March 15, 2010

(Written: March 11, 2010)

Disclaimer: I own nothing InuYasha.

Author Note: I'm wearing my boyfriend's belt, I like it. I have no intention on giving it back. That's the great thing about relationships and 'punkish clothes'. He can wear my old oversized AC/DC sweatshirts and many rock tees and studded belt and I can wear his studded belt and shirts and boxers and junk. I have a beanie too, but I don't know who I 'permanently barrowed' that from, I forget the kids name... but I'm looking at it and it's cute; haven't worn it in forever! Enough about clothes exchanges and barrowing and on with the story!

Bonnafied - Runaway & The Fast Track; thank you soo much :)

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Both of you are wonderful reviewers and I love you and thank you both; you guys make me go on with writing even when I feel like giving up since not that many people seem to like it!

I'll Remember You

Chapter Ten

I couldn't control myself as my body ached for him. I had wanted him so long, no matter how hard I tried to deny it, and I wasn't going to hold myself back from what I really wanted anymore. I slipped my pants off so I was stripped down to my red thong and snug corset that was causing my breasts to pour out. I pushed Koga to the bed and immediately ripped off his shirt before slamming my lips down against his. It felt so good to kiss Koga and knowing that what I had wanted for so long was about to become true.

I didn't want to be a virgin anymore. I was eighteen for goodness sakes! I would be heading to college and I wanted to have my virginity taken before America. I couldn't possibly imagine anybody other than Koga that I wouldn't mind giving it away to. Since we were both so hyped up on hormones, now would be the perfect time to get it all over with. I unbuttoned his jeans and swiftly slid them off as he shifted his weight to make it easy for me. I looked into his eyes and bit my bottom lip, rubbing my region against his. He groaned from now innocent I looked as I rubbed my thong against his cock (which was sticking out of the hole in his boxers) so he could feel the hotness and wetness seep out from my woman area.

"Ayame, stop." He moaned and he flipped me to lie beside him. I giggled as I landed against the bed with a gentle thud. I reached my hand down and began to stroke his shaft with long, slow strokes. He moaned again but pushed my hand off. I frowned and tried to get back on top, which made him quickly pin me underneath him. I leaned up and started kissing his neck.

"You want it Koga." I teased, egging him on.

"Ayame, stop!" he yelled this time, startling me. My eyes got large as I realized how serious he was. His eyes softly glowed with passion and softness. He sat up and pulled me into his lap, cuddling me against him. I listened to his heart beat as he held me close and I smiled feeling the warmth radiating off of his body. "Look, Ayame, I'm sorry. I just don't think we're ready to do that just yet. I mean, we're still only friends and I just don't think it would be right."

"We can be friends with benefits?" I suggested.

"No Ayame, I can't do that to you. Look, let's just get some sleep and we'll talk about everything in the morning. It's getting late anyway and we have a lot to go over." He decided, looking down at me as he brushed strips of hair behind my ears and out of my face. It was those damned blue eyes that got me every single time. That sweet look and that gorgeous color... Koga's eyes were undoubtedly amazing.

I couldn't help but love the feeling of being wrapped up in his large, strong arms and feeling the bulging muscle up against me. I closed my eyes and just listened to the constant steady beat of his heart. Finally he laid me beside him and I undid my corset, dropping it to the ground. I wasn't bound to sleep in that thing and I was ready to move on with Koga and further the relationship (he had already seen my breasts twice before anyway). He wrapped an arm around me and pulled me close, my back up against him.

He nuzzled my neck and rested his chin there, his hot breath tickling my ear. The events from the day and night had caught up with me and I fell asleep quickly with a light smile on my face. I wasn't sure exactly what Koga and I were anymore and I didn't really care. All that mattered to me was how I felt and right now, at this very moment, everything felt entirely perfect.

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I hugged the sheets to my chest when I first woke up and Koga looked over at me sleepy eyed. We had both sat up, ready to begin the day but dealing with the feeling of drowsiness was getting to us and we both plopped back on the bed, surely not ready to get up for another couple hours. This time I faced Koga and figured we could have a little morning talk about whatever he wanted.

"Koga, what exactly are we?" I asked curiously with my brows furrowed together. I concentrated on drawing invisible circles on his hairless chest as I waited for a response. That was one thing I really loved about Koga's body. The only hair that was on his chest and abdomen were the very fine hairs (that everybody has everywhere) and his happy trail. My fingers ran down to trace the gaps between his washboard abs.

