JPOV

I didn't want to see Bella again. Who am I kidding, I want to see Bella. I want to be with her all the time. I want to tell Bella everything and sweep her into my arms and run away with her. She deserves the moon and I want to be the one to give it to her.

My Dad and I were on our way to the Swan's tonight. He forced me to come, even cleared it with Sam. We had to cut our perimeter down of where we patrolled due to the return of the leeches, so we didn't need all the pack members every night.

The pack was all I had left. I lost Bella because of what I had become, but my pack was what got me through that heart break. I tried to keep my hurt from them, but it consumed me and in turn them. We all could not stand the leeches. I still don't understand how someone as good as Bella could get mixed up with such vile creatures.

We arrived at the Swan's at the same time as Charlie. I got out of the car and went to help my Dad out of the car and into his chair. I automatically sniffed the air, a natural reaction since the change. My body went rigid and I was shaking. My instinct is to phase, but I am too close to my Dad and Charlie is in plain view. I calm myself down. The scent is definitely a vampire, but it's not the red head we have been chasing.

"Jacob is everything okay?" Dad asked me once he saw the look on my face.

"I am not sure. I'll be right back." I helped my dad into his chair and wheeled him up the path. I let Charlie take over and excused myself to go back to the car. Once Charlie and my dad where inside I ran to the nearby forest, striping on the way, and phased. I instantly was connected to those who were on patrol. Tonight it was Sam, Paul, Jared, and the newest member Seth.

I smell a new scent, I am not sure it is a Cullen or not. As you know I found one of them yesterday outside of the house. To my knowledge they still do not have interaction with Bella. It hurt to think that they would try to reconnect after everything that they have done to her. I guess I am not really that different from them. I also hurt Bella when she needed me the most.

Jacob, stop thinking like that. Sam interrupted my train of thought. It really sucked sharing your head with everyone else. Never a private moment. That was not your fault. You were protecting her...from the monster that we become. You had to get control over yourself before you could be around anyone. You will never be a low life blood sucking leech. You are not like them. Thank you for the update, since the Cullens are back we can't patrol outside of our land. Keep your ears open. I will send Embry and Quil over to surprise you while you watch the game.

Thanks Sam. I have my phone if you need me. With that I phased back. I started to think about what Sam had said. Was I really that different? They left her. I shut her out of my life. We both didn't offer any information as to why. I knew I was doing it for the best. I saw that every time I looked at Emily. We all know that Sam didn't mean to hurt her, but he lost control and hurt her pretty bad. He felt guilty everyday. We all knew.

I remembered the most important fact about this. I didn't want to keep this from her. I was ordered by Sam to stay away and do what needed to be done to keep her away from us.

I loved her and I wish that I would have imprinted on her. I would have been able to tell her everything. She would be mine for the rest of our lives. I would be able to give her the moon. I wanted her to be my imprint, my life.

I grabbed my clothes and put them back on. I started heading back towards the house. I took a deep breath and knocked on the door and my angel answered the door.

She greeted me with, "Jake we need to talk."

"You are right." I could smell the same disgusting vampire scent inside. Seeing that Bella is unhurt, it must be one of the Cullens. This was going to be an interesting conversation. I looked around the house to see if they were still here. The scent was strong. I quickly realized it was strong because Bella was drenched in it. The thought of one them touching her made me start to shake.

"Jacob! Are you alright? You look like your going to be sick. Quickly let's go out back."

I let her drag me through the kitchen and outside. I was furious. She let them back in her life so easily. I wondered if they knew what they had done to her. I started picturing how she looked when Sam found her in a ball soaked from the rain. I remembered the ghost of the girl that walked into my garage. She came so far to have them hurt her again.

"I take it that they came to you." I grunted.

"Yes. They are back."

I put my hands into fists at my side. I focused on my breathing and calmed down. "Bella, they are not good people. They will hurt you again. How can you know what they are and still be around the leeches?"

"That is pot calling the kettle black. Jacob I know what you are." She crossed her hands over her chest and stood there waiting my response.

I was dumbfounded. I got what I wanted, to tell her the truth, but I didn't want them to be the ones that told her. "Did they tell you stay away from me? That I was some evil monster?"

"No. They just told me what you never did. Why couldn't you trust me Jacob? You already knew about the Cullens. You knew that I didn't react badly to that. I could have been there for you."

