Chapter 19

Wonders

"Rosalie," I spoke after Lillian had fallen asleep in her arms. Most likely due to the exhaustion I'm sure she was experiencing from Rosalie's persistence in playing. Rose looked up at me curiously. "What happened? I know when I was getting your body," we all shared a shudder, "dressed, your spirit was there. And it was again during the burial. How was that possible?"

"Well, when I died, I didn't think I was dead. It was very peaceful when I awoke. I was still in the dining room when I did. But I wasn't in my body. When I looked around me, I noticed my body was below me and I was looking down from the ceiling. Something appeared and told me it was time. I was confused. It informed me that I was dead and that it was time. I didn't want to leave just yet. So I asked for a few more hours with my family before going into the unknown. I'm still not sure what happened exactly. Or what the thing was. I can't describe it either. I can see it in my head, but there is just no way in putting the creature into words. The closest thing I could compare it to would be an angel. But it was still very different. Well, when I saw Lillian point at me during the burial I was shocked. I didn't know how she had seen me. I'm also curious to how you felt my presence every time I was near you. Anyways, when she actually touched me, I was stunned. I could actually feel Lillian's hand. Then when she said 'Come with me Momma,' I just followed. The next thing I know I'm in my body choking," Rosalie explained.

"I think I have some theories for some of your questions. I think I felt your presence and the others hadn't because I am very aware of my surroundings. I also knew you would come back to say goodbye. As for you coming back to life, well I think that has to do with your little baby." I pointed to the beautiful baby in her arms. Rosalie smiled down at her daughter. "She has the ability to communicate with a simple touch and form complete sentences. She has a very fast growing system and we should keep monitor of how fast she grows. Her mind works very different from ours. I think that her ability extends to seeing things we can't. That is because of how advanced her brain is. Lillian being able to bring you back to life, now that is a mystery. I think that it has to do with being able to communicate with touch. She was able to reach out and communicate with you because of it. Therefore guiding you back to your body," I mused.

Everyone sat stunned for a few minutes. They continuously looked from Lillian to Rose then to me. I just sat patiently. Edward leaned down after a minute and kissed my temple. He nudged my hand, signaling me to open up to him.

You are so intelligent. I am very proud of you. You are also very irresistible when you're smart like that. I giggled quietly and leaned further into his side, resting my head on his shoulder.

Thank you, I told him.

"Bella, I find your reasoning very logical," Edward voiced behind me.

"Thank you Captain Spock," Emmett started to laugh. Edward raised his hand and did that geeky Star Trek hand gesture. ?

"Thanks guys," I said sarcastically.

"Actually Bella, I like your train of thought," Carlisle agreed. He gave me a wink. I nodded my head in thanks.

"Bella does make a lot of sense," Jasper commented. "I mean, if Lillian can do that, I'm sure she could do so much more. Just think of the possibilities," he mused.

"Yeah, she could have so many other talents," I added.

"I wonder if she can hear thoughts," Edward wondered out loud.

"Guys, we are talking about a little girl that is not even a day old yet," Rosalie objected.

"NONE of you are doing experiments on my daughter!" Emmett said protectively.

"WOAH Emmett, I never said we would do experiments on your daughter! Remember, she is my niece," I reminded him.

"My granddaughter," Esme spoke and Carlisle agreed with a nod of his head.

"My niece as well," Alice piped in with Jasper saying a 'mine too'.

"Emmett, we would never do that period," Edward said.

"I know. I'm just a little over protective of her. Edward, I bet if you had a kid you would be way more protective than me!" My dead heart broke. We would never be able to have children. Emmett noticed my reaction. "Bells, I didn't mean…" I didn't bother to catch the rest as I ran from the house. I knew it was childish of me, but I just had to get away. With the new baby in the house and Emmett reminding me I would never be a mother really hurt. I remembered being human and thinking I would be happy with just one. One I could spoil, teach life lessons to, show how to play piano, watch them grow up into adults… But I would never be able to experience that feeling of self accomplishment one would get being a good mother. I wanted to be just like Esme. A strong woman who was sweet and kind who knew what to say and what to do with every situation.

