Just wanna say another HUGE thanks to everyone who has favvied or alerted this story and an extra big thanksies to those who have reviewed- it made me ridiculously happy (as anyone who has my msn will know! =P ) Anyway, this chapter is all Rosalies POV (yeah-she came back) and is quite dark at the end (its 3am here okay? I have an excuse) Right, thats about it for this little a/n. Oh and did i say thanks to those who reviewed? =D
little-miss-twilighter
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Rosalie's POV
Life was just fucking sunshine and rainbows for me. It couldn't have been better if I planned it myself. First off, I found out that I can never have my own kids. Sure I could adopt but I'd never be able to hold my own flesh and blood. How fucking lucky was I? But wait, it gets even bloody better. I find out Bella-I-have-only-one-friend Swan has a baby but she fucking gave it up! What a bloody idiot. Then to put the cherry on top of the whole bloody cake, instead of suffering for it like she deserved, we find out she gets the baby back. Yep. She gets back the baby she gave up- a second chance whereas I don't even get a chance. Fan-fucking-tastic! What an amazingly shit time to be me.
I needed my fix. I know. It was fucked up. The coke was what killed my chance of being a mum but I still craved the fucking stuff every minute. I went to the drawer where I kept it and almost pulled the drawer apart when I saw it was empty.
"Fuck"
I murmured to myself under my breath. I would have to go and see him. It was the last fucking thing I wanted to do right now but it wasn't like I had any choice. I mumbled swear words to myself as I dialled his number. As per fucking usual, he answered on the first ring
"Fuck off"
I scoffed
"Its Rose you moron. I'm out of coke but I need a fix. Now"
I could almost see the grin that was now more than likely across his face.
"I was hoping that I wouldn't be...lonely tonight"
I just slammed the phone down and made my way over to his place.
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(a/n I have another separate outtake on my profile now called I hate that I love you. It's what happens when Rosalie goes to see her supplier- Emmett. It's basically a drug fuelled violent lemon and doesn't have any major relevance to the plot of this story so you don't have to read it)
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I snuck back in around 3am, thankful that Carlisle had a late night surgery and that the rest of the family was asleep. I went straight to my room and hid my little bags of happiness in the drawer. I smiled knowing that they were there and would last me until at least next week. Yeah. I was a fucking messed up freak. Well I didn't see any point in making any kind of effort to change; I had already messed up my chances of being a mother- the only thing I ever wanted to be- and so changing my life was pointless. It would never give me what I truly wanted most in this fucking awful world. I sighed and decided that I would try and sleep for a few hours before going back into the mundane routine that had become my life.
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I awoke from another night/morning of restless sleep. For some reason, all I could think about was Bella. Bella and her fucking perfect life. She had a close friend (even if she was my own freaky loserish 'sister'), a man who loved her (my own I'm-so-cool brother- fuck sake! The girl had a thing for my family- couldn't she just back off and leave my family the hell alone!) And to top it all off, a bouncing bundle of fucking joy that she shouldn't get to have.
That's when it struck me, something that would teach the Swan bitch a lesson. She got a second chance when she got her baby back and I don't think that's fair. It was simple. She doesn't deserve it, I will take it away. She better watch every fucking move she makes with her 'precious baby' when she gets back because I will be here. Waiting in the wings, acting the role of loving auntie while every second I will be hating her and her baby with every fibre of my being. Yes, I was fucked up, yes I was a vindictive bitch but oh fuck yes did Bella Swan deserve everything that's coming to her...
I did warn you it was weird at the end. Anyway, although you hate her, Rose is back and she will be a major part of this story. It will switch to awwwsies again next chapter though cause Bella, Edward and Nessie will come home =D What did you think? Reviews always appreciated =D