"I'm not sure what you want, Ayame, but I'm hoping that you'll be my girlfriend." He said and the words made me stop what I was doing and lock eyes with him right away. A large hand grabbed my chin and tilted it up a little more as his soft lips met with mine for a gentle morning kiss. Being Koga's girlfriend was something that I had only used to dream about yet now it was about to become reality.

I giggled and crawled on top of him, sitting down at his hip region. I peered down at the blue eyed hottie beneath me, the sexiest man I had ever seen. The giddiness was overwhelming and I couldn't stay in one place so I jumped up and went to the bathroom to brush my teeth. Koga wasn't far behind. He placed his hands on my hips as he began kissing down my neck. Once I was finished brushing my teeth, he began his.

In the background I was busy starting a shower for myself. Koga smirked as he wiggled his eyebrows, his eyes flickering towards the steamy water coming from the spout of the shower head. "What are the chances that I can get a hot shower with my totally sexy new girlfriend?"

"Not very good because I'm not that kind of woman, Koga." I winked and shooed him out of the bathroom. Although I was practically about to have sex with him last night I wasn't going to start all these dirty habits and make him get used to them right away. I wasn't just going to give away all the dirty things; he'd actually have to earn it himself.

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"Did you and Koga have sex?" Kagome blurted as soon as we four girls had met up and were in the ocean yet another day. Leave it to my best friend to burst out into a question that was personal yet she didn't care since she figured she had the right to know. I couldn't blame her though; I would be doing the same thing. Besides, even I though Koga and I were going to have sex that night.

"Actually... no, we didn't. We came close but he actually stopped it because he didn't want me to do something I'd regret since we weren't actually dating at the time. Which reminds me... did I ever tell you girls that I am a taken woman as of last night?" I smiled.

The four squealed in joy and Kagome was, yet again, the first to speak. "I'm so happy for you Ayame, you finally got the summer romance you so desperately wanted and it happened to be with a man that you've wanted ever since I can remember. Well this looks like, to me, that Ayame's luck is finally starting to turn its self around and I think we're going to be dealing with one lucky duck here."

"Let me be straight up honest with you anyway, Ayame. I mean, I have Miroku and everything so there's no need to get jealous or angry over anything I say but you ended up with one damn fine guy. I'm pretty sure you and Koga are the most attractive couple on the planet of this Earth. I would like to see even a movie star beat you guys, especially since you guys are natural." Sango pointed out.

I felt arms warp around my waist and pull me against a ribbed, toned body. I giggled, knowing already who it was before he leaned down to whisper in my ear. "Sorry, I couldn't just leave my sexy ass girlfriend out there with all these guys around to check her out, especially when she's you. Why do you have to look so damned perfect in everything?"

I spun around and placed my hands on his chest. I sent him a smile and leaned up to place a kiss on his lips. I went to pull away but he held the back of my head and decided he wanted me than just one kiss as he continued. My eyes closed with multiple emotions passing through my body, and all of them being good ones. The shock of kissing and being with Koga was still with me but I was getting better at accepting it and noticing that, yes this was reality and not some hopeless love dream.

Flashback

"Koga!" I whined. I had just fixed my hair up into two ponytails that looked perfect to my seven year old perspective even though it was completely horridly crooked in the back of my head and placed an Iris flower on top. Not long after I came out he sprayed me with the hose as a prank. My hair and my looks were now officially ruined and I could feel the tears build up in my eyes.

His emotions automatically changed as the tricky smirk changed to a frown. I knew he hadn't meant to upset me but now my look was ruined and nothing else mattered at that point. He simply dropped the hose and ran off to the wooded area behind the house since we were in the backyard and we were supposed to explore the woods. I followed with a pout until I came upon Koga, who was kneeling down.

He turned around and stood up, an Iris in hand. I looked up with large eyes as he placed the newly picked flower against one of my wet pigtails and dropped the wet, ruined one to the ground. He smiled down at me with his height and two year advantage. "That flower suits you well, it's pretty but wild.

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I sat inside Koga's Camaro, in the back seat, while I waited for him and his new girlfriend to stop making out and actually start on the way to school. The couple didn't even have the decency to get in the car on the nice summer day, while I was stuck sitting in the stuffy back seat. I growled and waited until she walked over right in front of the door before I pushed the seat up and threw the door open, slamming the hard metal against her and making her fall and twist her ankle.

She dropped to the ground, screaming in pain, while I tried to hold back from laughing. The girl was a total bitch, especially to me, and she was too confident, so much that I don't think her ego could have fit in the car anyway. I couldn't help but smile as she shot a death glare up to me and began bitching and complaining to Koga, cursing me out and saying a bunch of rude remarks. I finally got sick of hearing it and pretended like I was going to get out but swung the door to far, smashing into her face and giving her a bloody nose.

