reviews. Almost everyone took that better than I could have ever hoped for. Big thanks also to those who just started reading and stayed up till the wee hours of the morning to catch up. You know who you are and what big smiles you gave me!
Just so everyone knows, Edward and Bella will NOT be breaking up because of what happened, they will only move forward from here, TOGETHER. I actually had an anonymous review telling me that they should just break up and move on. Not gonna happen. Sorry. Well I'm not really sorry; I want them to stay together so I won't let them break up.
There are tears in this chapter, a Kleenex box would be good to have handy, but it's only because our Edward is trying to come to terms with what happened.
Disclaimer: SM owns Twilight. I own a good wet pile of tissues.
Chapter 24: The Longest Day
EPOV
(Continued on from Bella's first night home from the hospital.)
We had been on the entryway floor of our apartment for what seemed like hours. No words had been spoken since we returned home. There was nothing I could say to make Bella feel better right now, so instead I held her as she fell apart in my arms over and over again. I knew I needed to get Bella in bed so she could be more comfortable but she wouldn't let me go. I could tell she was in physical pain, however she wouldn't allow herself to care.
"B? Sweetie, we gotta get up. This isn't good for you right now. We need to take care of your body. I know you're hurting and you need to let me care for you." I kissed the side of her head and brushed the hair away from her incision gently, noticing that it was healing well.
Bella clung to my neck not wanting to release me to stand. I grabbed her wrists and as gently as I could, loosened the death grip she held on me. Slowly she released me and her hands fell to her lap defeated. She looked up at me; her eyes making my heart shatter into a thousand pieces. They were bloodshot, swollen and broken. The injuries to her left eye had increased due to the amount of crying she had done, her eye so swollen I would be surprised if she could even see out of it.
"E? I hurt. I hurt so fucking bad!" She whispered, her body so physically exhausted she was unable to do or say anything else. "Take the pain away. Please! You gotta take the pain away. Make it go away!"
I got to my feet as her arms wrapped around my legs; scared I was going to leave her. Leaving Bella right now was the farthest thing from my thoughts, knowing that I wasn't ever going to leave her again.
"I'm not going anywhere Angel, please know that. We need to get up now so that I can take care of you. I know you hurt and I'll try to take the pain away as much as I can, you're my only concern now, Bella. My only concern." Just two weeks ago, I would have had another life I was responsible for, but now it was only Bella. I swallowed the thick lump in my throat praying that I would be able to keep it together long enough so that Bella didn't see me falter.
"I hurt. My body I mean. Every part of my body aches, but my heart. It… it's too much. I feel...I feel like its been ripped out and I'm empty." Her hand went for her chest, holding it there tightly as her body convulsed with the torture she was going through thinking of the child we had lost.
She started to hyperventilate and it took me several minutes to calm her down so she didn't injure herself worse. Each deep breath she took, she winced in pain from her broken ribs, but she couldn't stop, and I didn't know how to make it stop.
It killed me to stare into her eyes to get her attention. Her face was so badly bruised, not my Bella's Angel face. I loved her so damn much, but to see her like this right now was more than I could physically or mentally handle.
I bent down wrapping my arms under her knees and waist and picked her up and started walking towards the bathroom while she wrapped her arms around my neck once again, holding her body tightly to mine. Her grip around my neck was sure to leave marks, but I couldn't find it in me to care. Bella was here, in my arms, safe, and well I don't know how much I believed this, but ok. She was living, and that was so much more than I could have asked for.
"I know Angel, so does mine." The tears blurred my vision thinking about why her heart hurt so badly. My own chest was burning with the pain that we were both feeling. I had to make Bella feel better; I had to take some of the pain away for her. "How about a nice hot bath? I bet that would feel nice. You haven't had a real chance to get cleaned up since this all happened and I bet it would relax your muscles a little." A warm bath and getting her to bed were about the only two things I could offer to comfort my girl at this time, but I would do anything to physically heal her. Emotional healing was another story and I was at a loss of where to go with that.
