March 16, 2010

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I'll Remember You

Chapter Fifteen

I sat on the bed and thought about everything that had happened in my summer. I doubted I'd ever be able to face Koga again in my life. I closed my eyes and fell back on the bed. It wasn't my bed, it was Rin's since I moved in with her and her friends. All of my stuff was, once again, in bags but this time they were sorted with clean clothes bags and dirty clothes bags.

Kagome and Sango heard about the story from Miroku while InuYasha helped me move all of my stuff again. I turned off my phone that night and had yet to turn it on. Rin heard about everything through texting Kagome and she couldn't find the right words to talk to me, making the situation awkward. I didn't want to see his cheating face ever again.

Forget about everything and have a good time Ayame, this is your last night here and then you'll be leaving and heading back home again tomorrow morning. Enjoy these last few moments while you still can. It doesn't matter that Koga completely broke your trust, ruined your dreams and vacation, make the best of it with what you can. On Sunday you'll be making a trip to the states and you'll never see him again....

I slipped on long athletic pants that were navy blue with two lime green streaks down each side. I threw on a lime green sports bra with navy blue stitching and I was ready to go. My sneakers were tied tight and I clutched tightly to my iPod. My hair was pulled back in a French braid and I left the room to run the boardwalk. People stared as I zoomed passed, trying to beat time itself and throw myself into some alternate reality.

I stopped when I saw the group, Miroku and InuYasha were sitting on the benches and Koga and Sango were inside a store shopping for clothes. I didn't want to bother the girls so I chatted lightly with the boys about the weather and the girls and everything. Everybody was worried about me but I confirmed that I was doing fine. I was pulling away from my social life a lot but I was doing well.

"What about Koga?"

"He hasn't left the room since he returned." Miroku sighed.

"Good." InuYasha spat.

"You'll be gone in only two more days, since Sunday won't count really, and that's including today but today is already half way over. You have everything packed up already back at home don't you?" Miroku asked and he looked in the shop, keeping his eyes on his girlfriend since most of the shop employees were a little creepy and usually tried to hook up with the girls that ventured in the stores.

"Yeah, I'm all ready. I hope you know I'll miss you guys." I pointed out. "I appreciate everything you've both done for me, as well as what Sango and Kagome have done for me. Thank you though Miroku, for risking your life to make sure I'd be okay. I have the greatest friends I could ever ask for. I really don't know where I'd be without you guys."

"Ayame! When'd you get here?" Kagome asked before wrapping me in a large hug, "Oh, don't look! We're shopping for some more stuff to send on your way with you to America, you'll get everything when we get back home."

"How have you been?" Sango asked, concerned.

"I've been doing well actually." I shrugged. "I was going to have to let him go one way or the other. He may as well have gone off happily with some other girl so he wouldn't have to think about us and how we were no longer a couple. I don't know, I guess I'm trying to find the good within everything. Our time together is too short to worry about it."

Koga POV

I was my own worst enemy. Everything I had done last night was haunting me. I hadn't slept with her. In fact, we had undressed ourselves and were just about to do something when Miroku and Ayame came through the door. We made out and things had just gone too far. I wasn't even sure what had compelled me to leave with Emi. She was one of my friends from college that I hadn't seen in a while. We talked about life and she bragged about all the guys she had gotten with.

Before I knew it she was all over me, kissing me and running her hands over my body. It felt so good and Ayame wasn't anywhere around. Ayame wouldn't last anyway but Emi was going to the same college with me and would be there. Emi wouldn't leave me, Ayame would. There was no use in crying over Ayame when I could just move on.

It didn't feel right but I just kept trying to push it to the back of my mind. I wanted her so bad, I needed her. I felt so horrible for knowing I hurt her. She wouldn't show it, I knew she wouldn't, and that's what killed me the most. I couldn't actually see how much she was dying inside; I would never know how much I had actually hurt her. I laid on the bed and stared at the ceiling. The room still had her scent, vanilla, lingering in the air and it was driving me crazy.

Ayame was out of my life, gone forever even though she wasn't leaving for another couple days. She wouldn't want to see me again and I wasn't going to make her. None of our friends would talk to me and apparently Ayame wouldn't talk to any of them. I had trashed her whole life over here and was giving her another reason to leave and never look back.

