EDPOV

I watched as Bella would cry every day, She felt somehow guilt about losing one of the babies and when I asked why she felt guilty she had no idea. I felt useless all I could do was offer hugs, kisses and kind words. I'm not a miracle worker, I can't bring our baby back, if I could then I sure as hell would.

I held Bella's hand as we walked into the hospital, she had to have an operation so they could get out the baby. It broke her heart to know she would no longer be with him or her. We sat in the reception area waiting for our names to be called. I had no idea how this operation was going to go and I prayed that Bella and our other baby would make it alive. I held Bella's hand tightly in mine and smiled slightly as she turned to look at me. It seemed, she was extremely over emotional and I couldn't blame her but even when someone would smile at her, trying to make her feel better she would start crying, I hated to see her cry and every time she did I felt even more helpless.

"Cullen, Isabella?" A Nurse called out, holding a clip board. We stood slowly, Bella's shoulders were shaking and her eyes were pointed to the floor. E followed the nurse into a room and Bella sat down on the hospital bed and cried to her hearts content. I just held and kissed her, there was nothing more I could do.

The nurse came back with a hospital gown for her to put on, she left the room for Bella to get changed in which I helped. She lost her balance a couple times but I caught her like I always did. She would smile at me in thanks but the smile didn't ever reach her eyes. Once she was in the hospital gown I gathered her clothes and put them on a seat. I helped her climb into the bed, then laid above the covers and kissed up and down her neck. She was staring intently at the wall in front of her. With my index finger I pulled her chin to face me. I looked into her eyes and saw nothing but sadness and grief.

"I love you" she said, It was very faint but I heard it all the same.

"As, I love you" I replied. The nurse walked through moments later and explained to us the operation and how long it would take. The operation itself was an hour and then Bella will be resting for a day or so. We both nodded and all we had to do now was wait for the doctor. I whispered sweet nothings in her ear when I heard the door open, I turned my head and saw Carlisle stood in the doorway. He smiled sadly and made his way over to us.

"Are you going to be doing the operation?" I asked. He shook his head.

"No, it isn't allowed, all I have to do is give Bella some injections to make her fall asleep then we can take her to theatre" He said, Bella couldn't hear he said it so quietly. Good thing I have extremely good vampire hearing. I nodded and turned back to Bella and kissed her head.

Carlisle made his way around the bed and to Bella's other side. He looked over Bella and I could only just see the tears forming in his eyes.

"Now, Princess. I'm going to have to give you some medication to make you fall asleep, it's in the form of an injection you don't have to look if you don't want to" He said. She nodded and turned her head towards me as Carlisle got out the needle and filled it with the medication. I put both hands on either side of her face and stared deep into her eyes. I saw out the corner of my eye when Carlisle put in the needle. Bella's eyes closed tightly. I kissed her square on the mouth, trying to take away any pain she may be feeling, I remember doing that when we went on that holiday, although I did it for a much different reason. I pulled back from her lips and saw she had already dropped off to sleep. I climbed off the bed and looked at her unconscious form. The nurses and doctors came back in to take her. I kissed her quickly then her Belly and whispered.

"I love you"

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We all sat, impatiently waiting for Bella to wake. Carlisle had gotten time off work so he could stay with us while Bella was recovering. Nobody was talking. Emmett and Alice weren't there normal happy selves. Rosalie didn't look stuck up or self centred, she looked...empty. Emotionless. Carlisle and Esme were holding each other. Jasper was in a corner staring blankly at a wall, this must be taking a toll on him. No words were being spoken but if someone were to walk in the room, they would understand that non of us were at all up for talking.

We were told she would be asleep for hours and would wake up drowsy from the medication. We all sat in the same positions for hours just watching, waiting for her to wake.

~~*~~

The others had gone home to get some stuff done but in their heads I could see and hear that they couldn't stand to be around her like she is. Unconscious. I hadn't been paying attention, when I heard the voice of an angel.

"Edward" Bella rasped. I looked over and saw her eyes open, looking at me sleepily. I made my way over to her slowly, at human pace. I held her hand in mine and was just going to either stay stood or get a chair to sit on but she had different ideas. She pulled roughly on my hand, bringing me down on the bed next to her, I lay silently, holding her like she was the most fragile thing on the earth.

"I love you, and we've got to try and move on from this, it wont end well if I'm depressed. I'm sure if God wanted us to have twins he would have made it so" She said. When Bella was younger she was taught by Carlisle that there may be a God. You just have to believe in him. Carlisle, himself as a human was religious. After all he was a pastors son.

I smiled weakly at her and nodded my head, bending my head I kissed her lips. I pulled away slowly, staring into her eyes.

"So when can I get out of here then?" She asked, suddenly out of the blue. I had to laugh at her eagerness to get out of the hospital.

"Soon,Love" I chuckled. Her laughter was music to my ears as she giggled quietly.

"Your not sore are you?" I asked. Moving away slowly. She shook her head and pulled me back.

"I'm perfectly fine" She said.

I was happy to have her back.