"You won't leave right?" Bella's sad eyes looked up at me waiting for my answer. They were so distraught; I wondered if she really thought I was going to leave her alone, even for a moment. A few weeks ago, I would have joked with Bella for sounding clingy, but not now. I would never make Bella feel bad for wanting me to be there for her again. She needed me just as much as I needed her.
"I won't ever leave you, baby." She winced at the name I had said to her so many times, and I made a mental note to not use it again for a long while. I should have known that it would cause her more pain to hear. I set Bella down on the toilet carefully so I could start the water for her bath. She groaned in pain as she finally was realizing what sitting on the floor hunched over had done to her battered body. "I think we need to get your meds though. A little percocet would feel pretty good right now I bet." I gave her the best smile I could and kissed her hand.
A little percocet for myself wouldn't feel half bad right now either.
She nodded in agreement.
"I'm just going to go call Alice to get your meds ok?" I stared into her eyes making sure she knew I wasn't leaving for good.
"Ok, I need a personal minute anyways." She looked down at the toilet and I understood that she wanted some privacy.
I kissed her head again as I made my way towards the door. "I'll just be outside the door if you need me ok?"
She nodded again, and I shut the door so she could have her personal moment. In the hospital I heard her cry in pain when she was trying to go to the bathroom, but refused to let me help saying she was fine. More like embarrassed, but at this point I would do anything for her. Even if that meant helping with her 'personal moments'. I loved this girl more than my own life, a few embarrassing moments weren't going to change that one bit.
I called Alice and she was over before I could put the phone down. Knowing her, she was probably pacing around since she returned home waiting for some news. She knocked lightly on the door and let herself in. Her tear filled eyes met mine as she ran into my arms and buried her head in my chest as I wrapped my arms tightly around my little sister. Alice always had this calming affect on me and right now I needed her more than ever.
"What's wrong Eddie? Mom and dad said you guys would tell us when you're ready. But…I know that it has to be pretty serious the way you and Bella left." Her tears poured over and down her cheeks as she took a hold of my hand and stepped back.
I wiped my eyes, because of course I was crying again. I don't think I had ever cried this much in my entire life. Not when I was left on the doorstep by my birth parents, or when I hit rock bottom with drugs. Not even when I was fighting and got the shit beat out of me time and time again.
"I'll tell you all later. But for now, I need you to go get Bella's meds filled. Please? She's in a lot of pain, and I was a dumb fuck and didn't think to stop on the way home." Just another thing we can add to the fuck up file that I'd created for myself.
"Of course E. Anything you need. Just let me know." I handed her the scripts and my credit card, which she adamantly denied.
"Did you grab all of her stuff from the hospital?" I knew she did but felt I needed just a few more minutes to talk to her even if it was about trivial things.
"Yup, it's all at my place. I'll bring it by when you're ready. Everyone's just sitting there waiting for some answers. I know you'll tell us when you're ready. Please tell Bella how much we all love her. And you too Eddie. How can we help you guys? I think I speak for everyone when I say that we are going crazy not knowing what's going on." She grabbed my hand rubbing my palm.
"Just give us a little time. I gotta take care of Bella. She..." My voice gave out on me, and I swallowed hard. "We...are going to need some time to get through this...." I heard Bella cry out in pain cutting me off mid sentence and ran for the bathroom door. "I gotta go Tink. Thanks!"
Alice made her way out as I opened the door to the bathroom and found Bella sitting on the toilet holding her side, her face twisted in agony. Her pants were half way down her legs and I think she was trying to get undressed on her own. Typical Bella, not wanting to ask for help.
I knelt in front of her and removed the rest of her pants for her as I shut the water off in the full tub. She went for her sweatshirt, and my hands stopped her.
"Let me take care of you sweetheart." I gave her a kiss on the forehead before looking her in the eyes waiting for the ok to continue.
Her hands dropped and allowed me to take over knowing that she would only cause herself more pain if she did it on her own. I reached under her sweatshirt and pulled her arms out as gently as I could one at a time. I then did the same for her t-shirt until she was sitting completely naked in front of me.