"Oh, I'm sorry! I only came out here to confront you about the things you were saying, I didn't mean to hit you with the door... oh wait, yeah I did because I needed to find some way to actually make you shut the fuck up." I shrugged as she sat there speechless, clinging to her nose and ankle. "And look at the magical occurrence, it actually worked!"

"You're a bitch Ayame!" she growled.

"At least I'm not a slut, thanks." I giggled.

"Whatever, you've probably been whoring around with Koga! You practically try to jump his bones every day but he never wants you, maybe that's why he left you in a steaming hot car that you could barely breathe in while he was busy making out with his sexy girlfriend." She shrugged.

"We're over." Koga announced to the girl.

"What?!" she asked, shocked.

"I said we're over. Ayame is right, you're just another easy slut that wants to get with everything. Besides, you always have to be involved in drama and intentionally do bitchy things. I really can't stand your personality and you're not half as pretty as you think. Honestly, I'm sick of hearing you bitch so why don't you go fuck another guy so somebody will actually listen to you? Ayame, get in the car, I don't want to make us both late for school." Koga turned to me.

"What about her Koga?" I asked, a little concerned.

"She'll survive." He shrugged.

I didn't like the girl. In fact, I hated her guts, but I wasn't about to just leave her there on the sidewalk when she was injured. I shook my head. "No Koga, it's not the right thing to do. We can't just leave her there, we have to make sure she's safe and inside before we leave."

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I wanted him and I was finally going to become his girlfriend tonight, I was sure of it. I had on a nice and short little black mini skirt with black sandal high heels. My hair cascaded down in loose curls and my top was a decorative white lacey corset. I looked in the full length mirror and noticed how absolutely perfect I looked for a change. I was so ready for the college party Koga had invited me and our friends to join.

I arrived with a smile and nobody could seem to take their eyes off of me. One of the college girls was nicer than I had expected. She had died blonde hair and black-as-night eyes that clashed against the contrast of her pale skin. Although I had sunset colored hair, I had an olive complexion (meaning I had a tanner skin color year round) and only a few light freckles sprinkled on my nose to look cute.

The girl looked me up and down. "Wow, you're really hot. I mean, if you were a lesbian I would totally do you. Of course, I'm not a lesbian either but still; I would totally fuck your brains out. You are so going to get hit on a lot tonight so be prepared. I'm Emi."

I shook the hand she extended. "Thank you? I'm Ayame."

"Sexy name for a sexy girl." She shrugged and shifted through the crowds of people as I followed, with nothing else to do. She was a very thin girl, almost too thin, and didn't have very much breasts but she was beautiful nonetheless and that was unmistaken. "Damn, that guys hot, I'll be right back Ayame, I haven't made out with a guy in so long its killing me, almost a half an hour now."

I watched as Emi walked off. My eyes stared in horror as she wrapped her arms around Koga's neck and sat down in his lap, kissing all over his neck. He smiled and closed his eyes, leaning his head back and enjoying the kissing the woman was giving him. I was ready to leave, now. Except, I couldn't just leave and know they were making out, I had to stop it somehow so I walked over.

"Hey Koga!" I exclaimed happily with a cheery smile and his eyes snapped open. Those gorgeous blue eyes had me melting every single time I looked into them. I couldn't help it either, I tried to avoid the feeling but it was nothing I could get rid of.

"Ayame, I'm glad you could make it." He smiled.

"Whoa Ayame, you know this guy?" she questioned with a raised eyebrow. I nodded back in response and her eyes were large. "Are you serious? How are you not like all over this guy? I mean, seriously, look how sexy he is! I would be all over this if I were you!"

"So your just friends?" a guy next to Koga holding a beer asked. He had black hair and beautiful indigo eyes. It was a light term to use good looking with this guy; he was just about as perfect as Koga was! I couldn't believe my eyes; never had somebody came so close to Koga's level of sexiness. I nodded my head and licked my lips, trying to be seductive and make Koga jealous. "In that case, my name is Bankotsu."

"Ayame." I nodded my heads toward him for a greeting.

"Well Ayame, you're looking pretty good tonight. Look, do you believe in risks?" he asked, his eyes dancing with a devious look. I should have paid attention to the danger sparkling in his eyes but I ignored it because I wanted Koga to actually care about me and be jealous over me, making him realize how much he really liked me and how much we should be together.

"As a matter of fact, I do."

"Then kiss me, but only if you're not too scared." He smirked.

