A/N: I'm already crying as I was... well, let's just say that my ex, who I only broke up with coz of a long distance crap that I fear, has started to date again already. Argh, torn up inside isn't a nice feeling... Omigod, I'm crying like crazy... if I write anything I'll break my computer... I'll risk it.

Deidara's POV:

I gaped at the black-haired Jashinist in front of me. He looked so sad and out of it I almost fainted. I hadn't seen him in two years but still! This is most definitely not the same idiot I used to love. He glared at me and I tried to look at Kakuzu but I couldn't tear my eyes off the changed guy in front of me.

"Close your mouth brat. Can't you see that Hidan doesn't like it?" I closed my mouth as Hidan nodded at Danna.

"Sasori. Deidara-san. Shall we go?" Hidan asked, making me shake with fear. There was no 'fucks' or 'craps' in that sentence.

Kakuzu looked at me with pity and... A little anger? Why would he be angry? What did I do wrong? Is it something to do with Hidan's dramatic change? Surely I didn't change him. I haven't seen the guy for two years! Hidan didn't look me in the eyes and I had a bad feeling he didn't know that I'd broken up with Itachi sometime last year. I'd told Sasori to tell him but I doubt he did.

"Sasori-no-Danna? Did you tell Hidan that I broke up with Itachi?" I whispered.

"No. Your name was taboo. If I mentioned you than I'd be dead. Don't be angry." He breathed.

I wasn't angry, not at all... I was furious! I'd told Danna to tell him and no! "Shut up. I don't want to talk to you."

"Look. We're at our rendezvous point. Hidan, Deidara?" I nodded and didn't look at Hidan, shy. "You got two hours flying ahead of you. Best get started." I nodded again. Two birds suddenly burst from my pocket.

"Go... I'll see you later Hidan. And Brat." I rolled my eyes as Sasori spoke. I still wasn't all too over the whole Hidan's not talking to me thing. "Let's go Kakuzu."

Twenty minutes later we landed in shock. Hidan was bleeding from a wound he'd gotten as we were shot out of the sky. I'd disappeared into the clouds before they'd taken a shot at me. I looked at the wound on Hidan's arm, shocked when I looked up to see his eyes scrunched closed. I smiled and took the chance to tell him.

"Hidan? Are you okay?" When he nodded I continued. "Why won't you speak to me? Is it because of Itachi?"

"Yes and no. Yes, because I swore that I'd leave you alone. And no because it's not the only reason. I don't want to hurt you again." Hidan looked at me with his violet eyes shining with guilt and something else. He grinned falsely at me, shrugging, and winced as the movement jarred his arm. "Ouch... fuck it! It hurts like a bitch."

"Damn it! This is fucking bull crap! I broke up with Itachi last year... I told Danna to tell you but he just told me you don't even say my name anymore." I tried to keep the hurt from creeping into my voice but it thickened my voice with tears and I looked way. A tear slipped down my cheek and I bit my lips to stop a whimper from coming out too. Blood dripped from my bottom lip as I looked up, shocked. Hidan had put his hand on my cheek, wiping away the tear. "Hi-Hidan?"

"Deidara... I'm... I'm sorry for being a jerk. I'm sorry I ever hurt you." With those last words he lent in and pressed his lips to mine. I froze under his touch and he pulled back. It surprised me as I didn't know that he loved me like I loved him. "Sorry, let my feelings get the best of me... we can just forget that."

I looked at him and nodded. He'd not sworn or talked of his mighty god, Jashin, since I'd seen him. I tripped over and I felt a sense of déjà vu wash through me as a stick cut me, but this time on my cheek. The blood ran down my cheek like the tear had before and I saw Hidan struggling with the urge to lick it off. I decided to torture him like he did with the way he looked. I moaned and pretended to fall over again, scraping my lips with the same stick. As I fell, I caught my cloak skilfully on a bush of thistles, tearing through my cloak and into the skin of my chest and back. I uttered a more of a sexual moan now, closing my eyes like I'd seen him do as he had stabbed himself during his Jashinist rituals. It was such a turn on for me and when I used his move against him I heard him gasp slightly and as I tried to get up I was using the thistles for support. They cut into the skin on my arms and hands. My mouth-palms protested at the rough treatment but they sounded really aroused too as Hidan's fingertips ran over the cuts on my arms and wrists. He grabbed me and glared at me as I licked the blood from my lips.

"Okay, I get your point. I'll kiss you again if you stop tearing up your perfect skin." I felt his lips near mine and I pulled away. "What?" He had what Sasori had called a 'uke-ish' look on, pouting with amazing cuteness.

"Not yet you don't! I don't believe I've tortured you the amount you torture me!" I kissed on the lips and drew more blood, biting my tongue with a giggle. "Okay, I need someone to help clean me up now…" I used the uke look against him.