I'm not gonna lie and say that her body didn't make me ill to look at, cause it did. She wasn't my Bella. Her body wasn't hers.
Bella's body was covered in yellow and brown healing bruises, and the area over her broken ribs was still swollen. She had gauze over her breast and I removed it as gently as I could, knowing the dressing would need to be changed anyways. Her nipple was scabbed over and purple, and her thighs and upper arms and neck were darker brown and yellow from more bruises.
I swallowed the vomit that was in my mouth, trying not to let her see my staring. I didn't mean to stare, but it was hard not too. The fucker had made her perfect flawless body look like this. I wished in that moment that Emmett had let me kill him. Actually, I had wished that exact thought over and over since my eyes first landed on Bella laying in that alley.
Bella's bones were protruding through her skin and I wanted to weigh her to see how much she had lost. She needed to eat that was for sure. Her body was a skeleton, a shell of what it had been. She was quickly loosing the curves I knew and loved. I know it wasn't intentional and that she had no choice, but the feeding tube that she had in the hospital basically kept her alive and that's all. She needed something of substance and a lot of it.
My eyes landed on her flat stomach that up until two weeks ago was holding our child. For just a moment I imagined what it would look like with a little bump. What it would look like when she was as big as Rose.
I swallowed the knot that was forming in my chest as I tried to will the thought from my mind.
She caught me staring at her and began crying again. Shit. I was an ass. I wrapped my arms around her the best I could and kissed her head.
"Shit...please don't cry Angel." I tried to comfort her, rubbing her arms gently but I don't think it would matter what I said to her right now. I royally fucked myself for the way I took in her body.
"I'm hideous! Your eyes say it all E." She cried harder as her body began to shake.
"No B. You're not hideous. Yes, it is a lot to take in, but you will heal. You're bruises are already getting better. I'm sorry for staring, but sweetie, we gotta get some food in you. Your bones are popping through your skin. A good juicy burger and fries is definitely calling your name." I tried to crack a small joke, but she wasn't with me, to wrapped up in my staring.
She continued her silent sobs, and I was out of ideas to make her feel better. "I'm sorry E. I'm sorry you have to look at me like this. If I could take a bath on my own I would, but I cant, and…"
I put my finger under her chin and kissed her lips. "You're beautiful. Always have been and always will be. I don't think of you any different, gorgeous. All of this," I ran my hands down her body. "will heal. It's just going to take some time. How about your bath now? I promise it will feel good."
"You come too? Right?" Her brown doe eyes looked like a scared little girl, and I knew I would have to work on reassuring her that I wasn't going anywhere.
"With those eyes, how could I resist?" She cracked a small smile. It didn't reach her eyes, but I took it. It was the first glimmer of hope I had yet to see.
I helped her ease into the hot tub of water and listened as she moaned as the heat surrounded her. I stripped my clothes off as she settled her body in. I texted Alice and asked her to pick us up some food while she was out. I hadn't been home in almost two weeks, and wasn't sure what was in the fridge and didn't want to spend my time cooking while my attention would be better put to use on Bella.
When we got home, I didn't really look around but when I went to call Alice I was able to see that the apartment was spotless, all laundry washed and fresh sheets on the bed. Alice. That's all that needed to be said.
I had a lot of time to think the last few weeks and realized how much my family meant and what they did for us. I would never be able to repay them for all that they did and the support they had shown. But I also knew that they would never want anything in return. They did all of this solely out of love for the two of us.
I stood before the tub bare naked in front of Bella as she stared at me. There was no lust in her eyes, and there didn't need to be. This was not the time and we both knew it. I hadn't thought about anything romantic since this whole thing happened. I just wanted Bella to feel better. I didn't need her in that way right now, as I'm sure she didn't need me.
