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Chapter 11 Thoughts

Bella P.O.V.

I heard Emmett coming up the stairs while I told the Cullen's about Jane and Alec. He let me in on the plan, mentally. I didn't want to be separated from Edward, but it was the only way. I mentally asked if the Rose, Jazz, Em, and Carlisle would leave me and Edward alone. When we were by ourselves, I stood and walked over to him. "So do you have anything to say?" I asked, standing right in front of him. Edward's hand reached out and brought me onto his lap. I made sure to keep all of my weight off of him. His lips brushed mine. I found his orbs when we pulled away from the brief kiss. We stared into each other's souls for what seemed like hours, but really only a two minutes. Edward's hands caressed my cheeks and pulled me in for a deeper kiss. His hands clung to my face, pulling me even closer. My fingers knotted in his hair, pulling him closer to me. I knew this was a goodbye. I let all of the pain and love into this sweet, passionate kiss. It might be our last. If something were to happen to him, I wouldn't be able to live on. I would follow him shortly after his death. A world without Edward's existence isn't a world at all. I moved the kiss faster, with more urgency, knowing it would end soon and I would leave. I decided to not say goodbye; it will give me a more purposeful reason to stay alive and find Edward again. I pulled away to let him breath. We stared into each other's eyes until I heard Emmett mentally say it was time to leave. I took a few unneeded breaths. I love you so much Edward. Please stay safe for me. You are my life now. I gave him a quick peck and took off down the stairs and out the door with my family. I heard his shocked silence in my head until I put the needed distance to where his mind would be mute until I saw him again. I stopped running and looked back at the direction of the house. I heard the Denali's running for the safety of somewhere far away. I felt a sob escape my lips. I felt two big arms wrap around me and I turned to sob into Emmett's shoulder. His body started to shake with big sobs as well. Alice came to us both and got in on the tearless sob hug. Esme joined us soon. We pulled together after a few moments and took off again. I wouldn't let our separation keep me from dealing with the task at hand. I had to stop Jane and Alec before they either killed the Cullen's or returned to the Volturi and told Aro that humans knew, and it was the Swan's fault. It would bring sudden death. We would be burned and the Cullen's would become their next meal.

We ran for hours across the northern peninsula and western Canada. All of us had some clothes on that belonged to one of the Cullen's to make Jane and Alec think that they were with us. We left trails all over the place, splitting up and coming together at odd places, going in circles; anything that would delay their time. Alice said they were still following us, but they were growing frustrated by our games. She said they were in Vancouver, Canada, which we had been two hours ago. So they were still close on our trail. We were currently running through the northern part of California, making a wide turn in Utah and heading up towards Canada again. Alice halted suddenly. I saw the vision just as she did because I kept my shield up around us because Jane and Alec's powers would be useless against it. It was using a lot of my strength, but I hunted often on big animals. I saw Alice's vision as her eyes glazed over.

Jane halted, "Alec, do you smell that?" She leaned against a tree and sniffed a few times. Alec followed her demonstration and sniffed the same spot.

"The humans, but they are with other vampires," Alec murmured under his breath. Jane hit the tree and it shattered into splinters.

"Damn it! How did we fall for this?! Of course they would separate, knowing we would know they never would. Shit!" Jane yelled in an angry voice.

"Should we return to Italy or follow the scent?" Alec asked his twin.

"I say we grab the humans and then go to Italy. Keep them hostage and wait for the Swan's to come and rescue them. Then execute them for telling our secret. It would be perfect," Jane smiled an evil smile, "Aro will have to kill his beloved Isabella Swan. The irony," Jane said with a mischievous laugh.

"Then let's go," Alec said, taking off in the direction of the scent.

