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Chapter Five

Fear and Symptoms

The knowledge of eventually getting pregnant made my human days much easier. I was adjusting again to my human nature and I knew I shouldn't moan, being human is what I wanted during my vampire existence, but sometimes I was tired of feeling pain and the damn human weakness of need for sleep and food. Still, I found myself with a huge smile on my face at the memory of Alice's words about seeing my child. I knew the future could change but I was also positive of having this child soon.

My body was finally stronger and both Emmett and I could actually enjoy our human days without everyone being worried about us collapsing somewhere. Emmett was much better than me on strength, he was a muscular man, and I would feel sick again for a couple of days but I couldn't complain I did not need to stay in bed all day long.

I was more than happy every day I was waking up to Emmett's heartbeat beneath my ear and his warm hands caressing my skin at nights. The family was also adjusting fully on the new facts. Jasper was still avoiding Emmett and me a little. Alice gave us apologetic smiles and waves, as she was as close as possible to her husband. I was trying not to think of the possibilities of Jasper attacking me or Emmett or even the possibilities of Jasper or even Emmett losing control later on and biting our child. I knew he was getting very good at controlling himself to human blood and I knew he would never lay a finger to harm our fruit of love. But sometimes I let myself worry over all those things.

What would happen with my child later on was something I didn't want to think of. I knew that if I didn't change her or him into a vampire, the Volturi would take care of us but still, sometimes I wished I wouldn't have the duty of one day turning my angel into the creature I normally am. All those thoughts had started running inside my head more intense than before. I wouldn't back on what I and Emmett wanted to do but I was worried what our child would think later on.

Emmett and Edward had gone to Seattle with Bella as to buy some gifts for Rennesme as the girl's birthday was approaching. I had took the opportunity to distract my niece we wanted the gifts to be a surprise for her, next time, Alice, Carlisle and Esme with me would head for the girl's gifts and the rest would distract her. Nessie and I were sitting in my bedroom, Nessie sat on the edge of my bed and I was behind her, brushing her hair carefully. I loved doing that as I could picture myself doing it to my own child. It was still morning and I was a bit cranky every since I woke up but thought of the adjusting days weren't over yet. There was a knock on the door and Nessie answered it, I smiled at the back of the girl and just looked at the door's direction to see my mother entering the room, Esme smiled warmly at us and sat close to us on the other edge of the bed and leaned over the mattress as to be close.

'What are my favorite girls are doing?' Esme asked and Nessie smiled and looked at me and then at Esme.

'We're making my hair grandma.' Nessie answered honestly and I just smiled and nodded my head, an action I regretted as I felt my head spinning a little. I took a breath and went on with the brushing.

'Jacob is downstairs,' she said as she sniffed the air and Nessie shot up on her feet, kissed me on the cheek and thanked me as she ran out of the room, closing the door behind her. Esme was still smiling but I had frowned, I hated when she was leaving me to go and see that…man. I also hated the fact that I couldn't smell him anymore and had to be informed of his arrivals, before, his smell was the trademark of his coming and I was always ready to either see him or avoid him, we may had built some bridges ever since Nessie's birth but that didn't mean I had to get to like him.

'Maybe we should take a true pet for Nessie.' I commented and Esme just smiled at me as she knew I didn't mean it, well not one hundred present after all.

'How are you, Rose?' Esme asked and her smile was gone as she was examining me with her eyes. I knew I looked tired and that was partly because of my worry, my lovemaking nights with Emmett and the feeling of being sick for the last days. I looked at myself in the mirror and I sighed as I knew my human beauty was not as strong as my vampire one.

'I'm fine, just a bit tired and worried.' I replied after awhile and Esme nodded, stood up, moved around the bed and took the hairbrush from my hands, she sat behind me and started brushing my own hair, as she used to do when the family had only her, Carlisle, Edward and me as members of it.

'If you want to talk to me, you know I'm here for you.' Esme said from behind me and I sighed as I knew I had to eventually speak for my problems. Alice was usually out of the house with Jasper, Bella wasn't the actual person I wanted to talk to and Esme was the mother I always needed, I knew that if my biological mother was like Esme, I would be a much different person and maybe, I wouldn't have end up dying in a street. I sighed and without even realizing it, I started spilling out all the worry that had storage inside me.

'I don't want to be worried because I know that when there is stress, the pregnancy isn't easy to happen and I know I shouldn't be that tired as Emmett is finally better but for at least a few weeks I feel weak and tired even when I had a few days being fine.' I started and went on without waiting for Esme to speak, she remained silent just working the hairbrush on my long hair so I went on with my babbling. 'I'm worried for Jasper because he promised he would be ok but he and Alice are isolated from the family as not to hurt me or Emmett I may want my child like nothing in the world but I didn't want to force two members of the family, my "twin" and my best friend and sister away and now this is an extra reason for me to worry about.