I got in and sat behind Bella with her back leaning into my chest. She moaned again as I rubbed my hands up her back. I smiled at the sound of her moan. It wasn't a sexual moan, more a content moan, her body slowly relaxing. Again, it wasn't much, but it was something. She wasn't crying or shaking and I considered it progress in the right direction. I grabbed her loufa and freesia body wash and began to wash her back as she continued to moan in appreciation.
"Does that feel good B?" I continued to soap up her back, running my hands over her neck and her tattoo. That tattoo. I had to swallow again, knowing the meaning behind it and how I failed her.
I would never let her be hurt again. I would take care of my Bella; protect her.
"Mmmmm..... it feels so good E. I was almost embarrassed that you were with me so long at the hospital. I mean sponge baths don't exactly make you feel clean." Another little laugh. Thank you God.
"B. I didn't give a fuck what you smelled like in the hospital as long as you woke up." I kissed her neck as her head rocked back. "That's all I wanted, all I prayed for."
"Thank you. Thank you for everything you've done for me." She grabbed my hands and wrapped them around her shoulders to bring us closer. I leaned in and placed my head in the crook of her neck hoping I wasn't hurting her worse with the pressure on her body.
"I would do anything for you B." I kissed her neck again. "Anything."
"I know. And… I'm so sorry… for leaving that night. I won't ever do something that stupid again." I felt her body start to shake again and I held her tighter, as tight as I could without causing her further pain.
"I'm never letting you go again B. I know you think I'm going to be to over protective, but I'm never letting you leave my side again. I don't care if James is behind bars or not. Never again."
She kissed my hand and leaned into my touch. "That's good, because I don't ever want you to leave me alone. I was stupid to think I could go out like that by myself. I'm prone to dirt bags and know now that I shouldn't be left alone."
"You aren't stupid Bella. You're the smartest woman I've ever met. I hate to say this, but I think James would have tried to find you one way or another and he…God, this sounds awful to say but I hope you know what I mean, but I think he just got lucky that night." My eyes burned as the tears were back.
"I think you're right. What's…what's happening to him now?" Her voice was a whisper once more.
"James is in jail awaiting sentencing. His trial's in two weeks. You don't have to go, but I want too. I'll make sure Emmett or Jasper stay with you while I'm gone. You can just give your statement ahead of time or something." So much for the not leaving her plan, but there was no way that I would be missing that fucker getting sentenced and smiling away as the judge read the verdict.
"No! No, I'm going. I have to go. I have to see for myself that he's going away. For good." Her voice became frantic as she pushed away from my body and tried to look at me, but her injuries didn't allow for such fast movements, and she ended up hurting herself worse.
"Do you think that's such a good idea B?" I wasn't sure myself if she could handle it. I wasn't sure I could handle her in the same room with that sick fuck.
"Yes. Yes I do." Her answer was simple and I didn't push it.
"We'll talk about it later Angel, ok?" I kissed her head and rocked us a little trying to relax her tense body.
She nodded and we were both quiet for several minutes. "E? I'm sorry that you missed so much work. Are things going to be ok? I have savings, I mean, I don't want you to have to dip into anything you know."
She was worried about money? She was worried about money after everything that happened? That was the least of my worries. Of course she would be worried about me instead of herself. But money and the shop were the last two things on my mind. I guess I really hadn't been very up front about just how big my trust fund was from my Grandpa Mason. But now was not the time to go into details. And even if I didn't have my bank accounts I wouldn't have cared if I lost everything I owned just as long as she came back to me.
"B. I don't give a fuck about money. We are going to be fine. I've got it covered. No worries ok?" I didn't want to make her angry, but knowing that she was worrying about money and work when she just returned from spending nearly two weeks in the hospital was just ridiculous to me.
She nodded again. I let it go. There was no reason to fight about something as petty as money when it was her health I was more concerned about.
We sat there like that a few more minutes before continuing on with her bath. I washed her hair and was ever so careful around her incision, then washed the rest of her body for her. She was adamant that her legs be shaved; even though I told her countless times I could give two shits less. After trying herself she gave up and let me.