The vision ended and Alice's face mirrored my horrified face. "NO!" we both yelled, taking off back towards Oregon. Emmett's thoughts mirrored Esme's of their confusion. I replayed the vision and they sped faster towards the last place Alec and Jane had been. Alice had visions flickering in her head as Jane changed plans. One included killing the Denali's right off and then torturing the Cullen's. We sped faster; I allowed my head to be open to my family so they could see Alice's visions and my plans. Their thoughts equaled my fear. We wouldn't be able to go on if our beloved one died. There would be no point of existence. I ran faster than I ever had. My energy was dwindling down from my shield and my speed. We stopped in Washington for a quick meal and took off for Juneau, where Alec and Jane were very near. The Denali's were taking the Cullen's to a cabin in Anchorage until they could get a flight to somewhere else. Alice vision showed they were only an hour away from the cabin. I sped faster and away from the group; Alice and Emmett were keeping together a few feet behind me at all times. Esme wasn't one to run much, so she was back a little behind Alice and Em. I passed Juneau just as Alec and Jane stopped outside of the cabin. Alice's vision in my head was a few seconds ahead of what was actually happening.

"There they are," Jane whispered menacingly. They were standing in the woods surrounding the cabin. Garrett and Benjamin were standing by the front windows while Kate and Irina watched the back. Tanya and the Cullen's were hidden from the twin's sight, but they could hear their heartbeats and smell their blood; their scent wafted through the air. "We will wait to find out the exact locations of everyone in the house." Jane decided.

This gave me just the right amount of time. I called Tanya's cell. "Hello?" her voice whispered over the line.

"Tanya, its Bella. Alice just had a vision. Jane and Alec are standing out in the woods watching you. They won't make their move until they locate everyone in the house. We are on our way; we are passing Cordova at the moment. Don't leave to tell the others. Just whisper it quietly to them from where you are sitting. The closest will hear and tell them to keep their voices extremely close and pass it on. Do not make a move to let Alec and Jane know you know they are there. Keep your positions and we will be there shortly." I instructed her.

"Yes Bella, I will tell the others. Thank you. We will keep them safe, be safe please." Tanya pleaded the last sentence.

"Always am," I told her assuring that I would be safe. I clicked end on my phone and sped faster.

Edward P.O.V.

"Hello?" Tanya's voice rang quietly as she answered her phone. We were sitting upstairs in a cabin in Anchorage, Canada. No one would explain anything to me. My family knew only a little more than me, and when they informed me on what they knew, I was just where I was. I had guessed that much. I had hopes of who had called Tanya for when it vibrated on the table. She was silent while the person on the other side of the phone spoke. "Yes Bella, I will tell the others. Thank you. We will keep them safe, be safe please." The last sentence sounded like plead. I stared at Tanya; she was on the phone with Bella. I had the urge to reach over and still it from her. If I hadn't been sitting next to her and paying close attention, I wouldn't have heard Bella's name pass her lips. She had spoken so quickly. Tanya snapped the phone shut and looked up at me and my family with wide, scared eyes. "Excuse me," She whispered and fluttered to the door; cracking it open and whispering down the stairs so quickly and low I didn't hear a thing. She fluttered over back to the couch we were sitting on and sat down, tense. Her back was very straight and her face was a mask. Her eyes were darting everywhere and looking through the cracks of the curtains; debating on closing them or leaving them open. She decided on the latter and stayed where she was. I didn't know what was going on. But that Bella had left me without saying goodbye. She had left me. I was rethinking everything that had happened to us over the past few months. Had all of that been a lie? She up and ditched me when there was danger and left me with stranger vampires. They seemed nice and like the Swan's, but they weren't the Swan's. They weren't my vampires. They weren't my Bella. No one could replace Bella. She probably got sense knocked into her when she realized I was just a mere, plain human. Something she could easily replace with something better. Something that wasn't fragile; something immortal. But she felt obligated to protect me, so she dumped me off while she ran off somewhere. Probably feigning off that she had protected me, and if something happened, and then she wouldn't feel guilty because at least she tried. I was snapped out of my thoughts when I heard snarling and growling outside. Tanya had already left down the stairs and my family and I were close behind. I stepped out onto the porch and saw Bella and a blonde vampire girl, I presumed as Jane, crouched and walking in a circle. Snarling and growling at each other. Alec was faced off against Emmett. Alice was close to Bella, standing behind her and mirroring her movements only without so much fierceness. Esme was moving behind Emmett in case something happened; but I'm sure Emmett could handle it against the small vampire.