I had learned so much more about her and revealed myself to her. She told me all her favorite memories and all the secrets she had been holding in for so long. She had made me happier than I ever thought was possible and she showed me love. I ruined it though, I ruined everything. It was my fault, all of this. I would have to sleep in the bed I'd made for myself.

I wasn't one to cry but I couldn't help it as the tears fell down my cheeks. The world was spinning too fast for me to concentrate. I felt so dizzy and lost. I was so wrong with how I acted. Ayame was gone and I had nothing to me, not anymore. My mind was numb and I couldn't move as I just laid there. Seconds, hours, a day... I wasn't sure how much time had passed.

Ayame POV

I sat on the wall that boarded the boardwalk and separated it from the beach. The wind played with my hair, the air was salty and humid, it was warm, and my skin was fully tanned. There was a couple walking along the edge of the ocean and I sadly watched their silhouettes. That was something Koga and I had done just a couple nights ago while we talked with each other. I slipped off my flip flops and made my way down to the edge of the beach.

I was swearing the one sweatshirt he had given me when I was cold the one night, when we had still been dating. I was in that and a jean mini skirt with my flip flops. My toes dipped into the water as I tip toed down the beach. It was a beautiful night, the kind you spend with the one you love.

I wanted to cry but I couldn't find it within myself. I was tired of crying and I just couldn't cry anymore. I took the sweatshirt off and slipped my skirt off and dropped my flip flops on the pile of forlorn clothes, too. This was the pier I had jumped off with Koga. It was dark but the moon was pretty bright. I didn't care anyway. I ran and jumped, throwing my body into the air.

I landed in the water and fell below the surface. I took my time resurfacing, taking a deep breath. Waves attempted to suck me in deeper and I went with it for a while, just floating in the black, freezing water. I couldn't see anything and, although it was nerve wracking, I was done caring about it. After a while I swan back to the edge and sat there, soaked and dripping. I went back in to wash the sand off, and then went back up to the pier again. I grabbed my things and sat down at the edge, leaving my legs dangling off the edge.

I pulled my iPod out of the sweatshirt pocket and listened to my songs. The first one was from Big & Rich, people who I hadn't listened to in forever.

Somewhere there's a stolen halo,

I use to watch her wear it well,

Everything would shine wherever she'd go,

But looking at her now you'd never tell.

Someone ran away with her innocence,

A memory she can't get out of her head,

I can only imagine what she's feeling,

When she's praying,

Kneeling at the edge of the bed.

And she says take me away,

And take me farther,

Surround me now,

And hold, hold, hold me like holy water,

Holy Water.

She wants someone to call her angel,

Someone to put light the back in her eyes,

She's looking through the faces, the unfamiliar places,

She needs someone to hear her when she cries,

And she says take me away,

And take me farther,

Surround me now,

And hold, hold, hold me like holy water,

Like Holy Water.

She just needs a little help,

To wash away the pain she's felt,

She wants to feel the healing hands,

Of someone who understands.

And she says take me away,

And take me farther,

Surround me now,

And hold, hold, hold me,

And she says take me away,

And take me farther,

Surround me now,

And hold, hold, hold me now like holy water,

Holy Water.

Help me:

I have a couple story ideas so far but I'm not really sure. I don't want to start like three new stories. I'm going to tell you my ideas though. First there's Infestation which is about this disease that falls over the population to make them like zombies or something and survival, I don't have it completely figured out. Secondly there's Ocean Breed which is about a girl who loves the ocean and they find out that the Megladon (the ancient dino shark) has made a spontaneous return and the ocean is being deformed as the dinosaur ages begin to return again. Finally there's A Run for Your Money which is about Koga (who is a rich heir of an expensive business) and Ayame (the girl following her dreams to create a hotel even though her parents refuse to help her or aid here) and this was inspired by Dark Skittles story Home but I put a different twist to it. In order to get the hotel done, Koga agrees to pay here money if she pretends to be his fiancée to please his father. I already know I'll be doing a short multi-chapter story on Toby Keith's one song and it will be called God Love Her but I doubt it'll be more than ten chapters, if that.

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