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Chapter 26: Light at the end of the tunnel
EPOV
Bella had been home from the hospital for about four weeks now. She was healing more and more every day. Physically that is. Mentally and emotionally, I wasn't so sure.
She didn't talk much about the attack.
And we sure as hell didn't talk about the baby.
At all.
Bella winced every time anyone mentioned any remorse about the baby. I followed that by the death glare and the comments stopped. No one ever talked about that subject anymore.
We knew how sorry everyone was about the baby. We knew it and appreciated their concern, but we needed time to heal on our own, just the two of.
Because the baby was never mentioned, and the attack was mostly off limits as well, I don't know how much we were really healing, but I never said anything, fearing it would set Bella off and I couldn't bear to watch the woman I loved more than anything in this world cry or be in any more pain than she already was.
I made the mistake of calling Bella 'baby' twice. Two times since we returned from the hospital, and each time, I wasn't able to catch myself in time. Each time I was faced with the look in Bella's eyes that told me I was an ass and had no mind to think with. Stupid fucker was I for even mentioning that word around my girl, but I learned quickly and was very careful with my vocabulary.
Emmett and Rose had come over to see Bella the night after mom and dad had talked to us and checked on her. Even though Bella was an emotional wreck, she wanted to see her friends. Emmett did everything he could not to wrap her in a bear hug like usual and you could tell that it was hurting him to not have that contact with her. But she really was like a soap bubble. So fragile and so easily broken. I was the only one she let touch her when she felt weak. I knew where and where not to put my hands. I had learned the hard way unfortunately.
Rose was just a few weeks from her due date, and as much as Bella said it didn't bother her about Rose's pregnancy, I could tell that she was suffering in silence. Typical Bella. It's not that she wasn't happy for my brother and his wife, but it was difficult to see Rose's protruding belly and have to know that could have been her. I never told Bella this, but it was just as hard on me. Ever since finding out that Bella had been pregnant with my child, all I pictured was Bella's bulging stomach, rubbing my hands across it every chance I got, and laughing with her when the baby would kick. So, as I said, I would never tell Bella this, but I was hurting just as much as she was over the death of our unborn child.
Emmett tried to keep things normal for Bella, but Rose had a hard time not talking about the attack. And Bella didn't want to talk about any of it period. Rose loved her. We both knew it. She was just dealing with things the best she could with all the pregnancy hormones that were running through her.
Emmett on the other hand was cracking jokes with her left and right, and as much as I knew it hurt Bella to laugh, it was the light at the end of the tunnel to see and hear her laugh. I would be forever grateful to my brother for what he could do for my Bella.
But Bella's laughs and smiles were far and few between. She was sad a lot. Her moods were up and down. She would be talkative one minute and crying the next, never wanting to tell me what was wrong. I learned to not ask what was wrong after a few days, I knew what was wrong and there was nothing I could do to help her, other than hold her close and remind her of the love we shared.
Jasper and Alice would like to have been over at the apartment every chance they got, but Bella didn't want to burden anyone with her troubles as she put it, and she had me kindly ask everyone to keep there distance for a while. One of the hardest things I ever had to do. My family meant the world to both of us, but Bella came first.
It killed Jasper. He had been there through thick and thin for so many years and she was forcing him away. He looked like a dog that had been kicked when I told him, but I had to honor her wishes. Bella was my first concern, and I would do anything for her. Even if it meant pushing our friends and family to the side for her to heal the way she wanted too.
Bella talked with our family every few days, but visits were totally off limits.
Bella needed normalcy in her life, and wanted everyone else to go back to there's. I knew that she didn't push everyone away intentionally, and in time she would realize that she needed to let them back in. Not only for herself but also for everyone else. Bella was hard not to love and I knew from the brief conversations that I had with everyone that they were hurting just as much with us being so close, yet so far away for the last month.
Alice, Rose and Emmett understood that she needed time, and distanced themselves like Bella had asked. I knew they were hurt being kept away, but it was what Bella wanted. And no one was going to go against her right now. Not after everything she had been through.
For the past four weeks, I didn't leave Bella's side.
At all.
The only time I had, was the day after she came home and I went to the shop for an hour. One hour. I hadn't been there in two weeks and Alex had come back to help me with things. Him and Emmett had taken up the brunt of the work. I couldn't even put into words what I felt for those two and what they had done for us. Bella seemed fine that I was leaving knowing that I would return, but that night, she had terrible nightmares, screaming for me in her sleep. Her arms were clenched around my neck for an hour as I was trying to help her come down from the terrifying place she had gone too. She finally did calm and fell back asleep, only to be awaken a few hours later screaming for me again.
