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13. Life sucks.

Bpov:

I watched as Edward walked to the door, my lips were still tingling from our kiss. I followed him into the house to say goodbye to his parents.

"Now Bella don't be a stranger and come visit us whenever you want." Esme said kissing my cheek. I nodded as I gave Carlisle a hug and joined the rest of my family on the front porch.

Edward turned to look at me just before he climbed into the car. The moment our eyes met it was like going into slow-motion and the only thing that mattered was him. The trance broke the moment he looked away and I waved until they disappeared from sight. I headed back into the house. Jacob was standing in the hallway with a troubled look on his face.

"I going to make coffee, do you want to keep me some company?" I asked walking towards the kitchen. Jacob hated coffee.

"Sure, sure, I want to talk to you in anyway." He caught my hand as I passed him. His hands were huge and it always engulfed mine but I didn't care. He was my best friend and we always walked hand in hand everywhere.

"So what did you want to talk about?" I asked as we entered the kitchen and was suddenly yanked back when he didn't let go of my hand. "I'm going to need that back you know." I said pointing to my hand.

"Why? You already have one, so why can't I keep this one?" He said lifting it up in front of us.

"Because it's attached to me, so unless you want the rest of the limbs that go with it I suggest you let go."

He looked at me with an unidentified emotion on his face, "Who says I don't want the rest of the limbs as well." He asked pulling me into his hard chest.

"Jacob Black what are you doing?" I asked pushing against his chest with my hands.

"I think it's pretty obvious what I'm doing..." He said as he forced my face up to his.

"Jacob it's time to go!" Jacob jumped as his fathers husky voice interrupted him from whatever he was going to do. While he was still distracted I turned myself out of his embrace.

"Night Jake see you later, drive safely." I said while I danced out of his reach.

"Promise me we can talk Monday." he said looking at me as if daring me not to. I nodded but I didn't think I wanted to hear what he had to say. "Night Bells..." It looked like he wanted to say something else but then changed his mind and walked out of the kitchen.

I escaped to my room with confused emotions. I was pretty sure Jacob wanted to kiss me but to me that would have been like kissing your brother. Gross and wrong, I have no idea what brought this on. He never told or showed me in anyway whatsoever that he wanted to be more than just friends. Why now? Now that I found Edward, Edward kissed me and that didn't feel gross or wrong. In fact that kiss was the best kiss I have ever had.

I was too tired to deal with all the emotions that circled in my head. Desperate to escape the madness I took some of Carlisle's pain medicine. I would deal with Jacob and Edward on Monday. I woke to bright daylight the next day and my clock radio informed me that it was three in the afternoon. I took a nice refreshing shower and was surprised to see Alice in my room with a tray of food.

"I brought you some food. You must be starving by now." My stomach growled just then in answer causing both of us to laugh. I dressed quickly in my favorite sweats and made myself comfortable in the middle of the bed. I began to eat the plate of lasagna hungrily.

"Why aren't you with Jasper? You always complain you don't spend enough time alone together." Alice smiled as she stretched out next to me folding her tiny arms behind her head.

"Jazz will always be there tomorrow and he understands I want to spend some time with you today." I glanced at her and shrugged, if she wanted to act all weird that's her problem. I have enough issues of my own, my stomach tightened in a not when I remembered about Jacob and Edward. "So what's the deal with you and Edward?" She asked suddenly. I chocked on a piece of lasagna and Alice began to hit me on the back to help me clear my airway.

"What are you talking about?" I asked when I could breath freely again. She sat up facing me and crossed her legs.

"One", she held up one finger, "I'm talking about the fact that he couldn't keep his eyes off of you last night. Two," She held up another finger, "There's enough electricity between the two of you to light up a Christmas tree all on your own and three," she added a third finger, "he keeps calling to hear how you're doing after yesterday's incident." I was about to interrupt her stupid observations when I processed her last sentence.

"He called!"

She started to clap her hands together as my reaction probably satisfied her somehow. "Frequently, he called every hour since nine this morning to be precise. His last call was when you showered." I blushed and immediately cursed my body for giving away my emotions. Did he really care so much that he was willing to risk my mom answering the phone. She could literally talk your ear of. "You still haven't answered my question." She said impatiently pulling me out of my trance.