'Emmett is so happy on the prospective of getting pregnant ever since Alice saw the baby in her vision but sometimes the possibilities of the child hating us because we'll have to turn it later on is killing me. The thought of the Volturi trying to kill my child if we decide not to have the child turned is even more excruciating and sometimes I feel so guilty for the monster I had been to Bella. I know she has no bad feelings for me since I have been so good with Nessie but still, sometimes I think this is a karma thing with her having to help me now.

'And even if this is what I wanted most in my life, being human isn't that easy after all, I haven't get used to it, the pain, even the light one, the weakness, the biological needs. I mean, as a vampire, I was stronger, more beautiful without a glimpse of tiredness in me and my only need was to hunt for blood.' I finally stopped and took a big breath to calm myself down. Esme hadn't talked yet and I turned my head slightly to see her smiling at me. She went on brushing my hair as she spoke.

'That was a lot going on inside your head, sweetheart.' She started and I nodded my head as I felt her cold hand caressing my hair along with the hairbrush. 'First of all, Bella indeed has nothing against you and you have already apologized for your behavior towards her in the past. All of that was forgotten and forgiven ever since you became a great aunt for Rennesme.' Esme went on and I nodded my head again, feeling relieved that someone else was telling me that what I was doing was the right thing.

'As for Jasper and Alice… we knew it'd be hard in the progress, and it will be even harder when a little child full of sweet, fresh blood will be around. But that's why we're also here. That's why our family is so strong and happy, because we love each other. Rose, we're not just a large coven, we're a family, a bounded family. We'll protect each other when the time comes, you'll be a vampire as well when the child will be here and I'm sure you'll be fine, just like Emmett will be, and you know why? Because you will love your little one, like we do know with each other, with you and Em, in your current status.' Esme said and I smiled at the thought of our family with a member more in it, Esme was right.

'About the Volturi. If this plan goes smoothly your child will be able to have children like you do now, and if she or he doesn't want to be a vampire, then we'll fight against everyone who may want to lay a finger on the little one. But I want you to remember that such things won't happen for the next twenty years or so…' Esme said and I smiled again as only my mother's words could sooth me so much. I felt Esme's hands on my shoulders, her skin's temperature so much lower than mine, I turned around to look at her smiling face as she stroked my cheek with her fingers. I leaned into her touch as she was the first female person close to me ever since I became a vampire and we had many things in common.

'I've noticed you for the last days, sweetheart.' Esme said and I looked at her. 'And even if it has been decades after it, I still remember how it is to be pregnant on an early stage. I couldn't see the symptoms with Bella as her pregnancy was very different but I think, and please don't get your hopes too high, but I think, from personal experience, that you may be expecting already.' Esme said smiling at me and I stared in shock at her face.

I hadn't dared to hope of getting pregnant so soon. I knew couples needed months and even years to have children and I wasn't sure in what case I would be in, I thought all this feeling of sickness and nausea were some of my adjusting progress to my human nature and not symptoms of anything. But on the other hand, it would be possible as Emmett and I had been turned into humans for more than a month and we were making love almost every night of that month. I was expecting to be pregnant when I would be vomiting or something but Carlisle had already warned me that I'd probably have a tough pregnancy and if vomiting was symptoms of the second and third month why weakness and nausea shouldn't be symptoms of my first month?

'Don't take your hope too high, sweetheart, maybe I'm mistaken or your body is harder to adjust.' Esme repeated as she probably saw the hopes rising in my eyes. I nodded my head quickly, scolding myself for daring to hope as much, knowing I'd be harmed if that was indeed just some more adjustment of my organism. So I decided to take things slowly, first talk with Emmett, then ask Carlisle's help and opinion, and importantly take things slow.

But still I couldn't stop myself from placing my left palm against my flat stomach, maybe my little child was just a few inches inside me. I looked at Esme who was still smiling and I couldn't stop myself from asking what I was wondering ever since Caspar and Amelia had came to our house.

'I know it's none of my business, mom, but why didn't you accept the offer yourself? I saw you shaking your head negatively when we were at the meeting.' I asked quickly, at the same speed Esme's smile was gone from her face. I didn't mean to hurt her, I was just wondering why she didn't want that second chance, she had lost her child, a child made by her and a man who was beating her. I thought she'd want to have a child with Carlisle, the man who adored her like I do with Emmett, I thought she, like me would want a child with our perspective soul mates. Esme looked at me and smiled just a little as she took the hand resting on my stomach and clutched it in her own hand, never hurting me but keeping me comfortingly.