That's when I decided not to leave her again anytime soon, until I knew she could really handle it. And even at that, I still wouldn't leave her alone. I needed her just as much as she needed me. We both knew this.
I was still beside myself for not being there for her that night. If I had just been a few minutes sooner, I could have saved her. I could have saved the baby. And we would be blissed out right now like we used to be.
Not that I didn't love Bella like I used to, but things were different between us. I think I loved her more than I ever felt capable of, but happiness was something we needed to get back into our lives. It wasn't there right now and I was racking my brain for ideas of how to get it back.
I needed Bella to talk to me. We needed to get through this together to move on with our lives. I knew we eventually would, but how long was it going to take before she opened up and let me in?
Bella even went as far as to ask if I still wanted to marry her. That in its self caused me to break down in front of her like a fucking pussy. I begged and pleaded with her for hours to never talk like that again. She was my life, my everything. And there was nothing I wanted more than to marry her. I had to remind her of our plans and what a beautiful bride she would be. My bride.
And so that brings us to the present. Its Friday morning. Bella's bruises are all but gone. Only slight discoloring here and there. Her nipple has healed well, her ribs are only causing her slight discomfort. We have taken to daily showers together. Nothing sexual at all, but at least I could be there for her in case she didn't feel well and let her feel my body against her own, letting her know how much I still loved and cherished her.
Bella hadn't been eating well since her return home and I finally put her on the scale, with her crying and all and seen that she had lost 20 pounds. She was only 125 pounds to begin with the last time I checked. I was worried and decided to take things into my own hands. I know she wasn't not eating intentionally, she had no appetite, but I wasn't going to allow her to self destruct like this.
We hadn't left the apartment at all since her return home and it was time to get some air. Alice and Rose had been so kind to keep us stocked on groceries as Bella didn't want to leave and I sure as hell wasn't going to leave her. It would be good for her and for me. It was early July and the sun was out. Perfect day to get back into reality. And I thought we could stop by the shop. I hadn't been there to work in almost six weeks, and not that I was concerned about finances, I owned the shop and all but I needed to get back to work sooner or later.
Bella lay beside me in bed. She was wearing a pair of my boxers and my t-shirt and looked sexy as hell. I lay on my side in only boxers as I watched her beautiful face while she slept. Her top lip pouted out begging for me to kiss it.
I lightly ran my hand along her side and her eyes fluttered awake. Her brown eyes stared into mine and a small smile played along her lips. Those smiles hadn't made themselves present very often. And I was willing to take what I could get.
"Hey beautiful." I kissed her pouty lips and continued to rub up her side.
"Hey." There was a sparkle in her eyes today. Something I hadn't seen in a long time. This was a good sign.
"What do you say about going out B?" She looked at me confused. "I think it would be good for us to get some air today. Start working our way back in to the world. Maybe take a walk, get some lunch, and go out for groceries. You know, normal stuff that we used to do."
She stared at me for a moment and I worried that I had upset her.
"I think that's a good idea. I mean, we gotta start acting human again at some point." She smiled at me once more and I felt the weight being lifted slightly. Was this really my girl talking right now?
I kissed her once more before standing and stretching. I looked down to see her eyes going up and down my body. She was checking me out.
"Do you see something you like the soon to be Mrs. Cullen?" I tried to joke with her as much as possible to keep the mood light.
She smirked and sat up. I made my way to stand in between her legs in front of her as she wrapped her arms around my waist.
"Cullen, I always see things I like when it comes to you." She kissed my Mason tattoo. The feeling of her lips on my skin was heaven.
"Its all yours Angel." I kissed her head as I ran my hands through her hair. She felt amazing with our arms wrapped around each other. Bella was amazing.
My fucking body had a mind of its own and I felt myself grow hard in seconds from the little contact she gave me. I had no control over it as I hadn't had sex in six weeks.
Lefty had definitely not been doing his job, but when you compare it to Bella, well, there was no comparison.
Bella shied away from my touch and I felt like a complete ass.
Way to go, make her uncomfortable, especially when she is willing to get out for a little bit and she's in a good mood!
"B. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable you know I can't control my body. Especially around you." I kissed her head as she stood and wrapped her arms around my waist again, snuggling into my chest.