I smirked back and pressed my body against him, a leg in between his as I pulled the neck of his white muscle shirt down and pressed my lips against his. After a second he grabbed me by the ass and spun us around, sitting me on the railing he had previously been leaning on. My legs were still wrapped around him as we continued to kiss and tongue each other, adrenaline pumping through my veins with every pulse, twice as fast as usual. His lips traveled down my neck and I bit my lip, trying to hold back moans of pleasure as I held on to his shirt tightly and leaned my head back, eyes closed.

"Ayame, what are you doing?!" Kagome shouted out as she ran over towards me, Sango trailing right with her and looking equally as shocked. I was broken out of my trance at Bankotsu stopped kissing me. It wasn't my fault I fell helpless to his kisses. I looked between my friends and Bankotsu, reality finally kicking in. I took in a deep breath and shook my head, jumping down and pushing past his body as I whispered an apology. "Ayame, what was that all about?"

I opened the cooler on the other side of Koga and opened a Bud. I wasn't one for beer but right now it was the only source of alcohol last night. I scrunched up my face and ignored the disgusting taste as I downed the brownish liquid in the can. The aluminum was cold against the palm of my hand and I paused to place it up against my forehead, trying to think.

Bankotsu approached me and placed a hand on my shoulder, making me look up into his sincere eyes. He was genuinely sorry, that was easy to tell. "Ayame, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to upset you or anything. I just figured it was a party and people do crazy stuff at parties."

"No, it's not your fault, I'm just a bit confused with myself right now. Usually I don't act like such a... a slut and I was actually dressing up and trying to look good to get somebody's attention but that person doesn't matter anymore so... I don't know. How about you put your number in my cell phone, I'll put mine in yours and you should give me a call sometime?"

End Flashback

"Earth to Ayame!" Kagome called out and I looked up at her from my hypnotized state of staring into the depths of the water that was gently swaying and splashing. "Sorry Ayame, you just looked really out of it, are you okay and everything?"

"Yeah, I'm fine, I was just thinking." I smiled brightly up at my best friend. Except, when exactly did I think about Bankotsu? I hadn't seen him ever since he transferred colleges last year yet it was like I had just seen the ex-boyfriend a couple days ago. I was devastated when he had to move away, ending our relationship due to the distance, and that memory brought up what he looked like, which was so familiar. I stopped thinking when realization hit me. "Koga, did Bankotsu have any siblings?"

"Yeah, why?" Koga asked and I could hear the obvious annoyance in his voice. I couldn't blame him, I would have been upset if he was asking me about Emi or one of his other ex-girlfriends that I had been friends with. I spun around and looked into his eyes, which were filled with hurt and anger. "Why the hell are you thinking of Bankotsu, you're mine girlfriend now, he's long gone. If you're still hung up over the guy then you should have never agreed to date me."

"No, no, no Koga, it's nothing like that. I'm over Bankotsu, I was just thinking back to all the times I tried to get you to become my boyfriend and the night when I met Bankotsu actually came up. I have you, I've always wanted you, and so you have no reason to worry. However, I think I know who Bankotsu is related to! Have you ever taken a good look at Hiten; he looks really close to what Banks did!"

Koga's eye got large and the fear was evident in them. He shook his head. "You're right Ayame but that's basically impossible. There is no way that Hiten is Bankotsu's brother if he was walking around here at the beach and actually living like a normal person."

"And why is that?" I asked, confused.

"If Hiten is Bankotsu's brother, which he appears to be, he was thrown in a maximum security prison because he was a serial killer that just couldn't be stopped. Hiten basically dated girls or wanted them and when he didn't get exactly what he wanted, like if they wouldn't do something or if they'd break up with him, he'd freak out and kill them. They couldn't even keep the guy in regular prison for more than two months. He's a real nutcase but he's smarter than fuck and the kid was only fifteen years old when everything started, they couldn't seem to put him to death fast enough so they left him to suffer alone." Koga explained.

"Koga... that can't possibly be right..." I tried to convince myself but Hiten looked too much like Bankotsu, although he still wasn't near as good looking, and it would unmistakable that the two were brothers with only a couple years to separate them. It didn't work, everything Koga was saying, if it was true, had to be all Hiten since Koga pointed out that Bankotsu only had one brother. The look in his eyes when I turned him down, that dark sadistic look, it all made sense now. "We need to turn him in!"

"No, we're just going to avoid him. Hiten has too many connections to actually get arrested anymore anyway and doing that would just set us up with a trip to our graves. Look, we're going to be careful, I don't think he'd really do anything in such a crowded place anyway and if he tries anything you should know that I'll be right there beside you to protect you. I promise that I won't let anything happen to you Ayame."

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