"Jane, why don't you just get over it and stop trying to get revenge?!" Bella growled, snapping in Jane's direction.

"This has nothing to do about revenge!" Jane snapped back.

"You are only doing this because you're jealous Aro found a new shiny object for his collection. Well I told you I didn't want to be a part of that collection! So get over it! Leave the humans out of it!" Bella sidestepped closer to Jane, but she didn't notice because she was fuming from her words.

"I AM NOT JEALOUS!" a snarl ripped through Jane's chest.

"That just proved my point," Bella said smugly. Jane took a leap at Bella, but she dodged it and whirled around to meet Jane's body crashing into hers. Alec and Emmett had started a fight too. I didn't watch though, I was too busy watching my precious Bella fight an evil monster. Jane was swiping at Bella with razor sharp nails, but she missed as Bella ducked under each swing. Bella swept under a swing and flew behind Jane to grab her by the neck. I heard a ripping noise and a piece of Jane's body flew by the porch. It was a huge piece of skin and muscle. Jane screeched loudly and turned around. There was a large section missing from her shoulder. "Now you can't give me the cold shoulder anymore." Bella was laughing; I think she had gone crazy. How could she laugh when she was fighting to the death?

Jane leaped towards Bella and their bodies clashed with a loud BANG! They rammed into a tree and it came crashing down and knocking several trees down. I felt so useless at that moment when Jane was straddling Bella and clawing at her chest. Bella screamed and I saw a piece of skin fly to the ground a few feet from me. I saw the gold locket Bella wore that I had gotten her last month that had a picture of me and her in it. I walked towards it and pulled it off of the skin. The heart shaped locked had been ripped from the chain with a chunk of Bella's neck. I cringed at the thought. I went back to watching the scene before me. Bella had thrown Jane off of her. She had another piece missing from her chest. I felt tears stream down my cheeks at the sight of Bella injured. She wasn't immortal; she wasn't impenetrable; she wasn't what she had led me to believe. Jane had injured her. Bella was fighting to protect me. And she was injured. Bella had once said that blood sent vampires on a sort of frenzy. I ignored my conscience that was screaming to me there were more than just two vampires there. There were actually eleven; eleven eyes flashed to me when I brought a sharp rock to my wrist and slit it. Jane couldn't resist to look at me in confusion; giving Bella just enough time to leap and jump on her. I saw an arm fly towards the trees. But I was suddenly aware of a pair of golden eyes staring at my bleeding wrist with hunger and desire. I cringed away from him when he walked towards me. I flipped through my head to remember what his name was. Benjamin, that's it. He stalked towards me. I looked around to see if anyone had noticed, but they were all wrapped up in the fights at hand. Esme, Tanya, Kate and Irina were taking apart trees while Garrett and Emmett ripped apart Alec; Bella and Alice were taking apart Jane. My family was watching their loved ones closely to see if they were being hurt, but they weren't. Mine was the only one injured. But I had a vampire stalking towards me, staring at my wrist. I knew I couldn't fight him off as he took my arm and bit into it. Fire coarse through my veins and I screamed from the pain. That must have woken Benjamin from his stupor of drinking my blood because he was suddenly thrown off of me. My vision was blurred, so I couldn't tell. I heard my angel's voice above me. It sounded like she was arguing with someone. I didn't care as long as her voice was there while I burned. I thought I was in Hell, but I didn't understand why Bella would be in Hell with me. She was meant for somewhere like Heaven, not here in Hell. Was this my Hell? To have her here so she could reject me over and over again? I don't know if I would rather see her and have her reject me or never see Bella again. I decided the latter would be worse. At least the first one I could see her angelic face. But now I couldn't see it. I was screaming out in pain as the fire coursed through my body. The fire seemed to grow hotter and spread from my arm to my chest.

"Esme, I can't let him make the change!" I heard my angel frantically say. I didn't know what she was talking about, but it helped that she was near and I could hear her through this fire. She was my light at the end of this fire, the only thing keeping me from slipping under the pressure.