"I don't know. We were only friends and then yesterday afternoon happened. He saved me from a terrible ordeal and when I woke-up after I fainted he pulled me into the tightest hug ever. He comforted me and kissed my hair, I have never felt so safe in my life. Later when we were at his house he played piano while Esme and I talked, he stopped playing and held my hand again. He wasn't even bothered by the fact that his parents saw him holding my hand. He traced these feather light patterns on my palm making it hard to concentrate. Then when we kissed last night he made me feel emotions I have never felt before."

Alice's mouth was opening and closing like a fish on dry land. "You kissed?" She finally managed to ask.

"Yes. The most wonderful, glorious, perfect, marvelous and earth shocking kiss ever." I said hiding my face in my pillow.

"Sounds to me like you're in love."

I shot up, "I can not...I can't possibly be...in love with...Edward Cullen." Alice was just about to reply when my txt message alert on my cell phone went off. I walked to my desk and scooped up my phone. My hart began to thump erratically as I read the most glorious four words ever.

Thinking of you. Edward.

I turned towards Alice, "Ok maybe I am in love with Edward Cullen."

She squealed as she ran towards me taking my hands and jumped up and down. "This is so great. You and Edward will make a cute couple. Promise me I can pick your dress for the Christmas ball."

I laughed, "Slow down Alice he still needs to ask me first."

She stopped jumping, "Oh he will. He wouldn't dare not to ask you or he would have to deal with me." I couldn't help but feel joyful. Alice helped me to realize that I was irrevocably, unconditionally and undeniably in love with Edward. Now all I had to do was keep Jacob as a friend or hope he really did not want to kiss me last night.

Alice and I passed the rest of the day watching movies on TV and discussing previous year's disaster dresses at the Christmas ball. We called it a day around nine pm to rest out for the week that lay ahead.

The following morning as I went for my jog I couldn't help but feel a bit nervous. I was exited to see Edward today but also dreaded the promised talk with Jacob. I woke Alice when I arrived home as to not be late for school and maybe get to talk to Edward before class. Alice understood as well, she wanted a quick stolen moments with Jasper. We shoved down our breakfast, brushed out teeth and left for school making it there twenty minutes before school started.

Both Edward and Jasper waited at Alice's usual parking space, talking softly to one another. It started to snow softly and both of them came to open our doors for us. "Morning Bella, hmm you smell nice." He said as he took my hand and helped me out of the car.

"Morning, I'm not wearing anything special" I said blushing a little.

"No but your hair smells like strawberries, I like it." I blushed even deeper. He took my schoolbag from me and still holding my hand he lead me towards my first class.

"I hope you don't mind but I asked Jasper what your first class is. I wanted to make a good impression." He looked at me giving me that crooked smile again making my hart skip a beat,

"Well you've certainly made an impression but you don't have to do all of this." I indicated to me schoolbag.

"I do this because I want to, not because I have to." He said as we reached the door of my first class. "But theirs one more thing I want to do." He placed my school bag on the ground and pulled me against him. His lips touched mine lightly but even that slight touch left me longing for more. "Enjoy your class, my Bella." His fingers trailed lightly over my jaw line as he left for his first class.

I found it hard to concentrate on my classes and almost even landed in detention because I didn't hear my trigonometry teacher call on me, al four times. He thought I was taunting him but just how are you suppose to tell him a certain bronze haired angel are messing with your hormones in all the wrong ways. I was relieved when lunch finally came. I scanned the crowd for Edward and didn't see Mike Newton until he called my name.

"Bella, how are you?" I stopped in front of him whishing he would disappear.

"Hey Mike. I'm fine." I aimed to walk past him but he stepped in front of me.

"Do you want to go to the Christmas ball with me?"

I stiffened, was he serious? "Sorry but she is already going with me." Edward slid his arms around my waist and kissed my neck and I instantly relaxed back into his embrace. "Come on Bells, there's something I would like to show you." He took my hand and pulled me into an empty classroom leaving behind a completely stunned Mike. "I hope I wasn't out of line and I have actually planned on asking you first." He said when he closed the classroom door.

"No . . . I . . . what?"

He smiled, "My, my. Are we speechless Mrs. Swan?"

I blushed again. "No it's just that you dazzle me. Anyway who said I wanted to go with you in the first place?"

"I can always make you." He said starting to walk towards me. I backed up against the wall and by now he was standing in front of me.

"I'm not afraid of you." I stated bravely. He placed his hands on either side of me trapping me in.