'When I lost my baby boy, I was a human, then I was turned and saved by your father.' Esme started and I nodded my head. I knew how is to be beaten by the one you think you are in love with. I know how is to see death in the eye because that one, little excuse of a man made you crawl. I knew how Esme felt, I knew how grateful she was to Carlisle for saving and loving her. I couldn't even imagine how crushed she was when she lost her child, it's a pain I know I wouldn't be able to stand myself.

'I can't imagine myself loosing another child, Rose. I can't have myself crushed all over again, it took me decades to accept what happened, to let people in, to give the love I never had the chance to give to my biological child to others.' Esme said and I nodded my head again, not being able to speak. Esme was the caring and loving one and Carlisle the reasonable and fair parent, they never showed us the pain or weakness and it had been so long since I had a talk like this with my mother.

'I love you, Emmett, your siblings and Rennesme more than anything, but the thought of a child of my own simply makes me shudder at the thought of something happening again. I know things back when I was pregnant were different than now but still, my children are you and nothing can change that.' Esme said and I just smiled at her, not realizing my eyes were full of tears, I still was not used to the tearful sobs. I hugged my mother tightly and she returned the embrace, not too tight to crush me in her hold as she easily could.

'I love you, mom.' I whispered and felt her nod against my shoulder, we didn't have to speak a lot to each other but she knew I cared and loved her as she did with me.

'I love you too, sweetie.' Esme replied and kissed my hair, I moved a bit away and smiled at her, my biological mother was by my side for eighteen years, Esme was here for more than eighty and she had gave me so much more meaningful love than my actual mother had. 'And of course I will love your little child when it is born.' Esme went on and I chuckled even through my tears and nodded my head as I placed my hand back to my belly.

We heard Edward's Volvo approaching along with another car and I looked at the silver watch around my wrist, it was about time for them and Carlisle to return so both Esme and I stood up and moved downstairs. We found Jacob talking with Rennesme in the living room. I smirked at the werewolf, we may had stopped fighting over everything, especially in front of Rennesme but some snapping was still in order.

'Hello, Blondie.' Jacob said and I smirked.

'Hello, Cadpig,' I responded with my favorite pet name from the TV series of the Dalmatians, watching cartoons with Nessie had been proven a good thing to do. Jacob didn't seem to catch the meaning of the new pet name but he frowned as Nessie did who got it. I didn't take it too far as I heard the door opening and my father, husband and sister entered the house, Edward was probably running up the house from the back door, to hide the gifts as not to have Nessie seeing them. Everyone greeted Jacob much more warmly than I had and Emmett moved close to me and kissed my lips. I responded and felt my heart racing, having the talk with Esme in my mind I pulled away and looked at him.

'We have to talk.' I said calmly and he nodded his head and led me up the stairs to our bedroom. I moved close to the window and sat at the edge of it, Emmett moved close to me and stood between my legs, his hands caressing my face and hair. I smiled up at him and kissed his lips as I guided his head down to mine. After the kiss was ended I spoke softly.

'I think I'm pregnant.' I said and he looked at me deep in my eyes and then his face broke into a huge smile.

'Really? Wow, I'm good.' Em said and I slapped his arm playfully as I chuckled. He sobered again and framed my face with his hands. 'You sure about it, Angel? I don't want us hoping for too much, maybe it needs time to happen.' He said and I smiled and nodded my head, already knowing the possibilities of not being pregnant.

'I know, but I had a talk with Esme, and she thinks I may be pregnant already as I have symptoms similar to hers when she was expecting. I know it's not much evidence but you already feel better and I don't, I did for a few days but ever since, I feel weak. I have a feeling of nausea every day… I thought it was my body adjusting but what if it's not that the case anymore?' I said quickly, trying to show to my husband that I wasn't getting my hopes too high and at the same time trying to hide my desperation to get pregnant.

Emmett smiled and placed his thumb against my lips, stopping my babbling, 'We can go and talk to Carlisle, I'm sure he's the one who can say what's on for sure, because if you're not pregnant, I'm worried for you still being weak.' Emmett said softly and I knew he tried to keep my feet on the ground, indeed, if I wasn't pregnant, something might be wrong with me.

'Can we talk to him now?' I asked eager and Emmett grinned and nodded his head. I stood up from the window and took my husband's hand in mine. I could feel the anxiety and nervousness inside me along with the need and the eagerness to talk to my father about those "so called" symptoms. Both Emmett and I moved down the stairs, we knew Carlisle was in his office like every day after his work in the hospital, arranging a few appointments and making sure his schedule for the day after was correct. Emmett knocked the door of the office and we heard Carlisle inviting us in by our names, probably smelling our blood from afar.