"Bella, it's going to happen. You know it; you've seen the vision yourself. There is nothing you can do about it," I heard the pixie say.

"Actually there is a way to stop it," I heard a soft voice say, Irina I thought.

"HOW?!" Bella cried out.

"You can suck the venom out," she said.

"Bella, what if you don't stop? Will you risk his life? Or let him make the change that is inevitable?" Alice countered.

"There is not much time left, the venom is spreading. You must decide soon," I heard the motherly tones of Esme's voice.

"I don't think I could stop. I couldn't live with myself. Alice what do you see?!" Bella asked her sister for the answer I didn't know if she could answer.

"Nothing, I told you. There is no vision because you're undecided. Oh god Bella, it's too late. There is only one path now for him. I'm so sorry." She whispered the last sentence. I screamed out as the venom spread throughout the rest of my body. This fire was raging war with my insides. I kept my mouth shut, afraid if I opened them I would let out a scream. I didn't want Bella to know I was in pain. She seemed not to want me to live with her forever. I had discussed it with her many times.

Flashback

Bella was walking besides me through the forest. We were walking to our favorite place, our private sanctuary, our meadow. This is where she had first showed me what she really was. We had come here many times over the past two months we have been together with knowing the secret. I was holding her hand as we entered the edge of the meadow. We lay down on the soft grass that was still damp from the dew of the early morning. Bella rested her head on my chest and I ran my fingers through her soft, chestnut hair. Bella, do you ever think about the future?

All of the time, why?

What is going to happen when I start to get old, and you stay looking like a 17 year old?

I will stay with you of course until you pass, I'm sure I will follow shortly after. This caused my body to go rigid.

What?!

What? You think I am going to leave you when you start to show changes in age? That is absurd. You will still be the same Edward I fell in love with two months ago in 20 years.

That wouldn't be right though. People would think I was some old pervert and you were some gold digger.

Who cares what people think about us? We have something they could never have. Bella was drawing circles on my chest while we spoke in the confines of our heads.

That's true, but I want to be with you forever. I felt her body go still. The circles stopped and her hand didn't move from the last circle she was drawing. Her horrified eyes found mine and I was shocked that she was scared by my thought.

No! You are not going to become one of us! Is it not enough to spend a long happy life with me?

Why do you oppose to spending eternity with me? Do you not love me as much as I you?

Edward, you know that is not what I meant! Her thought scolded me.

Then why can I not dream about spending forever with you?

So that's what you dream about; being a monster.

No, not a monster, I dream about spending every day and night of eternity with the love of my life. I wouldn't have it any other way. I couldn't imagine a day without you in my arms. And one day I will be able to physically accept you too. That is if I become like you.

Edward, it's not that simple. You won't experience love for me during your first years as a vampire. You will be a blood-crazed newborn. Your reactions will be spontaneous and totally depended on instincts. You will have no control over what you do. You will be stronger than me; even stronger than Emmett during your first few months. Edward you won't be you. I will not be the same to you as I am now. You see me through your weak human eyes and see a 'god', as you put it. As a vampire, you will see flaws, and what if you want to move on when you are able to control your emotions? What if you won't want me because you want something more? Right now you're telling yourself you would never do that, but you don't know that. You don't know how much you will change when you become like me. Your body will change, your mind will change, and for the first few years, your personality is different. It would be years before you might experience the love you feel for me now. Do you really want that?

I would want anything that will able me to be with you for eternity.

So, you're ready? Are you ready right now to leave your whole life behind you? Everything? All of your friends? Your family? Your future?

Yes. I felt her move her head so that her mouth was directly over my throat.

"You're ready right now?" Bella whispered against my neck. I nodded and closed my eyes as I felt her mouth open and her teeth grazed over my neck. I knew the possibilities of her slipping and draining me right then. But I didn't care. I trusted her with my life. Her mouth closed and kissed my neck. I felt her smile over my throat and she picked her head up to kiss me on the kisses. "You're not going to change my mind that easy."