"Stop. It wasn't my choice to not tell you. I am what I am because of the bloodsuckers. My tribe turns into wolves to protect our land from the vampires. Your dearly beloved caused my pack to go through pain and extremely hard times. I couldn't tell you because I wasn't allowed. You never told me about the Cullens. You let me believe that my Dad was crazy in believing those stories. You didn't trust me."

"Jacob that is not exactly fair, their secret was not mine to tell."

"Bella I wanted to tell you. I just needed to get in control of my 'animal-like' qualities. I am the best at controlling my temper."

"Do you want a cookie Jake? This doesn't change anything. You still broke your promise."

"Bella how many times do I have to say I am sorry. I am sorry. I will not ever do it again. I want to be your friend again. I miss you." I went over to her and held her hands. I bent down and looked into the chocolate brown eyes. "Bella, I will be here. I am truly sorry that I couldn't tell you the truth. I wish I could have."

She tried to pull from my grip. She was breaking my heart. I let her go. She started backing up towards the house. "I can't be friends with you." She looked down at the floor.

"Why? Did they tell you not to? How can you listen to them? They broke you. They left you here with no word. How can you forgive them so easily when they are the monsters? Did he come back for you? Did he make you forget the nightmares? What makes them so much better than me?" I was doing everything in my power not to scream at her. She was the victim in all this, but how could she forgive them and not me?

BPOV

He was asking me all the fair questions. I didn't know how to respond. They did break me. Edward did tear a whole into my chest, but I felt whole the minute I saw him. I felt like I had never been torn apart. He loved me. He left me to protect me. They all did. They didn't know at the time that Victoria and Laurent still had it out for me. They couldn't control that I was a walking death trap.

Looking at Jacob made me sad. I was doing the same thing to him that he did to me. He was right in that I was choosing them over him. He hurt me though and according to Edward he could hurt me physically as well.

"Jacob. Edward loves me. He left me to protect me. He thought by taking him and his family out of my life he was doing the best. He thought that their departure would secure my future. I love him. I always have and I always will."

"Bella, I was also protecting you. I would never hurt you intentionally like that. I had no choice but to walk away. Don't let him dictate to you who could be your friend. That should be a choice that you make."

He was right. "Jacob what I told you I wanted to be your friend. Could you be my friend knowing that I loved Edward?"

"I don't think that he and I could ever be friends. He is not to be trusted. His kind are evil monsters."

"Edward and his family are not monsters. They help people. They make the world a better place. He is my life. He is my future." I wanted to be just like them. I want to be with Edward for all of his existence. "Jacob you will always want more with me. I can not give that to you."

"I guess you settled it." He looked at me and walked past me into the house. He left me again. I missed Jacob. There has to be a way to be his friend. Maybe one day. I sighed and walked back into the house. Jacob sat at the end of the couch with two people I didn't recognize. Charlie and Billy where sitting in their chairs watching whatever sporting event was on TV.

"Bells we are just going to order pizza if you don't mind. I forgot that I told the boys to come over to watch the game." Charlie yelled from the living room.

"Sounds great. I think I am just going to go read in my room."

"Before you go, did you meet Quil and Embry. These are Jakes friends from the rez." Charlie introduced us.

"Oh my God!!!! You two have grown as much as Jacob. You must all be eating the same thing." I winked at them. They exchanged a look at Jacob. He nodded. I gave each of them a hug. "It is great to see you both doing so well. I am going out of trouble. Stay out of trouble." They both laughed.

I went upstairs to my room hoping that Edward was back. I needed to talk to him about Jacob, but most importantly we needed to talk about the year we were apart. I am so afraid that after they deal with Victoria they will be gone. When I opened the door to my room, he was standing there looking out my window. I ran to him and put my arms around him. He lifted me up and put me on the bed. He wrapped me up in a blanket and then laid next to me.

I had so much I needed to tell him, but right now I couldn't find the words. He pulled my chin up so our faces were level.

"Bella I love you with my whole existence. I am truly sorry for everything I have put you through. I will never fully understand the extent of the pain that you endured because of me. I will spend the rest of my existence trying to prove to you my love. I do not deserve your forgiveness, but I beg for it. You are my life, my love, and my heart." Edwards eyes told a story that he wasn't saying. He was worried, remorseful, and fearful. They were also so dark. I am sure that he was thirsty.

"Edward my love, I forgave you the moment I saw you. You have my heart and my love. There is nothing to forgive. I love you." I traced his lips with my fingers. He grabbed both of my hands and kissed me. He kissed me long and feverishly. I never wanted to leave this spot.