Chapter 3

...Unwanted Heart...

To dream of nothing but sweet things that make you happy and dreams that make you laugh these are the dreams that I wanted more then anything. no more of the dark unyealding dreams that i've been having, but the darkness is all i got when i fell asleep. but this darknes was different this was more of a gray.
Dreams,dreams everywhere and never any for me.

The sunlight was shining brightly through the window when it woke me, sitting up and streaching i looked at the wall clock. "Oh.. My god its noon" when i seen that i jumped up and ran to the bathroom and took a shower. after my shower it was time for a quick meal. with food in my stomach i was ready to start my day (well half day anyway).
I made a call to a local storage place and also local movers.
So with that done i had some time on my hands so I decided to to get some boxes to pack all stuff away, I grabbed my purse and left the house i was off to buy as many boxes as i could find.
Two hours latter i retruned home with so many boxes i couldn't carry them all these boxes were here to pack away my life, was i ready for this? did i really want this?, yes.
I shook my head and started to pack my life away, by the time i got done the movers had not showed up so all i could do was wait, just as i was tapeing up the last box the door bell rang of course it had to be the movers.
But when i opened the door i got the suprise of my life.
"Oh... my god what the hell was HE doing here!" i thought when i saw my Ex-Boyfriend Ian and behind him the movers, i motioned for them to come in after i got them started on their job i turned to look at Ian.
"Ian what do you want you pain in the ass?"
"Nothing Much i just thought i'd come by and see how your doing?"
"And when have you ever been worried about me or how i feel?"
"well Ty i do"
"I really hate when you call me that"
he smiled at "you used to like when i called you that"
"NO! i didn't you just thought i did... well now that you seen me, you can leave now" i was hopeing that my tone of voice was giving him the hint, but it didn't he walked into the livingroom.
"Why are you moving? I hope its not because of me" I frowned at him "Oh.. Please"
"well i did break your heart" i couldn't believe what he was saying, if i hadn't packed everything away i swear i would have chucked somehing right at his head. so i just pushed all my anger down.
"Excuse me miss we're done here" i turned to look at the man who spoke, i smiled and handed him a pice of paper with the address of the storage place on it. i also handed him some money and thanked him for a good job he smiled and left, now all i had to do was get rid of Ian good luck huh...
we stood in the empty livingroom looking at each other after awhole i got tired of hi face so i went into the bedroom, i gave a mental sigh because the only thing in the room was a bed and TV. so the only thing i could do was lay down on the bed and watch TV.
Ian came and stood in the doorway he had a smile on this face that was creepy.
"you want to have sex?"
this was the last straw i slowly got up and walked over to him i balled up my fist and let it fly right into his nose, boy did doing that hurt like hell my hand was throbing "GET THE HELL OUT YOU FUCKEN ASSHOLE!"
you bet he left after that him and his bloody nose, i hoped it hurt as much as when he told me that he was sick of me always needing someone to cry on, at the time when Ian told me this i had just found out that Lee had died.
i felt good really good so i went and layed back down i knew it was early but i fell asleep anyway. sometime later i slowly started to wake up i looked at the wall clock it was midnight, for some reason i did feel alone in the room so i looked around that was when i noticed someone sitting at the food of my bed Cassiel sat there looking at me.
"Is there anything i can do for you Cassiel?" i scooted to the edge of the bed
"As a matter of face there is something you can do for me"
"And what would that be?"
"I want you to leave Hunter, If you leave now he will just think you didnt want to be with him"
"Sorry Cassiel i can't do that" i stood up and started to push my hand through my hair it was a mess but stopped when he spoke again.
"You know Tyran I don't think Hunter needs another human" cassiel had stood up and walked to the window. "Right now he need to think about the family"
"what do you mean?"
he turned and looked at me "Nothing I'll let him tell you"
i shruged my shoulders "Fine goodbye Cassiel" i started towords the bathroom

All of a sudden he was in front of me he reached out and grabed me by the throat and started to squeez.
here was another chance for me to end my miserable life again, i smiled and looked him straight in the eyes. "What are you waiting for?" I kept the smile on my face "End my life.. you know this is the only way to keep me away from Hunter so do it" with this said he squeezed harder I tried to take a breath but it didn't work, this was the person who would take my life and not think twice about it, i felt something snap or giveway, i know cassiel felt it to he let go and i fell to my knees, i thought it was funny that he had let me go i looked up at him.
"why arn't you afraid?" he asked
I chuckled "Well when Hunter found me I was already looking for death" my voice was raspy and it hurt to talk, he shook his head then was gone, I put a hand to my neck and felt it i knew in the morning i was going to have bruising. after my brush with Cassiel I felt that I should wait up for Hunter, but that didn't work i fell asleep in no time.