I could tell how much pain she was in, and pulled myself out first, wrapping a towel around my waist, before lifting Bella out. I sat her on the toilet again and dried her body off. I wrapped her in a towel and combed through her hair while she watched me as I took care of her. There was a look of adoration in her eyes as she watched me. She looked calm and relaxed for the time being.
I ran to the bedroom quick and pulled on a clean pair of boxers and flannel pants and found her some panties, silky pajama pants and one of my long sleeved shirts than hung loosely on her small frame. Her eyes twinkled at my choices. Another glimmer of hope.
I helped her get dressed and walked with her out to the kitchen. She insisted on walking although I could tell how much she was hurting.
There was a bag from the little deli down the street with sandwiches in it, and all of her prescriptions sitting on the counter. Once Bella was seated, I got her a glass of juice and some well needed meds. She looked at the food and grunted.
"You need to eat or you're going to be sick sweetie." I handed her the pills and she gladly took them.
I watched as she ate, finishing her sandwich and bowl of soup but I could tell that she was only eating because I was with her. I finished mine quickly as she started to nod off.
"Do you want to go to bed Angel? You need rest so we can get you better." I cleaned up our garbage and wrapped my arms underneath her knees and around her waist and carried her into the bedroom.
"I just hurt so bad E. I just want the pain to go away." Her eyes were full of tears again, mine burning at the sight of her starting to break down again.
I kissed her forehead as I laid her down, bringing the comforter up around her neck and wrapping it around her. I wrapped her in my arms, mindlessly running circles across her stomach.
"I wish I could take all your pain away B. But I can't. I'm sorry." My eyes blurred once more as the tears fell freely.
"I know. But I...I'm just so...so..." Her words became softer as she started to fall asleep.
She didn't say anything further as she drifted off in my arms. My Angel was back home in my arms, just like everyone promised.
This was all I wanted, all I prayed for in the last two weeks. My mind ran wild once more, but this time it wasn't because I didn't know if she was going to make it, it was because I was trying to wrap my mind around the fact that two weeks ago Bella was carrying my child and James took him from us and now we were hear, trying to pick up the pieces of our lives.
I was angry, furious, hurt, tortured, pained. I could feel the last two weeks, the stress, the sleepless nights, and the nightmares all starting to take their toll. I couldn't sleep now. I couldn't shut my mind off from thinking. All I wanted to do was shut it off.
I needed to be here for Bella. She needed me, and I wasn't going to let her down again.
I laid there for an hour with Bella in my arms, listening to her breathe, wiping the stray strands of hair away from her face and kissing every place I could without moving her.
My body grew restless and I slid out of bed as quietly as I could and made my way to the living room. I found beer in the fridge, God Bless Alice, and grabbed myself 2 and made my way over to the living room. I lit up a cigarette and took a long pull, letting the nicotine relax me the best it could.
I wanted something stronger, but knew that it wouldn't help Bella to see me like this. I drank my beer and stared at the wall. Stared at it and thought about James. The fire was burning in me once again, and I felt like I was going to loose control. I had to get out of here for a few minutes so that Bella wouldn't here me when I finally let myself go.
My mind was torn. I didn't want to be away from Bella, but I knew she didn't need to see me like this. My angry side won out and I knew it was for the best.
I grabbed my smokes, set the alarm, triple checked the locks and headed over to Alice and Jaspers. Not even knocking I let myself in, and found them and Rose and Emmett in the living room just sitting there. Not doing anything.
It was late, and I was fucking tired. My body was ready to give out on me and my mind was about to take me over.
Jasper and Emmett stood when they saw me and I stopped, taking a deep breath and letting it go. I made my way over to the couch and sat down next to Alice. She wrapped me in a tight hug once more, as I sat there with my hands at my sides. I didn't have the energy to even hug her back.
"How is she E?" Jaspers voice was shaky.