We entered the room and smiled at our father as he did and we sat down in front of his desk where he was sat. He looked at us expectantly and Emmett nodded for me to start as I knew much more about my physical condition, I started explaining what was going on with me for the last days, avoiding telling him my talk with Esme, or our tearful –from my part at least as vampires can't have tears- part of our talk. When I was done Carlisle was still noting the things I had told him in a notebook. When he finished noting he looked at me and spoke.

'Those symptoms could be the ones of a pregnancy on an early stage, but it could also be your body needing to adjust more or even to have a cold, Rosalie.' Carlisle started and I nodded my head, already knowing this. Carlisle opened a drawer of his study and took out a box. He handed it to me and I looked at it with curiosity.

'Take the pregnancy test, it's a good way for you to know if you're pregnant or not without having you out of the house as you feel weak and nauseous. If you're not pregnant, we may start some vitamins so you can feel better, if you are pregnant, well we'll get to that later. The certain thing is, you'll need the vitamins.' Carlisle said and I nodded my head smiling. 'Don't get too sad if you're not expecting, Rosalie. You know it may take some time to happen… I have more tests here for you, if you need more in the future anyway.' Carlisle said and I nodded my head and smiled at Emmett. We stood up, thanked our father and left the office to go back to our bedroom.

We were silent for those small moments till we reached our room, I entered first and Emmett followed me, closing the door behind him. I looked at the box in my hand and took a deep breath; it was time for me to figure things out.

'Can you do it on your own?' Emmett asked and I smiled at him in spite of the stressful situation.

'Pee on a stick? Yeah I think I can handle it.' I said and we both chuckled in nervousness. I moved towards the bathroom and closed the door behind me, opened the box, took the stick and did as the instructions said. When I was done I came out of the bathroom and almost bumped on Emmett who was standing right outside the door. I came out fast as I couldn't stand the truth on my own so we both stood still in front of each other, with the small stick in my fingers, between our bodies and our eyes glued on it. After a minute which seemed like a century to me and portably to Emmett too, the small strip turned pink, an unmistakable pink color, the most beautiful shade of pink I had ever seen.

I could feel the huge smile on my face, I looked at Emmett who seemed puzzled at the change of the test but didn't got the meaning of it as he hadn't read the instructions and he had never get to learn how pregnancy tests work, we were supposed never to use one so why should he know about them? When Emmett saw my huge smile, he knew, and his own face lightened up as a huge smile was plastered on his beautiful features.

'Is that a yes? You are indeed pregnant?' he asked as we both stared at each other and the stick with huge, funny grins on our faces.

'Oh GOD, yes!' I squealed and hugged him tightly, keeping the test tightly in my hand as this little peed stick along with Alice's vision and my hot nights with my soul mate were the factors of having my child inside me. Emmett held me tightly as we started kissing in joy and passion. A part of me still couldn't believe it, a part of me was still worried I would wake up from some odd vampire dream and find myself the same, cold, barren vampire. But no, that was actually happening, luck was finally smiling at me. I felt like jumping up and down and I would if I wasn't in my husband's arms.

'Oh my beautiful love. We're going to have a child.' Emmett said to my ear and I felt my eyes filling with tears of joy as his words weren't in my imagination or my daydreaming; I was truly pregnant with the child of my husband. I was going to be a mom; I was going to fulfill my dream. I moved a bit away from Emmett and he placed his hands on my cheeks, his beautiful eyes boring inside my blue ones.

'We're going to have a baby.' I said out loud and only then something clicked inside me and I allowed myself to fully believe it. I grinned and smiled and laughed again and moved closer to Emmett who leaned and kissed my lips with care and love. 'I love you, Emmett, I love you so much.' I whispered against his lips and he grinned and pecked my lips again as he caressed my face softly.

'I love you even more, Angel, I love you both.' Emmett replied and I just smiled even wider – if that was possible- and kissed him again.

Yay and she's is pregnant at last : ) I know for some couples a child comes in their lives after months or even years but it can happen in a matter of days or even by accident so... yay she's expecting.

OK I simply loved the scene between Esme and Rose, I think mother and daughter have many things in common.... I didn't want Esme pregnant as well as I don't think she would stand the pain if something could happen to her biological child... I hope you understand.

We had a first encounter with Jacob... Cadpig is that cutie dog from the 101 dalmatians the series, that little dog with the strange shaped head lol

"Pee on a stick?" hehe inspired by the movie Love & Sex ( no! it's not a porno lol Famke Janssen stars in it)

that's all for now, don't forget to review, Fanpires!

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