Sometimes I feel as though I cannot reach him, my Kyouya. He's there, right in front of me, but there's a thick layer of mask and I can't grasp the heart that he gave to me. Does he truly know how I feel? How much I care for him and love him and that my heart is already lodged deep inside of his pocket? Will he let me touch him? Love him? Will he?
A bit stereotypical for this couple, but it's all that I could think of when I saw this word. Kyouya is such a layered individual that sometimes, as seen in the anime, it appears impossible to get through to him. And I've always imagined that at the end of Host Club (the series) he would become even more so without Haruhi to call his own. He has certainly gained more confidence in himself--something that without the inner workings of the show we wouldn't eve know he had a lack of--but the sting of defeat, and the fact that he's an Ohtori, rather makes his reaction predictable, I think.
In any case, I'm glad that I paired him with someone after all, because writing gloomy Kyouya is no fun. It's already bad enough writing about regular Kyouya XD