The wind blew through my hair as I sped across the forest; a loud scream echoing off the silent trees breaking the peace, scaring a flock of birds from their hiding place in the canvas.
"What is wrong with me" I screamed stopping suddenly punching a hole into a nearby tree. I stopped screaming and looked towards the destruction I created with my own two hands. "I really am a monster…" I whispered before I sank to the earth and sat in the fetal position.
"So you finally realized what I tried telling Bella hey?" a deep voice rang through the clearing causing me to stand up in a defensive position and hiss warningly. "All leaches are monsters."
Jacob moved out from the tree line and held his hands out as a sign of peace. I stopped hissing but never went out of my position just in case he decided to do anything. He stopped walking a couple steps in and smiled snidely making a small noise in the back of his throat when the wind blew moving my hair slightly.
"You stink." He chuckled wrinkling his nose a little. "I guess your little pixie friend didn't listen." He rubbed his chin, humor rolling through his eyes. I didn't like where this was going. "I guess another… demonstration is in order? Kathy, why don't you come here for a moment?" He called out behind his shoulder.
His smile widened as my back rose in defense. A new smell was traveling the air now, a sweeter sent, one that made my venom pool and my hunger flare within my body. It was unlike anything I had ever smelt before. The only scent that could have ever come close its magnificence was this afternoon with Alice scent and the deer's blood mixed together… I paused. Blood… sweet blood, nothing from an animal could compare to a smell like this… I swallowed.
Jacob laughed happily when he saw the realization dawn in my eyes. He had known what this was going to do to me. Being part of the Cullen Clan for a time I had expected to always feed off of animals, the thought that I may not be able to control myself around humans didn't even cross my mind as a small woman walked into the clearing and moved towards Jacob with a scared look in her eyes.
"Jacob… what are we doing here? And do I know you?" she pointed towards me but quickly backed up behind Jacob when she saw the demonic blackness of my eyes. I had stopped breathing but could still hear her sweet blood pulsing through her veins singing for me to come and get it.
I backed up and gripped onto the tree that was behind me. I knew it wouldn't do any good but it somewhat helped, pretending to be grounded with something keeping you back.
Jacob snorted. "What's the matter leach, are you uncomfortable?"
He laughed wickedly watching me struggle with my intense hunger. The monster in me wanted nothing than to move towards the girl and dig my teeth into her soft neck milking the blood out of her jugular as the life slowly leaked from her into my awaiting mouth, but I knew that I couldn't; I wouldn't. I refused to kill her no matter what she did to me in my past life. I refused to let her blood taint my morals making me into a killer. I would not become like Jacob Black.
I snarled loudly in pain and gripped the tree harder causing the wood to snap underneath my fingers. The woman gasped loudly and began moving backwards but Jacob grabbed her arm roughly and pulled her in front of him pulling a small jackknife out of his torn jean pocket.
I gulped in fear of what was next to come as Jacob stretched the woman's arm and slashed her hard. She screamed in pain as the wound opened and blood poured out onto the grassy ground beneath her. Releasing her he pushed her hard towards me making her fall stretching the cut again as another bout of blood speckled the earth in front of me.
I paused. It was all too much. The lightening red color of the fresh blood seeping from her arm, the quick heart rate displaying her obvious distress and fear; I released a low whine and then moaned quietly when I breathed in, the scent! Oh god. The scent…
I slowly released the tree I was gripping and fell to my knees. I tried clearing my head by taking deep breaths but the blood overwhelmed my senses and I began seeing red. I started unconsciously moving towards the woman who was now lying dazed on the grassy earth watching me with half closed eyes as I approached her. I looked up at Jacob when I reached her and saw the wicked smile across his face.
I looked back at the girl realized how much her innocent face reminded me of Alice... Alice. My hunger faded slightly as the thoughts of Alice never being on this planet raked through my mind causing a bout of determination to flow through my veins.
Looking back at the task at hand I quickly stopped breathing and took my shirt into my hands. I tore a long strip off the bottom of my shirt and gently grabbed the woman's arm and began wrapping her wound with the cloth from my t-shirt.
Jacob cursed loudly when I stood up quickly and took off my belt creating a tourniquet on her arm to hopefully stop the bleeding until Carlisle could look at her.
Once she was dealt with I quickly moved across the clearing upwind and began inhaling large gulps of blood free air to clear the angry haze begging me to go and drink that woman dry.
A loud ripping noise sounded behind me as I was tackled from behind by a now wolf-formed Jacob. His teeth cut into my back and I screamed out in pain before throwing him off me. The pain was so much greater now that I was a vampire. It was like I never even knew pain until this moment.
Jacob stood up on all fours and glared at me, drool dripping from his jaws as we circled around snarling loudly at one another. Jacob pounced throwing his claws towards me and managed to claw my stomach where three fresh lines of venom seeped through my torn shirt. I hissed once again in pain but quickly retaliated by gripping his paw and throwing him into a large tree. The tree cracked under the blow but Jacob quickly sprung back up knocking me off my feet onto my back and stopped, snarling inches from my face he coughed dryly in a doggish laugh before he began tearing into my shoulder slowly reveling in my screams of agony.
He stopped once my shoulder was almost unrecognizable and lifted one of his paws to my head digging his claws in and pushing it up until my neck was in full view of his powerful jaws. I breathed in deeply before I muttered my final words
"I love you Alice."