"You should not have said that." His lips crashed into mine with an unexpected urgency. I gripped the front of his shirt and kissed him back with just as much passion as he was kissing me. He started to move his tongue against mine. His hand slid behind my neck and into my hair, he tangled his hand into my hair forcing my face closer to his. I whimpered into his mouth and moved my hands up his shirt and tangled it into his hair. He pressed me against the wall, showing me what effect I had on him as he shoved his hips into mine groaning into my mouth. I was pushing against his tongue with my own, as I moaned breathlessly into his mouth at the feel of him against me.

I arched my hips away from the wall, pressing back into him, and suppressed the urge to wrap my legs around his waist. I moved against him with a whimper, he groaned breathlessly into my mouth and placed his hands on my hips, pulling it unbelievably closer to his as he moved his tongue against mine passionately. I moved my hips against his causing him to groan into my mouth just as I whimpered at the increasing wetness between my legs. I wanted to be even closer to him, feel more of him. As if he read my mind, he groaned into my mouth again while he slid his hand down my back, he gripped my ass pulling me up and into him. His hand slid further down, he wrapped his fingers around my thigh and pulled it over his hip. He gripped it firmly and pushed harder into me.

The contact the new stance provided made me whimper and press against him more. Somewhere in the back of my mind I knew we had to stop otherwise this was going to get out of hand. I think he probably knew, because he pulled away, pressing his forehead against mine as we both gasped for air, and gently released my thigh from his grip.

"Yes I would love to go to the Christmas ball with you Mr. Cullen. I don't think I'll survive another onslaught like that anyway."

He laughed, "Thank you Mrs. Swan. I think we better join the others in the cafeteria before they send out a hunting party." Once we both recovered enough he kissed me lightly on the lips, took my hand and led me to the cafeteria. We didn't buy any food since we weren't hungry so we walked straight to our table. Edward pulled my chair out for me and took a seat next to me, taking my hand again.

"Where were you two? Lunch is almost over." Alice asked frowning at Edward. I noticed Jacob was glaring at my and Edwards intertwined hands and didn't answer Alice's question.

"Biology project, it was a big success. You should know all about that Spiky." He winked at her. She turned to talk to Jasper and I looked quizzically at Edward.

"Little inside joke between me and Alice don't worry about it." He said kissing my forehead. Jacob's chair screeched over the linoleum as he stood up and stormed away without looking back. I stiffened, so I was right then he did try and kiss me last night.

"Come on Edward, let's get to class." I said angrily. He followed me without a word. I slumped into my seat. It wasn't my fault Jacob developed feelings for me. It's definitely not Edwards fault either. I inhaled deeply, "Sorry Edward, he just makes me so mad sometimes."

He took my hand and gave it a light squeeze. "It's ok Bella, you care about him. I understand." He was the most selfless person I knew. I smiled at him and squeezed his hand. Mr. Laing walked in dragging a TV with him. Great were going to watch a nature movie. When the bell rang signaling class to start he turned of the lights casting the entire class in darkness. Our table was near the back of the class and it was so dark we could not even see our own hand in front of our face. Edward placed his chair behind mine and slid his arms over my waist. No one even heard him move.

"Bella I want to ask you something." He whispered in my ear sending shivers down my spine.

"What do you want to ask?" I whispered back turning my head slightly.

"At the Christmas ball, would you go as my girlfriend?" My hart stopped dead for at least a few seconds.

"Yes, Edward but then you must go as my boyfriend." I could feel him smirk even though I couldn't see it.

"Naturally, my Bella, I would have it no other way." He kissed my neck pulling me closer into his embrace. By the time Biology ended I have already forgotten what happened with Jacob during lunch. Edward was seated in his usual seating by the time the lights came on. He took my hand and walked me to Gym.

"Ek sien jou weer." Edward said, the foreign language sounded like honey flowing of his tongue.

"What does that mean?" I asked.

"It means I'll see you again in Afrikaans, because I didn't want to say goodbye." With that he walked of to his next class.

"Ek sien jou weer" I whispered after him.

A/n so I figured out something this weekend. Typing a story while you're irritated, sleep deprived and out of coffee is not a good idea. The people camping next to my family apparently couldn't understand that it's not funny if you play loud music at four in the morning. It took me about three hours writing the first few paragraphs of this chapter. I know you had to wait longer for this chapter but as I said it's not my fault. Hope the wait was worth it in the end.

Yes I used the language I actually speak "Afrikaans" in this chapter because it really is a greeting we (South-Africans) use if we don't want to say goodbye.

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