March 15, 2010

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Remember guys that this is chapter twelve and half of the month is already up! Send me reviews if you want anything to happen while she's still at the beach. I don't think that there will be many more chapters, maybe twenty chapters at most unless I go over. I really want to make the story decent size but there will be a sequel, that's a fact! So if you don't like the way this story ends, don't sue me!

Help me:

I have a couple story ideas so far but I'm not really sure. I don't want to start like three new stories. I'm going to tell you my ideas though. First there's Infestation which is about this disease that falls over the population to make them like zombies or something and survival, I don't have it completely figured out. Secondly there's Ocean Breed which is about a girl who loves the ocean and they find out that the Megladon (the ancient dino shark) has made a spontaneous return and the ocean is being deformed as the dinosaur ages begin to return again. Finally there's A Run for Your Money which is about Koga (who is a rich heir of an expensive business) and Ayame (the girl following her dreams to create a hotel even though her parents refuse to help her or aid here) and this was inspired by Dark Skittles story Home but I put a different twist to it. In order to get the hotel done, Koga agrees to pay here money if she pretends to be his fiancée to please his father. I already know I'll be doing a short multi-chapter story on Toby Keith's one song and it will be called God Love Her but I doubt it'll be more than ten chapters, if that.

Shout Outs: Bonnafied (The Fast Track & Runaway; please update soon!) and Agnes Wallace. Thank both of you guys so much! I really appreciate the reviews!

I'll Remember You

Chapter Twelve

I sat on the bed with my legs against my chest. It was pouring down rain outside so we weren't going to the beach and all we could really do was sit in our rooms and flip through channels, in hopes of finding some random yet interesting show. The search, so far, was going up without success. I sighed and played with the ends of my hair. Koga was equally bored and he grabbed me, pulling me close against his body. I just wanted to go outside. Today was the worst Monday I had went through in a while.

When the last few drops of rain fell I was ready to run out the door. I had on jeans and a white pullover hoodie from Hollister, just plain with navy blue writing. I pulled my hair up into a high ponytail and slipped on plain white sneakers. Koga wasn't far behind me with his blue jeans and yellow muscle shirt with his white and grey DC jacket over top. His hair was in the same style it always was, slickly pulled up except for his bangs. The whole 'punk band' look kind of rubbed off of him.

We walked, fingers locked, down the soaked boardwalk and just enjoyed everything we were seeing. The boards were darkened and slightly slippy. The ocean was dark and angry and the sand was covered with water, though it would quickly dry out with the blazing sun now uncovered. It was still chilly but the sun would warm things up within a couple of hours.

The air was filled with the scent of fresh rain. I giggled and let go of his hand, spinning in circles and leaping around. He laughed as he watched me twirl in circles. Nobody else was out yet so I was free to look as stupid as I wanted to, without anybody making judgments. Even if they did judge me, I obviously didn't care anymore.

I opened my eyes as I felt hands hold my hips. I looked up into Koga's blue eyes, shocked, before smiling and throwing my arms around his neck. We moved in a slow, rocking, circular motion. Most people nowadays only swayed slightly but Koga and I were two of the people that actually enforced the circular motion. I put my head against his chest and closed my eyes. Suddenly somebody kicked on there radio and I looked up to see a couple of teenage girls that smiled and waved down at us, I smiled back before returning to my Koga and dancing, listening to the music.

I'm staring at the ceiling, laying here dreaming, wasting the day away.

The world's flying by our window outside but hey baby that's okay.

This feels so right it can't be wrong so far as I can see,

Where you wanna go, baby I'll do anything?

'Cause if you wanna go, baby let's go

If you wanna rock, I'm ready to roll.

And if you wanna slow down we can slow down together,

If you wanna walk, baby let's walk.

Have a little kiss, have a little talk.

We don't gotta leave we can stay here forever,

Lay here together...

Once the song finally ended I waved back up at the girls who were dreamily watching the scene below. Actually, a lot of people were watching us. I giggled and grabbed Koga's hand as I took off running and he followed me, picking up speed and pulling me into his arms, then situating me bridal style while still running. I wasn't sure where we were going and I didn't care.

He finally placed me down at the edge of a peer. I watched as he sat down and dangled his feet off the edge. I did the same thing. It was nice out this early, without the fishers blocking the area and everything. Despite how angrily the ocean moved it was gorgeous. Most things that were so beautiful, though, usually ended up completely dangerous. I took off my sweatshirt and slipped off my pants. Sure I was only in my white tank top and black girl's boxer shorts but there was nobody around.

Koga looked at me like I was crazy as I walked away, and then ran up a portion of the length of the deck. At the edge I sprung off and threw my body into the ocean I crashed against the waves and swam my way to in front of the deck (since the force of the ocean had driven me underneath it). Koga was looking down at me with large eyes and I smiled, completely soaked, up at him.