I looked over to find his blood shot eyes looking back at me. "I got Bella to eat something and she's sleeping. She's...in a lot of pain, and needs to rest. I just...I needed to get out of there for a minute...for just a minute." I ran my hands through my hair as I leaned over my knees rest my arms on them cradling my head in my hands.
I felt like shit for leaving her, but knew that she was just across the hall and would be out for a few hours at least. That thought alone didn't stop me from glancing back over at the door, listening close for anything.
I felt Alice rubbing my back and I started to cry...again.
"I'll go sit with her for a while Edward. You just relax for a bit ok?" Rose placed her hand on my arm as I looked up at her and gave her a half smile.
I threw her my keys and told her to call me if Bella woke. Rose knew the security code to let herself in.
Emmett grabbed a cigarette and lit it for me as I took pull after pull.
"You gotta give us some answers E. Mom and dad didn't say shit and we seen they way you guys left. Something more is going on." Emmett cracked his fingers one by one, a nervous habit of his.
"I...we...fuck." I ran my hand through my hair as I tried to find the right words. Alice was still at my side, Emmett and Jasper pacing. "James.... I thought it couldn't get any worse...but it did. So much worse."
"Edward. You gotta tell us." Jasper's voice was shaky and he was 10 seconds from losing it. He hadn't been able to talk to Bella since she became coherent. He had been there so much while she was out, praying for her to wake up along side me and was broken not knowing what was going on with his best friend.
I looked up at the faces of my family and cried harder. There was no easy way to say what I needed to say, so I just put it out there, my shaky voice and all. "She was pregnant." It came out in only a whisper. My voice cracked and my stomach churned.
Alice sniffled from beside me as Jasper took a seat. Emmett continued to pace.
"The doctors told her that it was almost impossible for her to get pregnant." I barely heard Jasper as he talked to the floor.
"Yeah." What more was there to say?
"Is the baby..." Alice was cut off by Emmett.
"Bella was pregnant? Did you know man? I mean, before all of… this… happened." Emmett stopped pacing long enough to talk and wait for my answer.
I shook my head no. "Dad ran some tests on her at the hospital and told us before we left today. I'm sorry for not acknowledging you guys especially after everything you've done for us, but I had to just…get her home." I chewed on my thumb, tearing at the skin until it bled.
"You said 'was' as in past tense." Alice sniffled. I couldn't look up to meet her eyes. I had seen Bella's destroyed eyes enough for one day and couldn't take Alice's.
"She.... we....fuck…we…we lost the baby. The attack was to much on her body and the baby didn't make it." I leaned over resting my head on my legs again as I allowed myself to finally break down, knowing that Bella couldn't see me right now, and that I didn't have to worry about her or how she was going to react. I needed to just let it out, scream, cry, plead for some answers of why this happened to her, to us. I cried as my entire body shook as I let the pain take me under.
No one spoke while my little break down continued. It was eerily silent. Emmett kneeled in front of me and pulled me into his chest hugging me tightly to him. We sat there like that, with Alice on my other side as I cried. I don't know how long I cried before shoving away from Emmett and standing up to pace. I didn't want to hurt my family and I knew that if I stayed there in their arms like that, someone was bound to get hurt.
Jasper was silently hunched over himself on the floor mourning for our loss and for his best friend's pain. He stood when I passed him and placed his hand on my chest, staring into my eyes before pulling me into a tight hug. I wanted to push him back, beat the shit out of something or someone, but I couldn't. I felt my arms going around his arms and holding him tightly to me. The comfort my family held was like nothing else. Bella was the only person that could have made me feel better in this moment, and honestly I wouldn't have asked her to, knowing that I had to help her get through all this.
"I'm so fucking sorry man. I...can't even imagine...what you and Bell are going through right now. She always wanted to be a mom.... and to know she had the chance. Oh God!" He cried into my shoulder as I did the same.
I pulled back and wiped my eyes and grabbed another smoke. I looked over at Emmett with a death glare thinking of that night yet again.