End of Flashback

I relived in our memories together for who knew how long. It was something to occupy my thoughts as the fire raged throughout my body. It was spreading and licking its way down towards my toes. I had to live in my memories so I wouldn't be tempted to say something and let out a scream. So I tuned out the voices and replayed my memories over and over again. The fire reached my toes and the tips of my fingers. It started to eat its way back up my arms and legs. After raging its way back up, the fire went for my last remaining organ; my heart. I felt my heartbeat speed up, fighting against the fire that was closing in around it. My heart gave a final few beats before the fire took over. The fire was soon extinguished. I felt voices above me and I opened my eyes to find Bella's staring at me. I found new colors in her eyes that my human eyes had never been able to see. I was able to see every plane on Bella's face. She was even more beautiful than my human memories allowed me to remember. I was surprised that something so beautiful before was even more beautiful now. Her eyes were searching my eyes for answers to questions I hadn't heard. I stared at her for what felt like minutes, but only seconds had passed. I looked around the room and saw Emmett, Alice, and Esme standing in the room. Tanya and Kate had their heads peaking in and I felt the presence of two others outside in the hall; Garrett and Irina. I wondered where Benjamin was. He had been the one who changed me after all. This angered me to no end. I had wanted Bella's venom in me, not his. I looked back to Bella, my Bella. I thought it was absurd she had thought I wouldn't be able to feel my love for her once I was changed and that I would find her plain and move on to something better. Only there wasn't anything better than my Bella. I pulled my hands up swiftly and captured her face into my hands and pulled her into a kiss. She had tensed at first, but relaxed when she realized what I was doing. I had heard Emmett step forward when I had touched her. Alice's hand shot up and stopped him; a smile playing at her lips. Esme was beaming at us and I couldn't help but to break the kiss so I could greet them. I pulled away and Bella rubbed her lips with a sour look on her face. "What?" I asked, but my voice didn't sound like my voice. It was even more velvety smooth and had a chime to it.

"Ow," Bella said, rubbing her jaw, locking and unlocking it to get the feeling back.

"Oops, don't know my own strength I guess." I laughed and looked back over to my new family. "Esme," I said smiling.

"Oh Edward, it's so good to see you awake," She said as she gave me a big hug.

"Edward, my brother," Emmett said as he stepped forward and wrapped me in one of his bear hugs. But when he cut off my oxygen supply, I realized that I didn't need it. I just used it because it felt natural and I could smell all of the different odors in the air. Like Bella smelt of freesia and strawberries, Esme smelt of daisies, Alice was like an apple, and Emmett had a woodsy smell that was a little overpowering with him being so close. "Good to have you in the family," he welcomed me with a pat on the back. Alice stepped forward and flung her arms around my neck.

"I told her so, but she doesn't listen. Never bet against Alice." She warned low into my ear. She spoke so quickly and low that I was surprised I heard. But my vampire hearing picked up on her vampire speedy words.

"I heard that," Bella grumbled before standing out of her chair that was sitting besides the bed I had been laying on during the transformation. I didn't remember being moved. But I thanked whoever did. I thought it was most likely Bella. "You must be dying of thirst," Bella said quickly.

"Actually, I wasn't thirsty until you said that." I told her when I realized that I had a burning in the back of my throat right after she mentioned my thirst.

"That's strange." Bella mumbled to herself.

"Why?" I asked, forgetting of my thirst easily.

"Well, when a human is changed into a vampire, the first thing they feel is that fire in the back of their throat. Newborns have to quench that thirst quickly or they lose it. They are following their instincts and nothing gets in the way of their hunt for the first few years. But here you are, standing and talking to me like nothing happened." She said in shocked disbelief.

"I guess I skipped my newborn years?" It came out as a question.

"Well, let's not test it. Let's hunt," Bella said with a mischievous grin playing at her lips and dancing in her eyes.

"Okay, let's hunt!" I agreed excitedly. My first hunt.

A/N I hope you liked this chapter. Sorry for the cliffy. Plot is not done, so we still have several chapters left. I don't know where I want to take the story though. They characters haven't decided yet. I think I might bring the Volturi into it. But I'm not sure if I am or not. Maybe? Who knows.

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