"Are you always going to live your life with the safety protecting you or are you actually going to face the unknown Koga? If you're always in your safe haven then you're never going to really live. God only gives you one life, make the best of it!" I urged. Koga hesitated, just look at me, for a couple seconds before he took the hoodie off and stripped down to his dark grey boxer briefs, revealing those incredible washboard abs and incredible oblique muscles (the V-shape muscles).

He too, dove into the rebellious water. I giggled as he resurfaced right in front of me and pulled me close, giving me a quick, passionate kiss that shocked me. I felt dizzy with love by the time he pulled away from me. The water was freezing and I followed him as he swam towards the shoreline. Shivering we made our way on the sand and back to the peer to grab our clothes. We slipped on the clothes even though we were dripping wet underneath and jogged on our tip toes back to the hotel room. Kagome and InuYasha were just coming out of the room, looking like they had both just woken up and still in their sleeping clothes. Kagome yawned and rubbed her eyes, making a confused face and squinting her eyes as began to study us. "What were you guys doing? It rained? Were you guys playing in the rain or... something?"

"We jumped into the ocean but that was after the rain ended. I'm bored and ready to get some Dairy Queen and start walking you guys!" I smiled. Kagome groaned and stretched, obviously still tired. Leave it to Kagome and InuYasha to sleep in....

"Hey what's up guys?" Sango asked as she came out with Miroku. "We heard people talking and I looked out the window and saw you guys. I've been so bored inside that dinky hotel room all day! I woke up at 6:00 and it's already 10:55! That's almost a whole four hours I had to spend with Miroku and inside. I hate being inside." She complained with a pout.

"So what's the plan for today?" Miroku asked.

"We could go grab a quick lunch, nothing big, then get on the bus and ride around to see all the different sites and shops. There are plenty of places that we have yet to explore since we haven't traveled much further than where the boardwalk ends and restaurant places." I suggested.

"That sounds good to me, I'm starving!" InuYasha complained as he grabbed his stomach with a sad face on. The other guys agreed and all of us girls rolled our eyes. "Oh speaking of starving, we boys need to break free of our women some time. Next Wednesday we are going to go out boys since it's the middle of the last week we'll be here."

"As long as Miroku makes sure he keeps his hands off of other women and isn't checking them all out. Meanwhile, us girls will be hanging out and having fun, since we will be needing a break from our men to just enjoy each other's company." Sango pointed out. "I swear to God Miroku, if you touch one other woman you will never be able to touch another again because you will have no dick and no hands either. I will take everything from you."

"Well Sango, when you sound so sweet I don't know how I'd ever find it within myself to. You look so cute when you're threatening to take everything that has driven my life thus far. You know its love when she uses your favorite body parts against you." He joked.

"Ah, 'tis true." Koga added.

"I think I can trust my Koga." I smiled and looked up at him. He looked down at me with a sweet smile that warmed me up by just seeing it. He loved me too much to ever do anything to hurt me, I was sure of that, and I knew I could trust him. "I really don't think you'd ever do something stupid like cheat and end us, especially when I only have two more weeks with you guys."

"Please don't remind me." Koga groaned. "The worst part of this summer is going to be trying to detach myself from you. I really don't know how I'm going to do it. At least I got the chance to be your boyfriend, even if it was only for a short time."

"Thank you for taking risks, but you'll survive."

"Ayame, I'm really going to miss you!" Kagome frowned.

"I'm going to miss the little Irish wolf demon too, no matter how many times I tried to end her life in the past." Sango joked and they both hugged me at once. I was going to miss them too, more than I would ever admit, but I was ready to leave more than I'd ever let them know, too. I was perfectly fine with walking away from everybody and never seeing them again.

They'd never know that though, that I could just completely shut off any feeling to my heart. It was one of the greatest advantages I had come to. I had been doing it ever since my parents weren't a part of my life anymore. I did it when my grandmother died, and I was going to have to do it once grandfather died. He was the person I had gotten closest to. Everybody was out of your life at one time or another and I was just going to have to get used to it. I had gotten used to it, now so would they.

I was going to train to get an elementary school education. I wanted to teach the little children in America and there was no way I could do that from Japan. America had the best schools and teachings, with a better rate promising a career. I would have a more equal chance over there and I could end up spreading my wings and expanding my territory and knowledge.

"We definitely need to have a party the last night we have here!" Miroku announced. "We'll gather up random people and have a get together to celebrate just how amazing Ayame is. She has made our lives a lot more interesting, to say the least." He smiled.

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"I'm going to really miss you Ayame." Koga sighed as we sat at the water's edge. It was dark out but there was a full moon in the sky that was brightly lighting it. My toes were just in cold water, sinking into the sand there and becoming buried. The light wind blew at my wavy hair. I was wearing an off the shoulder (from being cut) neon green-yellow sweater and some cut off blue jean shorts.