"You should have let me fucking kill him Emm! You don't have to see Bella the way I do! See her torn and broken from what he did to her, her body, our baby. An eye for an eye, right? He took my baby, you should have let me kill the piece of shit that took our baby from us!" I slammed my hand down on the coffee table shattering the glass below me. Somewhere in the back of my mind it registered to me that I was losing it, and that my hand should have hurt, but the only pain I felt was in my heart.
I fell to my knees and held my head in my hands. Alice knelt beside me and wrapped me in her small arms. "It's ok E. It's ok." She repeated that to me over and over as she rocked me back and forth trying to comfort me.
"It's not ok! Nothings going to be OK! Did you not hear what I just fucking said?" I screamed as I got to my feet and kicked the coffee table, making it fly up against the recliner, shoving it back against the wall.
Emmett put his body in front of me so that I wouldn't take out my aggression on anything else. Or maybe he didn't want to see me get hurt. I didn't care if I got hurt, I just wanted to get rid of the pain I felt in my chest and the only way I knew to do that was to get fucked up or fuck something up. He placed his hands on my shoulders calming me the best way he knew how.
I knew I needed to calm down, but I was just so fucking angry.
I looked down at the glass all over the carpet and got to my knees starting to pick shards up. Alice and Jasper were down there as well, and Alice's hand stopped mine.
"I'm sorry. I'll buy you a new one." I said trying to lighten the mood, knowing that I probably looked like a fucking psycho right now.
"No worries." Jasper clapped me on the back and went to get the garbage basket.
I sat back bringing my knees to my chest and rocked as my vision went blurry once more. Alice brought me into a tight hug yet again and I held her with everything I had left in my body.
"I don't know if I can do this! I gotta stay strong for B. But I feel like I'm gonna fall apart any second! I can't let her see me like this, it would just kill her if she seen me break down like this. I can't do that to her." I cried into Alice's shoulder wondering how I could be strong enough for both Bella and myself.
"You're gonna be fine honey. You just gotta take care of each other. You gotta be there for Bella, E. She needs you, but don't feel like you don't have an outlet. You can come to us anytime you need to. We're all here for you and you know we don't judge. I have a few other pieces you can destroy if you really feel like it." She kissed my forehead as I stood and tried to pick up the glass again.
Jasper and Emmett stopped me and I sat back in a recliner. I sat there in a daze watching them move about. I sat there like that for a long time before looking at my phone and realized it was almost 2am and Bella would need more meds. I internally kicked myself for being away from her for so long. I just had to clear my head, think before I seen her again.
I said my good-byes and made my way home. Rose hugged me and I kissed her cheek thanking her. I locked the door and shut the lights off crawling into bed next to Bella. I woke her to give her more meds and she fell back asleep quickly.
I let sleep take me over as my mind seemed ready to power down. My body needed rest, and I needed to be alert in the morning for Bella. I needed to sleep and tomorrow we would work on coming to terms with everything.
I kissed Bella's head once more silently thanking her for coming home to me. I had promised her that I wasn't leaving that hospital without her and I meant it.
We were home.
Together.
My Angel was back in my arms where she belonged.
A/N: Edward is having a hard time coming to terms with everything that happened. He might need some anger management in the future, but right now, I think his actions are justified for what he is going through.
Yes, Edward blames himself for what happened to Bella, and yes, he will get over it eventually, but just give him some time. I can't say this enough, cause I don't want anyone to worry more than they already do, Edward and Bella are only going to get stronger from this. They need to work on their feelings, but that takes time and we need to give them that.
One more bummer chapter, and things start to pick up a little again. I PROMISE there is still good to come for these two yet. AND we aren't done so hang in there with me. There is fun to be had later on.
Have I mentioned that reviews are like gold in the FF universe? I can't say enough thanks for everyone who has reviewed, and all the lurkers who have come out of the woodwork. Told ya I didn't bite!
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Last but not least, anyone excited for New Moon???? Lets just say that my husband has told me on more than ten occasions to shut the hell up about it or he wouldn't be going with me this weekend to see it. Like a good girl, I have kinda shut my mouth…