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Suicide Note

Roger,

I couldn't take this fucked up life anymore. It's not the same without Jo. Before she died, she told me that all her life she'd lived for loving me . . . well, all my life I've lived for loving her. And now that she's gone I don't think I can make it to my natural end. I'm sorry, Roger. Tell Maureen I love her like a sister. Tell Joanne to bear with Maureen. No matter how hectic she may get, it's worth that tango to hell. Tell Mimi to never stop loving and living . . . especially with you. Tell Benny thanks for being my good friend even though he was an ass. Tell Collins that I couldn't have asked for a better fatherly figure. Tell Amber to never stop being crazy; And Kaila to never stop being motherly. Tell Ella and Lena to keep up with their wise mischief. And tell Emma I am deeply sorry for abandoning her. And Roger, I want you to know that you are my best friend and I never meant to hurt you . . . any of you . . .

By the time you find me, I'll have been gone several hours. Dead from cutting my wrists a little too deep . . . it's not your fault . . . it's my choice . . . I'm sorry for the pain this will cost you . . . I love you like a brother, Roger, don't forget that.

I'll see you on the other side,

Mark

Roger read the note solemnly to the family of Bohemians and California girls. Roger had found Mark in the bathroom on the floor, New Year's Day. Roger had slammed the door shut to keep the others out and away from Mark's body.

"Roger, what's wrong?" Amber asked, trying to open the bathroom door.

"No! Don't come in!" Roger yelled through the door, wide eyes staring at Mark's lifeless form.

"Roger, Honey, what's wrong?" Mimi asked, scared. "Is Mark in there?"

Roger broke down, sobbing. "Mark . . ." He called to the filmmaker, crawling to the corpse with bloody wrists. "Mark . . . answer me!" He shook the cold body, hoping to get a reaction, to no avail.

"Roger! What's wrong?!" Amber yelled, terrified.

Roger continued to sob, "Mark . . ." he picked up and cradled the body in his arms.

Collins busted the door open and gasped. "Oh god,"

Back in the present, Roger waited for the family's reaction.

Emma was the first to speak, "I don't blame him . . . it's not the same without Jo."

"Emma!" Amber, Mimi and Maureen exclaimed.

"What? We knew he wasn't the same since Jo died . . ." Emma said, "So, it was only a matter of time . . ."

"But still, Emma, when did you learn to be so well spoken?" Lena asked the ten-year-old. Emma shrugged.

"So . . . when do we want the funeral?" Joanne asked.

"Soon . . ." Roger said, "Most likely this weekend."

"I still can't believe Mark's gone . . ." Mimi said, tears welling in her eyes.

"I know Mimi, but we've got to be strong." Ella said, trying to comfort the Latina.

"I know, but still . . . why would Mark do this to us?"

"He missed Jo, Mimi. What would you do if you lost Roger?" Lena asked.

"Well, I wouldn't kill myself!" Mimi screamed, upset. "I would keep living! I wouldn't leave my family for death!"

"Mimi, calm down! Yelling isn't going to bring Mark back." Joanne said.

Mimi took a deep breath and started to cry. "I know . . . but I miss him so much! I miss Mark and Jo and Angel!" Mimi wailed before breaking down in tears.

Roger quickly strode over to Mimi and held her close.

"Shh . . . it's okay . . ." Roger tried to comfort Mimi.

"No, it's not . . . they're gone! They're gone! And they're not coming back!" Mimi cried.

Everyone watched silently; even Maureen was silent as tears ran down her cheeks. Mimi sobbed violently in Roger's arms.

After Mimi had calmed down a bit, Emma spoke. "Mimi?"

Mimi acknowledged Emma; "Yeah?" her voice was rough and cracked.

"I know you miss them . . . but, it's okay. We've still got each other. And they've got each other . . ." Emma said.

Everyone stared at the ten-year-old, speechless. Mimi quietly left Roger's embrace and went over to Emma and hugged her.

"Oh, Emma . . ." Mimi's voice cracked, "You've had to grow up so fast . . . Don't forget how to be a kid . . . okay?" Emma nodded solemnly.

"So . . . What happens now?" Ella asked, looking around.

"Well . . ." Collins sighed, "We have to make funeral preparations . . ."

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