My hard on rubbed against her stomach and I was craving more friction as much as I tried to deny it and act somewhat like a gentleman. Damn my fucking body.
"No E. It's ok. Really. It's nice to know that you still think of me like… that. But...I'm just not ready for that." Her eyes never made contact with me and I knew how uncomfortable she was feeling.
"Sweet Bella. I always want you. But please don't think I will push you. Because I won't. But when you are ready, let me know. All I want to do is make you feel good again. I'd do anything to make you feel better."
"You do E. You always do." She kissed my chest as I brought her face to mine and placed a chaste kiss on her sweet lips.
"You seem happier B. What's got your mood up? Not that I'm complaining...."
"You. Always you E. I don't know. I guess I just...I don't know what it is. I just like the way getting back to normal sounds. Lets go."
With that we were up. I made the bed as Bella found some clothes to wear. Watching her naked form as she dressed was not helping my problem below, but I knew that it might ruin our chances of having a good day together if I decided to dry hump her ass right now.
Bella chose a sports bra, which was the first bra I saw her put on since she returned home, and my dick twitched at the twins being closed off. In time buddy, in time.
She put on a pair of loose fitting jeans with holes in the knees and a white t-shirt that clung to her body. Of course the jeans were bigger on her than I had remembered, and the t-shirt was Alice's 'cause she felt that Bella needed a few things that would fit her newly acquired body a little better until she gained some weight back. Of course she had to put on my Cullen sweatshirt even though it was July. My dick twitched even more in excitement and I was silently chastising my body. I think I seen her wear her sweatshirt that I got her once or twice saying she would rather swim in mine. Whatever. Shit looked good on her.
She pulled her hair up and I saw the 'E' behind her ear, which made me smile. I snuck in a kiss over her tattoo and listened as she let out a small moan.
Blue balls award was totally being handed back to my beloved fiancé.
I knew how wrong it was for my body to react to her like this. She didn't need the added pressure, but just seeing her smile like she was made me feel like things were going to be ok, back to the way things were. And the way things were consisted of a fuck load of sex. A lot of sex, and I couldn't help but think of the little man below wanting to come out and play.
Yes, ok, I got it. Total Ass was I. Might as well have it stamped on my forehead.
I dressed quickly in a pair of faded jeans and black t-shirt, my usual. I noticed how Bella's eyes watched my body as I dressed and I felt more and more ok.
We stood side by side in the bathroom brushing our teeth and I felt a bit of normalcy coming back. Man it was a good feeling.
We made our way down to the little coffee shop around the corner, making sure to avoid going that direction and walked hand in hand while we sipped our coffee. We took it slow, making sure we weren't doing too much to fast. We walked the several blocks to Central Park where I wanted to take her on a carriage ride. We hadn't been on one since our first date, and I knew it would be a good start to our day.
Bella stopped dead in her tracks as she seen where I was leading her. Her lips curling into a huge grin. I took advantage of it, and kissed her beautiful smile.
"E? Seriously? You are so fucking awesome." She kissed me back and wrapped her arm around my waist as I lead us to the horse drawn carriage.
She took the first step up but was having difficulty balancing her weight. She still wasn't a hundred percent, but close. I place my hands on her back and gave her a little push and she was in. I made my way next to her and she cuddled into my side.
I paid the guy $100 to take us on a long ride. Bella cuddled into my side, I was a happy man. We still had shit to work out, this I knew all to well, but here in this moment, things were perfect.
We were perfect.
Bella and I had yet to discuss the baby. I knew when she was ready she would bring it up. And James's trial was next week. It had been pushed back a few weeks, which had been another reason I think Bella kept us locked up in the apartment. She was frustrated that they were prolonging his sentencing. Bella insisted she was going, which means I was going.
I knew it was going to be a hard day for her, but I also knew that it would help her to move on and let us move forward with our lives.
It was a beautiful day, the temperature was just right. Not to hot and not to cool. Bella shed the sweatshirt, wrapping it around her waist. I couldn't help but stare at her beautiful body. It was a little bony for my taste, but I knew I could fatten her up a bit and get some of those glorious curves back.
Bella was an angel in disguise, no question about it. We cuddled not talking for our entire ride through the park. All to soon we were back where we started and the carriage came to a stop. I jumped down, then grabbed Bella and carried her down bridal style so the jump down didn't hurt her.
She gave me a kiss before placing her down on her feet. If I had it my way, I wouldn't have put her down. I would have kept her safe in my arms forever.
God I was turning into a girl. I may need to check Bella's purse when we got home to see if my balls were in there, because apparently they were missing.
We walked around for a while people watching and talking about random shit, stopping for breaks when she needed them. Bella had been slowly weaning herself off the pain meds and only took them here and there when the pain was too much to bear, but in the last few days, she only needed them to sleep.
I noticed her moods were less fragile with the decrease in her happy pills. I think those are what made her so up and down all the time. Well that and the fact that she was brutally beaten and her baby was taken from her, but that's beside the point, right?
We were walking towards the apartment once again when I brought up the shop.
"B? You can say know if you don't want too, but do you think we could stop by the shop for a while? I know everyone would like to see you outside of the apartment, and it would be really nice to check things out and make sure Emmett didn't burn the place down." She could either choose to shut down right now, or we could go to the shop and see our family and continue on with the best day we've had in a long time.
Bella kissed my cheek and gave me a small smile. "Of course. But I am a little hungry, could we stop for something to eat? Oh, and I am so craving some ice cream!" She seemed excited over eating, which I was internally thanking God for, but then became quiet. I would gladly give into any requests that she had so I don't know why she would think...craving ice cream. Got it.
I brought her hands into mine and kissed them each. Kissing over her ring again trying to comfort her the only way I knew how. She was thinking of the last time she had a craving for that food and I wasn't going to let her regress right now, not after all the progress we made.
Her face looked frantic, on the verge of a panic attack.
"Honey, it's ok. I know what you're thinking. You're fine." I stared into her eyes, which were tearing up more and more. "You're fine, B." Bella looked into my eyes, and I could tell that she was starting to calm a little.
"I know. It just brought me back...to you know...." She stopped and shut her eyes shaking her head.
I kissed away the tears that had fallen to her cheek as she opened her eyes and gave me a slight smile.
"You never have to explain anything to me B. Come on, let's go get some pizza for everyone, and some ice cream."
She nodded and we placed an order for a few pizzas at a place just across the street from the shop. I carried them while Bella ate her ice cream then made our way over to the shop.
Watching her eat was a sight to see. Not only did my dick want to be covered in ice cream at this very moment, but also her frail body needed any calories it could get. We were picking up several cartons of ice cream later, and chips, and fried foods too.
Opening the doors and walking in felt amazing. The shop was my second home and I missed the hell out of working on my art. Emmett and Jasper were fooling around like the 10 year olds they were, and Alex was working on a customer. They all dropped there jaws when they seen us come in, realizing that I had Bella with me. Rose and Alice were lying on the couch, and Alice screamed in excitement as soon as her eyes landed on Bella. I immediately felt bad for any dogs that were in the surrounding six-block radius.
I set the pizzas on the counter and threw away Bella's dish as Alice and Rose came over to hug her lightly as I kissed them both on the cheek.
"It's so good to see you Bella!" Rose kissed her cheek and then stepped back so that her husband could make his way over.
Emmett came towards her at full speed as I seen the panic in Bella's eyes. I stopped him by placing my hand on his chest seconds before my Bella was trampled into a bear hug.
"Emm, go easy on her! She is breakable, remember that, please?" I warned.
"I know I know." He wrapped her in a loose hug and kissed her cheek smiling from ear to ear. "Welcome home Bella Barbie. It is so good to see you in here. It's so good to see you out of the house. We missed you sweetie."
She hugged him back keeping her arms wrapped around his big form. "It feels really good to be here Emm. Back to a little bit of reality."
Jasper was next and scooped Bella into a hug. He held her for several minutes while I looked away. It was a personal moment between the two of them that I felt like I was invading. No words were spoken between the two. No words were needed.
Jasper rubbed her back as he whispered something in her ear, and she smiled. He wiped a tear away from her eye and my heart ached for why she was crying. She looked over at me and gave me a slight smile telling me that she was ok. They were just having a moment, and I understood.
"Ooh pizza! Pizza and Bella Barbie all in one day! Is it my birthday or something?" Emmett and food were a force to be wrecken with. That is also why I got several pizzas.
I hit him in the stomach and started laughing as he started to salivate. "Easy hound dog. You're looking at the pizza likes it's going out of style."
Emmett rolled his eyes as Rosalie rolled herself off the couch and made her way towards the boxes of greasy goodness. She was rubbing her stomach as she closed her eyes inhaling the smells.
