"Izzy get the hell up" Dana yelled at me "What fucking time is it" I asked more like mumbled as I stood up to try and catch my balance "9:26 you have a radio interview in one hour and a dress fitting and sound check at 2:45 and unless you want to miss that I would hurry your ass up." I stood up and walked around and put in a my Debussy CD god it tore my non beating heart in two he left me he didn't want me I thought to myself I remember that day very well. It should be a dim human memories but I remember it clearly.
-Flashback-
"Bella we're leaving." he said "I don't want you to come with me" you… don't… want.. me? I said counfused by the order of the word "No." then he was gone.
I got up and got ready brush my messy hair and went to my car I had to dump the old truck after I 'disappeared' because who else would drive an old 1953 Chevy. I walked to my car, which was a Maybach Excelero and hoped inside I turn on the radio to 95.7 the vibe and cranked it up sure enough my song was on there.
You
said the way my brown eyes shined,
Put those Georgia stars to
shame that night
I said: "That's a lie"
Just a boy
in a Chevy truck,
That had a tendency of gettin' stuck,
On
backroads at night
An' I was right there beside him all summer
long
An' then the time we woke up to find that summer'd gone
But when you think: Tim McGraw,
I hope you think my
favorite song
The one we danced to all night long:
The moon
like a spotlight on the lake
When you think happiness,
I hope
you think: "That little black dress"
Think of my head
on your chest,
An' my old faded blue jeans
When you think Tim
McGraw,
I hope you think of me
September saw a month of
tears,
An' thankin' God that you weren't here,
To see me like
that
But in a box beneath my bed,
Is a letter that you never
read,
From three summers back
It's hard not to find it all a
little bitter sweet,
An' lookin' back on all of that, it's nice
to believe:
When you think: Tim McGraw,
I hope you think
my favorite song
The one we danced to all night long:
The
moon like a spotlight on the lake
When you think happiness,
I
hope you think: "That little black dress"
Think of my
head on your chest,
An' my old faded blue jeans
When you
think Tim McGraw,
I hope you think of me
And I'm back for
the first time since then:
I'm standin' on your street,
An'
there's a letter left on your doorstep,
An' the first thing that
you'll read:
Is: "When you think: Tim McGraw,
"I
hope you think my favorite song"
Some day you'll turn your
radio on,
I hope it takes you back to that place
When you
think happiness,
I hope you think: "That little black dress"
Think of my head on your chest,
An' my old faded blue jeans
When you think Tim McGraw,
I hope you think of me
Oh,
think of me,
Mmmm
You said the way my brown eyes shined,
Put those Georgia stars to shame that night
I said: "That's
a lie"
My head was spinning because it reminded me so much of him the hole in my heart grew bigger as it had been for the last 96 years I was all alone that night that Victoria attacked me Donna took me in, as she was a vegetarian too. God damn I hated Edward Cullen I hate his crooked smile I hate his bronze hair. 'Wait I don't hate him at all I love him" I thought to myself. I popped in my cd I had first recorded and listen to that's the way I loved you why did he have to leave me I press play in my stereo from 2005 it was the only thing I had left of the Cullen's except for the Cd Edward gave me and the plane tickets and then the pictures. I listened to my song then not wanting to remember.
He
is sensible and so incredible
And all my single friends are
jealous.
He says everything I need to hear
And it's like I
couldn't ask for anything better.
He opens up my door and
I
get into his car and he says
you look beautiful tonight.
And
I feel perfectly fine.
[Chorus:]
But I miss screamin' and
fightin' and kissin' in the rain
and its 2am and I'm cursin'
your name.
You're so in love that you act insane
and that's
the way I loved you.
Breakin' down and comin' undone
it's
a roller coaster kinda rush.
And I never knew I could feel that
much.
And that's the way I loved you.
He respects my
space
And never makes me wait
And he calls exactly when he says
he will.
He's close to my mother
Talks business with my
father.
He's charming and endearing
And I'm comfortable.
But I miss screamin' and fightin' and kissin' in the
rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursin' your name.
You're so
in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you.
Breakin' down and comin' undone
It's a roller coaster
kinda rush.
And I never knew I could feel that much.
And that's
the way I loved you.
He can't see the smile I'm
fakin'.
And my hearts not breakin'
Cause I'm not feelin'
anything at all.
And you were wild and crazy.
Just so
frustrating, intoxicating, complicated,
got away like some
mistake.
And now I,
I miss screamin', and fightin',
and kissin' in the rain
it's 2am and I'm cursin' your
name.
I'm so in love that I acted insane.
And that's the
way I loved you.
Breakin' down and comin' undone
it's a
roller coaster kinda rush.
And I never knew I could feel that
much.
And that's the way I loved you.
And that's the
way I loved you.
Never knew I could feel that much.
And that's
the way I loved you.
I rolled down the windows to just get the air I needed. I popped open the glove compartment and looked at the pictures me and him sitting on the cough, him and Charlie and then just Charlie 'God I miss Charlie' I thought. Charlie had died 3 years after 'dissapered'. I pulled into the radio staion and then got out of my car 'Well here goes nothing' I thought
Goodbye until next Chapter I will updated soon the songs used were Tim Mcgraw and That's the way I loved you by Taylor Swift and the car link is on my Profile