While waiting on Nate to pick her up, Katrina decided to call her grandmother for help. It had scared her that she might have feelings for Jason and not love Nate anymore. She didn't want to lose Nate. He was such a good guy, and he didn't deserve it.

"Hey, Katrina! I was wondering if you were gonna call me…How you been, baby?"

"I'm okay…not really…" she said not wanting to lie.

"What's wrong, baby?" Lucille said in a concerned voice.

"I messed up…You know that situation I was in before I came here?"

"Yeah, I remember." Lucille said and Katrina could just see her shaking her head in pity. She knew her grandmother hated the world she was in. "So, I guess you got revenge your on that Jason boy…" Lucille said with a hit of disapproval in her voice.

"Yeah, I did. I had to practically make a deal with the devil, Chuck Bass, and I did something bad. I called out Jason's family secret out in public and he's in prison because of it."

"Katrina…why'd you do something like that?"

"It wasn't like he didn't deserve it. He and his father killed people to protect their life. He ended a life, but…I feel like I've ended his. He's in prison and I felt so guilty I went to see him…twice. I don't know why, but I think I may have feelings for him. He started baring his soul and I don't know if that's because he's been stripped of his old life or pride, but…I'm so confused. I want to be with Nate and I don't want to hurt him. I'm not even sure if this thing for Jason is real. I'm trying to be his friend, but…" she said trying not to cry.

"You know what I think, Katrina? I think you're trying to be a good person, but you're going about it the wrong way. You can't let your guilt get in the way of your feelings for Nate. True, you may have crossed the line with outing Jason and all that, but he shouldn't hold that over your head. Especially if he was gonna be there anyway."

"I know, but…no matter how horrible he is…he's still human."

"That is true. He's human, but he wasn't thinking about your feelings when he did all that to you. I know you want to be a good person, and that's fine. Don't ever stop trying to be a good person, but sometimes, we just can't be perfect. Ain't nobody perfect but God. It's not your responsibility to keep him happy to satisfy your conscience. It's fine to want to be Jason's friend, but you shouldn't feel like you have to because you helped put him in prison for a crime he committed. You shouldn't let it come between you and Nate. And I'm not just saying this because I think Nate is a nice boy and I'm selfishly playing cupid to keep you two together. He loves you. He really loves you."

"I know…and I love him." she said knowing that she still believed she loved him.

"Then love him and stop this Jason foolishness." Lucille joked and Katrina laughed.

"I will. Thank you for helping me." Katrina said in a loving tone.

"You're welcome, baby. I knew all this wisdom was gonna come in handy one day."

"Oh, I gotta go. Nate is here. I'll talk to you later and I love you."

"I love you, too, baby. And tell you're mother I said I love her and to call me sometime."

"I will. She's just so busy. I barely get to see her. But I'll tell her. Bye."

"Was that the lovely Lucille on the phone?" Nate said as he hugged and kissed her.

"Yeah…I called her. I haven't talked to her in a while and I was missing her too much."

"Aww…I'm sorry you're missing her. I miss her, too."

"You do? Well, I'll have to tell her that. She really likes you."

"Well, I'm sure she'll love me more when she finds out my surprise for you…" he said with a grin and Katrina's heart was racing. He wasn't going to propose to her, was he?

"What's your surprise?" she asked cautiously.

"I think it's better if I show you instead of telling you. I'll be right back." he said as he left her room and she was waiting there hoping he wasn't about to propose. She didn't know how she would answer him. Even if she didn't have her doubts about her feelings for Jason, she wasn't ready for marriage. She rarely event thought about it. "Close your eyes." he said as he returned and she closed her eyes hoping he didn't have a jewelry box with him or was on one knee when she opened her eyes again.

"Can I open my eyes, now?" she said trying to hide her anxiousness.

"Yes." he said and she opened her eyes to see Nate holding what looked like a journal. This confused her until she saw him open it to the first page and she saw a publishing contract.

"I'm going to be published?" she said as tears of joy were welling in her eyes. "How?"

"I called a friend of the family's and got him to pull some strings with a guy he knew and it happened. They want to publish a book of your poems."

"How? Has he seen any of my stuff? Why would he publish me without seeing my stuff?"

"Well…he sort of have seen your stuff. Your mother helped with gather up some poems of yours and I put together a portfolio."

"Okay…you're gonna get enough of talking to my parents without talking to me first."

"I'm sorry. I just wanted to surprise you. You do like the surprise, don't you?"

"Yes, I love it! Thank you so much! I love you." she said as she kissed him.

"I love you. Come on, we should get going. Now we have a reason to celebrate." he said as he took her hand and they walked out of her room.

"So, how did you convince my mother to help you."

"Actually…you're father did." he said smiling as he looked at her shocked expression.

"My dad?!" she said feeling completely confused. "Okay, how did you pull that off?"

"I was looking for your mom, but your dad was here. After a small argument and harsh words, he asked my why I loved you so much and I told him."

"What did you tell him?" she asked looking at him.

"I asked him how he felt when he knew your mother was the one. I told him that it was the same feeling I had about you. You're deeper than anyone I've known. You have a great heart. I mean, you have to if you're willing to visit Jason…"

"Nate…" she said interrupting him because she didn't want to think about Jason.

"Katrina, I know there's something between you two. It may not be sexual or romantic, but there's something. He's a persistent little bastard, but I love you, and I know you love me. Call me crazy, but I'm willing to compete with a guy in prison for you. Love can make a person do crazy things. I know we're different. You hate my friends, especially Chuck. Your father doesn't like me. He tolerates me, but he doesn't like me. There's a million reasons why we should and shouldn't be together. I don't care about any of that. I love you and that's all I know." he said as he kissed her. "I don't care how much you're going to argue with me on this. You have changed into a wonderful person."

He was right, she thought. She didn't even want revenge on Chuck anymore and she had forgiven Jason. The slimy caterpillar had transformed into a beautiful butterfly. She was sure she was still going to make mistakes, still have her evil moments, but she knew she would have them less because she was a better person. She had her family, friends, and Nate to help her.