I stopped when I reached mine and Edward's meadow. I heard someone following and knew it would be Edward. I sat down in the middle of the small clearing, mindlessly pulling at the grass. Someone approached and sat beside me remaining silent. I didn't turn to see who it was.

"Bella," the voice surprised me. Alice. "I know Bella, I know," was all she said before we were in each other's arms sobbing loudly.

"Alice," I spoke as I our sobs quieted. I pulled back to look at her. "Do you want kids?"

"Of course Bella, I have always wanted children. But it's not possible for us. We can never have children. I guess we just have to deal with spoiling Lillian," we both laughed. Alice's eyes glazed over and I knew she was having a vision. She pulled out of it before I could get a good glimpse of the vision.

"What is it?" I asked.

"Oh you will see in a minute," Alice smiled wickedly. That's when I heard footsteps. I cocked an eyebrow at Alice who just looked innocent. I looked as someone entered the meadow.

"Alice, do you mind if I talk to my fiancé alone?" I smiled brightly up into his crimson eyes. They were starting to lighten though. It had been a month since his change.

"Sure, just don't keep her too long," Alice winked at me and then left.

Edward sat beside me and pulled me onto his lap. I melted into his embrace. Edward rested his chin on my shoulder.

"Bella, you know you can talk to me right?" He asked.

Yes, I pushed my shield around him so we could talk privately.

Bella, what's wrong?

Alice and I already discussed the issue.

What happened in there?

Emmett's comment had upset me, that is all. Edward, I will never have children. I told him, turning around in his lap to face him.

Why not? He asked with a raised eyebrow.

Vamp... Female vampires cannot have children. See, when you become a vampire, your body freezes in time. This also means that my body wouldn't be able to change for a baby to grow inside of me. I'm really sorry Edward that I will never be able to bare your child.

Bella, as long as I have you, I am happy. Yes, it would be wonderful to have a little girl who looks just like you that I could take care of and love. But I'm more than just content with you, love.

Are you sure?

Of course, love.

I smiled and kissed him. "We should be getting back to the others," I mentioned.

"Yes, we should," Edward agreed. He grabbed me and threw me on his back. I grabbed his shoulders as he ran back to the house.

"EMMETT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" A loud voice echoed as we neared the house. I gave Edward a curious look, but he just cocked his head to the side. I heard a loud crash inside. What did that boy do now?

A/N Sorry that this is a super short chapter, but I have a game to get ready for. I know that I just started to update again, but I promise I will update this story Friday, hopefully before I go to the movies. So, anyone watch American Idol? Well, if you do, remember to VOTE FOR KRIS ALLEN! My fellow Arkansan buddy! Did you know he used to sub at the Junior High School in my city that I don't go to? Yeah, that's right! I met him the other day when he came back for the parade and stuff! I saw on American Idol the girls across the street from where I stood. I laughed my ass off at that. Anyways, I had a sign that said ***** 4 Kris (not going to say my city's name) and he saw it and gave me a thumbs up and winked!!! I thought I was about to go into hysterics! He is SO HOT! I have Heartless, and a few others, on my iPod. Kris has an AMAZING voice! Anyways, REMEMBER TO VOTE FOR KRIS! I have a game, so I can't watch it till late late tonight. Remember to vote, please, please, please, please, PLEASE, PRETTY PLEASE WITH A CULLEN BOY ON TOP? Or girl/wolf if you swing that way. Not that I discriminate.

Sorry for the super long author note… I'm going now… Review?

LYRICS GAME: Congrats to Tj09 and edwardsince1901 for guessing I'll Run by The Cab.

This Chapter's lyric excerpt:

I am no gentleman, I can be a prick.

And I do regret more than I admit.

You have been followed back to the same place I sat with you drink for drink.

Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist.