K Amber Memories, Forgotten

-So Unreachable for Me-

A/N: I think I'll need to rate this chapter M for its second section. As for the third section, I hope that readers would be able to visualize what I'm writing, hope it's saccharine enough. Yep and updates would be less freq now because I've just started school. Thanks (:

You never realized, did you, how much I missed you when I was away for all these so-called missions. I guessed the fact that you lot never questioned me was due to your immense faith in me;

The fact that you trusted me even though all this was just a round of deceptions.

Like poker, you never know what the others have in mind.

Yet you seemed to be all that I have in my mind, Aki.

It scared me so much to lose you.

The sound of firearms sounded so bright and clear in her ears that she always lost her sanity at that moment. The recoil of it had been strong enough to cause her to stumble back a few feet if he had not been there to catch her in his arms. She smiled weakly back at him and got back to the rifle. She was no to give up, never was to give up.

Aki sat straight immediately, sweat breaking as she panted hard and long. It scared her, these recurring dreams, because it had always been so violent and confusing. Dreams were meant to represent something, but what? The young lady sighed softly and climbed out of her bed. As usual, Ezzz the deep sleeper was still soundly asleep in the bed opposite hers. It was at times like this when she envied the young boy to be able to enjoy such slumber. This room, the third so far, had been the stuffiest with its lack of ventilation, thought Aki, as she glanced out of the small window.

He's there again, thought Aki, as she opened the door to find the same small light lit up in the corner. She often wondered what he was doing but did not really want to ask. Trust, they said, was the reason why one never doubts the other's action. Yet this time, she was eager to see what her brother was doing. Creeping like a mouse, she walked slowly towards the bespeculated man whose back was facing her.

"It's been a long time since we took a walk," said Tyki nonchalantly as he turned around to arrest her in action in her attempt to peek at him, he tucked his work away. "Shall we?"

Aki felt color running towards her cheek and nodded. It had been quite some time, she admitted, ever since that night when they saw the last falling leaf of autumn. Shaking her head to dislodge the thought, Aki then nodded her head and followed Tyki who was already by the door, waiting for her.

I missed you too much.

"Hey Brother," whispered Aki as she looked up into the dark night sky which was embroidered with speckles of brilliant shiny stars. The two of them were sitting on the moist grass in the middle of an open field that was surrounded by trees that embraced each other with their branches. "Do you know that it had been said that each one of us is represented by our own individual stars in the sky? And that if anyone dies, a star will fall?"

Aki was silent as she waited for an answer from the man who was sitting next to her. He had been smoking his cancer stick quietly ever since they came out, as if his thoughts had engrossed him so much that he was oblivion to his surroundings. Slightly annoyed, the young lady turned her head abruptly to face him. Yet she almost jumped in shock when her eyes met his directly, as they were no longer hiding behind the shield of his glasses. Those apricot eyes… it made her glance away at once upon sight.

"Aki," whispered Tyki gently, playing with the name a little to savor sweetness, as he placed a finger on the latter's chin to lift her head up. He made sure that her eyes were gazing right back to his and immersing in its blackness, he planted a kiss on her forehead, before lingering down to her nose and then her lips. It felt soft, as he applied pressure and parted her lips, tasting her gradually. It felt strange how their lips would just fit each other warmly. She could taste his cigarette so strongly.

Her hands could feel the strong muscles and bones at his waist as he climbed over her and gently pushed her onto the ground. Blushing as he moved down the curve of her neck, she moved her hands gently up to his back and neck and inhaled the light cigarette smell that still lingered in his shirt. Her skin tingled wherever he touched, she realized. Aki could hear her name enunciated slowly through his lips as he probed further down, kissing as his arms brushed against the small of her back. His fingers moved through her hair which seemed to reflect the thousands of starts in the sky, feeling it caress his fingers.

Tyki could feel her trembling under him as he slowly pried open her clothes, unrevealing her like a flower. His lips trailed down her soft navel, his fingers moving down her sides. He stopped a little down her navel button when he saw the faint scars still on her. He sucked gently at the wound, biting and plucking tenderly it with his lips before shifting back to face her again, kissing her face gently as if it would sealed her with him forever. A sudden surge of anger had overwhelmed him when he touched those lines, and it took much needed effort to kick it to the back of his head. He allowed his fingers to caress gently under her, smiling a little when he knew that she had flushed a deeper red.

Under the soft moonlight, he enjoyed the way her arms were awkwardly around him, moving too, as he removed his own clothes. The young man muttered her name once again as he brushed her fringe away from her forehead, and gently caress her eyelids with his lips. Kissing, he was about to probe inside her when he realized that one of her hand was on his back while the other was grabbing onto the soil next to her. I don't want to hurt you, he frowned and was about to back away when her lips met his full too and pulled him closer down to her, muffling her pain into his throat.

I'd promise not to hurt you… anymore.

"Hey Brother," whispered Aki as she placed her head on his shoulder, before hesitating a little as the term no longer fit as well now. Yet to call his name, it sounded weird in her throat, really. She ignored it and removed herself off him, lifting his arms that had been wrapped around her and ignoring his reluctance to allow her so. The grass felt cool as she lied on it once again. Admiring the sky, she stared at a particular star before pointing a slender finger at it.

"If I die, would you'd follow?" she asked in a whisper, her finger now sliding along an imaginary straight line across, as if wishing the star would fall.

Tyki furrowed his brows a little at the question. The man had been lying on his back, watching the moon rock back and forth on a hammock of stars. One hand was tossed up over his head while the other anchored Aki against his chest- until Aki plucked herself from him. He was silent and thinking before shaking his head as if to dislodge something off.

Had death been such a common topic for him that it seemed strange for people around him to mention it?

"Yes," he replied back in a determined tone, his finger pointing at the closest star to the one that Aki had targeted. He closed his eyes and allowed the finger to follow the trail she had made so that it ended up with Aki's star, as if he could see the line better this way. He opened his eyes when he felt his finger colliding with something. "Aki?" he said in a questioning tone regarding her finger which had stopped his midway.

"Don't," she replied firmly, yet so soft that it was almost inaudible. "Don't."

Tyki turned around to face the latter, a concerned expression hanged on his feature. "Hmm?"

Ignoring him, Aki pushed the latter's finger back to its original position with the tip of her finger. "Don't follow me, Tyki. Promise me that you'll continue living on no matter what happens."

"Aki… "

Lips in a straight and determined line, the young lady climbed over Tyki, her wrist supporting her weight. With her nose was barely away from his and her lean body blocking out part of the star-studded sky, Aki stared straight into the man's eyes, making him admire how beautiful they reflected his image as interpreted by her.

"Promise me, Tyki."

Those four letters sounded so sweet from her tongue, he thought, as he held her gaze. But how was he supposed to promise such a thing-?

"Promise me, Tyki."

Sighing, the young man allowed his hand to press his fingers along the side of her face. Was it her first time calling his name? It sounded so saccharine yet coarse against her delicate mouth. He felt a tight feeling in his chest when words spilled out from his mouth reluctantly. "I promise you, Aki."

"Thank you," said Aki with a sigh as she bent over him and planted a chaste kiss in between his eyebrows, both closing their eyes at the same instant.

"That I'll be there to catch you whenever you fall."