Dream still none just gray,gray, gray and more gray, why can't I dream like when I was younger. Now I only see gray why?

The next morning my throat was brused just like i thougth it would be, my voice was raspy very raspy the bruse looked like a hand oh well there was nothing i could do about it. after my shower and my tea i made a call to make sure my stuff made it to the storage place.
the stuff made it of course with that done I had nothing else to do, so I went to the bedroom I sat down on the bed and looked out the window. "Why didn't Hunter show up last night? I'm sure I'll see him tonight". As I sat there looking watching the world go by I thought how could they live each and everyday in this sadness, us humans were odd creatures.
Just then my eyes shot wide open at the sight before me."Oh... shit not him again" i mumbled as I saw Ian crossing the street heading towords my appartment building, I jumped up where could I escape to, "The Roof" yeah from there he wouldn't be able to see me, and i would be able to see when he left.
i grabbed a bottle of water and a magizane and headed to the roof, once there i looked over the ledge i could see Ian he as talking into the intercom and i could faintly hear him "well ty i guess your not here i'll stop by later" I rolled my eyes and sat down and started to read my magazine.
I pulled the folding chair next to the door and sat there for about an half hour magazine next to my feet, when the magazine didn't keep my attion for long I sat there enjoying the sunlight on my face.
It was getting late so i headed back to my appartment once there I grabbed my purse, I needed to get out for awhile at least so i jumped on a bus heading for downtown.

Walking down the main drag (hehehe!) I window shopped it brought back sweet memories of my brother and sister.
as I looked around I started to think about Hunter and what he had in mind for me, "STOP!" I couldn't think about this stuff right now I shook my head and looked into the window I was standing in front of. this was one of the store's that Lee, Kat and I would always come and take a look at, we didn't have a lot of money so when we were feeling down we would come here and point out all the things we would get someday, i smiled and felt the the loss of my only family.

As I sat looking out the window of the nearest fast food place (witch happen to be Mickey-D's) I got an idea I was going to put Hunter to the test to see if he coulld find me no matter where I was, i smiled yes! this was a good idea, so after I ate my chicken nuggest I got a hotel room after checking in the room I thought about going to he store to get some stuff (I wasn't about to go home Ian might be there). So after buying a toothbrush, toothpast and a set of new clothes i returned to the hotelroom, I was so tired i flopped on the bed and fell asleep

Once again no dreams but what is this the gray has turned into gray mist,with a dark shadow behind it.

I woke up to a very dark room I rolled over to switch on the bedside lamp, all of a sudden i bumped into something hard and very solid.
I gave a little squeek and tried to get off the bed just then I heard Hunter's deep laugh.
"Its just me.. when I got here you were asleep and looked so peaceful that I didn't want to wake you" He pulled me closer to him I layed my head on his chest.
"So why are you not at home?"
I pulled away from him and crawled around him and sat on the edge of the bed then flicked on the light. I felt him sit up next to me I really didn't want him to see what cassiel did to me, yes at the time I wanted Cassiel to kill me but now that Hunter was here i didn't want him to see the damage Cassiel did.
When he didn't move i glanced over at him he was sitting with his head in his hands
"Are you mad at me for not coming to you last night?" he reached out and touched my leg
"I should have called you but i was busy getting my rooms ready for us"
I couldn't take it anymore i reached out and ran my hand along the top of his head and waited for him to look at me.
"I'm not mad at you Hunter" my voice was raspy and a little broken
"what happend? who did this to you?"
"Hunter please don't get mad" i lowered my head
"I'm not going to get mad so please tell me who did this to you?" I told him of Cassiel's little visit.
"I'm sorry he did this to you" he reached out and touched my neck "did anything else happen while i was gone"
I scooted to the top of the bed and rested my back aginst the headboard once there i pull up my knees and rested my head on them.
"My Ex showed up asking for sex.. so i punched him" Hunter started to laugh it made me feel a little better, "And i just wanted to see if you could find me" i looked away and blushed a little and looked away from him.