I looked over at Koga. He wasn't looking at me. His gaze was locked, with his half lidded eyes, on his water that was gently coming up over his feet and being sucked away again. I wasn't sure what to say so I just sat there in silence and studied him for a second. Finally, I placed my head against his shoulder as he wrapped an arm around me and pulled me close.

"I'll miss you too Koga." I whispered.

"I can't imagine what it'll be like. I mean, we just started to get close and we just started dating after all those years and soon enough you'll be gone. I never felt this way before Ayame, no matter how short of a time it's been, and I don't want to leave you. I don't want you to leave me. I don't want you to move to the states and find a new guy, moving on with your life. I don't want you to live a life without me and I couldn't live without you. A life without you Ayame isn't much of a life at all." He whispered.

His voice sounded so much more fragile than I could have ever possibly imagined. I never knew Koga could have felt so strongly towards me and it scared me. I didn't want to hurt him because I decided to leave. He knew I was going to leave and it was his fault for getting attached, it was his fault he didn't give me a reason to stay here earlier. It was Koga's fault that I hadn't known this earlier and could have planned a career here with him. He waited too long, the chance was gone.

But it wasn't. I didn't want to give up my dream but I really didn't want to give up on Koga either. He was the one person that I had ever felt this way towards either. The words coming out of my mouth sounded foreign and weird. "You know Koga, I could always stay. If you really wanted me to stay, I wouldn't have to leave. I could find a good college and career here. I would never have to leave you or the group or gramps, it would probably be better."

"Ayame as good as that sounds to me I couldn't let you. I mean, it's your dream to go to America and teach the children there. I couldn't hold you back and I wouldn't ever want to. It was destiny for you to go to America, and I'm not going to mess with that. Destiny tore us apart Ayame but I'm going to be living on hope that destiny will draw us back together." He explained.

Never in my life had I ever thought Koga could say something, be somebody, so deep. His thoughts were so much deeper than I had ever thought he was possible of me. I had known everything about Koga for years yet I knew nothing. He was keeping a side from me all of these years that he was finally just exposing. I was finding a Koga I never knew existed. Somebody with such deep thoughts couldn't have been so blind to my love for him though.

"I know what you're thinking Ayame. I mean, I knew I liked you but I was afraid to make the first move. I was afraid that I would have read you wrong or that it was directed towards me. I dated other girls, to try to make you jealous. I wanted to spring some outburst from you but it never happened. You were always good at hiding your real emotions Ayame, other than the fact that you wanted me of course. Out of everybody you were always the most difficult to figure out. You're different than them Ayame. I may have surprised you with who I am but I know that you're not always so happy and giddy either. Never had I seen somebody mask and push so much pain away as you could." He pointed out.

"I cry, everybody cries, its human nature. I'm not any more different than the rest. I just handle myself when I'm around other people. When I'm alone... that's when I fall apart. I don't believe other people should have to deal with my problems. My pain is my pain, nobody else needs to know about it or feel it. I don't want to ruin other people's lives just because mine wasn't the greatest." I admitted, placing my head on my knees now, which were pulled up against my chest.

"I don't believe I ever noticed how truly beautiful you are." He muttered as he studied me and I looked over. He smiled and shook his head. "Sorry, I can't help but keep thinking that every time I look at you. I don't know how I could have been so stupid not to see all your beauty before, inside and out. Enough about beauty though, I want to know what you've been hiding."

"Koga, you may be my boyfriend and my best friend but that's private information. I honestly don't know if I could talk to somebody else about them. Those memories, they hurt, and I really don't feel like unearthing them and making them hurt all over again." I mumbled but my mind was already flying back in time, to my parents.

"Is it about your parents' deaths?" Koga asked.

"Or lack thereof." I said, silent tears spilling.

"What do you mean 'lack thereof'? Gramps said that they died in a plane crash when they were coming back from the states. I was there when he told you and I was there when you retold what he said to the group." He pointed out.

I shook my head. "He lied, Koga."

"What? He wouldn't lie to you." Koga defended.

"He would to keep me happy."

"Ayame, what are you talking about?" Koga asked, concerned.

I looked into those blue eyes. Never once had I talked about my parental situation with somebody else and I was afraid to. All those secrets were about me and my parents, not about anybody else. Yet I looked in those eyes and realized there was no way I could hold back, not from Koga.

Please help me out and pick one of the stories above. I haven't given up on Forgotten and Misunderstood by the way, I'm just a little bored with them and unsure of what to do next and, besides, this is my favorite story so I update it as much as possible. I will probably start my new story before this one is over then work on the sequel once a few chapters are done for the new story. The updates for Forgotten and Misunderstood won't be very quick (my apologies!). Pick a story and help me out! :)

I will probably do all of the story ideas at some point or another.