Bella's POV

I was walking to the parking lot of school to meet my mom when I heard my name being called. I spun around on my heel carefully; making sure no one was around that I could knock over, only to see Ethan running towards me, flailing his hands. I laughed out loud - he looked ridiculous.

"Hey," he started. "I was wondering… You wanna come to a party with me tonight?" He asked like he already knew I'd say yes. I thought about it for a second. Should I go out with him? Even after what I've heard? I stared into his lightning blue eyes and had my answer.

"Yeah!" I screeched with my newfound confidence. As I started walking away I heard him say,

"Pick you up at eight, Izzy!" Izzy? I guess that works, I thought as I walked towards my mom's car. I saw her scowling at me as I looked through the tinted windows of the car.

"Why is she - crap! I forgot the sweater!" I muttered to myself as I realised. Hesitantly, I walked to the car. As I hopped in, Renee started screaming.

"What the hell, Bella?"

"I-s-a-b-e-l-l-a!" I sounded out for the second time since I'd moved to Jacksonville.

"You are my daughter and I will call you Bella!"

"I'm my own person and you don't control me. My name is Isabella. Bella is not on my birth certificate, so, with all due respect, my name is Isabella!" I screamed at her. By now we were in our driveway, so I jumped out of the car and slammed the door extra hard.

"Go to your room for the night and stay there!" she screamed as I walked in the house. I instantly ran to my room and threw myself on the bed. Tears threatened to escape my eyes. No one cared enough to realize what I was going through. My own mother didn't even realize what this was about! If someone could only understand that I had to do this. There was no way around it. This is my life now.

Edward, I need you. Please find me. Please love me. Please want me. I'll do anything! Look what I've become without you! I'm nothing. I'm an ugly uncoordinated slut! This is what you get for leaving me. I thought you said you still loved me! You said that you still loved me - in a way. What about that? Was that a lie, too? Was this all a charade to mess with my feelings? To make me think I could possibly be your singer? Do you do this to a girl in every new place you go to? You know what? It's sad, but I can see you doing that.

My thought took me over while I sobbed. Pull it together, Bella. You have somewhere to be tonight. I tiptoed to my closet to find something to wear to the party, tears still streaming down my face. I knew it was early but I just wanted to feel pretty. I opened the door and moved the clothes from side to side. I decided on a little black dress. I quickly curled my hair and let it cascade down my back. I went back to my collection of shoes and grabbed black flats. Lastly I added make-up to finish off my look.

After finishing getting ready, I watched out the window to make sure Ethan wouldn't knock on the door. As I sat there, I imagined what life would be like if Edward never left. I would still be playing his game. He would still hold my heart in his hands and eventually he would crush it. I just wish it wasn't like this… I was pulled out of my thoughts by a car pulling up. I couldn't see if it was Ethan so I ran to the door being as quiet as possible to catch him before he could knock. I put my finger to my mouth signalling to be quiet. Ethan looked hot! I roamed his body with my eyes.

I looked past him to see a hot, sleek black sports car. It was sexy! I'm not good with cars but it looked exotic! I was about to run past him just to admire it when I heard my mom coming out of the kitchen so I grabbed his arm and literally jumped out the door being careful not to slam it.

"What was that about?" He laughed.

"My mom thinks I'm sleeping," I giggled. Wow, I've been giggling a lot lately.

"Oh, going against mommy's rules?" He joked. "Hot."

"Yeah, umm… thanks," I continued to laugh with him as we walked to the car. Just as we reached the car my foot slipped and I fell into his chest. I felt the blood rush to my cheeks as I raised my head and looked into his penetrating eyes.

"Sorry," I mumbled. I tried to pull away from him but he held me to his chest. "What are you-" Before I could finish he brought his lips to mine. On instinct, I closed my eyes. Without permission, he jammed his tongue down my throat. Since I was a new person I thought maybe I could be the dominant one. I stuck my tongue into his mouth and we fought for dominance.

As we pulled away, I heard screaming coming from the porch. I glanced over seeing my mom looking furious. She was running towards us with her face twisted with rage. I pushed Ethan around the car and told him to get in. I hurriedly hopped into the car as he revved the engine. Before I could close my door, the car was in drive and we skidded out of the drive way. I slammed my door shut as we drove. I looked back to see my mom taking extremely deep breaths and Phil running towards her. He must've heard her screams. I laughed out loud as did Ethan. After our laughing fit it was silent. I thought about what I had just done. That was going to kill Renée. She's going to ground me for forever. I sighed, oh well. Oh my gosh! I just realized - she saw me making out with Ethan! She must be pissed! I'm dead.

"I hope you know I'm dead now," I blurted out. I bit my lip. He laughed.

"She looked like she wanted to strangle me!"

"Yeah, I know." Silence filled the car. It wasn't a comfortable silence. It was very timid, cautious.

"So, why did you move to Jacksonville?" he asked, trying to start a conversation.

"Well, long story short, I was depressed, my dad couldn't handle me so he sent me to live with my mom," I explained, hoping he wouldn't ask me why I was depressed. Of course, I was denied that hope.

"Why were you so depressed in the first place?" He asked truly curious. I sighed.

"Umm… I was going out with this guy and… it's a long story and you would think I'm crazy so let's just drop the subject," I stated nervously.

"Come on, I got time and I could never think you're crazy," He confidently begged me. I refused.

"Don't push it!"

"Alright, alright, just promise you'll tell me later, 'kay?" Promises… by definition it means a declaration that something will or will not be done. But, it's the opposite - always. Promises are meant to be broken. I used to believe that they meant something. I was so naive. Promises were being broken in front of my face and I didn't even notice. I just don't do promises.

"I don't do promises," I told the truth.

"Why?" Ugh! Does this guy never give up?

"Part of the story, I'll tell you later I… swear ," I guess that could work.

"We're here," he said as we pulled into a long driveway. I noticed that it was just as big as the Cullen's house in Forks. There was no glass, though, which was good. I'm too clumsy for glass. As we walked in, I noticed the crowd of people. There were hundreds of people stuffed into the house. Almost everyone was dancing.

"Did I mention you look beautiful?" He whispered in my ear as we stepped through the door. Memories… Why must he bring back forgotten memories - or almost forgotten memories at least. He said those exact same words to me countless times. I felt tears swell up behind my burning eyes. I rubbed them with the back of my hand trying to clear the memories.

I was pulled away from my thoughts by Ethan throwing me a beer. I weighed my options - should I drink this foul liquid? Do I want to get back at him that bad? Yes, I do. He would most definitely disapprove of any alcoholic substance.

I popped open my mouth and chugged down the beer, not noticing everyone around me yelling.

"Chug, chug, chug, chug!" The noise surrounded me as I swallowed.

After the beer was gone I walked over to Ethan. He put his arm around my waist and pulled me to the dance floor. The beer was starting to take affect as I grinded Ethan. My vision blurred but it wasn't as I expected. Everyone's face looked like Edward's. All I could see was Edward! I could feel my world spinning as I hit the ground hard. My spinning world was now black.