"God that smells so fucking good, doesn't it Emma Rose?" She rubbed her tummy as she looked down talking to it. Everyone, including Bella laughed at the soon to be mommy feeding her tummy. She said the pizza was for Emma and that she had no control over her little girl. Whatever.
Rose and Alice started eating trying to push Emmett away as I made my way back to the office. Alice had taken care of everything back here for me, the bills, contracts, inventory, it was all done. I don't know what I would do without my family.
I sat back in my chair and shut my eyes as I rubbed my hands over my face. It was good to be back. I just hoped that Bella was doing ok. I knew she was out there with Jasper and didn't worry too much about her safety, but mentally it was hard to be away from her, hoping that she didn't break down.
Sad as it sounds though, it was nice to just get away for a minute. I fucking loved the girl to death, but I was drained, mentally, physically, emotionally.
We had had such a great day so far, but the last few weeks had really kicked my ass. The saying 'what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger' had never held so much meaning to me in my entire life.
"You look like shit E!" I opened my eyes to find Alex leaning against the doorframe with a smirk on his face.
"Thanks bro. That's just what I needed." I rolled my eyes and punched him in the stomach.
"You wanna get a smoke quick?" His eyes directed me towards the door and a smoke sounded wonderful.
I nodded and got up. "Just let me go tell B."
I made my way out to find Bella eating a big piece of pizza talking with Rose and Alice. She was sitting in between them, and seemed content. Well as content as you can be with the gossip queens filling you in on what we supposedly missed lately.
I knelt down in front of her with my hands rubbing up and down her legs. "B. I'm just gonna get a quick smoke with Alex quick alright?"
Her eyes darted out for a mere second before she reined in her feelings.
"OK." She barely whispered but gave me a small smile that didn't reach her eyes.
"Don't worry. I'll just be outside. I'll stay by the window so you can see me the entire time, ok?"
She seemed to relax a little and nodded for me to go, and I kissed her softly before following Alex out.
He lit his cigarette and handed me the lighter. I took a long pull and leaned up against the building.
"How's she doing man?"
"Today, she's doing great. I haven't seen her smile like this since we got home from the hospital. But the last few weeks...have been...difficult." I ran my free hand through my hair.
"It's been more than that. How many years have I known you?" His eyes narrowed in on me; of course he knew it was worse.
"You're right. The last few weeks have been hell. Utter hell. Not that I don't love B. I love her more than I ever thought I could, but I'm just drained man. She doesn't want to talk about things, and she obviously shut everyone out, not wanting to be a bother. But she won't talk to me about anything. And I know she's hurting, I understand and can empathize, but..."
"You're hurting too." Thank you Alex.
"I know it sounds selfish, but yeah, I mean all I can think about is how I should have been there for her. And I know what's done is done and we can't go back and change anything, but fuck man! This shit has been eating me up and I gotta have her talk to me, so that we can try to move forward."
"Dumb question since you said she doesn't want to talk, but does she mention the baby at all?" Alex looked down at his feet, kicking piece of trash around.
"No. Not at all. And it really hurts. It hurts to know that we lost our child. And we aren't dealing with it. I know we will, but I feel like a part of me is just...missing, I don't know." I looked through the window and gave Bella a small wave. She smiled and waved back before joining the conversation again.
"Do you know what the future means for you guys and trying again?" Alex took a pull from his cigarette and leaned his head back waiting for me to answer.
"Carlisle said that it might be difficult, but not impossible. When he told us, her eyes lit up like you wouldn't believe, but she hasn't said anything since. And I am all for the practicing part of it, but not until she's ready."
"It's good that you still have something to look forward to though." He put out his cigarette and stood in front of me. "Hang in there man, things are going to get better. I know its going to take some time, but you guys are going to be better than ever if you can stick together through all this shit."
I nodded as I put my cigarette out. We walked back in listening to Rose's most recent craving, dill pickle chips, sour cream and salsa.
Ok then.
I grabbed Bella's hand and dragged her off of the couch and led us over to my station and plopped her in my lap as I sat down. We were connected in so many ways, that I didn't think I could be in a room with her without touching her. And I had been away from her for like 30 minutes and that was way to long.
Yeah I was emotionally drained by not talking about what had happened, but by no means would I push her away. I needed her more now than I ever had. And I knew she needed me the same. That much was obvious by the way she looked at me when I would go out for a smoke and be not even 10 feet from her.
We talked with Rose and Emmett and how excited they were for little Emma Rose to make her appearance into this world. I was truly happy for the two of them, and secretly couldn't wait to be an uncle, even though I put up the tough face so I didn't get any pussy comments.
Bella sat in my lap as we listened to the conversations. I had my arms around her waist as usual running soothing circles. She leaned her back into my chest and she looked content.
It was a good day. She accomplished so much by just going out of the house, and then to be with everyone at once was just the icing on the cake. My Bella was slowly making herself known again.
We had the most amazing people in our lives and no one brought anything up about the attack or the baby.
"So...the big day is fast approaching guys!" Alice squealed from the couch. That was another thing. Along with the whole 'do you still want to marry me?' conversation, we decided on pushing the wedding back a month so that she could be fully healed and also so we could enjoy the day without any worries. Worries as in, James would be sentenced by then, probably being auctioned off to the highest bidder in a dirty prison cell.
"Yes indeed it is." I whispered into Bella's ear and kissed her tattoo making her squirm over my already erect cock. This girl was seriously going to be the death of me.
"Two months. You think you can get me in that dress in time Tink?" Bella was all jokes; we both knew the dress would need to be taken in several sizes at the rate she was at.
Alice walked over with the pizza box and held it in front of Bella with a smirk on her face.
"Well honey, this is how we are going to get you into you dress without to much work being done on it. Eat. And eat lots. That isn't something that most brides get told, so you should consider yourself lucky." Alice was only trying to crack a joke, but the words cut like a knife. I know what she was getting at, but the reasoning behind Bella's newly acquired body was nowhere near what a usual bride was trying to achieve.
I rubbed Bella's sides a little more and brushed her hair to the side of her neck trying to comfort her. I placed a kiss there and listened to the small moan that came out of her mouth. I tried to distract her as much as possible, not wanting her to get upset by the comment.
As usual, Bella surprised me with her comeback.
"Well Tink, I know you two are from the same family, cause he's been telling me to eat for weeks." Bella took a bite of her pizza and over exaggerated her swallow making me roll my eyes and Alice gave her a little 'hmf'. "But seriously, thank you for thinking of me, and I will get into my dress. But will Rose?"
Rose shot up kind of and tried to act offended. "Fuck you Swan! I will get into my dress. Post baby and all! You just watch and see!" She rubbed her belly as Emmett pulled her to his lap trying not to let her see how amused he was.
"Yeah tubbo, that's why you ordered a size 8 instead of the usual 6 right?" Thank you Pixie! I think I loved my little sister more now than I ever have. I need to buy her something. Something really nice.
Bella laughed and our bodies shook together. She held her side as she laughed to hold down the pain.
"You are fucking awesome Tink! Thank you for the laughs! It hurts like hell sometimes, but totally worth it." Bella was still laughing as she tossed the remainder of the pizza back in the box and held her side.
"Yeah, well I don't know about the rest of you, but I will be the best looking fucker there, so don't worry your pretty little heads to much ladies." Emmett winked at the three girls as each one raised a middle finger in his direction with a smile.
"Don't count on it, I think that title will be held by my soon to be husband over here." Bella turned to look at me as she placed her hands on my chest and gave me a chaste kiss making us both smile. And I think I blushed a little too.
I unwrapped the sweatshirt from around her waist and threw it over my station so I could have better access of her waist. I rubbed my hands there, and at first she flinched away at the contact, but then relaxed into my chest again. I figured there was no way to get her comfortable again without trying. And she was trying. Thank you whom ever is answering this prayer!
We sat like that a little longer enjoying one another before Bella was falling asleep in my arms. We said our good byes and told everyone we would meet up with them for supper later and made our way home.
Bella had done so well, and I knew that she needed a nap.
It was a good day. A good start to healing. We still had a lot of shit to deal with, but we were getting there.
Bit by bit.
Now, if we could get through the trial we would be good to go.
A/N: This was the last transitional chapter, promise! Next up is the trial. It is a big one for me, and that's about all I can say about that. Hopefully I don't disappoint, but I don't think I will.
I went and seen New Moon for the second time this weekend. I don't know if my hubby will go for a third time, so I am trying to convince my friends 14 year old daughter to go with me, but she laughs and tells me that I am a little obsessed. Well duh!! This is Rob Pattinson we are talking about! I don't know who is the adult and who is the child in that conversation. I feel like I am a teenager again when Leonardo Dicaprio was the IT boy and I had posters of him all over my walls. Wonder if my husband would let me put up Rob posters….probably not. Nice thought though.
Ok really, enough of my rambling now.
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