BPOV

It felt good to be back in my room. Charlie came home after his shift at the station. He was surprised by my arrival, but as I thought, he didn't push me to answer why I was here. I made his dinner. The way he woofed it down made me think he doesn't eat very well while I'm away. I didn't realize how much I missed Charlie's company. We didn't talk much, but we were a lot a like. The silence was comforting. I remember not wanting to live here, but now I can't picture Charlie not in my life.

I gathered our plates and started washing the dishes. How easy is it to go back to routines?

"So Bells, anything planned for this weekend?" Charlie asked trying to break the silence.

"Nope, I think I am going to just hangout here. Stay low key. Maybe watch some kind of sport with you?"

Charlie gave a low chuckle. "Some kind of sport, huh? Maybe you should call Jacob. He always asks about you. Don't make that face at me. I know you don't like Sam, but Jacob has stayed out of trouble since he started hanging out with him. Billy can't stop praising Sam and the rest of the boys. Maybe its time to let bygones be bygones. I never understood why you two stopped hanging out. I always thought…well I just always thought you two got along so well."

I looked out the window and sighed. I never told Charlie about the fight Jacob and I had. I didn't need Charlie to get into to it with Billy. Billy was his only family out here. "I'll think about it Dad. Jacob and I have really grown apart. I'm in college now and he is still in high school." I smiled at him, hoping he wouldn't see that I was politely blowing him off.

"Okay kid. You know you are always welcome here right? This is your home, and even though it is only for a while, it feels good for you to be here. I miss you Bells."

"I know Dad. I miss you too." I finished washing the dishes and Charlie went to go watch something on ESPN. "You know dad, I am beat from the drive. I am going to go to bed. See you in the morning?"

"I have to work, but I will be home in the evening, but I will be home for dinner."

"Great, I will go into town to get something to cook. Goodnight." I went up the stairs and closed the door. I changed for bed and pulled out Wuthering Heights. I got into bed and looked at my window. It was closed and but unlocked. I never lock it. What if he wanted to get in? Why do I keep thinking these thoughts? It was over, he was gone, and they were gone. They didn't want me; I needed to face the facts. The pain that was masked while I with Charlie came back in large waves. Sleeping was nice, but the nightmare wasn't. I have had the same nightmare for a year. I hope tonight I didn't wake up screaming.

EPOV

I was the last one to arrive in Forks. My family and the Denalis arrived this morning. I had to run all the way here. I loved running; something about going that speed sent a rush through me. I was starting to feel anxious. I wanted to talk to her, tell her I love her that I had lied that day in the woods. But I don't know how she will react to it. I would beg her for forgiveness. I don't deserve someone as great as her. Coming back to Forks I knew that Bella belonged at my side. It felt weird being here without her. Alice had to convince me not to go running to Bella. Alice said it wasn't the time. Bella was safe and that is all that really mattered. She was healthy and alive.

As soon as I was in Forks I took up post watching Bella. She was in the kitchen with Charlie. She was beautiful, more beautiful than my memories allowed. Her hair was still the chestnut color. She kept it long and wavy. She was pale, but that made her chocolate brown eyes pop. She was looking out the window, I know she couldn't see me, but it felt like she was looking right through me. I wish I could read her thoughts and know what she thinking.

Charlie doesn't projects his thoughts as loud as most people do, but what I got from them was this.

Something must be wrong with Bella to have her drive two days to stay for the weekend. She keeps saying she is fine, but she seems spooked. I wish she was still friends with Jake, he always seemed to make her happy. It is good to have her home, but she needs to get an education and make something of herself. I don't want her sticking around her doing nothing with her life. I always thought that Jake and Bells were going to date. They were on that path. He was better for her than that Cullen kid. If I ever see him, I will shoot him.

Charlie lost his train of thought and got absorbed into the game. Little does he know that I already have a huge hole in my chest. I heard Bella tell him goodnight and go up the stairs. I gave her a moment to get dressed. I found a tree that looked into her room. Being this close was hard to take my eyes off of her. She had done what I wanted her to do. She moved on. It sounds like she was on the path of moving on with Jacob Black. I am glad that she didn't. I am sure that she doesn't know that he is a mutt, a young one at that. He is not to be trusted with her safety. If he steps one paw next to her, treaty or not, I will rip him to shreds.

I climbed the tree and looked through her window. She was already in bed reading Wuthering Heights, again? How many days and nights did she devote to that horrible book? It wasn't long until she was asleep. She was so beautiful. I could spend my whole existence watching her sleep. I wonder, no, I shouldn't. I couldn't help myself. I lost my self control; I needed to be near her. I scaled the wall and tried the window. It was unlocked. I jumped into her room without making a sound. Her scent over powered me. I remembered this scent, but instead of making the monster inside come unleashed, I felt like I was home. This scent that I once ran from was drawing me near.

"Edward."

I froze. Did she see me? I whispered back, "Yes Bella my love?"

"Don't go. Please don't go." Her voice was panicked. She started reaching out towards me.

"Bella, I will never leave you again."

I rushed to her side, but I quickly realized she was dreaming. She put her hand down and yelled, "NOOOOOOO, EDWARD DON'T GO!!!!!!!!" She started sobbing. She was breaking my heart. What was she dreaming about? Was it the day I left. It doesn't make sense. She looked like she had moved on. She was doing better in her life than I was mine. I heard Charlie stirring. He was coming to check on her. I quickly went out the window. Charlie came into Bella's room and sat on the bed. He picked her up and cradled her in his arms. He ran a soothing hand through her hair.

"Shhhh, Bella. It's okay it's just a dream." Oh no Bella. Please calm down. I can't believe she is still having the same dream. I thought going away from this place she would stop. It breaks my heart to hear her screaming for him. He is off living his life and he left my little girl broken. She has come so far, but the night always gets to her. "Shhhh, it is over, you are safe.'

Charlie kissed her forehead and put her back down on her bed. She didn't stir too much. I don't know if she fully awoke. She finally stopped sobbing. Charlie was remembering things from the last year. He saw his once full of life daughter crumple over night. He remembered Sam bringing her home like a rag doll. He remembered how she never spoke unless spoken too. He remembered how she freaked out at the thought of going to live with her mom. He remembered the look on her face when she first hung out with Jake. The life slowly returning to her face. He remembered all the sleepless night and the nightmares that she had, always ending the same way.

Oh my, what have I done?